Gender DysphoriaGender Dysphoria,Gender Dysphoria6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
an identity crisis
False impressions inside and out
Mind games for the chosen victim
Suffering from the lack of self esteem
Simple envy, but towards which gender?
A boy or a girl, what am I?
Maybe I'm just a freak
Emotionless people staring at me
Trying to guess,
But they don't see
Nor will they ever ask
What gender am I?
To who does it matter?
Friends shouldn't care,
what if I have a lover?
Whoever is involved,
needs to understand
I didn't choose,
What I am!
mirrored cursethe mirror is a curse to me,mirrored curse4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
my body fails me.
every time i catch a glimpse
of my feminine hips
and my large chest,
hold back tears.
even with my chest tightly bound,
i'm not flat enough,
will never be flat enough.
even though i struggle to breathe,
i'm not flat enough.
will never be flat enough.
i'm not a real man, the voice of paranoia says.
real men are flat.
real men don't have to wear six layers of clothing
to look like real men.
real men don't have to shake every time they have to piss.
when i catch my reflection in the mirror,
and that is something you will never have to understand.
you'll never have to bind your chest,
deepen your voice,
cry yourself to sleep.
you don't run the risk of getting your ass kicked
every time you leave the house.
you are so, so lucky.
you've got privilege over me,
your transgender sibling.
so use it for good.
tell your children that it's okay
to wear dresses if you're a boy
and cut your hair if you're a girl.
tell your f
She Left Her NameIf I could I would run through life naked and laughing.She Left Her Name4 years ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
I would wear nothing but an extra large t-shirt, so white and thin you can see through it, and I would run from the tops of mountains across the wind and the ocean and I would see everything. I would leave my name behind.
I would be just like that girl Sally from the play I read in high school.
Because I can't be like you, or like my mother, or my father, and I'm scared of the people I've fallen in love with. Sometimes I don't want this life anymore, and that's ok. Sometimes I pocket things I shouldn't, just because I can, and I wanted to. Sometimes I go rushing down the path just to turn ninety degrees east at breakneck speeds to see if I can find a different way there.
I can't live life with a plan. That would be so disappointing, because I know that in the grand scheme of things, my plans mean nothing to anyone or anything. What matters are the images and the ideas and the people and the memories that have stuck with me through
The Words That Were Never SaidIt's not fair. I stood in the corner, watching as the person I loved the most love someone else.The Words That Were Never Said4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"I love you Aichi"
Aichi blushed madly as Kai said those words. The two looked at each other passionately and embraced each other in a kiss. Most people would congratulate them for the newly born relationship, but for me it was a sickening sight. As I watched, the tears just wouldn't stop coming. I couldn't take it anymore; I needed to get out of here as soon as possible, before I completely broke down. So I took off running into the cold, dark night, stopping for nothing until I reached home.
"Taishi, would you like something to eat?"
"No, I'm not hungry."
Rushing upstairs, I slammed my bedroom doors and immediately hid under my covers. There was nothing I could do to control my uncontrollable sobbing. School was tomorrow, which meant I had to act like nothing was wrong. It was better to get it all out now or it would be even more difficult to keep my emotions hidden
IronicIronic that the reason we first met is now the reason I hurt,Ironic4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Ironic that the way we love now just isn't what I want,
Ironic that the way you hold me to you just isn't like I want it to be,
Ironic that I promised myself this would never happen to us.
You hug me tight my senses tingle and become alert,
My every sense your touch does taunt,
My body yearns for my desires to be free,
It's crazy that my heart could cause this fuss.
Tangled in this web of friendship and desire,
I can only hope to see your love for me,
I cannot speak lest my heart be broken and lost,
I remain silent and love from afar.
This want and need such a hot fire,
All that I need and hope for is all that I see,
When I look at you I can't see the cost,
But I know that your love doesn't rest near but far.
Insomnia (Levi x Reader)Insomnia (Levi x Reader)5 months ago in General Fiction More Like This
LISTEN HERE AS YOU READ, PLEASE!
Never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
Headlights passing by continued to cast the venetian blinds into shadow along the wall, the image of the stripes engrained in his mind. Sleep would not come.
He tangled his digits in his raven locks, tugging at the strands. He was a fool. Such a fucking fool.
Day after day you had showered him in love, and he had turned from every advance, denied his feelings as they vined around him, encasing him more and more every day.
…Such a fucking fool.
Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
With a long exhale, he looked up at the ceiling. It wa
Birthday WishMiwa awoke to the cheery melody of his cellphone. He groaned and flipped open his cellphone, which was still next to him from last night. "Happy Birthday", the screen flashed. It was only his cellphone reminding him of his own birthday, not the person he had been hoping to send him a message. Miwa sighed, closing his cellphone and slamming his face onto his pillow. He could at least have a somewhat decent birthday Oh right, his parents were away on a business trip, and Kai was in some part of Asia, somewhere cardfighting somebody. If only he had gone along; but one, he wasn't needed; and two, somebody had to look after the shop, and the manager has trusted him with the job. Miwa glanced at the time on his cellphone. 7:33 He had better get up or else he wouldn't make it to the shop by its opening time. That manager had given him that responsibility after all. Miwa stood up, stretching, then yawning. He felt tired, perhaps from staying up half the night waiting for a responseBirthday Wish4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Parallel HeartsParallel Hearts4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"I had never had an easy life Sure; it's better than a lot of people's It was free of abuse, my parents were totally in love with each other, we weren't in poverty But there was always something; one little, itty bitty thing that just fucked everything else up And I came to realize how fucked up my life really was, and you're the one who made me realize The girl I fell in love with. And now you dare have the audacity to look me in the eyes and tell me it's my fault? I don't think so I knew somewhere, down deep in the crevice called my heart that I would never be happy but I ignored it; I thought you were the one who could change my life forever. Well I was right about that one thingbut it wasn't for the better You tore me to pieces; played your silly little games; showed me a great time; made me work up my courage, my confidence, just so you could make me crash and burn. So you know what? Fuck you and y
Reasons Why We Love Emo BoysHere are some reasons why our members love emo boys!!Reasons Why We Love Emo Boys8 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
(If you have a reason that is not on the list, feel free to comment with the reason and we will gladly add it )
1. They are sensitive
2. They are cute
3. They have sexy hair
4. The dark clothes and skinny jeans
5. Because they can straighten their hair without being called gay
6. Even if they are not loved by a lot of people they are still proud to be themselves
7. They care about their looks, unlike other guys
8. They have an artisitic soul
9. They have good taste in music
10. They aren't afraid to cry
11. They are talented
12. They have a good sense of humor
13. They listen to you
14. They give great hugs
15. They always have a sharpie with them
16. They don't change for others
17. They can get away with wearing eyeliner
18. They know what to say when you're upset
19. You can share your clothes with them
20. They make awesome gay guys
21. They can get away with the shirtless look.. and look better that way.
Big Girls Cry (Abusive!Levi X F!Reader) AUBig Girls Cry (Abusive!Levi X F!Reader) AU6 months ago in Romance More Like This
~A/N: Listen As You Read! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr5LyvRWgbI
WARNING: Contains Sexual And Physical Abuse. Both Characters Are 20+ ~
Tough girl, in the fast lane
No time for love, no time for hate
No drama no time, for games
Tough girl, whose soul aches
Every moment was one of having the sensation of fear trickle through her veins as if it were now a part of the blood keeping her alive, despite her yearning pleas to fade away as quickly as her pride had. Every movement of hers incorporated short and ragged breaths along with trembling hands and wobbling knees as she shivered down to her core not just from increasing alarm, but from the chilly atmosphere surrounding her as her clothes were thrown haphazardly into an unknown corner by his calloused hands that ravaged her body as if she were a plaything. Her body was riddled with lavender and azure bruises, welts that crossed over her back and stomach in the form of a large X, and bones pr
Life is Life.I'm tired...Life is Life.9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm so tired...
Endless days of school...
Same emotions every day.
When does it stop?
I want everything to end...
I just want to sleep...
I just want to be happy...
Please don't destroy my happiness...
I'm trying so hard to be good.
I have so many dreams like you all.
All of us truly want to be happy.
We all look different... but we're one and the same.
All of us humans want to be happy...
Regardless of how crappy life may be for some of us.
Some people say they don't care...
When they really do.
I'm one of those people...
I really care.
That's my issue.
I need to stop caring.
I need to be happy for myself.
Lately these days,
I've been feeling so depressed...
So brought down. So gone.
My happiness only lasts for a few minutes...
That's not true happiness...
Where is my inner peace?
Where is yours?
Are we both unsatisfied?
Tell me... is there something I'm missing?
Where has life gone wrong?
Do I deserve this?
Maybe I do...maybe I do not.
Breaking AwayBittersweet memories cloud my mind,Breaking Away4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with feelings of apathy unconfined.
You were unkind, to leave me lined
with hatred so defined, and designed.
You robbed me emotionally blind,
in kind, you will find,
me too disinclined to remind
you of how undermined
I was when we were combined.
You were blinded by greed,
content just to watch me bleed.
I was there to fulfill your need,
yet you could never seem to concede..
You still seem to proceed,
guaranteed to mislead,
impede and exceed your creed..
Which is where I in turn, disagree.
I will not conform to you,
I have my own life to stick to.
You won't have me to constrict and subdue,
because a change in my life is far overdue.
Your hold on me is no more,
and everything you've done I shall ignore.
I hope you remember, I'm not there for you anymore,
and will never agree with what you stand for.
DemonPain..Demon4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You don't know the half of it.
You couldn't fathom the agony.
You have no idea, what it's like.
After everything you put me through,
Everything you've done.
After what you've killed inside of me,
A demon has been created.
I feel no sympathy,
I feel no remorse.
I have no feeling,
and I fear I have no heart.
Cold, dead hands constrict me,
The fire inside scorches,
The dark abyss of forgotten lies,
Consumes my very soul.
I fear there is no turning back,
From the beast you have made of me,
From the monster I am.
From the demon that I have become.
AlwaysAlways6 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Love is not written on paper, for paper can be erased.
Nor is it etched on stone, for stone can be broken.
But it is inscribed on a heart and there it shall remain forever."
"We`re both headed towards the same destination. I`ll be waiting for you."
But when everything was over, when the puzzle was solved, when the race was finished, no one was waiting for Near at the finish line.
Because the person who was supposed to be waiting there--who promised to be waiting there--was gone.
Mello died because of him or for him; Near didn`t know which one was worse. All he knew was that it left a burden on his shoulders; a burden heavier than that of being the new L or that of being Kira`s captor. All of it, all of it... He saw it as nothing more but blood on his hands, and though he refused to act as though he was affected by it in the slightest, on the inside, he was aching with the pain of a thousand white-hot knives being stabbed over and over into his ve
Lights (Levi X Insane!Reader)Lights (Levi X Insane!Reader)7 months ago in Romance More Like This
~A/N: Listen As You Read! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k_46BR-brTM ~
I had a way then losing it all on my own
I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown
And I'm not sleeping now, the dark is too hard to beat
And I'm not keeping now the strength I need to push me
Heart pounding mercilessly away against your ribs, you were almost certain it was loud enough for everyone within the castle walls to hear as clearly as if it was projected in their own minds. Even as you simply lay in your bed, arms wrapped tightly about the plush pillow you held to your chest, your heartbeat mimicked the one of a person who had ran for six hours straight. It was as if you clutched onto that pillow for dear life, and the thick blanket drawn up to your chin was a shield to the ruthless world beyond the comforts of your bedroom. Yet even those couldn’t keep your demons from grabbing at your wrists and ankles, threatening to drag you into an abyss of horrific o
Her HerHer7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I see you with her,Tears run down my face,You laugh and snicker when you're with her but hide the pain I cause you when you're alone,She's pretty unlike any other girl,You won't talk to me when she's around,You're all I've got,She doesn't like me but you don't care,You still hangout with me when she's not around,You don't know how I feel but you will never know,She keeps pulling you farther and farther away,You're on a different planet now, One that she has made,I don't see you in the halls anymore,What has she done to you?,You won't tell her you really like me cause you'll feel akward and out of place,I wish I could see your face but it's frozen
EmptiedIve given it all awayEmptied7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You have it all
I stand here naked
I dont need anything
To make you love me
Only my body
And my soul
Theres something special
About this kind of love
And I cant get away
Nor do I want to
It wraps around me
And keeps me warm
APH - Softness and Light EKSTRA- Ostatni raz przychodzę do ciebie w taki ziąb – stwierdził Lovino, wchodząc do kuchni, w której Antonio siedział z rzężącym laptopem na stole. Hiszpan rzucił mu tylko krótkie spojrzenie przez ramię.APH - Softness and Light EKSTRA3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
- Ach, to ty – powiedział, po czym odwrócił się do komputera.
„A spodziewałeś się kogoś innego?", pomyślał Lovino, rozdrażniony tym, że go zignorowano. Zdjął kurtkę i rzucił ją na oparcie krzesła, a kątem oka uchwycił przewijające się na ekranie laptopa oferty lotów do Hiszpanii.
- Wybierasz się dokądś? – rzucił od niechcenia, pochylając się obok Antonia, by przyjrzeć się przeglądanej stronie internetowej. Nie żeby go to interesowało.
Antonio z roztargnieniem objął wolną ręką chłopaka i przesunął dłonią po jego
:APH: Spamano na wsi.Spamano na wsi.:APH: Spamano na wsi.4 years ago in Humor More Like This
Łono natury jest takie kojące
Rejwach, hałas, harmider, wrzawa, krzątanina, ogólny i totalny chaos Każdy z tych epitetów idealnie określał to, co działo się właśnie w domu Antonio.
Na podłodze porozrzucane były ubrania; gdzie się nie ruszyć, już można się o coś zahaczyć i mieć bardzo bliski i bolesny kontakt z podłogą.
Kilka otwartych walizek znalazło swoje miejsce pod stołem, w przejściu z kuchni do salonu, w ogrodzie... Co już zapewne było winą zirytowanego Romano, który po raz kolejny potknął się o tą Bogu winną walizę i w końcu wykopał ją przez okno. No cóż, każdy miał swoje sposoby na okazywanie swej frustracji, prawda?
Szczególnie beztroski Hiszpania, który w najlepsze spał sobie
Spamano - Softness and Light IUciekający przed ulewą młody mężczyzna wpadł do ciepłego wnętrza restauracji i przeczesał palcami włosy, strząsając z nich krople wody. Zauważył kręcącego się w głębi lokalu kelnera i pomachał mu.Spamano - Softness and Light I3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
- Ej, Francis! zawołał, nie zwracając uwagi na karcące spojrzenia nielicznych o tej porze klientów restauracji. Sam rozsiadł się przy wolnym stoliku tuż przy panoramicznym oknie, rozpinając skórzaną kurtkę. Daj mi piwa, tylko szybko! Zmachałem się, wiejąc przed tym deszczem.
Kelner uśmiechnął się przepraszająco do poruszonych gości, a ociekającemu wodą mężczyźnie posłał groźne spojrzenie. Tamten tylko uśmiechnął się szeroko i machnął ręką, dając do zrozumienia, że łaskawie poczeka.
Roz. I: KacBerlinBerlin, godzina 18.57Roz. I: KacBerlin4 years ago in Humor More Like This
Rozległ się dzwonek do drzwi.
Gilbert z ciężkim jękiem wstał i ruszył w stronę frontowych drzwi. Zachciało mu się gości. Ale z drugiej strony- trzeba wykorzystać wolną chatę! Młody wyjechał w jakiejś wybitnie pilnej sprawie do Włoch (Prusy domyślał się, o jaką pilną sprawę chodzi i nawet kazał ją pozdrowić), oczywiście zastrzegł, że po powrocie chce mieć GDZIE wracać. Czyli absolutnie zabronił nocowania kogokolwiek.
Więc starszy Beilshmidt zaprosił tylko chłopaków, żeby mieć z kim wypić. A że Antonio i Francis byli zajęci, musiał zadowolić się kimś innym.
- Idę, idę!
Oczywiście pochował wszystkie ostre narzędzia, oraz rzeczy, które przy kontakcie z wymiocinami mogłyby się zniszczy&
Leo LeoLeo, Leo...Leo Leo8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Such a beautiful name.
I remember yesterday,
When I was upset...
You came to my aid and asked,
"Senpai, are you okay?"
Yet a little before that day,
We've talked on and on,
And our friendship was made.
So please, let me tell you, my dear friend.
You have so much talent inside of you.
In the spam of a week,
People can become attached to your beauty.
Do not let anybody tell you,
Despite what you think of yourself,
You are truly beautiful, my words are sincere.
So whenever you feel down,
I am willing to help you, my dear.
Please, remember what I told you.
This poem is just for you...
This poem is just for you...
TAKE IT OR LEAVE ITTAKE IT OR LEAVE IT4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Whenever I see a hot guy... I KNOW IT.
Whenever I see a hot girl.. I KNOW IT.
Though it's tough to choose, guys can be such dicks...
But girls can be such a bitch...
I don't know what to do...
With all this confusing, maybe I should just touch and go...
Instead of all this fuss and slow...
If I was a galaxy, would you want to be the spaceship?
Somethings don't compute to me, will you fix it?
If I told you that I loved you and didn't really mean it...
How can you spot a faker from the beginning?
If you really love me, then you'll show it...
If you really love me, then you'll do it...
Not for your own sake, but to show me that you are a real man.
And if it is the case that I am just a wasted space...
Then let me go out of your life...
Sure I will miss you...
But all is over, said and done.
Now it's time to have some fun!