Gender DysphoriaGender Dysphoria,Gender Dysphoria5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
an identity crisis
False impressions inside and out
Mind games for the chosen victim
Suffering from the lack of self esteem
Simple envy, but towards which gender?
A boy or a girl, what am I?
Maybe I'm just a freak
Emotionless people staring at me
Trying to guess,
But they don't see
Nor will they ever ask
What gender am I?
To who does it matter?
Friends shouldn't care,
what if I have a lover?
Whoever is involved,
needs to understand
I didn't choose,
What I am!
If Only I Could Make Her See...I honestly do not wish to sleepIf Only I Could Make Her See...3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Maybe I just fell in too deep
I know she would just be waiting in my dreams
Waiting to hear all of my screams
As I cry out to her
I want what we once were
But I know that will never again be
I keep saying "If only I could make her see..."
Birthday WishMiwa awoke to the cheery melody of his cellphone. He groaned and flipped open his cellphone, which was still next to him from last night. "Happy Birthday", the screen flashed. It was only his cellphone reminding him of his own birthday, not the person he had been hoping to send him a message. Miwa sighed, closing his cellphone and slamming his face onto his pillow. He could at least have a somewhat decent birthday Oh right, his parents were away on a business trip, and Kai was in some part of Asia, somewhere cardfighting somebody. If only he had gone along; but one, he wasn't needed; and two, somebody had to look after the shop, and the manager has trusted him with the job. Miwa glanced at the time on his cellphone. 7:33 He had better get up or else he wouldn't make it to the shop by its opening time. That manager had given him that responsibility after all. Miwa stood up, stretching, then yawning. He felt tired, perhaps from staying up half the night waiting for a responseBirthday Wish3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
mirrored cursethe mirror is a curse to me,mirrored curse4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
my body fails me.
every time i catch a glimpse
of my feminine hips
and my large chest,
hold back tears.
even with my chest tightly bound,
i'm not flat enough,
will never be flat enough.
even though i struggle to breathe,
i'm not flat enough.
will never be flat enough.
i'm not a real man, the voice of paranoia says.
real men are flat.
real men don't have to wear six layers of clothing
to look like real men.
real men don't have to shake every time they have to piss.
when i catch my reflection in the mirror,
and that is something you will never have to understand.
you'll never have to bind your chest,
deepen your voice,
cry yourself to sleep.
you don't run the risk of getting your ass kicked
every time you leave the house.
you are so, so lucky.
you've got privilege over me,
your transgender sibling.
so use it for good.
tell your children that it's okay
to wear dresses if you're a boy
and cut your hair if you're a girl.
tell your f
AlwaysAlways5 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Love is not written on paper, for paper can be erased.
Nor is it etched on stone, for stone can be broken.
But it is inscribed on a heart and there it shall remain forever."
"We`re both headed towards the same destination. I`ll be waiting for you."
But when everything was over, when the puzzle was solved, when the race was finished, no one was waiting for Near at the finish line.
Because the person who was supposed to be waiting there--who promised to be waiting there--was gone.
Mello died because of him or for him; Near didn`t know which one was worse. All he knew was that it left a burden on his shoulders; a burden heavier than that of being the new L or that of being Kira`s captor. All of it, all of it... He saw it as nothing more but blood on his hands, and though he refused to act as though he was affected by it in the slightest, on the inside, he was aching with the pain of a thousand white-hot knives being stabbed over and over into his ve
On the Edge...Title: On the EdgeOn the Edge...3 years ago in Horror More Like This
Fandom: Vampire Knight (Fanfic)
Characters: Zero Kiryuu
Word Count: 649
Summary: Zero's inner battle with the beast that dwells within. (It is written during the year that was skipped in the time-skip after the first arc of the manga ended)
A/N: Slightly AU (Zero has a cellphone xP) but other than that it sticks to the VK world pretty closely.
It was around 8 pm and Zero Kiryuu was on his way back to his apartment. It had been a solid three days since he had hunted any Level-Es. He wasn't happy about it. Walking past another pedestrian, the hunter flinched in pain and disgust as a tantalizing aroma filled his senses, stirring yet another storm inside his very core. With every step, the world around him grew obscurer, an impending darkness creeping inside his heart. The faces of people on the street were getting hazier and soon Zero could only distinguish them through their scents- those whiffs of blood eman
DemonPain..Demon3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You don't know the half of it.
You couldn't fathom the agony.
You have no idea, what it's like.
After everything you put me through,
Everything you've done.
After what you've killed inside of me,
A demon has been created.
I feel no sympathy,
I feel no remorse.
I have no feeling,
and I fear I have no heart.
Cold, dead hands constrict me,
The fire inside scorches,
The dark abyss of forgotten lies,
Consumes my very soul.
I fear there is no turning back,
From the beast you have made of me,
From the monster I am.
From the demon that I have become.
[Shizaya] Taniec wpol do smierciTyp: one-shot[Shizaya] Taniec wpol do smierci1 year ago in Short Stories More Like This
Gatunek: slash, tak trochu ~~
Taniec wpół do śmierci
Tego dnia Tokio wyglądało tak samo jak zwykle. Mimo ulewnego deszczu i wczesnej pory, ulice były zapełnione pędzącymi gdzieś ludźmi. Wszyscy gorączkowo starali się wypełnić dzienną rutynę. Na jednej z nich jakaś grupka poszukiwała potencjalnej ofiary, młody chłopak biegł, by nie spóźnić się na zajęcia. Kędyś dalej stragarz zachęcał przechodniów by coś kupili, jakaś parka kłóciła się o sobotni wieczór, właściciel szukał swojego psa. Ktoś gdzieś kochał, ktoś umierał, inny płakał, śmiał się, zazdrościł. Cały kram osobowości.
To zabawne, że kiedyś mnie one fascynowały. Zapełnia&
IronicIronic that the reason we first met is now the reason I hurt,Ironic3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Ironic that the way we love now just isn't what I want,
Ironic that the way you hold me to you just isn't like I want it to be,
Ironic that I promised myself this would never happen to us.
You hug me tight my senses tingle and become alert,
My every sense your touch does taunt,
My body yearns for my desires to be free,
It's crazy that my heart could cause this fuss.
Tangled in this web of friendship and desire,
I can only hope to see your love for me,
I cannot speak lest my heart be broken and lost,
I remain silent and love from afar.
This want and need such a hot fire,
All that I need and hope for is all that I see,
When I look at you I can't see the cost,
But I know that your love doesn't rest near but far.
PLAYING HARD TO GET: Part 22 (7 of 10)PLAYING HARD TO GET: Part 22 (7 of 10)3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Part 22 (7 of ?) Naruto's Past
"Let me tell yah, getting kidnapped, is not fun." Naruto stated, "And getting stabbed is even less fun."
I awoke where I thought would be heaven. There was a bright white light that made my eyes sting. I shivered at the coldness that I felt. I looked around the room trying to figure out where I was when an unfamiliar face walked in. "Oh you're awake." She stated walking towards where I lay. She turned on her little flashlight and pointed it directly towards my eyes. "Well, your vitals look normal." She finally said as she looked at her clip board. 'I'm in the hospital.' I finally concluded.
Back to AUTHOR'S POV
The boy looked up at the doctor and asked her, "How did I get here?"
"Kurama brought you in." she replied.
"Kurama?" he sounded surprised.
"Follow my finger." She said moving her index finger from left to right.
"Where is Kurama?" he asked as he followed her finger.
"Huh?" he sounded surprised.
Breaking AwayBittersweet memories cloud my mind,Breaking Away3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with feelings of apathy unconfined.
You were unkind, to leave me lined
with hatred so defined, and designed.
You robbed me emotionally blind,
in kind, you will find,
me too disinclined to remind
you of how undermined
I was when we were combined.
You were blinded by greed,
content just to watch me bleed.
I was there to fulfill your need,
yet you could never seem to concede..
You still seem to proceed,
guaranteed to mislead,
impede and exceed your creed..
Which is where I in turn, disagree.
I will not conform to you,
I have my own life to stick to.
You won't have me to constrict and subdue,
because a change in my life is far overdue.
Your hold on me is no more,
and everything you've done I shall ignore.
I hope you remember, I'm not there for you anymore,
and will never agree with what you stand for.
Shadouge Story: RevelationRouge caught him before he could get into the shower, bursting into the bathroom, ready to shell out the dish served cold better known as "REVENGE". He had just started the shower and was in the middle of unzipping his pants (his shirt already off) when she came in, a devilish grin on her face as she closed the door behind her, bolting it shut.Shadouge Story: Revelation5 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"You look like you're up to something, Rouge..." Shadow spoke, slowly continuing unbuttoning and unzipping his pants. Rouge licked her lips and approached him, placing her index finger on his chest.
"Just a little payback for that stunt you pulled in the bedroom..."
"And I'm just supposed to let you do this...?"
"Wasn't expecting you to..." she pressed her palm flat against his chest and pushed him back until he fell back on the toilet lid. "Shadow." she grinned at what she had planned for him as she slowly sank to her knees, her hands fishing into his boxers to get started on her revenge.... when in the corner of her eyes she spotted the dreade
Reasons Why We Love Emo BoysHere are some reasons why our members love emo boys!!Reasons Why We Love Emo Boys7 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
(If you have a reason that is not on the list, feel free to comment with the reason and we will gladly add it )
1. They are sensitive
2. They are cute
3. They have sexy hair
4. The dark clothes and skinny jeans
5. Because they can straighten their hair without being called gay
6. Even if they are not loved by a lot of people they are still proud to be themselves
7. They care about their looks, unlike other guys
8. They have an artisitic soul
9. They have good taste in music
10. They aren't afraid to cry
11. They are talented
12. They have a good sense of humor
13. They listen to you
14. They give great hugs
15. They always have a sharpie with them
16. They don't change for others
17. They can get away with wearing eyeliner
18. They know what to say when you're upset
19. You can share your clothes with them
20. They make awesome gay guys
21. They can get away with the shirtless look.. and look better that way.
She Left Her NameIf I could I would run through life naked and laughing.She Left Her Name3 years ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
I would wear nothing but an extra large t-shirt, so white and thin you can see through it, and I would run from the tops of mountains across the wind and the ocean and I would see everything. I would leave my name behind.
I would be just like that girl Sally from the play I read in high school.
Because I can't be like you, or like my mother, or my father, and I'm scared of the people I've fallen in love with. Sometimes I don't want this life anymore, and that's ok. Sometimes I pocket things I shouldn't, just because I can, and I wanted to. Sometimes I go rushing down the path just to turn ninety degrees east at breakneck speeds to see if I can find a different way there.
I can't live life with a plan. That would be so disappointing, because I know that in the grand scheme of things, my plans mean nothing to anyone or anything. What matters are the images and the ideas and the people and the memories that have stuck with me through
The Words That Were Never SaidIt's not fair. I stood in the corner, watching as the person I loved the most love someone else.The Words That Were Never Said3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"I love you Aichi"
Aichi blushed madly as Kai said those words. The two looked at each other passionately and embraced each other in a kiss. Most people would congratulate them for the newly born relationship, but for me it was a sickening sight. As I watched, the tears just wouldn't stop coming. I couldn't take it anymore; I needed to get out of here as soon as possible, before I completely broke down. So I took off running into the cold, dark night, stopping for nothing until I reached home.
"Taishi, would you like something to eat?"
"No, I'm not hungry."
Rushing upstairs, I slammed my bedroom doors and immediately hid under my covers. There was nothing I could do to control my uncontrollable sobbing. School was tomorrow, which meant I had to act like nothing was wrong. It was better to get it all out now or it would be even more difficult to keep my emotions hidden
Parallel HeartsParallel Hearts3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"I had never had an easy life Sure; it's better than a lot of people's It was free of abuse, my parents were totally in love with each other, we weren't in poverty But there was always something; one little, itty bitty thing that just fucked everything else up And I came to realize how fucked up my life really was, and you're the one who made me realize The girl I fell in love with. And now you dare have the audacity to look me in the eyes and tell me it's my fault? I don't think so I knew somewhere, down deep in the crevice called my heart that I would never be happy but I ignored it; I thought you were the one who could change my life forever. Well I was right about that one thingbut it wasn't for the better You tore me to pieces; played your silly little games; showed me a great time; made me work up my courage, my confidence, just so you could make me crash and burn. So you know what? Fuck you and y
Andley- Victoria's SecretAndy's P.O.VAndley- Victoria's Secret3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Me and Ash were out shopping, first time in awhile since we had just stopped touring. All was going well until Ash spotted Victoria's Secret across the street.
"Oh Victoria's Secret, I've been dying to get you in there," he grinned as he pushed me towards it.
"I'm sure you have!" I teased, allowing myself to be carted along by my sexy boyfriend. He pulled me through the double doors and into the largish shop, it had bra's and panties galore, lace, silk, satin you fucking name it they had it...no wonder Ash likes this shop so much. I made a side-step movement to try and get out the shop but Ash gripped my upper arms and propelled me towards a panties section.
"Now I know how much you like your panties," he teased, brushing his lips along my ear.
"Yes I like panties not a piece of cloth on a fucking string!" I teased back, picking up a would be thong.
"I think you'd look sexy in them," he commented, nuzzling his nose and lips in my neck.
"You would," I teased, looking at him
Yaoi Story 2Yaoi Story 27 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Colin pulled my shirt off and tied my hands with it. I struggled, wrestled, and kicked as much as I could but, yet, it was still no use. He finally got a chance to pull my pants off and I thought, No, no, no!!! This cant be happening to me!!! Why? I hardly even know Colin that long.
He started licking the side of my neck and I squeaked, like a mouse. He giggled and went lower to my chest. Colin rubbed and played with my nipples.
I felt uncomfortable and said, Ugh, Stop it! Why are you doing this to me?! Fear rained all over my mind and I started to cry. The only thing I could think of is, Why? Why? Why? No, not me. I have to get out of this some how! Someone! Help me, please! And my plead was answered.
Knock, knock, bang, bang was coming from my dorm room door. The door handle rattled and the door shook like crazy. Colin looked back at the door, but didnt mind since it was locked. He continued what he was doing and slowly started to slip his
My NameLeave my hand, and fly awayMy Name4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can lose my way without you
I just forgot you and your lies
I'm sick of your useless words
Noise that breaks my silence sweet
Insignificant notes of your false life
When your nightmares embrace you
When the night is so cold and black
At the end, you shout my name.
England X Reader: Hot SummerEngland X Reader: Hot Summer3 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Ugh... So hot... Is it the end of the world...?" you asked yourself while wipping your sweats.
It was summer vacation and you don't have anything to do.
"Eating icecream is useless... Opening the air conditioner is also useless, I want to go
the beach but i don't have a car... " you sighed deeply. In the middle of melting, your phone suddenly rung, your long time crush was calling you.
"Hey __, Are you doing something?" he asked.
"Yeah, Watching the sky melt down"
He giggled "So... Nothing?"
"Can you come at my house?"
"Sure but why?"
"Uhh... I put a inflatable pool at my yard so... I want you to join me..."
"A-alright..." you replied shyly. After hanging your phone off, you panicked. Saying "Oh my gosh!" and thinking if Arthur was asking you out.
"Arthur! I'm here!" you called as you knock at the door. He was soaking wet.
"Sorry for calling you all of a sudden, I feel so bored here..." he said.
"No prob, I'm also bored" you
APH - Softness and Light EKSTRA- Ostatni raz przychodzę do ciebie w taki ziąb – stwierdził Lovino, wchodząc do kuchni, w której Antonio siedział z rzężącym laptopem na stole. Hiszpan rzucił mu tylko krótkie spojrzenie przez ramię.APH - Softness and Light EKSTRA2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
- Ach, to ty – powiedział, po czym odwrócił się do komputera.
„A spodziewałeś się kogoś innego?", pomyślał Lovino, rozdrażniony tym, że go zignorowano. Zdjął kurtkę i rzucił ją na oparcie krzesła, a kątem oka uchwycił przewijające się na ekranie laptopa oferty lotów do Hiszpanii.
- Wybierasz się dokądś? – rzucił od niechcenia, pochylając się obok Antonia, by przyjrzeć się przeglądanej stronie internetowej. Nie żeby go to interesowało.
Antonio z roztargnieniem objął wolną ręką chłopaka i przesunął dłonią po jego
Kiss Me In the HallwayKiss Me In the Hallway4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Kiss Me In the Hallway
USUK (United States X Britain)
"You slob! I can't believe you ate three trays worth of food for lunch. Worse yet actually from the cafeteria! Bloody disgusting-"
Two young men travelled down the hallway of their highschool. As usual the smaller was ranting about his companion's eating habits, something almost inhuman. However, the latter was preoccupied not listening to his counterpart's complaints but eyeing the attractive features of his friend. His ocean blue orbs swept over messy blonde hair down to supple lips running a mile a minute to a slender frame clad in the school's male uniform. If only they had some privacy to, well, study each other's anatomy.
"- are you even listening to me? Alfred? Al-"
At the same time in another hallway....
"Doitsu, Doitsu! In history class Francis did this thing with this other thing and-" A happy italian rambled to his german friend, clinging to
Lifelong - AndleyAshley was 10 when he got his first babysitting job a the Biersack's house.Lifelong - Andley2 years ago in Romance More Like This
They had just moved in the neighborhood, and Ashley was impatient to wait another 6 years to get an actual paying job. He was too small and scrawny to be trusted with walking dogs, or fixing bikes and cars around the neighborhood either. Luckily, he was good at babysitting. He babysat his cousins all the time, so why not get a few extra dollars watching the neighbor's kid?
He was nervous. Very, very nervous. He wasn't sure how old the little Biersack was, he knew he was short and couldn't speak right normally, but he needed a job. Something to keep him occupied while everything was boring, and a few extra dollars wasn't too bad either. Ashley swung his leg over his bike and took off down the street, his skinny legs pumping and turning the petals quickly.
There was still a moving van outside their house, that's how new to the area they were. He saw Mr. Biersack carrying a stack of boxes out of the large orange U
Spamano - Softness and Light IUciekający przed ulewą młody mężczyzna wpadł do ciepłego wnętrza restauracji i przeczesał palcami włosy, strząsając z nich krople wody. Zauważył kręcącego się w głębi lokalu kelnera i pomachał mu.Spamano - Softness and Light I2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
- Ej, Francis! zawołał, nie zwracając uwagi na karcące spojrzenia nielicznych o tej porze klientów restauracji. Sam rozsiadł się przy wolnym stoliku tuż przy panoramicznym oknie, rozpinając skórzaną kurtkę. Daj mi piwa, tylko szybko! Zmachałem się, wiejąc przed tym deszczem.
Kelner uśmiechnął się przepraszająco do poruszonych gości, a ociekającemu wodą mężczyźnie posłał groźne spojrzenie. Tamten tylko uśmiechnął się szeroko i machnął ręką, dając do zrozumienia, że łaskawie poczeka.