Always and NeverOnce again I can't help.
Always the same,
Always being useless,
Never in control,
Never 100% happy,
Never good enough,
What can I do?
I want to make you happy,
Take away all your pain,
make you happy again.
I would if I could.
You know I would.
I know I'm not perfect.
I wish I could be for you.
I need you.
But I think, you need me more,
You just wont admit it.
You're too proud for that.
Let me help.
Me helping you,
Will help me.
I love you.
You are my world.
Hate I hate myself for everything.Hate2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hate myself for wanting to cut.
I hate myself for stopping.
I hate myself for never being enough,
Never pretty enough,
Never skinny enough,
Never smart enough,
Never nice enough,
Never clever enough,
Never happy enough.
I hate myself because I can't have fun anymore.
I hate myself because my self image has become so bad,
All I want to do is hurt myself.
Self-HatredI hate myself.Self-Hatred2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm so stupid.
I'm so ugly.
I'm so fat.
And I'm sorry
that I ever
wasted your time,
that I'm fucked up,
that I'm weak,
that I'm shy.
that I don't know how to be
who you want me to be.
I'm sorry you don't like me.
I'm sorry I can't make friends.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I'm me.
I'm sorry I'm alive.
I want to go to sleep,
and never wake up.
I want to die.
ControlThis pain insideControl2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I cannot control
Control it does
This pain inside
Is haunting me
Haunting me it does
How do I control something,
That in the end controls me
They are not mine.
They are not me.
Yet, they are.
This lack of control is killing me.
Like A BirdI wonder what it's like to be freeLike A Bird2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Free like a bird,
Free from all this pain,
All these thoughts,
I just want to be free.
Free to live my life how I want
Without anyone breathing down my neck.
Checking what I do, how I do.
I still wonder it's like to be free.
Maybe one day,
I'll be free like a bird.
What is beauty?What is beauty?What is beauty?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is it the models in magazines who starve themselves to be size 0?
Is it the stars who get plastic surgery so much that they are more plastic then bone?
Is it the fake girls at school who put on pounds of makeup everyday?
Beauty is not; Trying to make yourself look like a model.
Its not; trying to hide your imperfections.
Its not; trying to be like others.
You don't have to starve yourself to be beautiful.
You don't have to be perfect to be beautiful.
You don't have to put on makeup or get plastic surgery to be beautiful.
Beauty is showing off who you really are.
Its not being afraid to let others see your imperfections.
Its about loving yourself for being...you.
FearYou make me dread the things I cherish.Fear2 years ago in Personal More Like This
You make my dreams simply perish.
You make me wish that I could just give it up. Just let it slip.
You make me wish that I could quit.
You make me feel like its all in vain.
You make me think that its all just pain.
You make me feel like I can't move on.
You make me think that it's all gone.
You make me tired of trying day after day.
You make me believe its all wasted away.
But today I decided that you will go.
I am tired of you making me move so slow.
You cannot control my life anymore,
I no longer have anything to use you for.
I am throwing you out and I will never look back.
I will find my way, I will make my own path.
I just have to believe and fight off one more hit.
The time is right, I know I can do it.
I promise to never give up on my dreams,
To never let you conquer me, to ignore your screams.
I will not let you have one more tear,
I will defeat you, because you are Fear.
Dear lorddear lord,Dear lord2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
yes it's me again...
i know i say i don't believe you, but do i have permission to ask you one thing?
why don't you answer my prayers?
i beg for help, and recieve more pain?
well anyway, i'll try again...
i need a hug...tonight when i close my eyes will you please hug me and not let go?
that's all i pray for my lord...that's all i ask of you. i want to not wake up tomorrow,
i want to be in your arms...
to be free
is it true you put me here to ignore my prayers and laugh at my tears?
is it my lord?
well i guess that's all i have to say to you.
DecievedOn the outside she seems wholeDecieved2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
On the inside she's shattered
Broken in a million pieces
Her eyes are blackened
Wrists are red and pink
Blue eyes seem to be liquid tonight
'Whats wrong' i ask in a final attempt
'Everything' she replys
Before closing her eyes
for one last time
"Disappointment"I held the phone in my hand for a long time. I stared at my father's number."Disappointment"2 years ago in Profiles More Like This
Was I really going to do this? Was I even ready to tell him?
Yes, I told myself. I held the phone to my ear.
I'm going through with this?
"Hello?" At the sound of my dad's voice I froze up. "H-hi Dad..." I said, unsure of his reaction. He lived so many miles away there was no way he'd tell anyone. "What's up?" He asked. That was my dad, always trying to sound "hip", but there was no way he ever would be.
"I.." I took a deep breath. Don't do this, Selvy. I told myself. I spoke again. "I need to tell you something." "Ok, what is it?" He said, sounding impatient. Damn that girlfriend of his.. she was always more important than me. "I can't keep it a secret anymore... Dad... I'm pansexual... I like girls... as well as men... and everything else."
The line went silent for more than a few minutes. My dad spoke again. "That's not how you were
Forgive Me FatherForgive me Father,Forgive Me Father2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
For I have sinned
I have hurt the ones
I love the most
Brought pain into their
Already pain filled lives
Tore them down
Destroyed what was left
Yet they forgive me
No matter the pain
Why do they forgive
The pain I caused
Why do they stay?
Why don't they leave?
I'm sorry Father
I truly am
For every sin
For every lie
For all the pain
I caused myself
Forgive me Father
For I have sinned
Forgive me for the scars
Forgive me for the cuts
Forgive me for the lies
Forgive me for the buts
The logical side
Keeps telling me not to believe
In something that has
Been disproved by science
But the faith in my heart
Refuses to listen
Forgive me Father
For I have sinned
The blade keeps
Calling me back
And I am too weak
To resist its call
Refuse to fade
I believe I'm falling for her
But I'm still with him
Help me Father
For I cannot cheat
Forgive me Father
For I have sinned
What A Weasley Chapter 4What A Weasley Chapter 42 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
With a pop, we arrived at The Burrow. I didn't enjoy apparating as much as I would've, seeing how I vomited.
"First time?" Mr. Weasley asked me. I nodded, and he made a small noise that sounded like an apology. I shrugged, it wasn't his fault. We walked inside, and found many people packed around a small table.
"Hello!" They all said in unison.
"Uh, hi," I whispered.
"Everyone, this is Willa," Mr. Weasley introduced. "Willa, this Bill, Charlie, Percy, you know Fred and George, Ron, and Ginny."
"Hi," I said again, and sat between George (I noticed he had a freckle on his neck that Fred didn't have), and Mrs. Weasley.
The table was loud as we ate. Everyone talked over each other, trying to get their two cents in. I just sat there, taking it all in.
After eating, Mrs. Weasley showed me up to Ginny's room, where I'd be staying. I thanked her, and started to unpack my things. When I was halfway finished, Ginny came in, and I instantly because friends with her.
I love who?I love who?I love who?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I love the girl who is always here for me,
I love the girl who is always willing to listen.
I love the girl who is always beautiful.
I love the girl who is always kind and careing.
I love the girl who never ignores me.
I love the girl who never judges me.
I love the girl who never tells me lies.
I love the girl who never stops loving me.
I love the girl who loves me for who i am.
I love the girl who loves me because i care.
I love the girl who loves me no matter what.
I love the girl who loves me more than herself.
I love the girl who is willing to stay up late.
I love the girl who is willing to go through hard times to be with me.
I love the girl who is willing to give to be with me.
I love the girl who is willing to spend time with me rather than her friends.
I love the girl, who is perfect.
I love the girl, who is amazing.
I love the girl, who is on the other side of the world to me.
I love the girl, who agreed to go out with me.
I love who?
I love you.
WhatAWeasley Ch3:EndOfTheWorldI dropped my packages, and ran over to him, screaming. "Father! Father! Wake up! C'mon, wake up! FATHER!" Tears streamed down my face, blurring everything.WhatAWeasley Ch3:EndOfTheWorld2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Mr. Weasley pulled me away from him after a few minutes, and explained what happened. Well, tried to. I only really understood that Father had stepped in front of him right as the killing curse had been cast at Mr. Weasley. Absently, I nodded, just wanting to go home. They left me alone for a bit, but sooner than I liked, they came over and told me it was time to leave. I gathered my things, and headed home with the Weasley's.
When we arrived at my house, I ran straight to my room, dumping my packages in a corner. Mr. Weasley would explain it all to Mum. I flopped on my bed, staring at the ceiling, sobbing my eyes out. It wasn't until I turned my head to check the time that I realized one of the twins was standing in my doorway. I stared at him for a second, and then turned my back to him, facing the wall.
The Continuous CycleEvery morning I wake up with a smileThe Continuous Cycle2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because in that instant I've momentarily forgotten my life
And the woe that defines it.
Then I lie to myself, that same lie,
That today will be different.
Every night I go to sleep with thoughts of suicide,
Because today wasn't any different.
And still no one loves me
And still my friends tortured me.
I try to bring up my moral by saying I will change,
But at night that lie won't work.
The night uncovers my sorrow
And makes no false promises.
Every morning I lie,
And by night, I die.
Not Without YouHere.Not Without You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Take my hand.
Never let go.
I can't do this without you.
I thought this was something I could do alone.
But I am not sure I can anymore.
I'm not sure I have the strength to keep going.
The strength to keep fighting.
The strength to keep fending off this pain.
I can't walk down the street without you next to me.
Take my hand.
Hold my hand.
Never let go.
Only for YouOnly for you, will I die;Only for You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Only for you, will I live;
You are my every thing;
I cling to you, as I cannot live without you;
My heart beats as brightly as the sun shines, only for you;
I dont care what other people think as long as I am with you;
You are the light in my day that shines the way to happyness;
Lost FaithWhere were you that night?Lost Faith2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
was it just one of those nights were God doesn't hear our prayers for protection,
our crys for help.
God, why did you abandened me in my time of need?
Can you not see the tears I cry?
the sleepless nights?
God, did you choose to look the other way
and let it happen?
Where were you God?
When I was to weak to fight
too scared to breath
I can still feel his touch
his cold fingers grabbing me
I can not wash the feelings away
Where is the healing for me God?
I trusted you
What did I do to deserve this?
God, why have you anbandened me?
Your KissYour kiss is a secretYour Kiss3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Executed in the shadows
Where no one can see
Your kiss is electric
Almost lighting up the darkness
And I'm sure it will give us away
Your kiss is magnetic
And it's hard to stay away
Until the moment we're alone
Your kiss is not shameful
But you love knowing
We're the only ones in on it
Your kiss is a secret
A beautiful secret
And it is all mine to keep
Who?Who is this person that contrdicts himself?Who?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who may or may not be good for my health?
Who walks me to class every day,
but won't contact me in any way?
Who seems to prefer another ,
but refuses a comparison to my brother?
Who does he think he's messing with?
The answer finally hits.
I know who this boy is.
How I feel definately fits.
He's the first person I've ever wanted to kiss.
I know the other is infinately better.
But I know she's forever fairweather.
Not nearly as pretty,
but I'm much more witty.
He'll choose her, I'm sure.
I'll always be too pure.
I Swear, I Will Not Cut AgainMy scars are faded,I Swear, I Will Not Cut Again3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you can still see them.
my friend noticed my scars.
He grabbed my arm caringly, running his hands over them.
They are recent scars, not paled by time.
"What happened?" he asked gently.
"Nothing," I lied,
trying to get him off my back.
He wasn't taking any of it.
What happened?" he demanded.
His voice was full of emotions
"I've stopped," I said.
Which was true.
I had found other coping mechanisms
when I feel low
I came out okay.
"I don't want to talk about it," I said.
Because I didn't.
At the time, I was depressed.
It seems like such a long time ago,
but in all honesty,
it was a couple weeks ago.
"Swear to me you won't do it again," he said.
"Swear to me," he insisted.
"I swear that I won't do it again," I vowed.
"My grandfather's grave.
I swear on my grandfather's grave,
that I w
YouYou may not think you're strong.You3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You may not believe you're pretty.
You may not think you're liked.
You are INVINCIBLE.
You are BEAUTIFUl.
You are LOVED.
You are YOU.
Too breathtaking to explain it.
I'll show youI need her more then anythingI'll show you2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I know I've hurt her
And she hurt me
But we are the same in a way
I will do anything to make you happy
I've show you I'll do anything for you
So please don't go
I love you
I'll show you
I wanti want to be held,I want2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to fall asleep in her arms
knowing i am loved,
for a moment
i want to fall asleep whilst in this embrace,
never to wake again,
for in that moment
I will now i am loved and love her in return.
i know this can never be,
and her love for me begins to fade,
behind the mist of hurt and rage.
Don't Let GoWarm in your arms,Don't Let Go3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your body against mine.
Breathing your scent,
Face buried in your chest.
Comfortable and at rest.
But I'm not at all cold.
It's you my dear,
And the feelings that take hold.
A contented sigh,
Softly stroking your hair.
This is amazing,
My, you caught me unaware.
I needed you,
And you were there.
Don't let go,
'Cause nothing else compares.