SchizophreniaI'm scared of myself 'cause I hear voices in my head,Schizophrenia6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Telling me when I'm wrong, saying I should be dead,
The voices question my sanity until even I think I'm crazy
They tell me that I'm all alone, that no one stands by me,
They say I'm unwanted and feed on my fears,
They claim that when I cry no one sees or hears my tears,
That no one cares when I cry,
That no one will miss me when I die
When I'm angry or sad, they whisper in my ear
To eliminate the source of my pain, but I choose not to hear
Because I don't want to hurt anyone, to kill,
So then they tell me I should die, but I live through sheer will,
Hope that one day I'll wake up and the voices will be gone,
But I don't see how - they've been with me so long,
Questioning everything about me 'til I think I'm the worst,
Saying that the worst day in history was the day of my birth
The voices hurt me mentally, emotionally,
Sometimes they even hurt me physically
It's hard to live with them, to share my mind,
To feel like my brain isn't
Sex isSex is12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I lay back
you get ready
you ask me
i can hear
i can feel
get so close
you are me
i am you
sextwo people completely connectedsex12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
feeling incredible senses
everything else leaves their minds
for that short momemt in time
all you feel is this incredible pleasure
all you want is for this feeling to remain
and it is so hard to contain
so you moan and scream
nothing in the world feels as good
it seems like a dream
as it gets harder and faster
you get to feeling like you are in completely ecstasy
you begin to hear a beat, a melody
you may slow it down and change positions
but all of it is so delicious
bodies become sweaty and moist all over
and dirty wetness is so wonderful
the intensity becomes stronger
it won't last much longer
so you climax
take a deep breath, go outside
smoke a stoge and relax
Lillith poemI am the firstLillith poem5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Not the downfall
I am no Eve
All I asked for
All I wanted was
None to subdue
But at our feet
Fell the earth
'Ere she came
I will not be
I will not be
I stand strong
Whore I am
You loved me
my rightful place
Yet grasp at me
too much my own
So I languish
heroine and whore
my own defense
who would listen
To the likes
of a woman
Scorned by heaven
And banned from hell.
Lesbian Erotica 7"Bring Liina here immediately. I promise it's not about you, and nothing bad will happen to either of you. I just need to tell Liina something very important, and it needs to be said face to face." That was the phone call that woke me this morning. Her mother's impassioned tone still runs through my head over and over. Had it not been for her tone, I wouldn't bring her. But her voice spoke sincerity, and I have little choice but to believe her.Lesbian Erotica 73 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Liina, wake up." She rolls over, deep sleeper that she can be when contented. Just a few hours prior, she finally brought me to orgasm, and shortly after I pleasured her myself. After the morning's work out, we both turned in, content in leaving school and the world behind. But then I got the phone call. "Come on, Liina, it's important." She blinks a few times and looks at me with sleep heavy on her eyes.
"Is it time for school?" "No, sweetheart, we have to go to your parents' house. Something's going on." Her eyes open wide. "Do you
SometimesSometimes...Sometimes4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I talk to them
and we dance
and we sing
and we laugh
and we play
They're not so nice
they say bad things
I see horrors
people as white as ghosts
standing in the corner
faces when I close my eyes
ugly gory things when I try to sleep
Most of the time...
I avoid sleep
so I won't see bad things
I play loud music
so I can't hear whispers
I leave my lights on
so I don't see roaches
because I feel someone creeping up behind me or beside me
and I know that no one's there
and it scares me so bad
All the time...
I look around for people
that might not be there
I make new friends
that no one else can see
I pray to God so He'll make all the bad things go away
I hate myself
for being weak
I tolerate myself
because I take care of others
and I try to be nice
and I give free hugs
and I give my mom money
because she's poor and because I love her
Do I love my
Not In This LifetimeHow many more tears can I cry for you?Not In This Lifetime4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How many more days must I go without you?
I want more than anything to see your face again.
But that won't happen, will it.
You're not coming back.
I'll never get to see you again.
Hug you again.
Tell you I love you again.
Not in this lifetime.
I long for the next.
I miss you
SchizophreniaI'm not here, but you can see me. I talk, I smile, I yell, but it's not me. I'm lost in the sea of voices that only I can hear. The voices are my friends, and my worst enemies. My doctor says I created them out of loneliness, but now they keep me lonely. Who wants to be friends with a freak who has voices talking to her in her head? The minute someone hears the word "Schizophrenia" they take off running. I'm not sane, I'm not safe. It might be contagious. I could snap at any moment. This is how everyone who knows feels. So the voices keep me company, reminding me that they are the only ones who can accept me. I believe them most days. They're the perfect friends. Sure, they don't have names, or faces. Maybe they can't hold me when I need a hug, or wipe away my tears, but those voices are the only ones who care enough to desire to do these things. And sometimes, I fade out into the voices, and one will take over, living life for me. Disocciative Identity Disorder, it's called. But, whatSchizophrenia4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Social AnxietyI quiver violentlySocial Anxiety3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Too many people
Take it easy
Control the impulse
I'm sure they notice
They stare into
That lies within
Beneath my skin
It runs through
My scarlet veins
Cell by cell
Vein by vein
Killing my sanity
As I walk through
Step by step
Demons in disguise
Ready to pounce
Grab hold of my soul
Until I collapse
Drop to my knees
I need pills
Some way to
Cope with this
Mother's Love.Mothers are supposed to be there for you.Mother's Love.3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
To love you and care.
Never abandoned or harm you.
They are supposed to take away your pain,
and never be the cause of it.
To understand you're afraid and set you free.
Not lock you down, until you drop down
screaming on your knees.
They are supposed to convince you that monsters are not real.
But never become one.
To believe that fear is only
fighting for loves blissful air.
Mothers are supposed to love you.
Be there for you.
Just once I would really like that chance.
A Ghost with SchitzophreniaI won't get a warningA Ghost with Schitzophrenia4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When my next episode will happen
The voices will come without warning
The doctors won't let me leave for sure
They'll tell my parents
"She's not allowed to go back home
The schitzophrenia is acting up
It's getting worse"
Then the voices will laugh at me
When I see the sight of my mother crying
They laugh at her agony
And I can't make it stop
I'm the one at fault
All of this
Keep me locked up, mother
Lock up all your worries
Even though you dont know what they do
Sometimes the nurses laugh at us
And make ourselves look stupid
Their sympathy is all for show
Until the doors close behind you
And hell is unleashed
For the poor patients to dwell in
Poor, little mental patients...
That's what they all say
The fortunate ones, that don't even know
What it's like...
They don't know
Put them in a straight jacket
And throw them into a padded cell
Give them a few days...
Bet ya' they won't come out the same
I've always came out the same person
The girl with schitzophrenia
Heavenly LoverI stared out the window at the buildings as they passed. I had no idea why my father had suddenly decided that he wanted to spend time with me, but the moment he mentioned my spending the summer with him my mother had jumped all over it. I blamed the fact that she had a new boyfriend and me being a teenager who would be in the way for why she was so quick on the draw. Whatever their reasons were, I didn't care. I doubted my father would actually pull himself away from his work long enough to even notice I was there and I'd rather not be around to listen to my mother having sex with her new man.Heavenly Lover4 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Lani, stop scowling," my mother scolded. I rolled my eyes, ignoring her. I heard her sigh and rolled my eyes again. "Lani, baby, I know you don't want to be here. But he is your father and he has the right to see you." I scoffed, sinking lower in my seat.
"Some father," I muttered. "When was the last time I saw him? Seven? Eight years ago? More like sperm donor if you ask me." Another heavy sig
Sex Object Between her legs, lies something thatSex Object10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
every man seems to want.
A place where she should be able
to call her own, between her legs.
She feels that men only want her,
a true want, to have sex with her, and
The breasts she has, they gain
stares from men passing by, tripping
over themselves to find a chance to touch.
When will she stop being looked at,
as an object of sex? when will a man
see her as someone he may spend his
Her hips curve, and she doesnt
want your hands on them, if your
just going to touch her skin.
She wants a man to touch her soul,
not just touch her skin, and run his fingers
where they do not belong.
What made these men think, she
is just a sex object, a toy that could be
put on display, and taken whenever they
Between her legs, lies something that
every man seems to want.
Proud she is though, that she hasnt
given in, hasnt
A Date to Forget 1 revisedIt was early in the morning when Blaze got up from her bed in a very nervous mood. She was not sure what to think.A Date to Forget 1 revised4 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Today's the day... Silver... and I" Blaze said as she looked through her closet anxiously.
She picked out a few dresses, which is something she normally doesn't wear, and began to put them up against her. She then looked into the mirror to see how they'd look on her... she grimaced at most of them.
"I never could have predicted this day would come. But am I ready? I feel strange whenever I am with Silver, but... in a good way" Blaze said to herself while looking at her somewhat small selection of dresses. She only ever wore dresses for special occasions, and they had to be just so.
Putting them up against her, one by one, she searches for the perfect one to wear on her date. As she did that, she looked into the mirror one last time before making her final decision. She selected a simple but very elegant purple dress. It was the only one she could even remotely stomach. Sh
SEXThis poem is about sex.SEX7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
(yeah, that got your attention)
This poem is about sex.
This poem is about love.
This poem is about living in your sexuality
instead of being afraid of it.
This poem is about saying fuck you
to everyone who told you
This poem is about the sin so natural
it takes you to heaven on earth.
This poem is about turning the key,
finding your voice,
making your own choice.
This poem is about independence,
instead of buying into all their misery.
150 pages of health text book telling you
6 years of administration telling you
6 years of scaring you
out of whats instinctual.
6 years of alarmist tactics,
and no information
setting a social taboo
so they can control how we live our lives.
Happy Place- PewdiekenHappy Place- Pewdieken2 years ago in Romance More Like This
The beach… We always come here when he visits, I don’t really know why, I guess it's just fun, walking without shoes, hand in hand laughing like the world around us doesn’t matter anymore. Sure we look at them and they look back, giving us awkward glances but we didn’t care if they thought we were gay or not, maybe we were, why would people care? I don’t think it would affect their lives or something. Anyway, Felix and I would sit bare footed on the sand, listening to the waves of the ocean mixed with our laughter. We'd exchange talks about many things, planning for what we should do next, what we want for dinner, about which game we should do next for our channel and of course I'd take out my video camera and capture those moments both for my vlog and for myself.
After that we'd roll up our pants and run into the cold water, screaming and splashing water over each other, the water blocking my vision since they splashed all over my glasses. We
My schizophrenic nightmareBlank screens with static sayMy schizophrenic nightmare2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm going to kill my cat today
'And why stop there', they delightfully shout
'why not take the whole family out'
They laugh so bitterly when I try to run
For them the fun has just begun
We have spies in every corner
You won't be able to escape much longer
The grim reapers coming and he's pointing at you
He'll echo warnings on radios and in the weather reports too
He'll chase you down streets; you won't know where to turn
Even in dreams you'll see his piercing eyes burn
Each moment's a nightmare but I can't wake up
They play out prophesies I wouldn't dare make up
Dead babies in nooses and devils walk the floor
Tormented until I can't take much more
Crawling insidiously from the mirrors I didn't cover
Spiders share information from one set to another
Nowhere is safe; the sane look on with glazed eyes
So I admit defeat and say my goodbyes
Noted down as suicide, but if you look a little further
I didn't choose my demise, it was simply murder.
Lewis x Simon - Boys Night - Part 1Lewis sighed as he waved goodbye to everyone that day from YogTowers. He had a bunch of bills to sort out, and he preferred it if he was alone whilst doing so. He had told everyone that he was going to sleep at YogTowers and that he would sort everything out. Sparkles*, being the friend he was, offered to stay with him but Lewis insisted that he would be fine. But now he was all alone in the flat. He closed the door and locked it, and turned the computer on afterwards. The hum of the monitor echoed quietly in the empty flat.Lewis x Simon - Boys Night - Part 12 years ago in Settings More Like This
Lewis shivered. Maybe he should have gone home with Hannah after all. It was far too quiet in this place than he thought it would have been. But that was his loss. He just shook his head and logged onto the computer.
Lewis jumped as someone knocked loudly on the front door. He mentally slapped himself as he walked over to the door, unlocked it , put his hand on the doorknob and looked through the peep hole. It revealed a very familiar superman hoodie.
APHCleverbot: US and RussiaUser: Hi Cleverbot, I'm America!APHCleverbot: US and Russia4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Cleverbot: I am a girl.
User: Are you a country? I don't know many girl countries.
Cleverbot: I am in my house.
User: Well, except maybe France. I don't know about that guy.
Cleverbot: Why would you say something like that?
User: Well he has such long hair. And what kind of guy covers up his penis with a rose? A wierdo, that's who. But he's cooler than England, anyway.
Cleverbot: I thought your name was Will.
User: What? No, my name is Alfred. You know, America? The country?
Cleverbot: I agree, America seems to forget what it has.
User: I don't forget anything! D.
Cleverbot: Anyway I'm going.
User: What? But I just met you. :I I'm boooored. Maybe I should go bother England.
Cleverbot: Don't be sorry. It takes a lot to be as clever as me. It is perfection to strive for. But don't be discouraged when you do not reach your goal.
User: Wha... I never said anything like that... WHO IS THIS?!?
Cleverbot: Oh okay if you say so! May I ask for your name.
Request: Sips x Duncan - Part 2Duncan sighed as he walked up to the top tower of his castle and looked out over the sunset. This didn't make any sense. Sips wasn't supposed to love him! He was supposed to hand Sips Co over to him! But that hadn't happened. Duncan took the goggles off his head and threw them out into the lake angrily. He watched as they gleamed in the sun as they splashed down into the lake, never to be seen again. Sips said he wasn't lying. And for once, Duncan was about to take his word for it. Damn he hated Sips Co... as much as he hated Rythian. But this situation with Sips had changed his way of thinking. Were Sips and Sjin really that bad? Or were they just protecting what they loved the most, making dirt? Duncan sighed again. This was a problem he would have to solve on his own, as usual. Maybe Duncan could trap Sips again and question him further. Yes, that's what he would do.Request: Sips x Duncan - Part 22 years ago in Settings More Like This
Duncan walked back down the stairs and went to bed, his brilliant scientific mind racing with plans for th
PewDieKen (Chapter 1)"Ken. I am really gay." Felix said after Ken ended the video. Pewdie was currently burring his lower half in sand. Ken was shocked. "What about Marzia?" Felix had a longing look on his face. "She knows." Ken took notice of that look on his face and said, "How did you figure out?" Pewds gestured for him to come closer until their faces were almost connected. "I found out. When you ended that video." His voice was low, taunting even. Ken couldn't help it, he connected his lips with the other mans. The kiss wasn't hard and fast. Just slow and sweet. Until Pewdie wanted a taste. He slipped his tongue across Ken's bottom lip, causing Ken to shiver and grant his access. They instantly went into battle like World War 3 started, only with their tongues. Felix won after many attempts. His tongue filled Ken's mouth, he tasted like mint and watermelon in one. Ken shifted so he could caress Pewdie's face with his hands. They broke for air, sadly. "When did you turn gay?" Felix asked. Ken smiled anPewDieKen (Chapter 1)2 years ago in Romance More Like This
Lesbian Erotica 4I wake up to the strong smell of vodka, a smell that's haunted me for years. A smell that's becoming all too common again. Dammit... Mom's been... troubled lately. I never expected her to give up drinking as easily as she pretended. I knew there would be relapses. I knew it would never just go away. I never expected her to relapse as often as she does, though. She goes without for a few weeks and then she just gives in.Lesbian Erotica 44 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Even drunk, my mom's still a great mom. She stands up for me and provides for me, but she needs to get away from the stuff completely. She's just... It's not even a personality thing, she just can't survive drinking so much for so many years. I know it's destroying her inside.
Liina stirs beside me and sits up almost immediately. "Again?" she mutters, taking a quick sniff of the air around her. Living with me, she's almost as sensitive to the sauce as I am. It doesn't help that my room is directly adjacent to the kitchen, her favorite spot to drink. "Yeah, again..." I s
A Winter's Love In Murder Ch1Late December, 1795A Winter's Love In Murder Ch14 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Requira, what do you think you're doing?!" Jason shouted through the forest.
"Abandoning this cursed child, what would our families do if they found out about her?" she answered, while searching for a place to leave the child she held. She was seventeen, unmarried (though engaged) and had a child. Their families didn't know they were living together, the families assumed the two had gone missing, possibly killed by the horrors of the forest.
"But, we could simply claim that we have been married longer than we have, so then they wont question the fact that we have a child, its that simple." Jason tried to calmly explain to her, "Anyway, my sister is waiting for you, she has the wedding dress almost finished. She wants to make sure it fits you, so go." he said, while taking the child from her arms.
Dominate MeDominate MeDominate Me7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Hold me down
Do what you wish
Make my heart pound
Play my game
Whips and handcuffs
Make me feel the pain
A few bites and a lick
Pull my hair
Make me cum quick
I like it rough
Scratches on my back
I cant get enough
Do me wrong
Make me scream
All night long