Fuck the life I know and hate!
All life really is,
Something we humans don't understand,
but we strive for it.
Love is so beautiful.
But that's whats going to be my poison and kill me!
Make my flesh burn and rot into nothing!
My soul will engulf me in a fire of hate,
sorrow and death.
But as I look at the flames surrounding my body,
my eyes flutter with the horrifying memories of my past.
My tears will put the fire out,
but only after all the skin is gone from my body.
All this hate was once love.
All my blood pouring on the floor,
Is all the hate that has built inside me.
I'm sick of Loving things that will never love me back!
The people I treasure just stomp on my heart and all the love I have given them.
So I'll sit in my room, no lights to show the way.
My body will soon rot and vanish from this hell hole you call life.
I'm finally free of this agonizingly painful love,
because the person I love.
Will watch me rot.
GothPut the black lipstick on,Goth4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
glide the eyeliner over,
pull you combat boots on,
put your hair up crazy,
the black shirt and pants.
Walk around with a frown,
stomping all around,
head hanging low,
ignoring the haters,
deal with the day.
Sneak out at night,
go to the the old graveyard,
meet with you friends,
your with your own kind,
feel loved in this hell.
After laughing so hard tears come,
you go home,
just to do it all again,
until you grow up,
became an adult,
find more of the goths,
and be able to smile,
ever night and day.
AddictionI'm becoming Addicted.Addiction3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Addictions a scary thing.
But I can't seem to help it.
I'll run the dull blade over my skin,
It'll burn slightly,
then turn a light pink and maybe bleed if I'm lucky.
That's how I know its good enough,
If it's bleeding.
After a day or two when it doesn't hurt anymore,
I get up in the middle of the night and do it again,
not satisfied until it burns deeply,
and I can go to sleep smiling with the pain in my arm.
I hate pain,
But yet it's calling for me,
I'm yearning for it,
In the pit of my stomach it wrenches at me if I don't have it.
It feels good,
After I've cut it,
The pain is good.
Like when you pick at you bleeding lip,
And you just can't help it.
Whats wrong with me?
I'm not sad or depressed,
Or not to the point it's noticeable.
I'm I going insane?
Have a lost my mind?
No, no not yet,
But all I can say is,
And addiction is a terrifying thing,
That seems okay,
But soon it starts to control you life.
I don't know,
Kill It NowRed!Kill It Now4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want it!
I want it now!
I want it everywhere!
I want it on the walls!
On my bed!
On my mirror,
in my sink,
on the knife,
covering my skin!
Let it drip it!
Let it bleed,
have it burn!
Cut it deeper!
running over my skin,
breaking it open.
I need more blood!
Blood must shed!
From my eyes,
neck, wrist, heart and soul.
Kill them all now!
I just want to see the color red,
running from my bleeding life.
I need more!
Daddy dearest"I hate you!"Daddy dearest3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"You can't talk to your father that way!"
"You're not my father! And this isn't my home!"
"Shut up! Treat you're father with respect!"
Calmly "If treat me with respect."
"I do! But you're just a horrible child who wants to act like a brat!"
Trying to calm the father down "Maybe if you'd open your eyes...
You see only what you want to see.
Hear only what you want to hear.
And Ignore everything you don't like."
"Go to you're room!"
Stomps away and slams the door.
"I hate you"
Sits on the bed and cries.
"I want to go home mommy..."
Knock. Knock. Knock.
"Let me in!"
"No, I don't want to talk at the moment."
"It's my house dammit, now let me in!"
"No!" 'Why does he always have to hold things over people, even a room witch I live in?'
"If you don't open it I'll get an axe and break it down!"
'Go ahead and hit my head while your at it...so my blood will be
I'm so cold.It's dark.I'm so cold.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not scared.
I, to have someone in my arms.
Someone who wont make me cry.
Someone, who will love me as I love them.
But they're dead.
Cold as ice.
When I brush the tips of my fingers to they're blue cheek,
shivers over take my body.
I blame myself,
for not loving them as much as I could have.
But maybe I can make it up to them.
The blade on my wrist is cold.
It reflects my face, covered in tears.
Now I am scared,
scared, that if I do see them,
they might not want me back.
Blood trickles down my wrist,
as time goes by,
the blood flows quicker.
Its so beautiful,
its so warm,
its so painful.
The room is turning dim,
I lay down and close my eyes.
Its so cold, but yet,
For you my love,
Secret Hidout II."Moooom~" I said loudly as I walked into the door and shut it, walking threw the kitchen taking poptarts and chocolate milk. "I'm asleep!" She yelled louded back. "Sorry!"...Sorry." I covered my mouth and stopped a luagh frome escaping my mouth and went to my room, triping over a sevreal thing. I really need to clean it.Secret Hidout II.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I layed down on my beg and turned pandora on and got my phone out to text someone from boredom. I remembered the number Carter gave me and pulled it out, putting it in my phones contacts. I texted him "Hey its Kieth." I waited a few minutes playing with some loose strings on my sleeve and singing along with a song I only now three lines to.
Then my phone buzzed.
C:"Hey! I know you! Lol."
K:"Yeah, I know you to lol."
C:"Can I help you?"
K:"I'm bored >.>"
C:"You mean boring, well it cants be helped, wanna go to the movies tomorrow. TED's showing!"
I thought about it for a second. I had already seen it and luagh so hard pespi came out my nose/
K:"Sure, I havent seen it. I
DespairIt really gets you tiredDespair3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When your silent pain
Doesn't come out
Even the darkest flowers bloom
... Don't they?
See the world wither away
As our blood covers the ice
It's taking our light away
Once your eyes used to shine
Now I see only darkness in them
And now even the most bitter tears
Can't turn your head down anymore
It's turning you cold
Once so beautiful voice
It's whispers cannot reach us
See my sarcastic smile
As the blood flows
Down, down, down...
I was never strong enough
To pray for salvation
It died to my lips before I got it out
" Save me, save me.. "
You never heard my silent pleads
Where are those wings
Once so pure, white, innocent
Wings now rotten, dark, vicious
Angel fell once again
It's coming to an end...
I need to let it out
Let the pain out
Out of me
Out of my heart
My dying heart
Let me go
Don't do this to me
Release the despair
Let me be free
Even one day
Even one night
Find my tears
Bring me back
WHY?... WHY?!...WHY?...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why do live?
Why do we try?
When in the end we're going to die.
Why must we cry?
These tears that burn us so much.
Why can't we just end it now?
End it with a blade, a knife, a rope
Why? Why? Why? WHY?!
Why do we live when we can die?
Dieing so much easier.
Living so much harder.
Living in this loneliness.
It can all just end, why not now!
Why must we live and try.
When we want to die.
It's a simple little thing like
cut the skin, cut the vien, cut the heart right out.
Now just sitting,
In the emptiness.
Never turning back.
Im a VampireThey say a vampire is pure evil,Im a Vampire3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
nothing that sparkles.
The dark side.
A vampire is cunsumed by the evil,
the hate and it molds them.
Torturing them for all eternity,
If that is it,
I a vampire.
I'm filled with pain.
So much pain,
so much hatrid,
so much of the darkside,
all in my core.
I'v let the darkness define me,
let it in and take over.
I dont want to lose who I am,
but I dont want this pain anymore.
It hurts me so much.
everyone goes throu pain,
none is greater,
and all in unique.
No one understand the pain i have burn put through,
and the hate I hold in my soul.
What if I left my pain?
What if I them turn into what I'm rebeling agianst?
What I hate the most.
So, must I keep the pain?
All I know is I dont want to hurt anymore...
Having fun in the day with people 'like me',
but then I lay in my bed and it slaps me in the cold face.
If I keep this pain,
I will remian a Vampire?
Not the vampire that teens fall in lo9ve with,
my own kind
Angel of DarknessLet them scream,Angel of Darkness4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
hear them beg,
have them say my name!
I want them to feel my pain,
the pain they made me feel,
oh so much worse.
With the flesh ripped open,
the heart will stop beating,
drive the dagger deeper into them.
Let them scream!
I want to hear them scream!
Before your dead and gone!
I want you to scream!
And feel pain!
Secret hidout I.I started the long dreay walk from my house onto my secret hide out. Yeah, I know, Its a little strange for a 17 year old to have a secret hide out. But something about it is so soothing, even thou thats where about 30 people died. Every now and then If I haven't gone there it practicaly calls to me, making me stop my homework, video games or listening to music and reading my manga, It wraps a rope around me and tugs and tugs until I start walking.Secret hidout I.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It takes about 30-45 minutes to get there, all depending on how active I feel like being. Today I'm already half way there and it's only been 15 minutes.
I can see the broken building now, all cement bricks, most of the building gone from the fire so long ago. The grass has grown back in a miniture forest like way. I love that part, I like to lay down and listen to my IPod or read, sometimes I just sit there in the quiet and let the stress of life fade away into the wind taking it away, then I take this little jornal I bought at a book store
First Boyfriend chp 1 CHAP1 YAOI!!!! WARNING!First Boyfriend chp 13 years ago in Comedy More Like This
Crunch. Crunch. Crunch.
Crunch. Crunch. Crunch.
Crunch. Crunch. Crunch.
I love the sound of grass crunching beneath my feet when I walk, It's something I can focus on and listen to walking home humming. But tonight it was a little different...It was so embarrassing I cant even write about it without blushing madly, even though it was hardly anything, and I should just forget about it. Wait! I'm avoiding the point! Oh well here it goes... When I was walking home (it was about 10 pm, I was coming home from a bookstore, I had to have my fill on gay word porno) and nothin odd, every now and then a couple teen huddled up smokin, a car or motorcycle, maybe a barking dog or two, but nothin weird like I said.
Just another Teen Suicide"This has, been said, so many times that I'm not sure if matters. But we never stood a chance and I'm not sure if mattered~"Just another Teen Suicide3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
A young girl is crying, hugging her phone, a pillow. All along with listening to her favorite band. A normal teen? Right after a brake up and having low grades? I'd think not. A young girl that has gone threw so much she doesn't know who she is and all she wants is attention she can control.
So what does she do? She begins trying to find herself. Months of therapy, months of intense self beatings mentally trying to change her new found self within this rebellion. All to no avail.
So what does she do know? Goes against what she stood for, she begins bully hern bully's, Ignores the facts, becomes rude, then she begins to cut and try suicide.
She still isn't getting anymore attention, But in fact even less now.
Her best friend, the gay, everyone's dream friend. He gets it all. He's beautiful, skinny, smart, talented, everyone loves him and not her. She begin
Its a little bit Lonely.Thou, as it seems,Its a little bit Lonely.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have been forgotten.
I don't mind.
I have my toys, my games, even a puppy.
Oh..How I love my puppy.
But, not even puppy seems to remember me anymore,
strolling past me in the hall way, sniffing about.
We all use to play,
all the time.
But something happened,
and Mommy and Daddy got very sad.
I wonder what happened, but,
when I ask they don't reply,
even look at me.
The house has gone quiet dark.
I haven't seen Mommy and Daddy,
I haven't seen them for several days now.
And the lights won't come on,
I miss Mommy, And Daddy.
Even thou I don't think they knew I was here.
I wonder were they went.
The puppy went away to.
I've been left completely alone now.
But one day I was sitting in the living room,
Playing with one of the hundreds of toys.
When the front door opened.
A Man and a Woman walked in.
I didn't know them and I'm not allowed to talk to strangers.
So I stayed quiet, and stared.
They didn't look at me, just walked around,
running they're finger
What's the secretI know there a secret,What's the secret4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
something I don't know,
something they're keeping from me,
I've spent hours thinking,
searching every inch of my brain,
Do we have to find out ourselves?
Or do they tell us?
Do we have to do something,
pass a test,
Is there even a secret?
Yes, Yes there is!
I can feel it!
Like a little ticking,
in the back of my head,
I'll find out what it is,
even if its just a lie to make us think,
I'' find out,
if it kills me.
If there's not one,
I'll make one,
but I know there's a secret,
just waiting to be found.
In DarknessThere's truth in anger,In Darkness4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In anguished frustration
In the noise of constricted sighs,
In a face contorted,
wrinkled nose, furled brow,
eyes shut squeezing tears,
Teeth bared and lungs, larynx, soul,
fighting at once to close and explode.
There's deep breaths,
There's peaceful thoughts and
Soothing voices, mellow music;
There's fun and ease and reason.
But some things are only understood
By a curled, straining, choking chest,
growling groans and spitting sobs;
By a dark, appalled, confounded mind,
indignant, hating, contradicting,
Fighting itself and deploring the world.
Cheering up is a gruesome thought;
Good feelings threaten
to cloud my reflection
And tear me away
from sorrow's Sages.
Copyright © 2011, MysticSilverMoon.
All rights reserved.
Dark KnightDark knight where are you?Dark Knight3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Where is the dark knight I have longed for so many years?
I've seen you here, and every now and then there.
But you always manage to slip from my grasp as I reach you.
Why do you run?
With you face covered in a black silk cloth, wrapping all the way down to your ankles and baring your dirtied and ripped feet.
Where have those feet traveled to get the scars?\
Though mud and rain? Wind and blazing sun?
I'll find out all of these questions and more.
One day, I'll find you and force them out.
You know it to.
That's why you hide.
I am patient, with the years of waiting I have endured,
I can wait a little longer searching for you.
Cornering you into a forest, where the trees make a wall not even you can escape over.
I'll catch you.
Good Bye To My Mind.Where has it gone?Good Bye To My Mind.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I THINK IT RAN AWAY
I wasnt asking you,
BUT YOU WERE.
Im talking to myself,
I really need to find my mind,
I WILL KEEP HIDING IT.
Please help me find my mind.
Oh look its there,
running through that door.
YOU CANT GO THROUGH THAT DOOR,
But I can go through that door.
I'm walking to it now,
wow its so white,
maybe I should get my jacket.
CAN I STRAP THE BACK UP?
I dont think you can,
your a voice of my mind,
which seems to be running away.
YOUR WEARING YOUR JACKET.
My jacket is too tight,
How am I meant to open the door?
My arms are round my back,
SMASH AND CLAW IT OPEN!
I think that is my only way,
Smashing, Banging and hitting it.
Not my best plan as my head hurts,
I think my mind has really gone.
but it might not have gone yet,
OH BUT IT HAS,
How can you tell?
YOU JUST ASKED ME,
THE VOICE OF YOUR HEAD,
if my brain had gone.
I see, well goodbye brain come home soon.
A Little to LateI'm only 14,A Little to Late4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I'm treated as I was 28,
It's not fair,
I Hate it,
Never being able to be a kid,
The first few years of my life,
till I was 13,
I never would shed a tear,
but then I did,
only when needed.
I cry all the time,
Not over loosing my shoes,
ripping a nail,
I've never been a kid,
I've never had the chance to cry for,
something as stupid as this.
Its not fair,
Laughing away there teenage years
as if it's nothing.
I'll sit in the corner of class,
watching them gossip,
about sex, people lives, ruining them.
It's not my business,
I'll but in,
"Shut up, you don't know them, stop being Idiots, and horridle people"
All they do is laugh at me and make fun of me if i do.
I HATE IT!
I hope when they grow up,
they can't live with themselves,
tortured at the pain,
gnawing deep in them,
from when they were in school,
and let them feel the pain.
LuciferLucifer9 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A misunderstood angel,
Thrown from his home of heavens beyond,
People bow before you faithfully.
Some slit wrists hoping to glance you as they die.
Some cry bloodied tears and curse your name,
As they watch friends die
In sickness, starvation and war.
To some you're a myth,
You are a legend, not even close,
To being real.
But here lies the truth
Under old marble walls
Hidden from all humans
Not to be discovered till death.
Why does the bible not say words?
The truths about him and his four.
The Four brothers that live and reign.
Over all of Hell.
God does not move to save his children,
I used to love him.
But even Lucifer would not be this cruel.
Lucifer has better sense even then God.
Since he knows suffering as we do.
And God knows nothing of our pain.
Your HorribleYour vile,Your Horrible4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hate you,
with every fiber in my body,
you never care,
you never try,
are you even human?
Human try to please people,
we are forced to do it by our minds,
but you do nothing.
I hope you rot,
away with you thoughts,
in a little white room,
locked away forever.