Fuck the life I know and hate!
All life really is,
Something we humans don't understand,
but we strive for it.
Love is so beautiful.
But that's whats going to be my poison and kill me!
Make my flesh burn and rot into nothing!
My soul will engulf me in a fire of hate,
sorrow and death.
But as I look at the flames surrounding my body,
my eyes flutter with the horrifying memories of my past.
My tears will put the fire out,
but only after all the skin is gone from my body.
All this hate was once love.
All my blood pouring on the floor,
Is all the hate that has built inside me.
I'm sick of Loving things that will never love me back!
The people I treasure just stomp on my heart and all the love I have given them.
So I'll sit in my room, no lights to show the way.
My body will soon rot and vanish from this hell hole you call life.
I'm finally free of this agonizingly painful love,
because the person I love.
Will watch me rot.
GothPut the black lipstick on,Goth4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
glide the eyeliner over,
pull your combat boots on,
put your hair up all crazy,
then black shirt and pants.
Walk around with a frown,
stomping all around,
head hanging low,
ignoring the haters,
deal with the day.
Sneak out at night,
go to the the old graveyard,
meet with your friends,
your with your own kind,
feel loved in this hell.
After laughing so hard tears come,
you go home,
just to do it all again,
until you grow up,
became an adult,
find more of the goths,
and be able to smile,
every night and day.
Kill It NowRed!Kill It Now4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want it!
I want it now!
I want it everywhere!
I want it on the walls!
On my bed!
On my mirror,
in my sink,
on the knife,
covering my skin!
Let it drip it!
Let it bleed,
have it burn!
Cut it deeper!
running over my skin,
breaking it open.
I need more blood!
Blood must shed!
From my eyes,
neck, wrist, heart and soul.
Kill them all now!
I just want to see the color red,
running from my bleeding life.
I need more!
Daddy dearest"I hate you!"Daddy dearest4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"You can't talk to your father that way!"
"You're not my father! And this isn't my home!"
"Shut up! Treat you're father with respect!"
Calmly "If treat me with respect."
"I do! But you're just a horrible child who wants to act like a brat!"
Trying to calm the father down "Maybe if you'd open your eyes...
You see only what you want to see.
Hear only what you want to hear.
And Ignore everything you don't like."
"Go to you're room!"
Stomps away and slams the door.
"I hate you"
Sits on the bed and cries.
"I want to go home mommy..."
Knock. Knock. Knock.
"Let me in!"
"No, I don't want to talk at the moment."
"It's my house dammit, now let me in!"
"No!" 'Why does he always have to hold things over people, even a room witch I live in?'
"If you don't open it I'll get an axe and break it down!"
'Go ahead and hit my head while your at it...so my blood will be
Angel of DarknessLet them scream,Angel of Darkness4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
hear them beg,
have them say my name!
I want them to feel my pain,
the pain they made me feel,
oh so much worse.
With the flesh ripped open,
the heart will stop beating,
drive the dagger deeper into them.
Let them scream!
I want to hear them scream!
Before your dead and gone!
I want you to scream!
And feel pain!
I'm so cold.It's dark.I'm so cold.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not scared.
I, to have someone in my arms.
Someone who wont make me cry.
Someone, who will love me as I love them.
But they're dead.
Cold as ice.
When I brush the tips of my fingers to they're blue cheek,
shivers over take my body.
I blame myself,
for not loving them as much as I could have.
But maybe I can make it up to them.
The blade on my wrist is cold.
It reflects my face, covered in tears.
Now I am scared,
scared, that if I do see them,
they might not want me back.
Blood trickles down my wrist,
as time goes by,
the blood flows quicker.
Its so beautiful,
its so warm,
its so painful.
The room is turning dim,
I lay down and close my eyes.
Its so cold, but yet,
For you my love,
DespairIt really gets you tiredDespair4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When your silent pain
Doesn't come out
Even the darkest flowers bloom
... Don't they?
See the world wither away
As our blood covers the ice
It's taking our light away
Once your eyes used to shine
Now I see only darkness in them
And now even the most bitter tears
Can't turn your head down anymore
It's turning you cold
Once so beautiful voice
It's whispers cannot reach us
See my sarcastic smile
As the blood flows
Down, down, down...
I was never strong enough
To pray for salvation
It died to my lips before I got it out
" Save me, save me.. "
You never heard my silent pleads
Where are those wings
Once so pure, white, innocent
Wings now rotten, dark, vicious
Angel fell once again
It's coming to an end...
I need to let it out
Let the pain out
Out of me
Out of my heart
My dying heart
Let me go
Don't do this to me
Release the despair
Let me be free
Even one day
Even one night
Find my tears
Bring me back
Am I Good Enough...?Legs crossed on a cold basement floor,Am I Good Enough...?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Blood stains painting my flesh,
The wounds deeper than ever before,
A white gown now a short black dress.
Long tangled hair clinging to my tears
Wind howling through the trees,
Moonlight painting a sky so clear,
And darling, I'm going to be set free.
My fingers scratch at the blood on my skin,
A delightful pain at the thought of a touch,
And hey, everyone who said I wasn't worth it,
Now am I good enough?
Sick of societyI may live inside my own, twisted universeSick of society3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I may change, sometimes for the worst.
What's normal to me is not normal for you.
Sometimes I just do what I need to do.
Behind a brick wall, I hoped someone would break it
I threw out my heart hoping someone would take it.
But I got tired of hiding and tired of hating
And instead of throwing myself at every guy, I'm waiting.
I'm sick of the person I tried to be
So basically, here I am, I will be me
I'm sick of the hatred, would you not agree?
.. Basically I'm sick of society.
Secret Hidout II."Moooom~" I said loudly as I walked into the door and shut it, walking threw the kitchen taking poptarts and chocolate milk. "I'm asleep!" She yelled louded back. "Sorry!"...Sorry." I covered my mouth and stopped a luagh frome escaping my mouth and went to my room, triping over a sevreal thing. I really need to clean it.Secret Hidout II.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I layed down on my beg and turned pandora on and got my phone out to text someone from boredom. I remembered the number Carter gave me and pulled it out, putting it in my phones contacts. I texted him "Hey its Kieth." I waited a few minutes playing with some loose strings on my sleeve and singing along with a song I only now three lines to.
Then my phone buzzed.
C:"Hey! I know you! Lol."
K:"Yeah, I know you to lol."
C:"Can I help you?"
K:"I'm bored >.>"
C:"You mean boring, well it cants be helped, wanna go to the movies tomorrow. TED's showing!"
I thought about it for a second. I had already seen it and luagh so hard pespi came out my nose/
K:"Sure, I havent seen it. I
You'll Never Understand...You'll never understand...You'll Never Understand...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I'm glad you don't.
Because that would mean
You'd have to go through my pain.
And I'd never wish that
Secret hidout I.I started the long dreay walk from my house onto my secret hide out. Yeah, I know, Its a little strange for a 17 year old to have a secret hide out. But something about it is so soothing, even thou thats where about 30 people died. Every now and then If I haven't gone there it practicaly calls to me, making me stop my homework, video games or listening to music and reading my manga, It wraps a rope around me and tugs and tugs until I start walking.Secret hidout I.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It takes about 30-45 minutes to get there, all depending on how active I feel like being. Today I'm already half way there and it's only been 15 minutes.
I can see the broken building now, all cement bricks, most of the building gone from the fire so long ago. The grass has grown back in a miniture forest like way. I love that part, I like to lay down and listen to my IPod or read, sometimes I just sit there in the quiet and let the stress of life fade away into the wind taking it away, then I take this little jornal I bought at a book store
Its a little bit Lonely.Thou, as it seems,Its a little bit Lonely.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have been forgotten.
I don't mind.
I have my toys, my games, even a puppy.
Oh..How I love my puppy.
But, not even puppy seems to remember me anymore,
strolling past me in the hall way, sniffing about.
We all use to play,
all the time.
But something happened,
and Mommy and Daddy got very sad.
I wonder what happened, but,
when I ask they don't reply,
even look at me.
The house has gone quiet dark.
I haven't seen Mommy and Daddy,
I haven't seen them for several days now.
And the lights won't come on,
I miss Mommy, And Daddy.
Even thou I don't think they knew I was here.
I wonder were they went.
The puppy went away to.
I've been left completely alone now.
But one day I was sitting in the living room,
Playing with one of the hundreds of toys.
When the front door opened.
A Man and a Woman walked in.
I didn't know them and I'm not allowed to talk to strangers.
So I stayed quiet, and stared.
They didn't look at me, just walked around,
running they're finger
Do You Remember?I burst into laughter,Do You Remember?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You're begging me to let you go,
Do you really think this is a joke?
Now is time for you to bow.
Do you remember when you used to call me "freak"?
What made you believe that I'm so weak?
There's nothing bad in being different,
Now, I hope you know how pleased you should be,
To know the real me,
A mad psycho, that's what I am,
And with a bloody murder, that's how I'll end this game.
Do you remember how you used to break me down?
Everyday bit by bit, why you wanted to destroy my soul?
But I didn't let you see my tears,
I turned my back, pretending is not real,
I couldn't let you know my fears.
Now, I hope you won't mind,
If I tear you open wide,
Chop your heart,
Do you remember you did the same?
For your savage death you are the one to blame.
Why don't you laugh in my face once more?!
Do you believe now that the wheel can turn?
Well, your whole life is about to bend,
Take a look at my hand,
Is that your miserable life that I'm holding?
With your own blood,
Silent ScreamsDarling, I miss you.Silent Screams4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Even if we dragged each other through Hell,
I miss your sweet voice.
We were a pair of masochists...
a pair of sadists...
We hurt each other,
but I still |l|o|v|e| |y|o|u|
[even though it might just be the biggest mistake I've ever made].
I know it seems like this darkness could go on forever,
but, honey, the sun always rises.
Lonely LifeLonely LifeLonely Life4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The boy walks alone in the rain.
All the raindrops hide his tears.
The dark night shows the sorrow in his heart.
Alone he walks in the cold world.
He lost everything.
All the joy in his heart has vanished.
His smile is long erased from his face.
The light is replaced by darkness.
Full of sadness he moans about the past.
The tears fall on his memories and wash them.
The road he must walk is full of demise.
Nothing left in the world for him.
Coldness has consumed him.
Death walks besides him.
His end is closing near.
Every last emotion will be erased.
He falls down in a dark and lonely alley.
Rain is pouring down on him.
The cold raindrops hit his dying body.
His eyes no longer shine.
All the life in him is gone.
No reason for him to live.
He cries in silent tears.
Death comes for him.
The boy who lost all now rests in the cold alley.
His body is washed away by the cold rain.
The eyes that once shined are now no more.
All the tears are now washed away.
No longer will he be hu
Unfinished PortraitThe greatest artist in my first grade classUnfinished Portrait4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Drew me a picture.
It's unfinished, of course,
(Because great art takes time,
And it was only a thirty minute class.)
The sunset's half violet and half white,
And the grass is green straw that we float above.
There are two girls who aren't holding hands.
(You knew already I didn't like to be touched)
We're both wearing blue and facing the sunset.
(I couldn't help but feel like you were a princess in your dress,
While I was just a lowly servant in her jeans.)
You scribbled a signature,
(You knew cursive already?)
And I took it home.
In sixth grade, we'd both grown up into people someone else could like.
You no longer leaned on me, and I was determined not to need you.
But I still kept your picture on my desk.
I remember I asked you why
We were turned towards the sunset.
You said, "That's the future, and we're facing it together, see?"
I laughed and said that was stupid.
But I still went home and taped the picture to
I am a labelI slid the blade across my wristI am a label3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Again and again.
Maybe I’m an emotional freak.
I cause fights and arguments
Maybe I’m a troublemaker.
I use make up to make myself seem
Maybe I’m girly.
I complain about things
Even when sometimes
Maybe I’m an attention seeker.
I fall under so many
So maybe I am a label.
I’m just me.
Dearest Reader,You're holding a grenadeDearest Reader,4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
made of words and paper.
Do with it what you will.
No one will ever know
if you decide to pull the pin
for if you do, these words
will explode upon impact.
Life Spilled On A PageI feel like I can't take it no more, here on the floor I lay,Life Spilled On A Page4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My days, my nights, the moments of my life,
Lost their color, fade to grey
Staring at this blank pice of paper,
I see my memories on rewind,
Starting then to write,
What I really feel inside
I really do my best,
But it seems I just failed this life's test,
I'm nobody and like this I'll stay,
To get up there is no way
So I spill my life on this page,
The only way to free myself,
From the frustration and rage,
I'll paint and write my memories,
While I'm trying to feel again,
The soft touch of the air's breeze,
But it seems like the time is frozen, all I feel is pain
As I write,
For a short moment I've felt like everything was alright,
But then I woke up to the real life,
The dark, grim world,
Where I'm always wrong
Glass WallI look at you, you look at me,Glass Wall4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I miss the way we used to be,
I call out your name, but you can't hear,
Even if you're standing there, you're far away from here.
I sit and stare,
I know is not my world anymore,
A glass wall separated our lives,
Built by broken promises and lies,
An impenetrable wall without a door.
How could we let this happened?
When we got this to an end?
But now my world is shattering,
With tears in my eyes,
I'm leaning on the wall,
Waiting for this world to fall.
The sky is coming down on me,
Sherds of sun are ripping off my skin,
From the pain soon I'll be set free.
You stare at me,
But your sight is empty,
I touch the glass wall, waiting to flee,
Or maybe just to drown in my own blood,
Destroyed by my expectations,
In the end that's all I've got.
I close my eyes,whispering "goodbye",
I don't hate you, I never really did,
I smile, even if now for me is time to die.
Your Former AngelWatch these broken wings,Your Former Angel4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As they fall dawn to the floor.
I'm sorry, it's just that,
I'm not your Angel anymore.
See the blackened scars,
That stain this battered frame,
The marks of pure self hatred,
Oh, Isn't it a shame?!
See the rope burn round the throat,
That you once so gently kissed,
But you don't really care do you?
This Angel won't be missed.
Don't you see you caused this,
By feeding me your lies,
Now you can stand and watch,
As your former Angel dies.
Victim to DesireI see where it all went wrong now.Victim to Desire4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I looked back at what I was too afraid to see before.
I see what made my heart stop beating;
veins stop bleeding.
I see now why it hurt so badly.
I see now why it tore me apart.
I see now why I took the risk;
jumped the c
Your HorribleYour vile,Your Horrible4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hate you,
with every fiber in my body,
you never care,
you never try,
are you even human?
Human try to please people,
we are forced to do it by our minds,
but you do nothing.
I hope you rot,
away with you thoughts,
in a little white room,
locked away forever.