From an Insecure GirlfriendI'm sorry for the excess of apologies
And for all the thoughts that I've indulged
For dealing with the summer full of insecurities
That I only half-divulged
It's not easy living as an irrational being
That's motivated by her fear
But I could stand the poison I feed myself
If it stayed out of your atmosphere
I'm just a little lost, and a little dazed
At having someone that finds me fit
I've never had something this remarkable before
But I doubt I could have held on to it
And though I continue to learn and grow
To the shadow of the girl you deserve
There's still that something deep within
Controlled by assumptions both grand and absurd
And if I seem afraid of losing you
It's not that I don't believe your words
It's because I don't trust myself to keep you,
As is the way with cowards
But even though I'm a living mess,
A bundle of chaos upon your life,
That doesn't change that as long as I'm yours
You will make me feel alright
I know you say you're nothing amazing
Well, darling, neither am
InsecureI may seem brave,Insecure10 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I may seem strong,
But in truth I do in destiny belong
To my fears,
The stream of lonely forgotten years,
That have replaced my dignity;
A dagger so jagged,
The fragments left behind,
Only cling at my soul to remind
Me of my shortcommings and imperfections
And tell me I'm negotiable;
That things will never stay the same;
The world changes,
The tides turn.
Black and white,
Grow easier to discern.
So life goes on.
in Destiny's bond.
Hopes and dreams tarry along.
In the depths of my mind,
Sparks that little ping of horror
That I'll be left
BeautifulI felt beautiful today.Beautiful4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I didn't straighten my hair,
And I didn't put on makeup.
I closed my white blinds and let
The light shine through
For a fresh background.
I stole my fathers camera,
Turned on my iPod, and began to dance.
I held it away and smiled,
Letting the -click- of the shutters
Blend with the music, forming its own beat.
I grinned and twirled in one of my sister's dresses,
Not giving a care should she walk in.
I laughed and fiddled with my hair,
I was coy and shy and natural.
I shed my shell of T-Shirts and jeans,
And let myseelf be free.
I look at the pictures I had taken and said,
Oh- there you are.
I've been looking for you.
To Night, From the InsomniacHello, NightTo Night, From the Insomniac4 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Familiar old friend of mine
I wish I could meet you later
Haven't you noticed the time?
Decked in your moonlight gems
Let me sleep, let me rest
I'm tired of 4am
Because I can't dance in the darkness
And I can't sing without sleep
Why would you let me close my eyes
When it's in corners that you creep?
Oh foreign friend of mine
Sunlight's sliding through the cracks now
Guess I'm leaving you behind
Whispering on the morning dew
I'm sorry I can't love your light
But Night's left nothing here for you
InsecureI fidget I fiddleInsecure7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I feel panicked and paranoid
I know I can't relax
When my behaviours seem so void
If you're looking at me
I can guess what you're thinking
My heart knows I'm wrong
But my confidence is sinking
The mirror is my enemy
Relflection brings me to tears
Far from perfection
The most realised of my fears
Look at the mess that has become
Out of something so pure
But I'm helpless against my mind
When I feel so insecure
UglyMy face is uglyUgly6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My hair is messy
My nose is big
My finger nails are short
My arms are chubby
And I weigh more than I should.
I'm insecure and just want someone to love, but I know no one will ever love me. How could someone love me? I'm too hideous.
A lot of these things go through her head every day.
I watch her as she goes through the halls alone and sad.
I want to be there for her.
To hold her and tell her I love her.
To tell her she's the most beautiful girl I ever met.
Her face is beautiful
Her hair is gorgeous, especially when it blows in the wind
Her nose is perfect, cute as a button
Her black finger nails are perfect the way they are
Her arms look just like any other person's; I still want to hug around them either way
I don't care how much she weighs she'll still look beautiful in my eyes
From a Guy's P.O.V
Big vs SkinnyYou say that big is beautifulBig vs Skinny3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
That it's the new 'in thing'
You talk about how nice I'd look
If only I weren't thin
But will you come to realise
That it really isn't right
To say that we're not big enough
And take our name in spite?
You may have gotten insults
From some idiotic men
But when you call us skin and bones
You're just as bad as them
To say that big is beautiful
Is fine and true to say
To say that big is better
Is to think a hateful way
Nothing's better, nothing's 'right'
We're built to look unique
To say we're pretty, big and skinny
That's the peace I seek
It's easier to get along
When we're not starting fights
To see the wars of big vs skinny
Aren't such pretty sights
So lets find a happy medium
To stop this pointless hate
Let's have respect for everyone
No matter what their weight
And when we all abide by this
We'll see what happens then
A world full of less hate and fear
And more friendship again
The Blame of Copper and ViolinHer eyes are downcast, and her mouth a jagged line, "Why did you do it....?"The Blame of Copper and Violin4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
His perfect lips moved slowly, forming hard and uncaring words which crashed into her heart like boulders, "What did I do?"
A cold tear rolled down her cheek, her heart was no longer a roaring furnace, it couldn't make her tears warm, "Why did you kill him?"
Raising an eyebrow, he said, "Why did you kill him?"
She leapt to her feet, an ember of indignation flared faintly in her voice, "I never killed him! That was you! Just you! I loved him, and held him, and kissed him and danced with him and-"
"And never cared enough to notice the colour of his eyes?" he smirked, "You didn't love him. For you he was just there. Then when you tired of him, when he became inconvenient and awkward, you just dropped him in the mud. You poured vodka into his young soul, you corrupted his ears with nightmarish tales, and who pick
Lil Miss Scene QueenTeased hairLil Miss Scene Queen4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
With neon highlights
And bows to match
With fishnet stockings
Arm warmers and gloves
And accessories that bling
Dark eyed makeup
With piercings all about
Ray ban glasses
And a plushie in hand
High trimmed skirts
With graphic tees
IPod turned up
And they're ready for the show
This is the life
With the glitz and the glam
Of being a scene queen
And proud of it
The AbusedTheir EyesThe Abused4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Have many stories hidden behind them
They stare at you blankly
Sadness and pain buried deep within
But you won't catch a tear shed from them
Their hands and feet
Brutally beaten, trashed, slashed, and stepped upon
By the ones who cruelly made them victimized
Forced to live fearing for their lives
Yet they refuse to break and continue to survive
Forever scarred from being completely broken to pieces
From the tortures of abuse for the many years
Not knowing who to trust
Though they continue to stay strong
Images carved deep inside them
Of everlasting turmoil
Confused on what they did wrong
Yet still able to live life like nothing is wrong
Is Incomparable to anything on this earth
As they fight to survive for those who have been silenced
By the deeds of the criminal minded abuser
And will together have the courage to break past the chains of evil
Together they stand
Hand in hand
Refusing to be de
The Lunacy of InsecurityInsecurity creates madmen from lovers.The Lunacy of Insecurity4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Insecurity convinces you that the person who loved you two hours ago has somehow, over that course of time, changed his or her mind.
Insecurity causes you to look at everyone as an enemy. Everyone is a potential threat, with no greater intention than stealing your lover away.
Insecurity tells you that your love could easily be cheating on you. After all, he or she knows you better than anyone and could easily play you.
Insecurity keeps you up at night and forces you to think of all the ways things can go wrong. It makes you forget how everything has all ready gone right.
Insecurity invents situations that do not exist and plant them firmly in your mind.
Insecurity convinces you that he or she can't really love you. After all, you don't even love yourself.
Insecurity creates madmen from lovers.
And Insecurity makes sure that madness is what makes your worst fears come true.
SorryI'm sorry I'm not perfect,Sorry4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm sorry I'm not worth it.
I'm sorry we can't forget it,
I'm sorry you regret it.
I'm sorry for who I've been,
I'm sorry for who I am.
I'm sorry whatever it is,
I'm sorry it's come to this.
The Little ThingsThe Little ThingsThe Little Things5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's funny how the little things change us.
The fine print is what I pay attention to. I like how when you said "i like u", I thought I knew what you really meant.
And how when I didn't hear from you for a few days, my gut was telling me to run away. Don't look back, it didn't matter what happened.
The little things like that Cowboys hat that I made fun of you for. But now I can't watch a game without thinking of you.
And every time I see a mango smoothie at the store, I smile. Because I knew all about you and your secret stash.
How there used to be a heart on your contact information on my phone. Now it looks like this -
AfraidI love you, I love you, I love you, it's true,Afraid4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
but you don't even know it, do you?
Truth be told, I'm really afraid,
of giving you my heart,
and my heart getting played.
I'm afraid of the tears
that I know will come
My biggest fears-
let me tell you some
I'm afraid I'll never know
More afraid I'll never show
That you are the one that I want,
You are my heart's true desire
You are the one stalking my dreams in the night,
the one who sets my soul on fire
I'm afraid of what you might say.
Afraid that is might be a no.
But most of all I tell you this,
I'm afraid that you'll someday let go
I want you with me forever,
and as friends, I know you'll stay
But if I tell you how I really feel,
I'm afraid that you'll just turn away
So please, please, I'm begging you now
let me get this off of my chest, somehow...
I love you,
more than you know
I love you,
and I'm afraid I can't go
On with my life
thinking that I never told you...
That on top of all this,
one more fear I will stack...
If I Could SingI'm sorry I can't write a song for you, loveIf I Could Sing4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I'm sorry that the words never come
I can see your eyes in the back of my skull
And I wish I could tell you how you make me whole
I wish there was music in my fingertips
So I could sing to you with your taste on my lips
I just want to belt out a melody
As haunting as the one you wrote for me
But I just try to make something of myself
Because you are worth letting go of myself
Because your name is engraved upon my veins
It has been since I remembered your face
Like a dream, unchanged
I woke up one day wanting you
And after everything that we've been through
And after everything that's changed
I still want you
I never stopped wanting you
I'm sorry that my words are wearing thin
I'm veiled by clichés and words that have never been
I imagine your eyes staring into mine
And I wish I could tell you that, for the first time, I'm fine
I wish my voice was a siren's song
And I wasn't ashamed, and it didn't feel so wrong
Because my voice trembles
InsecureIts like the second you hear someone whisperInsecure4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You get an urge to turn around
As if you expect them to be pointing at you.
Sometimes when you look in the mirror
And your reflection is frowing at you
You just hope the mirror won't break.
If someone calls you beautiful
You can only hope it's not a joke
So you shrug it off
Like you never heard a thing
If you hold eye contact with someone
You wanna to look away again
And put a paper bag over your head.
When someone laughs in the hallway
You have an urge to run and cry
Because in the back of your head
They're laughing at you.
If someone says you're ugly,
You want to nod in agreement
Scream "I know" at the top of your lungs
But you're crushed because someone else noticed too.
I don't know about you
But that's what I feel like.
BittersweetB i t t e r s w e e tBittersweet6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sticks and stones,
Ain't life sweet?
And chocolate cakes,
All the scars,
Memories of your mistakes
Eyes sewed shut.
_.Life ain't always sweet._
The Screaming SilentListen to the screaming silentThe Screaming Silent4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Iron eyes will tell the story
Their walls tell tales of love so violent
The guilty ones aren't usually sorry
The life they live is hidden well
As the truth acts like a noose
There are some things men just don't tell
So they endure the abuse
You wouldn't think to look for them
But I know the scars are there
These tiny cracks can break a gem
When it's mentioned people stare
It happens to men of every kind
Even stoic people break
They work so hard to keep us blind
But just how much can they take
Pride keeps the battered underground
On the surface they look fine
They stand up tall when we're around
These men aren't easy to define
I Want Back JimmyI want back the guy that chased stallion ducks around the parkI Want Back Jimmy4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I want back the guy that tattooed his name on his back
I want back the guy that lived in a laundry mat
I want back Jimmy
I want back the guy that played the best drums in the world
I want back the guy that never stopped smiling
I want back the guy that wrote all A7X's best songs
I want back Jimmy
I want back the guy that called himself the knife master
I want back the guy that saw the world in a different view than anyone else
I want back the guy that rapped a song about his nuts
I want back Jimmy
God, you can keep Kurt Cobain
You can have Keith Moon
God, you can even keep John Lennon
But God, just give back Jimmy
James Owen "the Reverend Tholomew Plague" Sullivan
Drummer of Avenged Sevenfold
February 9th, 1981December 28th, 2009
Time of Death: 5:12 pm
"He jumped into life, and never touched bottom"Jimmy's Epitaph
Simple Six words I love you,Simple Six words4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yet you're gone...
love?hugging.love?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but what is actual love?
too young to give up| shy boy |too young to give up5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
- regrets every moment;
- is scared of truth;
- buries his head in a pillow and cries,
This isn't the way it was meant to be.
| broken boy |
- trembles because he doesn't like silence;
- tries to fit the pieces of his heart back together;
- bites his lip and whispers,
I hate this part.
| determined boy |
- dreams of hot summer breezes;
- kisses uncertainty goodbye;
- looks her in the eye and says,
I'm all that you ever wanted.
he grits his teeth and murmurs,
I'm going to make you happy.
[she has no idea]
Wish ListI want you to hug me. I want you to kiss me.Wish List4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want you to hold me tight and never let go.
I want you to hold my hand
and walk with me.
I want you to be there when I wake up.
I want you to talk to me until I fall asleep.
I want you to know all the private things no one else does.
I want to tell you everything.
I want to listen while you tell me.
I never want you to stop telling me how much you love me
or miss me when I'm gone.
I want to be with you in every way
every day after some day.
I want to be able to lean into you
and for you to know what it is I'm trying to say.
I want to kiss you, hug you, love you
from now until the day,
you want me to stop.
I want you to be there when I can't stop laughing
or when I cry,
because I will
even if I don't want to admit that I cry sometimes.
I want you to hear every quiet gasp
and to know whether it was from surprise or pleasure.
I want you to make me love you
the way I've never loved anybody before.
I want you to take my fears and
For the way I am.Punch me,For the way I am.7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Call me a fag.
No matter what you do,
Youre still my dad.
You loved me so much
Until I came out
Now all you do
Is hit me and shout.
Im no son in your eyes,
Im a natural freak,
But you cant kick me out,
Im yours to keep.
Mom had left you,
Long, long ago,
And much to my misfortune,
Theres no place to go.
You wont let me out
Passed nine oclock
Because you think
Im the slut on the block.
You smack me and yell,
You say Im just filth,
That God didnt make me,
Im the devils will.
Well you know what old man?
Im going to leave.
To run far away,
And then youll see.
Ill find love,
And wont be hit anymore,
So just you watch,
As I walk out the door.
Theres nothing wrong with being gay,
Or anything else, I was born that way.
So why dont you go,
And read your dear bible,
Because the checks from the government
For me, youre not liable.
-Jimohnny- Never Give In p.1I had known them for over a decade ten years. Though every time I glimpsed at a picture, memories returned. I tried to forget about them, yet I knew it was impossible to forget beauty. Perhaps somehow I tried to bury away the feelings I had for one of them for nearly over 5 years.-Jimohnny- Never Give In p.14 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
I could truly say, I really knew them. They had been my friends when everybody bullied me at school, they were there for me when I needed a shoulder to cry on. I was weird, people told me. I didn't look like everyone else, yet I knew I didn't. Perhaps I was even glad I didn't.
I was different, I wasn't like anybody else, I even tried to act like everybody else, although that was impracticable for me. I had been more of a loner really, never had friends. To be honest, no one wanted to be near me. Like it was visible on the outside that I was the odd one out.
It all started rather early with all the bullying. I went to kindergarten for a while. All I can remember was the corner with