From an Insecure GirlfriendI'm sorry for the excess of apologies
And for all the thoughts that I've indulged
For dealing with the summer full of insecurities
That I only half-divulged
It's not easy living as an irrational being
That's motivated by her fear
But I could stand the poison I feed myself
If it stayed out of your atmosphere
I'm just a little lost, and a little dazed
At having someone that finds me fit
I've never had something this remarkable before
But I doubt I could have held on to it
And though I continue to learn and grow
To the shadow of the girl you deserve
There's still that something deep within
Controlled by assumptions both grand and absurd
And if I seem afraid of losing you
It's not that I don't believe your words
It's because I don't trust myself to keep you,
As is the way with cowards
But even though I'm a living mess,
A bundle of chaos upon your life,
That doesn't change that as long as I'm yours
You will make me feel alright
I know you say you're nothing amazing
Well, darling, neither am
BeautifulI felt beautiful today.Beautiful5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I didn't straighten my hair,
And I didn't put on makeup.
I closed my white blinds and let
The light shine through
For a fresh background.
I stole my fathers camera,
Turned on my iPod, and began to dance.
I held it away and smiled,
Letting the -click- of the shutters
Blend with the music, forming its own beat.
I grinned and twirled in one of my sister's dresses,
Not giving a care should she walk in.
I laughed and fiddled with my hair,
I was coy and shy and natural.
I shed my shell of T-Shirts and jeans,
And let myseelf be free.
I look at the pictures I had taken and said,
Oh- there you are.
I've been looking for you.
InsecureI may seem brave,Insecure10 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I may seem strong,
But in truth I do in destiny belong
To my fears,
The stream of lonely forgotten years,
That have replaced my dignity;
A dagger so jagged,
The fragments left behind,
Only cling at my soul to remind
Me of my shortcommings and imperfections
And tell me I'm negotiable;
That things will never stay the same;
The world changes,
The tides turn.
Black and white,
Grow easier to discern.
So life goes on.
in Destiny's bond.
Hopes and dreams tarry along.
In the depths of my mind,
Sparks that little ping of horror
That I'll be left
Someone Like YouI can't stay away from youSomeone Like You4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
We can't fight this
There' something more...just under your skin
The traces of your fingertips across my shoulders
My neck, my mouth
A thumb pushing away the saltwater on my cheeks
Your mouth turned down in frustration, and telling me you don't understand
But you don't say a word
You see the scratches on my arms
And you do speak now, and you ask me why I would do this
You pull the words out of me with no effort
My heartbroken story
How he left me
The first time I tried to end myself
The day I met you
The second time I tried
How you saved me
You manage to glue this broken girl together
Just a brush of your hands unravels her
You don't care
Because you love me
Letter to...hey, motherLetter to...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm writing this letter to explain you
why have I been away for so long
don't worry, I just want to tell you
that it's not your fault,
not your fault
I didn't want you to see me fail
to feel as if your struggles have been in vain
your hair is gray and it's not even time
your wrinkles are getting deeper with every mistake of mine
you're sick and angry, for all I know
but please, don't tear the pages before you read
I won't blame you, I'll only let you know
that it's not your fault,
not your fault
I'll only apologize for being a burden
for crying and kicking at all the wrong directions
for suffocating you with my incompletion
for never listening when you were in pain
I'm sorry for never being around
I just didn't want you to see me all run down
it's not that I hate you, in fact I love you a lot
and it's not your fault,
not your fault
you're not responsible for these awful scars
you're not the one who killed my pride
so what should it be you to suffer by
GoodbyeHow can I say goodbye to you?Goodbye10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's the hardest thing I will ever do.
Goodbye could mean not seeing you again,
Never seeing your smile,
Or witnessing your eyes shining bright.
It means never seeing your face,
Not talking to you, I can't accept.
Of course it means never getting to explain,
That I still love you,
I have for all of time,
And I will never stop loving you,
Even if you don't feel the same…
I would never mistreat you like those bastards did,
And I wont forget one thing you've ever said to me,
Any of the hugs you've given,
Or the moments we've shared.
Refuse to say bye,
Bye signals an ending,
And if it ends, so will I
I can't get by without you.
So I will never say goodbye to you.
I love you too much,
It's the one thing I can never do…
UglyMy face is uglyUgly6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My hair is messy
My nose is big
My finger nails are short
My arms are chubby
And I weigh more than I should.
I'm insecure and just want someone to love, but I know no one will ever love me. How could someone love me? I'm too hideous.
A lot of these things go through her head every day.
I watch her as she goes through the halls alone and sad.
I want to be there for her.
To hold her and tell her I love her.
To tell her she's the most beautiful girl I ever met.
Her face is beautiful
Her hair is gorgeous, especially when it blows in the wind
Her nose is perfect, cute as a button
Her black finger nails are perfect the way they are
Her arms look just like any other person's; I still want to hug around them either way
I don't care how much she weighs she'll still look beautiful in my eyes
From a Guy's P.O.V
Love LetterDear you,Love Letter6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I cant explain how I feel. I would say I love you, everything about you, but the words seem overused, their different than the feeling. Dont blame me for this. Its not my fault, youre- youre, well actually if I had to describe you in one word Id choose indescribable. All of you is beyond human comprehension; youre far more than a few mere vibrations from my throat. You remind me of a star, maybe youre from a far away star; thatd explain why whenever Im around you my palms get sweaty and how I heat up until my insides feel like theyre going to burst open and leave me scattered in pieces, I know it sounds gross, but the feeling of it is quite wonderful. Im stuck to you. I think its because of your eyes, theyre like some magical sticky glue. I just have to stare at them, into them, because even though you never say what you mean your eyes show confidence to what you speak. Its be
To Night, From the InsomniacHello, NightTo Night, From the Insomniac4 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Familiar old friend of mine
I wish I could meet you later
Haven't you noticed the time?
Decked in your moonlight gems
Let me sleep, let me rest
I'm tired of 4am
Because I can't dance in the darkness
And I can't sing without sleep
Why would you let me close my eyes
When it's in corners that you creep?
Oh foreign friend of mine
Sunlight's sliding through the cracks now
Guess I'm leaving you behind
Whispering on the morning dew
I'm sorry I can't love your light
But Night's left nothing here for you
InsecureI fidget I fiddleInsecure7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I feel panicked and paranoid
I know I can't relax
When my behaviours seem so void
If you're looking at me
I can guess what you're thinking
My heart knows I'm wrong
But my confidence is sinking
The mirror is my enemy
Relflection brings me to tears
Far from perfection
The most realised of my fears
Look at the mess that has become
Out of something so pure
But I'm helpless against my mind
When I feel so insecure
CuttingIt feels so goodCutting3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to feel the pain
the hate in life
and the hurt all around
It feels so good
to go deep inside
the veins that leave marks'
and the blood pouring down
It feels so good
to feel that you are alive
to love the pain
to love the scars
It feels so right
to feel the cuts
every time it happens
and the smell of flesh
It just feels so right
to love this pain
to love the cuts
and to see the scars
It just feels so good
to feel the hurt
like it was always meant to be
like it has to happen all the time
It just feels so good
to know what it's like
to taste your own blood...
to see the scars on your arms...
Self-InflictedSelf-InflictedSelf-Inflicted3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I just hate myself.
I hate the life that I lead.
I hate the things that I've done.
I keep trying to figure out.
Where it is exactly that I went wrong.
No matter how hard I try to evade
And blame others for my actions.
At some point I am forced to accept.
That the problem resides within me
And the answer remains absent.
I am the common dominator.
I am the back stabbing selfish traitor.
It's nothing to do with how I was raised
Or the credentials and intentions of my creators.
We choose our own paths.
We make our own decisions.
It is only us that determine what kind of life we lead.
There may be externa
What do I want?What do I want?What do I want?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want acceptance
Whether it shapes my life or is just a phase
I want comfort
That even if I mess up, no one will criticize me
I want assurance
That when I screw up, I can cry, learn from it, and move on
I want peace
Not having to look over my shoulder every time I leave the house
I want equality
Regardless of age, gender identity, or sexual orientation
I want love
No matter who I chose to give my heart to
I want to dream
Imagine a future the way I see it
I want support
If I become a doctor, tattooist, or janitor
I want encouragement
To follow my heart
What do I want?
To live and to be alive
WorryThe hollow feeling creeps inWorry3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The emptiness begins
Longing for you to be here,
here to keep away this familiar fear
The aching mind that worries and frets,
beginning to recall my last regrets
The heart that beats for you,
feeling as if it's about to break in two
The anxiety of waiting is enough to kill
The wants and needs you can only fulfill,
they drive me crazy to the point of break
I only wonder how much more I can take
Can you not see,
what you do to me?
You are the cure to my curse,
only you can make the feelings reverse
Why do you leave me to wait for your sweet call?
Why do you wait until my sanity is about to fall?
If only there was a way to keep you here,
then I would no longer have this creeping fear
I'm Just BrokenScars and memories will fade awayI'm Just Broken3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As long as there's time left to heal.
All I have ever wanted was
To show them all just how I feel.
I would have faced a world at end
If I could have proved myself right.
I've worked so hard to be here now;
I will not give up on the fight.
Although they want me to give in,
I cannot surrender myself.
I have to hold on to each dream
Though it will not save me my health.
It was always hard to get through
When I dealt with it each new day.
Before I knew it, time passed by
And my sanity slipped away.
They only way I could survive
Was to change the girl I once knew
Into someone stronger than she,
Who could stand her ground through and through.
Every lie I've ever told
Protected the weak side of me.
The one they thought had disappeared
Existed where no one could see.
I've been pushed to the breaking point
And now, the demon has woken.
But even after all of this,
I realize: I'm just broken.
Hurt...I Laid Back ThinkingHurt...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just Thoughts Of Friends
I Thought Of The Good Life
And I Didn't Want It To End
You Came Into My Life
And Ruined Just My Smile
I Frowned and It Stayed Steady
I Knew You'd Be Here For a While
You Took Away My Friends
And You Sabotoged My Brain
My Sweat Blended With Tears
From Now On Things Weren't The Same
Before You Were So Friendly
But Now Your Just a Waste Of Time
I Loved When You Didn't Change
But Now I'm Just Gonna Free Rhyme
You Hid Me From Your Secrets
And I Always Told You Mine
Now I Walk The Dust Trail Lonely
To Me Your Like a Rotten Crime
You Used To Be Almost Perfect
But Now Your Far Behind
When You Smiled I'd Laugh With You
I'm Off Yours When Your On My Mind
It Was a Mistake To Trust You
Your On Team RavenClaw
You Turned Your Back Away From Me
I'm Like Wood Cut With a Saw
I Should Of Known The Danger
When You First Stepped In My Path
I Took Chances and I've Fallen
I'm Like The Forgotten Equation In Math
So I'd Think About The Moments
Of Your Happy And Sa
A letter I'll never send.The letter I keep writingA letter I'll never send.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to my children.
I have never told you
that I once lost you to my
that your tiny flailing
fists once made me feel as if
the world was striking out
at me through you.
I used to feed you in
the bath tub, wondering if
perhaps I could let your
weight drag us under.
I still believe that it was
you who kept me afloat.
I keep writing this letter
to keep me calm, to keep me from
hating myself for ever thinking
of you as burdens.
And someday I want to tell you
that I once lost myself to
my own sadness, and that
it was you that kept
Behind Those Eyes You HideBehind those eyes you hideBehind Those Eyes You Hide4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The fear and pain you feel
Kept in secret of oblivion
Seeing what isn't real
The mask of contentment
Covers your wounds
But your eyes
Well up in the fumes
Everything captured inside
Begging to escape
Can't be concealed
Your eyes being the gate
The weight bares down
Like an anchor at the bottom of the sea
You wait there patiently
For someone like me