So Much To Lose.Theres This Girl,So Much To Lose.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I Once Knew.
She Was So, So Lucky.
She Was Confident, And Shy.
She Was Beautiful, And Modest.
She Was Your Best Friend, And Your Shoulder To Lean On.
This Girl Had Everything In Front Of Her,
She Was Doing Everything Right.
She Smiled At All The Right Jokes,
She Said All The Right Things
And She Always Knew What To Do.
Her Eyes, They Sparkled.
Her Hair, It Shined.
Her Laugh, It Bubbled.
Her Smile, Always True.
I Cant Help, But Hate This Girl.
She Had Everything,
And Let Everything Slip Past Her.
Here She Is Today,
Her Eyes Haven't Sparkled In Forever.
Her Hair Dyed A Dark Shade Of Dispair.
Her Laugh Falls Flat.
Her Smile, Always Forced.
She Had Everything,
But Everything Just Meant She Had So Much To Lose.
TearA single tearTear4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
be the last
the pain you
gave to me?
July 7th, 2010
ShatteredI would break every mirrorShattered4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
so I wouldn't see myself,
so I wouldn't tremble with horror,
so I wouldn't ask for help.
She is a monster;
she would rip me open,
she would burn me 'til I shiver,
and she would do it all over again.
Now I have broken every mirror,
every jagged piece is scattered.
But she's everywhere.
Bleak, I wait to be murdered.
it rained one year ago today.so i thought iit rained one year ago today.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
was invisible; and i
could hide from you and
your glances that cripple
so i thought you were
deaf; and you couldn't
hear me and i didn't
have to hide my words
with my actions.
so i thought i was
gone; and you weren't a part
of me anymore, but you found
to stay inside of me when
it is cold outside and i'm
sitting on your porch
waiting for you to
again; i remember one
year ago today, when we stood together
in the streets; in traffic.
we felt free.
we felt safe.
From MeFrom the girl who used to be the love of your lifeFrom Me4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The girl to whom you used to say ''you'll be my wife''
From the day we met I always felt a certain trust
Our relationship I'll always look back to with love and lust
I know I screwed it all up, you don't have to say
And now I'm looking at it all in a different way
I blamed you for nearly everything, we know that's true
Now I know that I must take the blame too
I made mistakes and maybe I made one too many
But it's not like you didn't have your faults, honey
I got us in trouble, I checked out other girls
But I always thought you'd forgive me, since I let you into my world
I guess I was wrong, I guess I went too far
But you know I'll never get you out of my heart
Although you left me already, I beg for forgiveness
And know that you will dearly be missed
Even though we might not ever be together again
I have to ask you, will we still be friends?
48 - Childhood: Tell Metell me again what i once knew48 - Childhood: Tell Me4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
when i was never alone
and you never let me go
tell me what life was like
when the sun bathed in the sea
and the fish danced on the waves
tell me how we used to fly
when the clouds laughed
and the stars kissed our faces
tell me how the horses ran
when the moon was full
and the wind whisked their manes
tell me of the sunsets
when the sea was wine-dark
and your heart was as a bird
tell me how we used to touch the sun's rays
when our dreams were a sweet reality
and time was held in the palms of our hands
Memories of EdenIt's days like these I want to fling myself against a wall, hoping my heart strings will snap. Broken, yet free. I want to dive into the lithium and put my earphones on, to drown the world in lithium too. 'Cuz I wanna go out with a bang.Memories of Eden4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I laugh and cry when you don't see my bloody fingers. I bet it's a blessing in disguise, if I think hard enough. You ask me why my fingers are dirty and I smile. 'Cuz I'm only a child, lost inside half a lobe of her brain and too ignorant to take the other path.
Despite these things, I'm going to keep running up that hill. I'll keep wailing for the rain clouds and running away from my crippled heart, running for the leper. 'Cuz if you close your eyes and dream a little harder, Eden isn't that far away.
Why must I love?I swore I wouldn't think about you.Why must I love?4 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
I don't want to think about you. That's reasonable, right? That's the reason I wanted to come here, really to be away from you, from all those pesky memory triggers, from the places we had been together.
I just want to forget, and then maybe I'll return happy and content in the knowledge that you don't mean anything to me.
Somehow, though, I think it doesn't help that every guy I'm kind of sort of attracted to here reminds me of you...
You I say 'you' because I don't want to hide from you. YOU. There. See? I can say it. I can face you.
(Which is why I'm here.)
I love him
Do you remember when I told you about my memory? About how I can remember every word in a conversation, about how every moment of every day is etched into my mind like acid on a metal plate?
And I'm here to forget.
I'm laughing, but I don't know why. &