I see you - London 2011I see you London riots 2011
I see you,
Behind my glass HD screen I watch,
I can smell the smoke, draw breath and choke.
The fires burn and scar this stubborn town.
It cries out in pain with shrieking sirens.
It's polished cosmetic skin melts away,
Leaving black skeletons to scrape the twitching sky.
I see you,
Darkness cannot hide you anymore,
As flashing lights illuminate the betrayal.
The curling smoke tugs at helicopters tails,
Pulling them closer to the charred beautiful ground.
Streets like veins, pumping dimming lights,
The sky darkens, and the blood thickens for another night.
We Were SomedaySomeday,We Were Someday5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When we're done with school,
We'll live together
We'll leave this place
And go where nobody knows us
Even if I can't,
I'll put a ring on your finger
Someday, we won't have to apologize.
When this is all over,
We'll be together always
I'll come back to you,
And it'll be just us
Someday, this war will end.
Everything is going to be all right
We were always
I wanted to tell youThere's a heady exhilaration blooming in my chest and a broad, triumphant smile on my lips and I know I look almost too happy, but I can't control my beaming, and I am absolutely bursting to tell you the news:I wanted to tell you4 years ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
That my essay was perfect, that I nailed the presentation, that the biochem final was a walk in the park.
And, oh, God, I want to tell you so many things and that I love you and that I want you and I want to feel your arms around me, just barely containing my wild excitement. I want to laugh with relief and feel your lips curve up in a smile against the skin of my neck.
And I love you,
I love you,
I love you.
It's these moments when I am absolutely on top of the world that I want to share with you. I want you to laugh and tease me and call me a nerdy little bookworm and your baby girl and then kiss me all over so that I am pulled in a thousand directions at once. I want to absolutely unwind in your arms, but you hold me so tightly that I'm never afraid
Today, I AmI am bitter todayToday, I Am5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
There's no way she loved me like she said
She wouldn't have left me if she did
I am sorry today
I know she loved me all along
And I hate that I thought otherwise yesterday
I am longing today
I saw two lovers walking down the street
And I wished she and I could take their places
I am content today
I dreamed about her
And in my dream, she was happy
I am frightened today
I wished I were dead
I've never wished that before
I am empty today
I cried about her until my friends dropped by
And I had to hide my tears because they've never seen me cry
And I think it would scare them
I am angry today
I saw a USMC recruiter
And I wanted to grab him by the lapels and shake him
And make him bring her home
But, of course, she's Air Force and a marine's not going to help much
I also don't think recruiters have much pull in the chain of command.
Especially in a completely different branch of the service...
Sometimes I see soldiers on leave and I want to ask them if they've seen h
RunI want to run away with you. Just you.Run5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'll never forget that look of hope in your eyes,
The feel of strength in your hands,
And that promise of forever in your words.
I only wish I could forget my answer.
We can't. You know how much I want to.
But We just can't.
GunshotIt was you they gunned down in a dusty street.Gunshot5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So why does it feel like there's a bullet lodged in my heart?
When they hurt you
They nearly killed me, too.
Letting GoI needed to know I matteredLetting Go5 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
To the one I love
But it all fell apart
When push came to shove
You moved me and consumed me
Lied to me and denied me
I just can't seem to fight
These feelings inside me
So I'm letting you go
I put away all of your letters
Is my sight finally lucid
Or am I as jaded as ever?
I made a grave mistake
When I opened my heart to you
I guess I was wrong
When I thought you'd love me too
Now I'm left all alone
With my dreams to remind me
Of the friend I wasted
Whose beauty still blinds me
So I'm letting you go
I put away all of your letters
Is my sight finally lucid
Or am I as jaded as ever?
I never even knew
My love for you tasted so bitter
You were the gun in my mouth
When I pulled the trigger
And if you ever come around
You will find me faithless
I don't even know
If I can ever face this
I didn't mean to hurt you
I only meant to pick you up
I didn't mean to push you away
I only wanted to lift you up
So I'm letting you go
I put away all of your let
TrueI lost everything I was, true.True4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But all I was
I was for you.
I wish you knew
How I still cry
To think of you
Already GoneWill you just keep running away?Already Gone5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Inside OutIt is like my skin cannot contain meInside Out4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like every fear and every secret
Churns and hammers and rages
Just beneath my shoulder blades
And the worn-out hollow
At the base of my throat
And I am stretched so thin
That only a fragile membrane
Stands between my heart
And how its every beat would be written
Into the translucent skin of my wrists
If it weren't so firmly caged behind my ribs,
If I hadn't already made that mistake
Of wearing my heart on my shirtsleeves once before.
I think sometimes
That I might be tearing already
Unraveling at those very seams
That I'm trying my hardest to hold together
So that when you ask me
If there's something wrong,
I'm beginning to indulge
In a short pause where
I don't meet your eyes.
I look down instead,
And for a brief moment,
I let that small, private pain
Pass across my face and
Press against my lips
I'll push it back, though
Because I need to prove to myself
That my skin is not so fragile as it seems
That I'm not as vulnerable as I feel
That I am capa
Ugly on the OutsideUgly on the Outside10 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I was called gorgeous once,
and sexy in jest.
I get lovely sometimes,
but few of the rest.
I've never been beautiful,
never been hot.
I didn't mind it so much,
it's just something I'm not.
Most of the time
I just look okay;
not bad, not good,
in the middle I stay.
I was fine with okay;
there are other things worse.
Little did I realize
how much of a curse
okay really was.
I noticed quickly
that, every single time,
there's someone better than me.
Looks are superficial
because they don't last,
but they do come in handy,
I've learned in the past.
I've often been liked
for who I am inside,
but it always stops there,
I never get the full ride.
When it's myself or another
they never pick me,
because the other girl
is a little more pretty.
A little bit taller,
a little more cute,
a lot less round
and athletic to boot.
I may be funny,
I may have a nice smile,
but when it comes to my body
I'm a little more vile.
No matter how nice I am,
I never can hide
from the cold and hard truth
that I'm ugl
UglyUgly12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
On her knees again
Staring at her sullen reflection in the toilet bowl water
Watching, as she thrusts her fingers down her throat
And flushes away the pain
Pale, ashen, skin clinging to her withered frame
Wasting away from the beautiful person she once was
Her distorted body is disintegrating before her eyes
But in her disoriented state, nothing is wrong
The false images she sees on her television screen
Are etched into her mind
They are all she sees
And have stolen her life from her
Her weak knees buckle beneath her
She falls to the cold bathroom floor
Her breath dwindles to a mere word...
A Fat Girl's LamentI look lumpy today.A Fat Girl's Lament9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yesterday, I used the word 'curvy'.
Maybe that burger was a bad idea.
I know I was hungry, but I didn't need it.
I wasn't hungry;
I didn't need it;
I wanted it.
I remember fitting into a size 3.
Then a 5.
Then a 9 was too small.
Then 11 was too big.
Then a 7 fit me!
I'm sure it was labelled wrong, though.
My hips give shade to the belt loops.
My thighs rub together - no wonder holes always develop.
I can feel my butt jiggle under my pants.
Everyone can see it.
Can they see it?
I know they can see it--
They're staring at me again.
My boobs are too small.
My butt's too big.
My thighs are lumpy.
Lumpy, wiggly, fat.
I'll wear slimming colours,
Dark ones like black or purple;
White gives way for shading.
I look good in black sometimes.
Sometimes, I like the way my hair is.
My face looks alright, too,
But the mirror's unforgiving when I can see below my shoulders.
You know what, though?
At least sometimes,
I look okay from some angles.
Dyke.She is gay and not proud. She meets her own blue eyes in the mirror and prays for them to become dark matter. Invisible, undetectable, unreadable. She looks at her hair and wills it to turn into a forest of cobras. It never does. She stares at her skin and tells it to be less like a lily and more like oak.Dyke.8 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
Her hair is dry against her neck. Her feet are proudly calloused. Her fingernails are brittle.
She longs to be a mannequin with plastic breasts and no hair. She wants to be a beat poet with jazz ringing in her ears and the smell of weed clinging to her clothes. The desire to be a song with harmonies and precise percussion rages in her like loud guitar music in a gym.
There is nothing exquisite about her. Nothing pristine. She wakes up every morning with no warm body next to her. She wanders to the kitchen and gulps down her breakfast like it's solid water. She drinks cherry limeade while she talks on the phone
Break Up"I'm breaking up with you."Break Up6 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Please, don't do this.
"But why? I thought we were doing better."
"Because I don't love you, and I'm tired of faking everything."
You're such a dirty liar. You love him more than anything.
Shut up, he doesn't need to know that.
"What- what does that mean?"
It means you need to shut me up, I don't mean any of this.
"I never really loved you. You believed that I did? You're stupid for even thinking that someone like me could love someone like you."
Shut up, he cheated on me, he deserves this.
"I thought we could make this work. I love you "
Pretty words won't work anymore.
"No, I'm tired of us. Just leave me alone."
Come on, fight back! Kiss me, make me stay! Don't let me do this!
"This leaves a huge hole in my life, but that's alright."
No it's not alright! Stop saying that!
"You'll get over it."
Good, don't let him get to you again.
"I won't like not being able to hold
IfIf you call me the sun,If5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Then you're the flowers.
I am only light,
But you reflect me
In a thousand vibrant shades.
If you call me a masterpiece,
Then you're the painter.
I am only canvas,
But you give me color and depth,
Clarity and life.
If you call me music,
Then you're the singer.
I am only notes on a scale,
But you give me voice
In a sweet, clear melody.
If you call me your heart,
Then you're the soul.
I am only muscle,
But you help me to beat
In strong, steady rhythm.
If you call me an angel,
Then you're my faith.
I am only ethereal
But you give me form and purpose
To protect what I love.
If you say I make you whole,
Then you're the better half.
I am only a small part of you,
And it's who you already are
That makes us perfect.
With LoveWith love,With Love6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I take your hand
I press a kiss to your lips
"Together, we'll take a stand."
"And make forever seem a short trip."
She holds me tight
She caresses my face
"You and I--We're just right."
"With you, there is no disgrace."
We walk down memory lane
We speak sweet everythings of truth
"I told you--It couldn't be more plain."
"I am, forever in love with you."
SkinnySoft white skin wrapped around boneSkinny6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Is all you are to me
Your perfect blonde hair thinned with a comb
Is what you ought to be
And after I crack your hips from too much pressure
You seem to like the way that I give in
To the way you smile at me
When you think of your sins
Its funny to watch your knees
As the clink together with ease
They look so sickly and small
Your hurting inside
But the outside
Is all anyone sees
Crystal blue eyes will dim after time
Of suffering inside such a shapeless body
More like a prison
Then a person
Kissing YouIt seems no matter how many girls I kissKissing You5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The only lips I can taste are yours
Only your hands touch my skin
Only your scent lingers
So I hope you don't mind
If I keep you with me
Just a little while longer
At least until that scent fades.
Je t'aime...Stay untilJe t'aime...5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The morning comes
CurioShe can't handle being manhandledCurio4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
By all the pretty girls
So it's best not to touch her at all.
Hello, AngerI got a visit this weekHello, Anger5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Anger dropped by
He said he didn't want to bother me
Just wanted a drink and a chat
Anger insisted he was long overdue
And everyone had been waiting for him
I should let him in
So we could settle things
I let him in
I know I shouldn't have
But after spending a month with only Loneliness
I needed a change of company
I wish I could say he forced me to react
Forced me to burn with rage
But he didn't
He barely had to do anything at all
We sat at the table and talked
Talked about you
And, before I knew it,
The hurt started to creep in
It only remained hurt for a few moments
Then it transformed into sadness
That grew into frustration
That blossomed into anger
After a month of feeling nothing,
I just felt furious
I just wanted to lash out
So I did
I clenched my fists and ground my teeth
I knocked over dishes and tables
I stood up and screamed
"How could you do this to me?"
Anger said nothing
But he stayed the weekend anyway
I woke up today, after barely sleeping,
Inside Every Fat WomanAnd one day there was a mass breakout of thin women.Inside Every Fat Woman8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In shops, on street corners,
Yes it was hard work, but no pain no gain.
Skirts were shorter, tops were tighter,
Nights were longer, voices were louder,
Men were shallower, but more frequent.
Confident? Yes, but
What had they done with my fat friends?
These werent the same women.
They talked of my friends as jailers,
Jailers who were fat, and nothing else, keeping them at bay.
My friends were never smug,
They were never loud or abrasive,
They didnt believe that looks were all and,
Most important, they never put me down.
A couple of months of rigid dieting will soon put you right.
You know what they say:
Inside every fat woman is a thin woman trying to get out.
Their most attractive features
(Their hearts, their souls, their loyalty) had gone, and yet
They were better liked, by some.
I cant believe one of those skinny bitches is trying to get out of me.
Im fat, and good, and kind, and si