::Invisible::We are not who we were before.::Invisible::3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You are ignorant of my existance,
locked away in your newfound world.
Not smiling at me, like you used to.
I am voiceless, unable to call your name.
I am broken, but you can't mend me.....
Not when I'm invisible.
it's raining in our hearts.four months ago, the weather was warm but the sky was dark except for little glowing drops of light that sliced through the darkness and pounded on your cracked windshield. the wipers were screaming back and forth cutting the comfortable silence we sunk into. your knuckles were white on the steering wheel as if the bones were begging to get out and i swear, i could hear your heart beating from my seat eighteen inches away. your eyes kept straying from the road to my face as i stared decidedly out the window watching the storm build and calm in the reflection of my eyes as the sky poured color infused water droplets on us. i wanted to pretend like this wasnt the most beautiful thing id ever seen since that would never count for anything. i wanted to pretend like this wasnt perfect since that tends to be so short-lived. but it was beautiful and perfect as you parted your lips and let your heart sing. it was raining outside when you said you loved me.it's raining in our hearts.5 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
a week a
blue morningsholding outblue mornings3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
impossibly bated breath
blue like the morning
as it touches the canvas
of your sheets,
billows of cloud
this is not what
i asked for.
i never said
i needed more
than a hand to hold,
for you to touch my heart;
you lent me your body
and a person
much more than is sure
as the stars.
(as though the certainty
of those celestial jewels
that you were less afraid.
burning like a forest fire,
sinks its teeth
into your copper skin,
reflective and deep;
you touch me too tenderly
for me to believe
that i am just an embellished vessel-
you speak to me too softly
for me to believe
that you don't feel at least
half of what i do.
i need words-
less poetic than a letter,
but more honest than one as well-
written on my wrists
so that when i look at my hands
you can't give yourself
what you want most,
or why i am able,
to wrap you in my arms,
too pale for an
A House Divided Cannot Stand 2Ivan raised an eyebrow at the fork, but the connection was made clear. Alfred was Capitalist. Such a poor, stupid boy. He sipped the tea once more, "Actually, the USSR is Socialist or did you forget that was why the government wouldn't buy your filthy imports before the second World War. But being Amerikan, you wouldn't know the difference."A House Divided Cannot Stand 24 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Alfred stared, blinking confused. They were Socialist? But everyone said they were Commies . . . What is a Socialist by the way? Never mind! He was a RED (That was something not controversial . . . right?) and that was bad by itself! What was Socialism?
"It appears your cousin is much like the Chukchi," Ivan sighed, not worried about the idiot. He was probably trying to find his way back to reality without an actual path. When Alfred's mind began resuming conscious effort, he remembered he had a foot on the table and a fork aimed at the Soviet across the table.
His head snapped to Arthur, "Ship him back to his Commie-!"
MasksWhen a smile is a frownMasks3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And a frown is a smile,
The eyes we must crown
For relinquishing wile,
When a laugh is a tear
And a tear holds no pain,
Will fear fear to fear
And fearfully abstain?
When the act is the truth
We've lied to believe,
And the fable in sooth
Is but a peerless weave,
When each mortal mistake
Is a tale and a song
And the scriptures are fake
Or perhaps they're wrong,
When the mind is the eye
That sees the outside
But shame, it's too shy
Of the tongue which has lied,
When the answers are easy
To the questions unknown,
Do you not feel queasy
Of how little we've grown?
When acceptance is feigning
For it keeps us alive
Like sunshine to greenlife
On deceit we thrive,
When certainty is in doubt
And fiction is a fact,
The truth may come out
But is it ever intact?
When can mere candor
Hold its frail fort,
When all this slander
Plays such a good sport,
When can we speak without a plan
And in our authenticity bask,
When the mask becomes the man?
Or when the man becom
YouYou there, yes youYou4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
There's something I want you to know
Something you need to hear
And something I want to tell you
You are beautiful
I want to be telepathic
I want to walk by and
Whisper into your mind
Like a whisper in your ear
You are beautiful
I want to perform inception
I want the notion to take root
I want you to believe it because it's true
Tall, short, skinny, thick, light, dark
And everything in between
Whether you be a man or woman
The undefined, indefinable, and defying
You are beautiful
Don't doubt it
Don't listen to the demons in your head,
The disses spat by the ones who doubt themselves
You are beautiful
While I'm here I want to tell you something else -
When you are upset and feeling alone
Remember you are one of my six billion siblings
And you are special, unique, and important -
I love you
Darkness LivesClose your eyesDarkness Lives9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You'll see it fine
It's there each time
The only thing I
can depend on
The only thing
That's always there.
The other things,
They always leave me
I have felt betrayal
By all other living things...
Yet the darkness lives on
The darkness stays put
Stays in the corner
The corner of my mind
My mind where it's waiting
Waiting for me
For me to come
To come once more
Once more to look
To look and find
To find only that...
That the darkness lives on
A House Divided Cannot Stand 3Alfred sat in the car, pouting like a child. He had settled himself in the far back because the Russki sat beside Arthur. Who knew the Brit was such a fucking pussy? He even treated the Commie-Socialist-Bunny with a degree of respect. Even Alfred wouldn't sink that low man! Even with all the guns of the USSR's Special Forces trained on him, ready to kill him at a . . . moment's . . . notice . . . Fuck his life.A House Divided Cannot Stand 34 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Ivan looked out the window warily, his mouth set in a thin, grim line. He was in a Capitalist country, which meant they wouldn't treat him nicely. Still, he would not cower to their brutality. What neither of the Capitalists knew was that he had specifically told Spetsnaz to not fire by any means unless he was dead. They would, also, not interfere in any interactions between him and the civilians of the country. He would face it strong, and be the responsible one as often as need be.
Because the Blue Fairy Said So(Addendum from Sleep Deprived Brain: Clare calls it mourning sickness. As in 'Mourning for my Single, Carefree Life' sickness.)Because the Blue Fairy Said So1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"I would make a terrible mother anyway."
"I don't think you're in the right place right now to make those kind of judgmental indecisions about yourself."
"I would, though."
"Your word still doesn't make it true."
"Last I heard children are usually raised in clean, pretty houses with a white picket fence outside and a daily routine that is organised from the word 'Go'."
"What have you been listening to? The Stepford Radio Specials Circa 1951?"
"Firstly, there is no such thing. Secondly, I couldn't be bothered to cook, I think a clean house is life being wasted, I procrastinate like its a job to do just that and I am a firm advocate of the fact that all fairytales are based on some form of evidence that we just haven't discovered yet."
"Can I just say that if I was your brain, I would be so exhausted that I would want to give myself a lobotomy?"
Eggs...The cool, smooth white oval sat in the Greasers' hands with the upmost care and gentleness. Perhaps the paralyzing fear of dropping the thing is what kept the eggs still, kept them in one piece.Eggs...3 years ago in Humor More Like This
"Mine's a boy, man! What's yours?" Sodapop asked excitedly, smiling down at his, "son," for a week and for fifteen percent of his final grade.
Steve shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know. How can ya tell? It's not like they have-"
"Their eyes. Can I see yours?"
"No! You have your own baby."
"See, look. Yours is a girl 'cause she has those things on her eyes."
"Oh, you mean eyelashes," Steve said. "I get it."
The boys' class had been given each an egg to look after for one week, and no, Steve, you can't break it and get a new one, because the teacher had marked each egg specially and she expects each one back happy, healthy, well-adjusted children. They were to fill out a daily journal of what they do with the egg each day, give it a name, birthday, feed it, clean it, a
Do you still--think you got the best of me?Do you still--3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
assume i'm still crying over glass pieces of my heart?
believe i'll never be the same again?
because i'll be better.
feel like i want you back?
just to show you how unbroken i am.
think i need you like i used to?
assume that i'll still be waiting under a rainy sky with unread letters?
believe i'm only a reader who gave up writing for you?
because i'm better than before.
feel like i don't mean a word i say?
it's because you never knew me.
Broken Sleep, Red LipstickI am only an insomniac when it rains. The pitter patter of the raindrops reminds me of the pitter patter of cat paws.Broken Sleep, Red Lipstick1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
(He liked to sleep at my feet when I could barely think, just to make me feel better. I think you used to tell him to.)
I wish I could wrap your memories around my spine and wear them as a backbone, because they are stronger than the arch my broken spined back seems to have developed of late.
(Spines are oddly brittle, and a lot like wrists. Easy to break and forever to heal.)
But I cannot depend of any of that anymore. So I wear red lipstick and high heels and go to parties and tell strangers how amazing they are to be wearing red lipstick and high heels and how different they must be to come to this party instead of the other one.
(All because you would hate parties and think nightlife is so stupid.)
It is what I do with my insomnia. Because my spineless back, the memories of you incessantly looped in my sleeplessly addled brain and the raindrops
A House Divided Cannot Stand 1Alfred leaned back in his chair as the teacher droned on about literature. Mr. Kirkland was so boring, all business like and a 'gentleman'. He had a heavy British accent, but it wasn't unusual since he was in London for his schooling. Actually, he was a foreign exchange student and living with Mr. Kirkland. That wasn't weird at all . . . The guy was single and not really good at relating to children, even worse they were related. You totally couldn't tell since the Brit seemed to always have a persistent stick up his ass. Was the guy ever young? That would be a question never to be answered; but he could be a kid at heart. Like a little kid. Arthur Kirkland was a fairy nut, thinking they were real and talking to the air. It was seriously embarrassing, but since Arthur didn't understand that, Alfred felt embarrassed for him. But seriously, Americans would never be embarrassed unless it was to help someone else. Yeah, totally! They weren't the heroes of the world for nothing man!A House Divided Cannot Stand 14 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Winter Sun: Chap 10Dimitri drove for what seemed like days. But, it only felt that way because you couldn't fall asleep in the car. You frowned at Alisa and Alexey in the back seat. They were still out. You sighed and leaned your head back on the seat.Winter Sun: Chap 104 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Why do you want to talk to me Dima?" you asked.
Dimitri's face remained stoic and he kept looking at the road. You almost growled. You hated it when he did this. You made it to Volgograd very late that night. You yawned and guessed that it was just before dawn. Alisa and Alexey woke up in the back.
"We're here?" Alisa asked in disbelief.
Dimitri quickly looked back at them before putting his attention on the road again. "You weren't that far away. You were just out in the farmland and the forest a little."
Alisa shrugged and sat up and stretched. Alexey started to talk to Dimitri about the war and the army. You only paid attention when Ivan's name was brought up. You looked out the window to see your Aunt and Uncles farm. You smiled. You spent many summer
NerveI believe it's time for an updateNerve6 years ago in Other More Like This
I know you don't know where I've been
I've been taking all this dust out my lungs
So I can go back to the place where they'll force it back in
Pain comes to those who want to succeed
The more you suffer the more you receive
Since what you know of pain is when you don't get your way
I'm sure that your life is simply a breeze
Baby comes easy- she's one of a kind
But babies like her are a dozen a dime
She got animosity at a discounted price
And she's willing to share when she has the time
Chest-cavity hollowed, pitted and rotten
Head cleansed with peroxide, congealing and clotted
Virginity sold to whoever would buy it
Conscience decayed when it was forgotten
Sometimes I wonder if she feels pain
But then I remember how ugly she is
And those things so ugly have their nerve endings raped
And I know to all those aging faces you're a pretty pair of legs
But if I pulled your insides out?
You wouldn't be so pretty then.
QuestionsDo you look into the sky like I do?Questions3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Love the life you have, and wish for nothing more?
Do you smile at your faults,
And accept the fact they make you who you are?
Do you find it odd I can be myself,
Not just another follower in a world with a lack
Of fitted leaders?
Do you have pity in me when I do not fight back,
Not wanting to stoop to your level.
Do you see me as some creature,
With my tentacles flaring about and obnoxiously loud noises?
I know my faults, so I accept them.
I know I can be annoying, but who are you to judge that?
I know I do not fight back, for I do not believe it will solve anything.
I know who I am,
The question is:
You're My Music GirlYou're My Music Girl9 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You're My Music Girl
You're my music girl,
With the lyrics of life;
Teaching me tunes
About sorrow and strife.
Play me some songs
Under the stars;
You show me Venus
And I'll show you Mars.
You're the music girl
With the music of life,
That cuts through the air
Like the blade of a knife.
Petty and Dylan,
And all of the rest,
Sing you the songs
When you're feeling depressed.
Play me some music girl,
Under the moon;
Sing me the lyrics,
Teach me the tune.
Higher than high,
Lower than low;
I feel your music
Wherever I go.
When you need a friend
In the middle of the night,
I'll play you the song
That'll make you alright.
– 1996 Tom Wilcox
Her MouthHer Mouth6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Her mouth tastes like autumn -
late harvest snap of winesap apples
rich damson plums
and silver stars -
A House Divided: Ch. 15She finally made it so no capitalist pigs stood between her and her beloved brother. She ran and jumped into his arms at such a force that it knocked him to the ground. Some passersby glanced at the two whom they assumed to be love-birds before shaking their head at such a shameless display, but hey, this was the Seventy's. Hippies and mud girls were just beginning to ebb, but still it was very much alive. Peace and love, right? As it was, Natalya was showering her brother with kisses while his American boyfriend just stared, not exactly knowing what just happened.A House Divided: Ch. 154 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Uh . . . Ivan?" Alfred asked with a raised eyebrow, "What are you doing?"
Natalya looked up and took in the sight of the boy wearing denim pants and a disgusting American flag shirt. This must be the American whom had placed her brother under such horrible trials for the past six months. She frowned, he didn't look very adept in torture, then again, he didn't look quite adept at anything. Actually, he looked pretty stupid f
old and time-weathered soul.Emily liked to imagine that she was from a different time.old and time-weathered soul.2 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
She’d sit on her bed and smooth out the covers, fold the sheets with crisp lines and perfect, symmetrical shapes. She’d place the chipped tea cup on the bookshelf and push back the linen curtains. But she would never open her eyes. No, you see, because if she did, she would have to see the traffic that buzzed like summer bees below her and the water stain dripping down the side of her window. She’d have to admit that outside, reality was not what she wished, and, frankly, she wasn’t ready to stop pretending.
So, instead, she closed her eyes and pressed her forehead against the cool glass. She imagined that beyond the four walls she called home, there were open moors and grass that swept against ankle and calf and then inner knee. She imagined that trees draped over the sides of a porch and that her Labrador was free to run amongst the unfenced wild yonder. She imagined gentle whickering coming from the n
Behind this MaskBehind this maskBehind this Mask3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is the real
Not the fake
Behind this mask
Hides the ugly
And the hate
Behind this mask
Not a smile
Nor a laugh
Behind this mask
No charming word
No loving act
Behind this mask
A hurting soul
All tears flow
Behind this mask
We all go
Music GirlMusic Girl9 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Let the music rescue you;
Flight for life when you're feeling blue.
On the dark side of the rainbow,
Black's the only hue.
Take a supernatural starship
To the heavens up above.
Through a lipstick sunset
With the person that you love.
Your music is what carries you
To another place in time;
No one seems to understand,
It's the lyrics not the rhyme.
Share with me your loneliness,
I'll help you if I can.
If only I were there with you.
I'd be your Music Man.
– Tom Wilcox 09/29/96