ATalkHappy Easter everyone! I feel like... I just want to talk today. Because I think there's things I've learned and feel and think that sometimes I just want to say.ATalk3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Let's start with stories.
What I find great about any form of storytelling is how honest it is. There is no other form of shared knowledge that can teach us how to live our lives better. None. That being said, we see stories in everything. We look at a tree with a fence grown into it, and think of when the fence must have been built, who may have built it, etc. We see a couple arguing on the street and ponder as to what could have gotten them to this point. We hear a snapping twig in the woods, and plan our escape route from whatever magnificent beast lurks in the brush! As human beings, we LOVE stories. But why?
We love stories because they teach us how to live. Think about any good movie, book, or other story. It should have moved you in some way. Some stories teach us how to deal with the intense hardship
Wacom Horror Warning peopleI realized i just been living in a lie. Been coloring with the wrong icc profile for almost 6 years. Its because all this time i had a secondary monitor like 8 years old that ive never notice it. I just bought recently a cheap and amazing monitor 23 inches aoc, and noticed that my cintiq tablet colors looked washed away.Wacom Horror Warning people3 years ago in Personal More Like This
I asked myself why all my drawings in deviant art dont look like in my cintiq, they look washed away or burned.
Because of two problems.
I have all my files in adobe 1998 icc, which its good for printing but not web browsing, but the most horrible one, its that the cintiq21ux.icc that came in my cd was really wrong. Got the correct one in a wacom europe page, my cintiq its first generation, so new drivers sucked hard doesnt work.
Also warning for those that have same old cintiq like me, new drivers screw up the pen, cuts the pressure in half or gives weird pressure to it-, and worst ive been coloring with pen pressure wrong and color really bad.
I had been coloring bli
Worth reading.Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this.Worth reading.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time.
A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don't answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you're asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She's screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that "Mommy is crying and sissy won't wake up."
Your dad runs to your room. He looks at yo
My artwork is now for SALEPrintsMy artwork is now for SALE3 years ago in Personal More Like This
At WeLoveFine you can now purchase my artwork as beautiful high resolution prints. What you see here on Deviantart is not even half the quality that is available at the store. Your fellow watchers are already using this opportunity, now you can too.
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Coming soon! Tee designs
New FREE ZBrush Tutorial by Michael DefeoNew FREE ZBrush Tutorial by Michael Defeo3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Check out the free ZBrush tutorial by Michael Defeo on Schoolism.com. Watch Michael use the new Curvetube brush to create Hair Details using ZBrush!
Art StylesThis is not some journal about personal woes. I just want to talk briefly about some attitudes towards realistic (and other) art styles that I've come across that... It just kinda seriously bothers me that people think that way about me and other people and themselves.Art Styles1 year ago in Personal More Like This
So here it is; Drawing realism does not equal elitism.
I don't draw realistically because I think it makes me better than other people and I don't know anyone else who does either. I draw realistically because I like drawing that way. Because I'm very particular about details and drawing little tiny details makes me ridiculously happy. It's just how I like to draw.
It doesn't make me better than you or anyone else.
I don't think any of you are below me because you draw anime/manga or cartoon styles. More power to you because I tend to struggle with it, honestly.
And if we all drew the exact same way, all our art would be the same and it would be boring as hell.
What doesn't kill you makes you strongerI just went back and read some of the horrible comments I've received from people in the past.What doesn't kill you makes you stronger4 years ago in Personal More Like This
I remember how hurtful it was and how much I wanted to just dissapear from it all. I felt helpless and hopeless.
The internet can be a terrible place.
When people aren't accountable for what they say they feel a certain sense of power. The ability to judge others without being judged ourselves is a position of immense dominance. It's exhilarating to exercise that dominance over another person.
But now, looking back, I realize that it doesn't bother me anymore. I don't even bother hiding, deleting or responding to those comments because it just doesn't bug me. I feel a resounding "eh",
I keep those comments up so that people can see the kind of behaviour that people reduce themselves to when they're behind a computer screen. Every "this is shit" or ""he" is just a dyke and a "she"" has meaning to me now. It means that I've overcome something that I never would have thought possible. I'm not hu
fffI love you! That's right. You. Reading this. I love you.fff3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Because voting is over and I just checked where my shirt design is ranking and I'm not just top 50 anymore, I'm in the top 30!! :iconbrohugplz:
So thank you to everybody who featured me and helped promote my shirt, I'm so happy that I even made it this far- it's incredible!
I'll be making chibis for all who featured it- but I need to do commissions first, there's a huge line up forming!
BUT AGAIN, thank you
ALSO FFFFFFFFFFFFF I was working all day on this drawing and a dump I was putting together and accidentally exited SAI without saving it :iconraegplz:
Being humanI like being a human. I think I would remain a Homo sapiens even if I could choose any animal to be... but there are a couple things I don't like about it.Being human1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I think what I hate most about our modern human life is the concept of time being chopped into blocks, like hours, days, weeks etc. Days do not really have names. It gives me claustrophobia to have that calender grid laid out, covering my past AND already covering my future! It is my own, pristine untrammeled future! Keep that stupid concept of time off of it!
No way to escape it.
AND my ticking clock is sitting here, chomping up time in little bites like- like PAC MAN ... argh!
That, and I wish we had tails.
What do you NOT like about living life as a human?
Yes, of course , there's the problem that humans seem to be genetically wired to hate and massacre each other for no good reason, but I'm talking about more mundane things about physically or mentally living your life
A thing about Art and so called 'talent'MOVE on Identity: A thing about Art and so called 'talent'A thing about Art and so called 'talent'3 years ago in Personal More Like This
[My Opinion Versus Everyone] Please remember these are simply my opinions and are not meant to imply that you should agree or disagree nor should these prove to be offensive in any way; if I do come across displeasingly then you have my apologies beforehand, thank you.
EDIT: I added the project MOVE header ^-^ 12/18/12~ This was written a while before that though but it falls under the category
I'm writing this partially because of a situation I'm in right now with an artist who I will keep anonymous... and partially because I've wanted to get this out for months now.. And I assure you I probably will not sound like the same person you've known as 'Capu' for my 10 months here now..
Although I a
Friend Requests (Edit)Not that important, but I finally got my PS3 working again, had an assload of friend requests that timed outFriend Requests (Edit)3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Anybody who sent them can resend them if you want
And I'll friend the fuck out of you
My PS3 name is yanulator
~ABOUT ME~ABOUT ME~ABOUT ME~1 year ago in Personal More Like This
name: Victoria or Spirit
interests: Wolves, Disney Movies, Drawing,
occupation: Student & Swimmer
sexual orientation: Straight
birthday: June 14th
favorite pokemon: fennekin, Houndoom, eevee, and poochina
I am half Porterican and half Colombian
TBA; currently, I'm without my tablet
I'm Moving!Finally, after YEARS of wanting to get out of this dump, I've finally gotten the opportunity to do so - as I stated in an earlier journal, a friend of my family's has decided to get into the rental business and wants me to be her first "renter" (with an option to buy) because she wants to test the waters and make sure this is really what she wants to do - and what better way to start than renting to a friend whom she can trust <3 So, as of tomorrow, we're going house hunting! I cannot tell you how excited I am! I really think getting out of this death-trap is going to improve my health. For those of you who didn't know, I currently rent a small, 3-bedroom house. It's over 65 years old. There's paint falling off the walls inside and out, all the walls are cracked... most of the windows are - and none of them close.. The doors all have gaps and wood-rot (90% of my doors don't close or lock), the foundation is cracked (grass is growing literally up throI'm Moving!3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Wolpy's endI have decided..... Wolpy's tales will end..... and all of you will learn the truth of his life......Wolpy's end3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Wolpy held onto Hunter as tightly as he could, tears rolled down his eyes as the dark void tried to pull her in.
"I am not letting you go! It isn't taking my mate!"
He cries and holds her tightly, she licks his cheek,
"No... Wolpy... it's my time to leave"
He looks shocked,
She looks sad, her ears fold back
"I love you, but my time here is over..."
"No.... please no..."
She kisses him one last time and lets go, she is dragged into darkness, the violent winds stop as it now has what it wants. Wolpy stares into the dark abyss, he is speechless and heartbroken. Guardian and the pups come rushing in.
"Where is she?!"
Wolpy has tears rolling down his eyes
"Gone......... she let go......."
"Everyone..... has to go sometime........"
Wolpy cries, the love of his life and soulmate sacrificed herself, he covers his eyes. A white pup goes to him
Coming OutIt's true, I am Chinese and I was born this way.Coming Out3 years ago in Personal More Like This
At a young age I began to notice this difference. I was attracted to neither boys nor girls. In middle school, I liked math, and in college, I did my homework all night long.
Being Chinese is not a choice, it is genetic. There are risks to being Chinese because society cannot accept the union between a human and a textbook. I have Chinese friends who didn't need sex because they could foreplay instruments and get screwed by O Chem instead. Now, they don't have a social life and are shunned by others.
But fear not, life will get better. I grew up as a Chinese and I am proud of it (just look at my tumblr user name Maid-en-China ). There is the LGBTC (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, Chinese) community to help you be comfortable with your Chinese orientation.
1,338,299,512 people came out as Chinese. You are not alone.
April fools!!! ... Oh wait...
Update: Yes, this is obviously a j
An Interview with ME =DI was invited to do a interview to the website called Art Dolls Today! Isn't that awesome? Who would imagine someone will ask me to make an interview?An Interview with ME =D3 years ago in Personal More Like This
If there is anyone interested on read the interview, here it is: http://www.artdollstoday.com/bjds-in-cold-porcelain/
This song.It sums up my life perfectly.This song.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
It is my most listened to song, ever.
I love it more than any other song on the face of this earth.
And here it is embedded in my journal.
So long, 2011.2011 was quite the year of extremes.... On the negative side of things, I had my dreams crushed, lost my faith in myself again, lost my mother, and started letting people step all over me (albeit in ways they probably didn't think hurt me as much as they did...). On the positive side of things, I started finally getting mature about what I need to do artwise, rallied (for lack of a better term) an intensely amazing small group of 2-3 friends (and one more-than-friend ) which I actually opened myself up to (not all the way, but more than I ever have before), and started feeling better about myself again by contacting people already in the art industry who told me to keep going (which is good considering all the times I considered just giving it up this year.... still am, admittedly).So long, 2011.4 years ago in Personal More Like This
I learned more than I have any other year, I think, and at least 90% of what I learned I learned through lots and lots of pain. But hey, everything I learned was important, and I know I'll use it to make
LandscapesI will be streaming some work on lanscapes in about 15 minutes for anyone interested! :]Landscapes3 years ago in Personal More Like This
New story on the wayName: Solar FlareNew story on the way2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Age: 17 (human years)
Name of pet: Fire Arrow
Sibling(s): Dark moon
Teacher: Princess Luna
Specialty: Dark magic, taiming creatures in the everfree forest
Besties: Tool of Heart
Cutie mark: Sun w/ fire coming off that looks like a pheonix
Graduation and other stuffWhat's up?Graduation and other stuff2 years ago in Personal More Like This
I'm finally a few months about to graduate, it feels really sad but really exciting at the same time... the experience of being a Gnomon student was really so unique, and I can't believe how much I matured as an artist and as a person in just a few years. Hopefully that will keep happening after as I get a cool job in the film industry ! haha
I want to send a big thank you to :iconfurby0305: and :iconphobs: for showing my last demo reel pieces to their fans !! XD There is nothing that makes me happier than seeing the authors of the concept arts that I picked so carefully among my folders with hundreds (maybe thousands) of images, proud of having their works modelled and rendered by me. Thank you a lot !
And another thank you to :iconmagion02: for the subscrition ;A; that's really kind of you!! I'm still really happy!
Feel free to add me on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/let
CobaltKinda vent, but more with a storyCobalt3 years ago in Personal More Like This
I got several mood swings during the Christmas party and thought of this
In the snowy top mountains light flickers from the falling snow, a tribe of wolves dances and celebrates around fires. Their outfits made of skins and bone, they are celebrating a time of happiness, today is the day of coming of age for their pups. Adolescent wolves do the rituals of life and become adults. Parents and their young happily being together around the fires in their tribal garb. An old white wolf watches, his name is Don. He sits atop a rock with his mate the pack leader. He looks and sees something out of line, one of the pups is missing. He tells his mate and leaves to look for him.
He thinks to himself "Cobalt.... you were so looking forward to this day..... why are you not here?" He goes into a large pine forest, snow slowly drifts down in the nighttime forest, it covers the trees and the ground in a thin white sheet. As he continues on he hears something.... cryi
I Wore Combat Boot's to Church...... It was epic! :iconimhighplz:I Wore Combat Boot's to Church...3 years ago in Personal More Like This
art book and official fb page and merry Xmass!add me on Facebook!art book and official fb page and merry Xmass!5 years ago in Personal More Like This
Finally my art book available! It is called Tangled Tales. Beautiful 76 pages, 30x30 cm album printed on lustre paper contains best illustrations and photo works. Each book is signed and numbered by hand, limited edition of 500