The dark gameI try my best to never break
I try my best to stay awake
But as the days roll by
I find it hard to stay alive
I see a darkness
That calls my name
It has a game
It wants to play
The point is death
The player is him
The darkest shadow
There's ever been
If you fear
Then he will win
If you fight
The game never ends
He made the game
He picked the rules
You cant win this game
Don't be a fool
Love is PainI loved youLove is Pain4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
But you kept on running away
You were everything to me the sun, the night and the day
I've lost you, you changed
Now finding you, is like finding a nail in stack of hay
Once I loved you
But you sold the dreams for bunch of lies
Now I'm watching your purity slowly cries
You're gone and left nothing but agony mixed with sorrow
Leaving me misguided in my life like broken arrow
Now you're gone
Nothing but a lost cause
And your selfish beauty is wilting like a withered rose
Disfigured full of flaws
Like a beast with fangs and claws
Wandering like a freak, defying the humanity laws
Crawling back to youAfter so much time, I realise I have to swallow my prideCrawling back to you4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I know I have to do this, but the outcome is for you to decide
I don't know what I was thinking when I walked away
Knowing you don't want me now kills me every day
I'm on my knees begging, I know I can't live without you any longer
I thought that I could walk away, I thought that I was stronger
The road we have taken to where we are now I know hasn't been ideal
But time has healed my scars, now I want to show you how I feel
Now I know all there is, about myself, that there is to be learned
I just hope that the bridges between us aren't completely burned
Please know that I would take it all back if I could
Even though, despite the pain, you said you understood
Now my mind is clear, my longing for you continues to grow
Whether or not we will try again is up to you though
I know it's a lot but can I have one last chance for us to restart?
Because not being with you is slowly tearing me apart
After all of this time is it such a surpr
The Endlife is fast and death is quickThe End4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
hearts slow down and minds play tricks
bodies fade and souls lose hope
reaching for the past, hands grope
searching for what can't be grasped
words will weaken into gasps
broken thoughts and shattered dreams
bursting from us at the seams
fear takes hold, time slips away
we grow sicker day by day
the pain won't stop, the hurt stays strong
it's been inside us all along
but will it end when we all die?
and in the ground our carnage lies?
Heartbreak MasqueradeI can't remember what it feels like to be happy...Heartbreak Masquerade3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
My smile no longer shrouded in sincerity.
It is like a heartbreak masquerade, fooling everyone;
Exhausted, I remove my mask when the day is done.
I'm a professional at what I do: I hide what I feel -
When I get hurt, I pretend like it is no big deal.
In reality, it's killing me; feel my heart breaking
The sad part? My friends don't know that I'm faking.
I can't remember the sound of my laughter any more;
Feels odd when I smile, like I've never done it before.
My heart soaring with joy - well, that feeling is gone
Dreaming about another guy that isn't you feels wrong.
It is like I am cursed, you never leave my mind
However, you - you didn't pause, just left me behind.
It feels wrong to see you and still feel butterflies
My heart still racing when I look into your eyes.
My head keeps spinning when you're in the vicinity
Even after all the feelings left, I can't feel happy.
I smile, not sincerely, but just to show you I'm fine,
Loving YouTerrified and scaredLoving You3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
emotions that never leave.
Pain and denial
feelings more like plauge.
destruction and blood
ConfusionHow can I make sense ofConfusion3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
what I feel inside
when my emotions are stronger
than the ever pounding tide?
I know I feel something,
of that I am sure,
but is it just friendship?
Or is it something more?
I know not what love feels like
nor what gives it its spark,
I just know that it's treasured;
held close to the heart.
Yet a small voice inside me
has a mind all its own
and tells me I love you,
though I enjoy being alone.
I miss you a lot,
miss your laugh and your smile,
and I've noticed without you
I've been down for a while.
The world holds little excitement
without you here with me.
I miss your gentle encouragement,
your fun personality.
You were the one I'd confide in,
unsure of myself,
the one who'd always support me
and offer me help.
But is that not a friend's job
to assist one another?
To help us do right,
and to learn from each other?
If that is the truth,
then are you still just a friend?
Albeit one who's a guy,
but one who's friendship won't end?
There are just too many questions
With This MindWith this mind, I create.With This Mind4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Within my mind, a world awaits.
My mind decides the fate of men
who strive to erase my iron pen.
The place in which they forever dwell
is the very base of my creative well.
Though they attempt to elude my catch,
for this mind's power, they are no match.
With this mind, I will proceed
to quench my mind's insatiable need
for that which here can never be,
lest you let my mind flow free.
SmileYou tell me to smileSmile4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As if that small jester
Would just make everything ok
As if with the simple up turn of my lips
The world will be ok
And all the bad people in my life will just go away
So simple so quick
A tiny smile and everything's fixed
If I do smile its fake
A way to keep out the tears
You think I'm over dramatic
You don't think it's real
Please come back from that fantasy
You've been living in
Where smiles and laughter fix everything
You're going to hit your head hard
When you wake up from that dream
And realize laughter's nothing
Smiles don't do anything
And life's harder then it seems
ObsoleteFind yourself in your depthObsolete4 years ago in Philosophical More Like This
The entity without wants and needs
That has no desire to change
But makes no effort to persist
Stop clinging to time
As without past there is no burden
Without visions of the future
Synthetic restrictions evaporate
And there is nothing to control you
Nothing to blur your pure existence
When you are truly yourself
You cannot become anything else
And there is no reason to doubt
For to comprehend the uncensored world
Takes up all your being
And makes all your questions
In A NutshellI met you. I didn't meet you. I met you again. We laughed. I laughed. You laughed. We laughed again. We found meaning. We looked at little things. We talked. We loved. We looked at worlds in different perspectives. We understood eyes being windows to souls. I liked yours. You thought mine were pretty. We found balconies insipid. We found doorways ironic. We thought stars were overrated. We circled around discomfort. We circled around love. We circled and circled and circled...and then you told me you loved me. We smiled. You asked me to run with you. You told me time and space were ours to take. We were invincible. Stars became ours. Ours became different. Different became a problem. Your friends. My friends. Your ideas. My thoughts. You laughed. I didn't. I laughed. You didn't. The world was harder. Your eyes were colder. Balconies became escape routes. Doors were meant to be closed. Stars disappeared. Discomfort became natural. We argued. We fought. We stopped running together. TimeIn A Nutshell5 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
I Could Be WorseWould you rather I was a whore,I Could Be Worse3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Or a bore,
Or maybe something a little more,
Than that which I am?
Would you rather I was a bitch,
Or a witch,
Or a scratch for you to itch,
Instead of being me?
Would you rather I was a liar,
Or a crier,
Or someone to lift your pride higher,
As opposed to this pointless screw-up?
Would you rather I was a sheep,
Or simply less of a so-called creep,
In the place of that who I am?
I don't care about perfect,
I don't care about being liked,
I just want to be happy,
I want to be more than crappy,
In a world full of Me and You;
Them and Us,
When there should be no fuss,
Because we are who we are,
So if you want me to be as dull as tar,
I have one thing to say that might just get through;
And that thing is "fuck you."
The Human MiseryMisery tears us apartThe Human Misery3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Sadness crushes broken little hearts
Senseless people all around acting as wise farts
Fragile bodies penetrated by poisonous darts
Names forgotten wiped off from charts
Running in circles of sanity chasing a lie called art
Overwhelmed by loneliness feels like an outcast,
In place loathe the outcasts
Time is not a healer, when it travels so fast
Leaves you with nothing but agony to last
Weak little bodies can't win the race
Exhausted steps can't keep the pace
Tired sweaty faces
Wandering relentlessly in empty spaces
Tormented bodies hanged by shoe laces
Drifted away leaving unmemorable traces
EndAnother attemptEnd4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My wrists are stinging
In the dark
Fear and pain
Course my veins
Tear streaked cheeks
Blood red eyes
No one cares
Why should I try
Filled with pain
That never came
Pelage my sleep
Things that I will never see
What it wasn't.No, my love. It's not the way you don't listen when I speak.What it wasn't.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've realized that you do listen. You just forget.
No, my sweetheart. It's not the way you don't find me witty.
I've learnt that our senses of humour are different.
No, my darling. It's not the way you pick on my flaws.
I've understood that you love me despite them.
No, my dear. It's not the way you always ignore me like I'm just a girl.
I've figured out that I'm more even when your friends ask who I am.
No, my pet. It's not the way you never call me back when I need you.
I've come to the conclusion that you won't be there when I need you.
No, my sweet. It's not that you do not say it at all and when you do it's forced.
These are not the reasons why I've finally realized you don't love me.
Maybe years from now, when you sit and wonder about me, you'll realize
The reason I left was not words or sentiment or ideas or feelings
It's because your eyes are always wide open when you kiss me.
GoodbyeAs I watchGoodbye4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
My memories of past,
A weak smile forms
Upon my face.
And as I remember
The joy ,
A single drop
Rolls down my cheek,
Letting it fall
Upon my chest
Leaving it to soak,
My shattered trust.
My broken heart.
As I say,
I can't say that 'I love you'I can't sayI can't say that 'I love you'4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
That I love you
It causes too much pain
I can't show
That I love you
My tears fall like rain.
I can't whisper
That I love you
It's full of disdain.
I can't shout
That I love you
It's a poisonous bane.
I cannot communicate
That I love you
I wont say it in vain.
Be Happy!Life isn't about getting through fair,Be Happy!3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's hard and there is going to be some long nights,
So suck it up and do it right,
Do it wrong and you just have to go back
And guess what? Do it again!
Things are better done than said,
And you shouldn't sell yourself short because
You guys! You guys are all beautiful!
I don't care about your race, orientation,
Location or thoughts, because you know what?
We are all different and that is how God made us,
What would it be if we were all the same?
You are amazing in your own ways, just as the guy
Or girl next to you!
No more war this way of thinking!
No more suffering!
Everything is all right this way!
World peace, satisfaction!
Finally, be yourself,
Because and original is ALWAYS worth more than a copy!
Lost LoveI thought we would always be togetherLost Love3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I thought what we had would last forever,
Our love was strong, but our love didn't last
I used to love you, but that's all in the past.
How could someone do a thing so unjust,
now I know you were the wrong one to trust.
I gave you my heart and now it is torn.
You went and hurt me, our lost love I mourn.
Now I see through you as if you were glass.
Now I'm just waiting for these feelings to pass.
Locked UpAs I lie hereLocked Up4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
alive but dead
terrible thoughts fly through my head
and im locked up with rusty chains
suffering an unbearable pain
I cry out, unheard by most
because my voice dissappears
like the whisper of a ghost
i've been hollowed out by all the years
all hope is lost
all thats left are my tears
my mind is just an empty skull
forever alone, my senses dull
Trust IssuesWhat if the reason your phone is busy is because you were talking to another girl?Trust Issues4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What if the reason you are out is because you're picking up someone else?
What if the girl you insist is just a friend is something a hell of a lot more?
What if the reason you looked at your ex's profile online was because you miss her?
What if the conversation we just had was in front of another woman and you both laughed at me?
What if the trip I've taken is a way for you to run off with someone else?
What if you are so dead inside from the women who have cheated on you, that you just don't think much of it if you do it to me?
What if you don't care if I'm in pain and hurting?
What if you are hiding something and just not telling me so you can have your cake and eat it too?
What if you don't notice if I don't call you for days?
What if you just don't care if I'm around or not?
What if the reason you play that song is because you are longing for someone else?
Or how about I just stop playing Harriet th
The World As We Know ItSuicide...The World As We Know It3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
War, Hate, Death, Depression.
Fives words to describe the world,
Leaving out so many more.
I can write this about happiness,
How there is hope and joy,
That it is going to be all okay and good,
But when you look right to it, it isn't like that...
Let me sun it up for you:
We have the youngest of our people cutting,
Taking their owns lives and losing their innocence,
To put it sincerely.
We have children killing themselves,
Just because of a past love,
Or taunting at school...
They are torturing each other day after day...
We have stars today that shine dim
And rotate around money and power...
Where did all the compassion go?
The love, the happiness?
Do we even care that people take their lives every day,
Only to escape this living Hell?
I don't blame them...
And I am stuck here,
In the middle...
Trying to help,
DepressionShe stands on the edge of the lonely abyssDepression5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Contemplates jumping to death's final kiss.
Anger and bitterness fire through her veins
Silently she waits as strength slowly drains.
No life is allowed near, just rock ash and sand,
This place is her mood, just a barren wasteland.
Though suffered before this type of bout.
She cant break free, no way out, no way out
Harsh wind whips through tousled hair
Its haunting cry echo's her mounting despair.
Heart beats so weak, beginning to list.
So tense her stance, hand gripped into fist.
Gasping for air that refuses to come,
Skin so cold, her time so near to be done.
Feeling so dizzy, close to a faint,
Misery building from emotional taint.
Time and again she has come to this place,
Walking the same path at the same sullen pace.
Feet always falling into the holes of her tracks,
Made when she flees here, to hide what she lacks.
So desperate now, and wanting to flee,
These curses of depression, these feeling so empty.
Nothing good can be made, this obs
I'm Not InsaneMom I swear to god I'm not going insaneI'm Not Insane5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
But all this pain deep inside,
Has made me forget what the hell is my name
Mom, lots of things are happening more than
What my small brain can contain
It's like a heavy burden in my shoulders
I don't know even if they can sustain
Mom, I Feel like this life isn't my game
I'm suffocating now, but no one
Would like to hear me complain
I guess I'm dying, I'm running out of words
Sorry if I was unable to explain
Mom, I'm not going insane, but I feel like
Poison is running in my vein
Please hold me tight and tell me it won't be the same
I won't wake up every day soaked in shame
But mom I guess this life is a losing game
But I swear to god I'm not going insane