Silent TearsMore painful are the silent tearsSilent Tears5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Than the desolate moans
Petty are the pained groans,
And they just seem more so when you're grown
But crying silently
Can often be
For no one comes to comfort me
When I'm alone in the dark and they cannot see
That I didn't get better-I just got better at hiding my sorrow
Better at acting like I don't dread each tomorrow
Can they really not tell how much I'm hurting?
Or are they afraid to admit
That it is most definitely NOT okay
My misery's well hidden but it hasn't gone away
I'll just fake a smile and die inside all the while
It seems sadness is here to stay
This Star Won't Go OutI am tired of being alone.This Star Won't Go Out5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am tired of boys like Dan,
Who make me doubt myself.
That's right. I'm putting a name to the identity.
You're no longer going to be able to hide and run.
And you can apologize a thousand times,
But you can never take back how bad you made me feel towards myself.
I am tired of boys like Jim,
Boys I can't shake. Boys I can't forget.
That's right. I'm admitting it.
I can't seem to make the lie I've been telling myself real.
I can't get over you.
But maybe that's because ther isn't anyone there to help me climb.
I am tired of boys like Mike,
Who wait and wait until Rapunzel's already left her tower.
That's right. I know how you feel.
I guessed after the games we've played.
And it's alright,
But I don't know how I feel. So I can't tell you.
I'm sorry to all of you,
Because I can't be as strong as you think am.
Because smoetimes I get so mad at the world,
I scream and cry and pull out my hair.
Because I hate my body,
But can neverdo a
Why We Staythere are remains... spaces...Why We Stay4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
fragments of silks and laces in our eyes
deepenings, waves of foam and shadows
promises made, such as full-moon tides
our voices whisper...
echo beyond the walls of ancient Babylon
and thus we achieve, the clouds like gods;
warm lips blow kisses to breeze
our hands caresses suspended gardens
young branches entwined over the sea
while the dawn boats, arrive and depart
our feet refuse to leave this place
MARCH © RR
GuiltNo matterGuilt5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How hard I try
It's always there
A battle I can't win
It eats away
Makes you doubt
Your strongest beliefs
It keeps coming
It reminds you
Of every failure
Every lost battle
Every dead friend
There is no escape
Suicide-child abuse awarenessI hear them SHOUTINGSuicide-child abuse awareness5 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I'm sat on the stairs
I want it to end
But know it won't
My mummy's crying
Daddy h i t her
My brothers drunk
And he hurt me with words
I run to the window
I know it's open
I close my eyes
And dive outside
My name is Hope
I am 5
Tonight I commited
Why My Teddy Covers His EyesMy teddy bears cover their eyes when there is silence in my room,Why My Teddy Covers His Eyes5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hold hope; uniformed lights will arrive soon,
When I hear one set of footsteps, when I hear that terrifying sound,
I save some of my toys; I quickly turn them around,
They stare at my shadow dancing on the wall,
As the concept of love continues to fall,
I don't speak a word as the monster in my closet stands,
He forces down his pants then grabs my hands,
He reminds me this is a secret, however love,
Mum can't help, clouds cry as she stands above,
I love my father, because of him I be,
However if he loves me then why does he hurt me?
When lying in bed he places his mouth where I can't see,
Creating a feeling I like, a loss of true reality is the fee,
I reach for my teddy as I begin to cry,
I tell dad it hurts, he says to give it a try,
I cry but don't dare scream,
For if I do daddy will get mean,
Following a strange noise he leave with a kiss,
Leaving me with the result of an aging wish,
To lay in a different bed at nig
Daddy's little doll.....When we had mommy i would always smileDaddy's little doll.....5 years ago in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
I just wish that it would stay a while
But daddy says not to think of that dream
"Please, he hits me." I just wanna scream
Even when i do
People say it's not true
I know i'm daddy's little doll
Please don't smash my head on the wall
People never hear my pleases or cries
They're all hidden by all the lies
Daddy calls over some friends
I ask god if this is where my life ends
I crawle into a corner and try to disappear
I watch as the four men start to come near
My mommy left me in this place
With my daddy's twisted face
Please, these stories i'm unable to share
I wish my mommy would start to care
I ask god for mercy to spare
But he does not want to share
I'm stuck here getting raped
While my mouth is taped
I feel like my childhood was robbed
All those tears i had cried and sobbed
I know i'll sleep really good tonight
I won't wake to the sun's next light
Once police come it's alittle too late
I ask god if this was my blessed fate
PainLife can be too confusing for one to bearPain5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With a blade to your wrist, your skin will tear
A fire match will burn your skin
But the pain you feel is kept within
One Slice.One slice,One Slice.5 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Then I'll sleep.
Doesn't have to be deep.
I just need one slice.
I need the bitter sweet pain.
I need to see the crimson liquid,
Wash away all the shame.
I need one slice,
Just across my wrist.
I'm trying hard,
But it's hard to resist.
I did it
Now I'll go to sleep.
Hoping that tomorrow,
The cut will be deep.
maybe you never belonged to meI can still feel the weight of your lips on the curve of my collarbone. Sometimes, it feels paralyzing, crushing, absolute. Sometimes, it feels like home. Like everything.maybe you never belonged to me3 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
I once heard that when you can't fall asleep it means you're awake in someone else's dream. I wonder which one of us was dreaming that night, because everything was too quiet, too easy, too perfect. You used to fall asleep next to me, your body curled against mine. It's a warmth that's not easy to forget. A hidden smile tucked into pillows and sheets. It's easy to think these things will last forever when you're tangled up together. For me, the strings of my life will always be tangled up in yours. Forever tied to you. No matter hard they attempt to fray. To fall apart. To sever.
It's snowing for the first time this year. Soft and gentle, glittering in the sunlight, falling in large flakes, easy and quiet – nothing at all like the storm that rages inside of me, turning up the corners of my heart, throwing shrapnel
DarknessLost in the darknessDarkness5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I am not afraid of the dark itself
But rather the secrets the darkness holds
The secrets that changed my life
The darkness holds dreadful things
Things no one should bear witness to
Things you can never forget
Things that you can never change
Damage that you can never undo
The darkness is its keeper
It holds things too great and terrible for others to bear
Secrets must be kept in the dark
In fear of others falling prey to its horror
The darkness is a friend in the guise of a enemy
It keeps you safe from the horrors of the world
And there I will be waiting
For the glory of the world to pass
And crumble into the darkness.
we don't sound like a whisper.The sun never sets over the water, but you still take me there whenever dusk comes to meet the horizon. We sit out on the rocks with me tucked tight against your chest, while you count stars like other people count blessings, but we're only half lucky with all these city lights ruining your chances. I know you're tired, love, but I'm terrified. I'm running out of ways to stop myself from telling you I miss you because twenty four hours isn't a long time to be separated and I'm really just more afraid of what you're doing when I'm not there -- and of what you're thinking when I am. I've been burnt enough times before to learn that loving with only half your heart will save you from the fire, but I know that's not what I'm doing here. I don't want you to be a mistake worth making. I want this to be real this time.we don't sound like a whisper.4 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
I keep playing out all the ways you could hurt me in my head, not because I think you will, but because it'll sting less if it actually happens. I've learned to prepare myself
chemical dream. - insomnia.hello, my friend.chemical dream. - insomnia.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you are small, easy to swallow.
my beloved, chemical friend.
I will swallow you down, together we will fall into the chemical sleep.
I will fall asleep, dear friend.
thanks to you.
together we will sleep next, chemical, sleepless night.
Hydroxyzine, my friend.
I'm The GirlI'm the girl nobody notices because she hides herself from the world.I'm The Girl6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm the girl who doesn't have a clue about how to act around the guys she crushes on.
I'm the girl who would make an idiot of herself to make others happy.
I'm the girl who fears being judged by others.
I'm the girl who is plagued by hate for herself.
I'm the girl who seems to break everything she lays a hand on.
I'm the girl with the red-hot temper and the crushing depression.
I'm the girl who liked to talk but never got the courage to follow through with anything.
I'm the girl nobody could love because she hid in the shadows.
The one who was too shy to communicate with those she didn't know.
I'm the girl who wanted to be loved, kissed and hugged.
The one who lied constantly and let emotions get the better of her.
I'm the girl who wears a mask at every waking moment.
I'm the girl who wishes she was somebody else.
MissedThe words you say,Missed5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Sink in her soul
They rot, decay
Her hearts not whole
Can't you see the knife
Held to her wrists?
A cherished life,
Will soon be missed.
Final EscapeI keep promising what I can't give.Final Escape3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I keep saying what I don't believe.
I keep pretending that I want to live.
I keep on trying but I'll never succeed.
Every night gets a little bit colder.
(Now that no one's by my side!)
And every day I get so much older.
Another WarSo slowly do these second's seem to fade away,Another War5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
fractions of time escaping my grasp,
the sands are shifting,
contorting into mysterious shapes,
taking on an unnatural beauty and casting deadly shadows,
creep and crawl they move closer,
sounds of a past life echo in sorrowful remorse,
almost as if in a final swan song,
I can hear them resonating within me,
regrets, fears and doubts all alluding into a final crescendo,
stifled only by the deafening crash of past transgressions,
they sweep towards me like a tidal wave of fury,
washing over me,
take me now,
embrace me now,
surround me now,
I welcome you with open arms,
no longer fearful of what may come,
safety is found only in the knowledge of tomorrow,
like a valiant and strong soldier I will rise again,
but every soldier knows everyday is just another war....
Six Word StoriesOne word, regrettedSix Word Stories4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
my lips blush
Soft September rain
hides my grief
Love letter in shame
The girl who loved DecemberEveryday she wore a smileThe girl who loved December5 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
and everyday she played the role.
What an actor she was
though no one could tell the difference.
No one panic she looks okay
just smile and wave
but look away.
In the rainbow of students
she was a stain in the orange
Black and gray and red and white
her rainbow didn't match
it was too different and dark.
Her skin stark white
and her arms scarred and bruised
black and blue.
Her smile never reached her eyes
but no one ever noticed.
When she was gone
they could barely remember
the girl who wrote poetry
and answered questions in science.
She was a memory almost remembered
a A plus average unacknowledged.
She starved into a ghost
fading each day until she was nearly invisible.
But no one remembered this.
Her funeral was short and small
just her sister to remember
the girl who always loved the month December.
BurdenEverything is becoming too much againBurden5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Everything is falling down on me again
Pressuring me even more than before
The burden I carry just became heavier
And I have to carry it alone
I don't think I can take it anymore
It will be just a matter of time
For me to break and fall apart
written in ocotber 31, 2010
I Won't Give UpI won't give up.I Won't Give Up4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I won't give up the feeling
When we are together
I won't give up the security
Of your strong arms
I won't give up the way
You make my heart flutter
I won't give up the words
Of never ending encouragement
I won't give up the way
You see my flaws and still stay
I won't g
A Little GirlDon't cry, little girl. It'll be alright.A Little Girl4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I know it hurts now, little girl, but I'll hold you tight.
It's hard right now, I know. But your hurts WILL go away.
It'll get better, you WILL see another day.
You'll grow up and things will seem worse.
You'll think of your life as not a blessing but a curse.
Don't take it out on yourself, though, my girl.
Don't cut, don't starve, don't hurl.
I know it's hard sometimes. I know they've hurt you.
But I'm here for you, and I'll never desert you.
I know, your thoughts are dark, you're hurt and scared
I know, when things happened, it felt like no one cared.
I've been there before, little girl, I know how it feels.
It's hard to manage the hand that life deals.
The burden is heavy, it weights down on each shoulder,
It'll seem to get worse as you grow up and grow older.
But I know how strong you are, little girl, I know you're brave.
I know I won't have to make an early visit to your grave.
You'll be okay, little girl, it'll be alright, you'll see.
Just Beneath My SkinI want people to know the truthJust Beneath My Skin5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But how do I tell someone who wont listen?
All they see is the lie I've weaved
And they only know me as the person I pretend to be
How do I show them the truth?
That lies just beneath my skin