All That I AmAll That I Am
A monster, yet still human
A sinner, yet still a saint
A liar, yet still truthful
A dog, yet still a being
A loser, yet still a winner
A creep, yet still normal
A corps, yet still alive
A waste, yet still of value
A corrupter, yet still clean
A king, yet still a peasant
A beggar, yet still rich
A curse, yet still a blessing
A whore, yet still pure
A ghost, yet still flesh
A criminal, yet still honest
A boaster, yet still humble
A bastard, yet still caring
A nerd, yet still a jock
A wimp, yet still strong
A fool, yet still wise
All these things I am at any given time, at any given day,
I am proud to admit these and yet,
I am sure to deny them all.
ScarsI am scardScars3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Both mentally and physically
There are scars all over my body
They are deep and speak of times much worse than these
Each one for a broken hear, a shattered friendship, a forgotten promise
These wounds within my mind
They tear me apart
The bleed and pulse with pain just as much as they day they were wrought upon me
The flower of those i love has now rotted away
Only the petals remain and the float all around me
But i can not touch them
Their they go, blown away in the subtle breeze
Hear me scream
See me burn
Never shall i allow someone to be as beaten and rejected as me
If you feel pain as i do
If you bleed as i do
If you love as i do
If you have been rejected as i have been
Talk to me
I shall help
Even if i must give my life
I must help
I will help
KnifeCut me with your knifeKnife3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Cut out my heart and make me watch you tear it to pieces
Then cut me until i am unrecognizable
Keep cutting until there is no blood left to spill
Hear me scream
Not out of pain
But out of joy
I deserve this
I deserve all the pain that has happened
See the flower petals fall all around me
Watch them fall onto my wounds and heal them
See them close and the blood dry and flake away
But it is to late
For i am already dead
My soul has vanished
Here comes death on skeleton wings
The Way it WasShe's so happyThe Way it Was3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Running round in circles
Leaping to her daddy,
Helping with her mummy.
That's how it should be.
Her friends watch in proud envy
As she has her first kiss.
It's sweet and
That's how it should be.
Now she's being taken away
Kidnapped, taken prisoner.
He beats her and
He rapes her.
And that's how it's going to be.
Shot DownWas I a fool to think that things wereShot Down4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
going to be different this time around?
That maybe, just maybe you had really changed
and wanted to make things right?
At first I believed you; I let you in,
and the walls I put up for so long gradually came down
and I put our bad memories behind us.
We rebuilt our relationship, and it filled me with a joy
I hadn't felt for quite some time.
I had my mom back.
Or so I thought.
No sooner had I convinced myself that your efforts were sincere
did your true colors begin to re-emerge.
You built a false hope in me, then shot me down
when I was most vulnerable.
Leaving me crushed, disappointed.
I'm no stranger to disappointment, however,
I just never thought you'd be the one
to put me through it again.
songbirdhello little songbirdsongbird3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
sitting oh so high
tell me little songbird
why do you not fly?
someone clipped your wings, you say?
how terrible, oh my!
I did this to you, you say?
songbird, no, I swear to thee
it was not I who did the deed
oh no little songbird
you're sitting much too high
please wait little songbird
your wings are clipped, don't fly!
darling little songbird
your splut'ring little cries
are ripping through my wretched heart,
why did you have to die?
FallenAn angelFallen4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With broken wings
A shattered halo
With a shattered soul.
Broken from the fall.
She fell from
Such great heights.
She couldn't reach anymore.
It got to be too much.
Then the expectations
Turned gravity on stronger.
Failure shattered her wings
And she was left to fall
With no one to catch her.
Pure white wings,
Stained with blood and dirt.
Her innocence left in the clouds.
She doesn't belong down on the ground.
The demons crawl out and surround her
Before long, they've consumed her.
She can't fight them off.
She's too weak,
She's mourning her lost wings.
She used to be perfect,
Now she was just another monster.
For You...You are so strongFor You...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Trying to handle everything
You refuse to lean on anyone
Its tearing you apart
I see what its doing to you
I see how you're falling
I see you fading away
Its killing me
They say things
They do things
You sit there and take it
You just cant fight them off
I cant take it anymore
Seeing you this way
I cant lose you like this
Im not going to let it continue
You matter too much
You are worth too much
You deserve better
You are everything to me
You can trust me
You can lean on me
You can depend on me
I wont let you down
Nobody is going to hurt you
Nobody will bother you
You can be happy
As long as im here
I know you want to do it all
You fear depending on someone
You cant do it alone
You dont have have to anymore
I can make you happy
I can help you
I can take care of you
I can protect you
All you have to do my angel, is let me
Tomorrow Starts TodayI've got a list locked in my headTomorrow Starts Today3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A list of things I've never done
It seems it's growing all the time
When will I feel like I've begun?
Things can always be done tomorrow
But I know tomorrow starts today
It's never fun when life passes you by
I regret pissing my time away
My days will quickly become memories
Dreams are my ideal waste of time
Action is what brings dreams to life
Wishing on stars becomes a crime
The list inside my head grows every day
Somehow I must sift through it all
And only pick out the important things
If I carry too much I'll fall
There are things I've got to work for now
For someone other then myself
This time I'm going to have to grow
I'll pick my life up off the shelf
This Life Is But A DreamLiving in the moment isn't such a bad ideaThis Life Is But A Dream3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But over time even the moment grows cold
In life time flows like a river or stream
And though we choose the course we are pulled
In hindsight my memories make more sense
What I didn't understand is crystal clear
Some days my life is so jumbled up
I've come to learn things aren't how the appear
It seems my daily map has many jumping points
And when I'm thrown around I just want to scream
Somehow it's all wrapped up together
Maybe it's true that this life is but a dream
Somehow the repetition stirs memories I've lost
And like a person they've twisted over time
Certain aspects don't fit and it doesn't feel right
Just like a bar of soap all coated in grime
I've fallen asleep so many times I'm not sure if I'm awake
Somehow the pieces just don't fit together
If I am truly dreaming why did things turn out this way
You'd think a dream is where you'd want to stay forever
Everybody Makes Mistakes.I'm black and blue-Everybody Makes Mistakes.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So stained from daddy number two.
Split in half-
I quietly whisper a baby's tune.
Singing that nobody is perfect,
We're simply human-
We're simply a gigantic mess-
Going in a million directions.
Counting to regain patience.
Just trying to climb through life's sticky situations.
We break promises;
Ignoring the unwanted.
We become bored quite often-
Deciding we're not good enough.
We think we're nothing;
Just less than average.
Complaining when it's hot,
Hating that we sweat a lot.
But not many know-
What it's like,
To truly be locked inside.
You feel imperfect,
So totally worthless.
Counting sheep to fall asleep,
Dreaming that nothing is sweet.
Waking up with scratches upon your skin;
Crying when soap falls into them-
UnpoeticI wish someone couldUnpoetic3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
See through the
The excuses I make
up so I don't have
to bother anybody
I wish for respect
For someone who
Who doesn't do something
that hurts me
Someone who fights for
When the depression comes
and drags me away
Someone who will
pull me back
and hold onto me
Never letting go
and everyone has their
back to me
They walk away
What is so wrong with
Or can love me?
I'm screaming at the top
of my lungs, because
Gasping for air in a
Crying out for help,
and no ship in sight.
CasanovaHe is just a casanovaCasanova3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
He wont stand by you
He is just a sex addict
One night is all he wants
He is just a snake
Tricks you into thinking he loves you
He is just a theif
With one smile he will steal your heart
Oh, but he has feelings too!
He is just ignorant
He will refuse to see the pain he causes you
He is just proud
He will put you down for his conveniance
He is just foolish
He will create you into his worst nightmare
He is not perfect
He is not sweet
He is not all the things he wants you to see
Just wait for his tounge to slip
For it will my dears it will
The Hardest Part...I never knew it was possibleThe Hardest Part...4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
to miss someone so much.
Or that something as simple as
a goodbye could be so hard.
When we are apart
Thoughts of you fill my head,
and I get lost in the memories
of previous nights together.
I long to be in your arms once again,
resting my head on your shoulder
while I fall asleep to the steady rhythm
of your beating heart.
I am overjoyed when these moments
once more become reality,
but dread the thought of the
heart wrenching goodbye that is yet to come.
As another wonderful evening comes to an end
I hold you close, cherishing our last embrace
wishing you could stay here with me,
and that this night would be everlasting.
I AmI'm the pain when you can't feel,I Am6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I'm the needle underneath your skin,
I'm the scar that will not heal,
I'm the part of you that makes you sin,
I'm the lie that hid the truth,
I'm the curse upon your tongue,
I'm the fire that burnt the proof,
I'm the song that can't be sung,
I'm the colour that cannot be seen,
I'm the angry voice inside your head,
I'm the reason you're so unclean,
I'm the one that wants you dead.
Right Where You Left Ityou spend your summer eveningsRight Where You Left It3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
chasing after happiness
running into sunsets
looking for shooting stars
and dragonfly wings
eyes too focused on the clouds
to realize happiness
is right beneath your feet
and you spend cold winter nights
searching for adventure
precariously perched on white window sills
waiting to jump into burning down buildings
and flee from the criminals of old comic book stories
too occupied with night time daydreams
to realize if you opened your eyes
there would be adventure everywhere you looked
and you spend all year long
looking for love
combing through romantic city street corner restaurants
batting long lashes and giving out spots of skin like free candy
too busy to realize love is right where you left it
sitting right behind you in old city block schools
bright hazel eyes hidden behind long blond locks
staring at the back of your head while you slip sultry smiles
into the pockets of back-water heart boys
For A FriendConsumed by hate,For A Friend6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Blinded by fear,
You're dying inside,
I can feel you,
You act so tough,
But I see right through you,
I hear you crying inside,
I see the rage in your mind,
I could help you,
But you wont let me,
Your thoughts are consuming you,
You're going insane,
You're lost to me now,
Overcome by your pain,
Tempted by death,
You can't see the light,
I wanted to help you,
I put up a fight,
But I couldn't save you,
No, not this time,
I saw right through you,
I knew you weren't "fine",
The darkness has finally consumed you
Breathing Agony Like AirVicious winds cut through the nightBreathing Agony Like Air4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your peace now lays in tatters
Uncanny lightning tears the sky
Things are dark when the light matters
You've got your back against the wall
Phantoms lurk in the corner
Will you endure your chilling thoughts
Or just cling to bleak disorder
The stale air gives birth to ghosts
Thoughts bring your fears to life
Biting cold words you cannot speak
And it cuts deep like a knife
Your docile blankets smother you
But the warmth can't reach inside
You can't find the fire within the flame
But then again you've never tried
Night after night the storm will scream
Branches will scratch at your window
You live your nightmare wide awake
It's a fact you've learned to swallow
But the darkened blinds keep out the light
The closed window stops fresh air
Your comfortable heart clings to the pain
Though you do you do not care
.: Awakened :.Awakened to a single dream..: Awakened :.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Awakened to a world unseen.
Revolve around your imagination
that blooms with inspiration.
What Sparks My ImaginationMisery and joyWhat Sparks My Imagination3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Pain and relief
Sorrow and love
Emotions so extreme
A sane mind could never handle them
But I can
Emotions so strong
They push my thoughts to their limits
And with courage
Just a little more
I pull on the drawstring
That keeps my brain intact
Then wait for the emotions to bubble through
Thus sparking my imagination
Devour.I Love you,Devour.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But you hate me.
I see you,
But you neglect me.
I speak to you,
But you ignore.
I give to you,
But you want more.
You got what i had,
I got what you need.
You have all that hunger,
That i have to feed.
I am running out of energy,
I am running out of breath.
Youve worked me so hard,
Your working me to the death.
So i have to stop,
Before you gain more power.
So you have to stop,
Before you completely devour.
Silent StargazingBeneath the night sky,Silent Stargazing3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I gaze passionately at the stars,
They provide me with light,
Not once do they flicker.
Though the evening is cold,
Their eternal fire warms my heart,
And it's as if I'm a mute,
Because words just won't come.
Such beauty can't be explained,
Only felt and embraced,
It's such a magical feeling,
Gazing into the stars.
Not once have I looked at the sky,
As I've been lost in your eyes,
Two brilliant stars so divine,
You're the only light that I need.
SatisfactionCold, hollow hearts,Satisfaction4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Bring me to life,
I feel their pain,
Pouring into me like rain,
Feeding off the fear,
Needing this in me,
What a brilliant sight,
As I fulfill my appetite,
Taking each one,
But it's okay,
They want out of life,
So we're both satisfied.
I'm SorryI'm sorry that I'm not as strong as her.I'm Sorry3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm sorry that I don't know you for as long as he does.
I'm sorry that you thought I don't know you as much,
But in truth, you never gave the chance to do that.
I'm sorry that I'm weak enough to cry for your hardships.
I'm sorry you "had" to take it all out on me.
I'm sorry that you're 'just like that'.
But guess what? I'm just me.
I'm sorry you broke me down.
I'm sorry I never had the right words.
I'm sorry I stopped trying half way through.
But you stopped trying, too.
I'm sorry for the situation at your home.
I'm sorry that you can never sleep.
I'm sorry you have to fight your own demons alone.
But you know what? I've got demons of my own.
I'm sorry I could never help.
I'm sorry you had to fake your every smile.
I'm sorry you got tired of the entire world.
But, why did you have to make me tired of my life?...
I'm sorry for everything.
Everything I couldn't be for you.
Everything you did to me.
Everything you went through.
Every scare you left
You Didn't Want EnoughEveryone is a pool both shallow and deepYou Didn't Want Enough4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And the depth of each person will vary
There are treasures to be found far underneath
But for some diving deep is too scary
On the surface the water looks friendly enough
Each new wave has an enchanting hue
But some people find descending a little tough
They see depth and aren't sure what to do
You were on of those people and it suited you
After all, you didn't stray from the shore
Like a log you were a fixture upon my beach
It's a shame that you didn't want more
When darkness rolls in warm waters become cold
What was once clear won't show you a thing
Precious memories I treasured are now tarnished gold
Now the pedestal sinks like a ring
They say birds of a feather flock together
But you were a seagull afraid of the sea
It's a shame that you couldn't experience the depth
In the end you didn't want enough of me