All That I AmAll That I Am
A monster, yet still human
A sinner, yet still a saint
A liar, yet still truthful
A dog, yet still a being
A loser, yet still a winner
A creep, yet still normal
A corps, yet still alive
A waste, yet still of value
A corrupter, yet still clean
A king, yet still a peasant
A beggar, yet still rich
A curse, yet still a blessing
A whore, yet still pure
A ghost, yet still flesh
A criminal, yet still honest
A boaster, yet still humble
A bastard, yet still caring
A nerd, yet still a jock
A wimp, yet still strong
A fool, yet still wise
All these things I am at any given time, at any given day,
I am proud to admit these and yet,
I am sure to deny them all.
ScarsI am scardScars4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Both mentally and physically
There are scars all over my body
They are deep and speak of times much worse than these
Each one for a broken hear, a shattered friendship, a forgotten promise
These wounds within my mind
They tear me apart
The bleed and pulse with pain just as much as they day they were wrought upon me
The flower of those i love has now rotted away
Only the petals remain and the float all around me
But i can not touch them
Their they go, blown away in the subtle breeze
Hear me scream
See me burn
Never shall i allow someone to be as beaten and rejected as me
If you feel pain as i do
If you bleed as i do
If you love as i do
If you have been rejected as i have been
Talk to me
I shall help
Even if i must give my life
I must help
I will help
songbirdhello little songbirdsongbird4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
sitting oh so high
tell me little songbird
why do you not fly?
someone clipped your wings, you say?
how terrible, oh my!
I did this to you, you say?
songbird, no, I swear to thee
it was not I who did the deed
oh no little songbird
you're sitting much too high
please wait little songbird
your wings are clipped, don't fly!
darling little songbird
your splut'ring little cries
are ripping through my wretched heart,
why did you have to die?
Shot DownWas I a fool to think that things wereShot Down4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
going to be different this time around?
That maybe, just maybe you had really changed
and wanted to make things right?
At first I believed you; I let you in,
and the walls I put up for so long gradually came down
and I put our bad memories behind us.
We rebuilt our relationship, and it filled me with a joy
I hadn't felt for quite some time.
I had my mom back.
Or so I thought.
No sooner had I convinced myself that your efforts were sincere
did your true colors begin to re-emerge.
You built a false hope in me, then shot me down
when I was most vulnerable.
Leaving me crushed, disappointed.
I'm no stranger to disappointment, however,
I just never thought you'd be the one
to put me through it again.
This Life Is But A DreamLiving in the moment isn't such a bad ideaThis Life Is But A Dream4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But over time even the moment grows cold
In life time flows like a river or stream
And though we choose the course we are pulled
In hindsight my memories make more sense
What I didn't understand is crystal clear
Some days my life is so jumbled up
I've come to learn things aren't how the appear
It seems my daily map has many jumping points
And when I'm thrown around I just want to scream
Somehow it's all wrapped up together
Maybe it's true that this life is but a dream
Somehow the repetition stirs memories I've lost
And like a person they've twisted over time
Certain aspects don't fit and it doesn't feel right
Just like a bar of soap all coated in grime
I've fallen asleep so many times I'm not sure if I'm awake
Somehow the pieces just don't fit together
If I am truly dreaming why did things turn out this way
You'd think a dream is where you'd want to stay forever
.: Awakened :.Awakened to a single dream..: Awakened :.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Awakened to a world unseen.
Revolve around your imagination
that blooms with inspiration.
I AmI'm the pain when you can't feel,I Am6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I'm the needle underneath your skin,
I'm the scar that will not heal,
I'm the part of you that makes you sin,
I'm the lie that hid the truth,
I'm the curse upon your tongue,
I'm the fire that burnt the proof,
I'm the song that can't be sung,
I'm the colour that cannot be seen,
I'm the angry voice inside your head,
I'm the reason you're so unclean,
I'm the one that wants you dead.
Fallen AngelI'm proud to be me.Fallen Angel4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I enjoy doing the things,
That no one else does.
I don't mind being an outcast,
I love it.
Sure, there's nasty remarks,
But I don't care.
Those who mind don't matter,
And those who matter don't mind.
The only opinion I truly care about,
I'll wear what I please.
I'll do what makes me happy.
If I wanna spray random colors in my hair,
If I wanna draw stitches on my face with marker,
If I wanna wear socks with heels,
I don't care what you say.
It's my life, not yours.
So why does it matter to you?
I'll rise up with my flawed wings,
And smile when most would frown.
Your comments mean nothing.
I'm proud to call myself a Fallen Angel.
The OrderTransparent angel wingsThe Order4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Take me far away.
Lift me unto the house of my Father
And save me from the fires of his fallen son.
Born under the Star of the East
The risen shows His power.
Wandering from coast to coast
And telling of the Truths.
In the region of Aether
Until the Age of Man with Water.
He graces us with His presence
Until the Age no more.
Upon this oath, I do declare
My undying love for You, my Lord.
Bring me to the golden streets
Where I may live eternal.
The Heart of Aether brings the ties
And pulls back the war to order.
Hark! and let thy bodies lie before Him
And never again shall we come to this battle.
For He will no longer be in rein
Once the Heart stops forever beating.
And yea, behold your new Beholder!
Tho none will be the wiser.
So thus, I bring us too an end
As He would have intended.
Know this, my brothers and sisters of God;
The end shall come no more.
The Hardest Part...I never knew it was possibleThe Hardest Part...4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
to miss someone so much.
Or that something as simple as
a goodbye could be so hard.
When we are apart
Thoughts of you fill my head,
and I get lost in the memories
of previous nights together.
I long to be in your arms once again,
resting my head on your shoulder
while I fall asleep to the steady rhythm
of your beating heart.
I am overjoyed when these moments
once more become reality,
but dread the thought of the
heart wrenching goodbye that is yet to come.
As another wonderful evening comes to an end
I hold you close, cherishing our last embrace
wishing you could stay here with me,
and that this night would be everlasting.
Tomorrow Starts TodayI've got a list locked in my headTomorrow Starts Today4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A list of things I've never done
It seems it's growing all the time
When will I feel like I've begun?
Things can always be done tomorrow
But I know tomorrow starts today
It's never fun when life passes you by
I regret pissing my time away
My days will quickly become memories
Dreams are my ideal waste of time
Action is what brings dreams to life
Wishing on stars becomes a crime
The list inside my head grows every day
Somehow I must sift through it all
And only pick out the important things
If I carry too much I'll fall
There are things I've got to work for now
For someone other then myself
This time I'm going to have to grow
I'll pick my life up off the shelf
If you knewIf you knew what I was thinkingIf you knew6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and going through my head?
Would you be able to understand or
comprehend it? Trading yesterday
to redo, rewrite and change back time.
Things that were said and did collected
in memories. Memories that turn into
whispers echoing through my head.
Trying to find a sign to clear my mind.
LullabySing me a song of beauty,Lullaby6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Of maidens white and fair,
Whisper me a melody,
Of knights brave beyond compare,
Tell me tales of victory, and courage,
Where hope was lost,
Speak to me of mountains,
And great oceans wide and deep,
Promise me the faery realms,
and strange creatures from the myths,
Fill my head with wonders,
As you lay me down to sleep,
Sing to me the stories,
Of the world time couldn't keep
Everybody Makes Mistakes.I'm black and blue-Everybody Makes Mistakes.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So stained from daddy number two.
Split in half-
I quietly whisper a baby's tune.
Singing that nobody is perfect,
We're simply human-
We're simply a gigantic mess-
Going in a million directions.
Counting to regain patience.
Just trying to climb through life's sticky situations.
We break promises;
Ignoring the unwanted.
We become bored quite often-
Deciding we're not good enough.
We think we're nothing;
Just less than average.
Complaining when it's hot,
Hating that we sweat a lot.
But not many know-
What it's like,
To truly be locked inside.
You feel imperfect,
So totally worthless.
Counting sheep to fall asleep,
Dreaming that nothing is sweet.
Waking up with scratches upon your skin;
Crying when soap falls into them-
Silent StargazingBeneath the night sky,Silent Stargazing4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I gaze passionately at the stars,
They provide me with light,
Not once do they flicker.
Though the evening is cold,
Their eternal fire warms my heart,
And it's as if I'm a mute,
Because words just won't come.
Such beauty can't be explained,
Only felt and embraced,
It's such a magical feeling,
Gazing into the stars.
Not once have I looked at the sky,
As I've been lost in your eyes,
Two brilliant stars so divine,
You're the only light that I need.
If fantasy brings creativity?If fantasy brings creativity to life?If fantasy brings creativity?5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In minds that truly see.
Is a brilliant mind indeed.
Setting the mind free to it's own free will.
Regardless of reality and fantasy .
Things that were meant to be by the eye's that see.
Colliding with feeling of emotions.
Thinking is not as hard as what it seems.
When you let the mind go free.
Breathing Agony Like AirVicious winds cut through the nightBreathing Agony Like Air4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your peace now lays in tatters
Uncanny lightning tears the sky
Things are dark when the light matters
You've got your back against the wall
Phantoms lurk in the corner
Will you endure your chilling thoughts
Or just cling to bleak disorder
The stale air gives birth to ghosts
Thoughts bring your fears to life
Biting cold words you cannot speak
And it cuts deep like a knife
Your docile blankets smother you
But the warmth can't reach inside
You can't find the fire within the flame
But then again you've never tried
Night after night the storm will scream
Branches will scratch at your window
You live your nightmare wide awake
It's a fact you've learned to swallow
But the darkened blinds keep out the light
The closed window stops fresh air
Your comfortable heart clings to the pain
Though you do you do not care
Spread our wingsTake a chance.Spread our wings5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Roll the dice.
See where it can take you to such great heights.
To live life as it is.
Fully alive to follow our dreams.
Fully alive to set foot and spread our wings.
Girl In PainPlastic hair,Girl In Pain6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Girl in pain.
Chasing the SunriseSo here we goChasing the Sunrise4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Chasing the sunrise,
Not quite alive, but not dead yet.
Running as if our feet have wings.
We'll tug at our own heartstrings
With ecstasy that will remain unfeigned.
Charting the road less traveled by.
Striking chords of subliminal exhilaration.
We won't wait for the agony of rhapsody to ensue;
Our velocity will outrun the torment
Until we've become illegal aliens in our own state of mind.
Oh, but silence me, for words will estrange this to the point of breaking.
Somewhere Life is ValuedSomewhere in the night a child cries,Somewhere Life is Valued4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
A woman weeps and someone dies.
Somewhere in the night, humanity hides.
Somewhere in the night , a soul screams,
As people fade and die, lost in dreams.
Somewhere in the night, reality lives.
Somewhere in the night loneliness dwells,
As people die, no sounding bells.
Somewhere in the night, she dies alone.
Somewhere in the night ...
Where is the light?
UnpoeticI wish someone couldUnpoetic4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
See through the
The excuses I make
up so I don't have
to bother anybody
I wish for respect
For someone who
Who doesn't do something
that hurts me
Someone who fights for
When the depression comes
and drags me away
Someone who will
pull me back
and hold onto me
Never letting go
and everyone has their
back to me
They walk away
What is so wrong with
Or can love me?
I'm screaming at the top
of my lungs, because
Gasping for air in a
Crying out for help,
and no ship in sight.
Devour.I Love you,Devour.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But you hate me.
I see you,
But you neglect me.
I speak to you,
But you ignore.
I give to you,
But you want more.
You got what i had,
I got what you need.
You have all that hunger,
That i have to feed.
I am running out of energy,
I am running out of breath.
Youve worked me so hard,
Your working me to the death.
So i have to stop,
Before you gain more power.
So you have to stop,
Before you completely devour.
Thoughts 010Thoughts on love #1Thoughts 0104 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I knew you were going to leave,
I hoped you were different.
You made me smile,
like the rays of a thousand suns.
You held me like that,
of a faithful love
when the day came,
you also left like everyone else.
You broke me like no one else,
in a way that the pieces don't even fit
and it's hard to pretend,
My soul's eradicating ,
my mind's diminishing
as my doubt's
eat me from the inside
time to let go.
Bitter sobs echoing in the night,
soaked pillow at morning's light.
Harsh sounds from a
being in agony.
Thoughts # 29
goes the clock,
minutes waiting for you seems like hours.
Tic tock .
Thoughts # 56
Eyes like sapphires ,
Voice like a love song,
Can make me perky any day
Thoughts # 76
Long phone calls,
And sinful sighs
Can light flames
Worthy of my blushing face
You Didn't Want EnoughEveryone is a pool both shallow and deepYou Didn't Want Enough4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And the depth of each person will vary
There are treasures to be found far underneath
But for some diving deep is too scary
On the surface the water looks friendly enough
Each new wave has an enchanting hue
But some people find descending a little tough
They see depth and aren't sure what to do
You were on of those people and it suited you
After all, you didn't stray from the shore
Like a log you were a fixture upon my beach
It's a shame that you didn't want more
When darkness rolls in warm waters become cold
What was once clear won't show you a thing
Precious memories I treasured are now tarnished gold
Now the pedestal sinks like a ring
They say birds of a feather flock together
But you were a seagull afraid of the sea
It's a shame that you couldn't experience the depth
In the end you didn't want enough of me