All That I AmAll That I Am
A monster, yet still human
A sinner, yet still a saint
A liar, yet still truthful
A dog, yet still a being
A loser, yet still a winner
A creep, yet still normal
A corps, yet still alive
A waste, yet still of value
A corrupter, yet still clean
A king, yet still a peasant
A beggar, yet still rich
A curse, yet still a blessing
A whore, yet still pure
A ghost, yet still flesh
A criminal, yet still honest
A boaster, yet still humble
A bastard, yet still caring
A nerd, yet still a jock
A wimp, yet still strong
A fool, yet still wise
All these things I am at any given time, at any given day,
I am proud to admit these and yet,
I am sure to deny them all.
KnifeCut me with your knifeKnife4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Cut out my heart and make me watch you tear it to pieces
Then cut me until i am unrecognizable
Keep cutting until there is no blood left to spill
Hear me scream
Not out of pain
But out of joy
I deserve this
I deserve all the pain that has happened
See the flower petals fall all around me
Watch them fall onto my wounds and heal them
See them close and the blood dry and flake away
But it is to late
For i am already dead
My soul has vanished
Here comes death on skeleton wings
Shot DownWas I a fool to think that things wereShot Down4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
going to be different this time around?
That maybe, just maybe you had really changed
and wanted to make things right?
At first I believed you; I let you in,
and the walls I put up for so long gradually came down
and I put our bad memories behind us.
We rebuilt our relationship, and it filled me with a joy
I hadn't felt for quite some time.
I had my mom back.
Or so I thought.
No sooner had I convinced myself that your efforts were sincere
did your true colors begin to re-emerge.
You built a false hope in me, then shot me down
when I was most vulnerable.
Leaving me crushed, disappointed.
I'm no stranger to disappointment, however,
I just never thought you'd be the one
to put me through it again.
songbirdhello little songbirdsongbird4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
sitting oh so high
tell me little songbird
why do you not fly?
someone clipped your wings, you say?
how terrible, oh my!
I did this to you, you say?
songbird, no, I swear to thee
it was not I who did the deed
oh no little songbird
you're sitting much too high
please wait little songbird
your wings are clipped, don't fly!
darling little songbird
your splut'ring little cries
are ripping through my wretched heart,
why did you have to die?
The Way it WasShe's so happyThe Way it Was4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Running round in circles
Leaping to her daddy,
Helping with her mummy.
That's how it should be.
Her friends watch in proud envy
As she has her first kiss.
It's sweet and
That's how it should be.
Now she's being taken away
Kidnapped, taken prisoner.
He beats her and
He rapes her.
And that's how it's going to be.
This Life Is But A DreamLiving in the moment isn't such a bad ideaThis Life Is But A Dream4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But over time even the moment grows cold
In life time flows like a river or stream
And though we choose the course we are pulled
In hindsight my memories make more sense
What I didn't understand is crystal clear
Some days my life is so jumbled up
I've come to learn things aren't how the appear
It seems my daily map has many jumping points
And when I'm thrown around I just want to scream
Somehow it's all wrapped up together
Maybe it's true that this life is but a dream
Somehow the repetition stirs memories I've lost
And like a person they've twisted over time
Certain aspects don't fit and it doesn't feel right
Just like a bar of soap all coated in grime
I've fallen asleep so many times I'm not sure if I'm awake
Somehow the pieces just don't fit together
If I am truly dreaming why did things turn out this way
You'd think a dream is where you'd want to stay forever
Right Where You Left Ityou spend your summer eveningsRight Where You Left It4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
chasing after happiness
running into sunsets
looking for shooting stars
and dragonfly wings
eyes too focused on the clouds
to realize happiness
is right beneath your feet
and you spend cold winter nights
searching for adventure
precariously perched on white window sills
waiting to jump into burning down buildings
and flee from the criminals of old comic book stories
too occupied with night time daydreams
to realize if you opened your eyes
there would be adventure everywhere you looked
and you spend all year long
looking for love
combing through romantic city street corner restaurants
batting long lashes and giving out spots of skin like free candy
too busy to realize love is right where you left it
sitting right behind you in old city block schools
bright hazel eyes hidden behind long blond locks
staring at the back of your head while you slip sultry smiles
into the pockets of back-water heart boys
.: Awakened :.Awakened to a single dream..: Awakened :.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Awakened to a world unseen.
Revolve around your imagination
that blooms with inspiration.
I AmI'm the pain when you can't feel,I Am6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I'm the needle underneath your skin,
I'm the scar that will not heal,
I'm the part of you that makes you sin,
I'm the lie that hid the truth,
I'm the curse upon your tongue,
I'm the fire that burnt the proof,
I'm the song that can't be sung,
I'm the colour that cannot be seen,
I'm the angry voice inside your head,
I'm the reason you're so unclean,
I'm the one that wants you dead.
Fallen AngelI'm proud to be me.Fallen Angel4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I enjoy doing the things,
That no one else does.
I don't mind being an outcast,
I love it.
Sure, there's nasty remarks,
But I don't care.
Those who mind don't matter,
And those who matter don't mind.
The only opinion I truly care about,
I'll wear what I please.
I'll do what makes me happy.
If I wanna spray random colors in my hair,
If I wanna draw stitches on my face with marker,
If I wanna wear socks with heels,
I don't care what you say.
It's my life, not yours.
So why does it matter to you?
I'll rise up with my flawed wings,
And smile when most would frown.
Your comments mean nothing.
I'm proud to call myself a Fallen Angel.
The OrderTransparent angel wingsThe Order4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Take me far away.
Lift me unto the house of my Father
And save me from the fires of his fallen son.
Born under the Star of the East
The risen shows His power.
Wandering from coast to coast
And telling of the Truths.
In the region of Aether
Until the Age of Man with Water.
He graces us with His presence
Until the Age no more.
Upon this oath, I do declare
My undying love for You, my Lord.
Bring me to the golden streets
Where I may live eternal.
The Heart of Aether brings the ties
And pulls back the war to order.
Hark! and let thy bodies lie before Him
And never again shall we come to this battle.
For He will no longer be in rein
Once the Heart stops forever beating.
And yea, behold your new Beholder!
Tho none will be the wiser.
So thus, I bring us too an end
As He would have intended.
Know this, my brothers and sisters of God;
The end shall come no more.
FallenAn angelFallen4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With broken wings
A shattered halo
With a shattered soul.
Broken from the fall.
She fell from
Such great heights.
She couldn't reach anymore.
It got to be too much.
Then the expectations
Turned gravity on stronger.
Failure shattered her wings
And she was left to fall
With no one to catch her.
Pure white wings,
Stained with blood and dirt.
Her innocence left in the clouds.
She doesn't belong down on the ground.
The demons crawl out and surround her
Before long, they've consumed her.
She can't fight them off.
She's too weak,
She's mourning her lost wings.
She used to be perfect,
Now she was just another monster.
I'm SorryI'm sorry that I'm not as strong as her.I'm Sorry4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm sorry that I don't know you for as long as he does.
I'm sorry that you thought I don't know you as much,
But in truth, you never gave the chance to do that.
I'm sorry that I'm weak enough to cry for your hardships.
I'm sorry you "had" to take it all out on me.
I'm sorry that you're 'just like that'.
But guess what? I'm just me.
I'm sorry you broke me down.
I'm sorry I never had the right words.
I'm sorry I stopped trying half way through.
But you stopped trying, too.
I'm sorry for the situation at your home.
I'm sorry that you can never sleep.
I'm sorry you have to fight your own demons alone.
But you know what? I've got demons of my own.
I'm sorry I could never help.
I'm sorry you had to fake your every smile.
I'm sorry you got tired of the entire world.
But, why did you have to make me tired of my life?...
I'm sorry for everything.
Everything I couldn't be for you.
Everything you did to me.
Everything you went through.
Every scare you left
Tomorrow Starts TodayI've got a list locked in my headTomorrow Starts Today3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A list of things I've never done
It seems it's growing all the time
When will I feel like I've begun?
Things can always be done tomorrow
But I know tomorrow starts today
It's never fun when life passes you by
I regret pissing my time away
My days will quickly become memories
Dreams are my ideal waste of time
Action is what brings dreams to life
Wishing on stars becomes a crime
The list inside my head grows every day
Somehow I must sift through it all
And only pick out the important things
If I carry too much I'll fall
There are things I've got to work for now
For someone other then myself
This time I'm going to have to grow
I'll pick my life up off the shelf
CasanovaHe is just a casanovaCasanova4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
He wont stand by you
He is just a sex addict
One night is all he wants
He is just a snake
Tricks you into thinking he loves you
He is just a theif
With one smile he will steal your heart
Oh, but he has feelings too!
He is just ignorant
He will refuse to see the pain he causes you
He is just proud
He will put you down for his conveniance
He is just foolish
He will create you into his worst nightmare
He is not perfect
He is not sweet
He is not all the things he wants you to see
Just wait for his tounge to slip
For it will my dears it will
If you knewIf you knew what I was thinkingIf you knew5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and going through my head?
Would you be able to understand or
comprehend it? Trading yesterday
to redo, rewrite and change back time.
Things that were said and did collected
in memories. Memories that turn into
whispers echoing through my head.
Trying to find a sign to clear my mind.
LullabySing me a song of beauty,Lullaby6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Of maidens white and fair,
Whisper me a melody,
Of knights brave beyond compare,
Tell me tales of victory, and courage,
Where hope was lost,
Speak to me of mountains,
And great oceans wide and deep,
Promise me the faery realms,
and strange creatures from the myths,
Fill my head with wonders,
As you lay me down to sleep,
Sing to me the stories,
Of the world time couldn't keep
Everybody Makes Mistakes.I'm black and blue-Everybody Makes Mistakes.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So stained from daddy number two.
Split in half-
I quietly whisper a baby's tune.
Singing that nobody is perfect,
We're simply human-
We're simply a gigantic mess-
Going in a million directions.
Counting to regain patience.
Just trying to climb through life's sticky situations.
We break promises;
Ignoring the unwanted.
We become bored quite often-
Deciding we're not good enough.
We think we're nothing;
Just less than average.
Complaining when it's hot,
Hating that we sweat a lot.
But not many know-
What it's like,
To truly be locked inside.
You feel imperfect,
So totally worthless.
Counting sheep to fall asleep,
Dreaming that nothing is sweet.
Waking up with scratches upon your skin;
Crying when soap falls into them-
If fantasy brings creativity?If fantasy brings creativity to life?If fantasy brings creativity?5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In minds that truly see.
Is a brilliant mind indeed.
Setting the mind free to it's own free will.
Regardless of reality and fantasy .
Things that were meant to be by the eye's that see.
Colliding with feeling of emotions.
Thinking is not as hard as what it seems.
When you let the mind go free.
For You...You are so strongFor You...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Trying to handle everything
You refuse to lean on anyone
Its tearing you apart
I see what its doing to you
I see how you're falling
I see you fading away
Its killing me
They say things
They do things
You sit there and take it
You just cant fight them off
I cant take it anymore
Seeing you this way
I cant lose you like this
Im not going to let it continue
You matter too much
You are worth too much
You deserve better
You are everything to me
You can trust me
You can lean on me
You can depend on me
I wont let you down
Nobody is going to hurt you
Nobody will bother you
You can be happy
As long as im here
I know you want to do it all
You fear depending on someone
You cant do it alone
You dont have have to anymore
I can make you happy
I can help you
I can take care of you
I can protect you
All you have to do my angel, is let me
Spread our wingsTake a chance.Spread our wings5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Roll the dice.
See where it can take you to such great heights.
To live life as it is.
Fully alive to follow our dreams.
Fully alive to set foot and spread our wings.
Girl In PainPlastic hair,Girl In Pain6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Girl in pain.
Chasing the SunriseSo here we goChasing the Sunrise4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Chasing the sunrise,
Not quite alive, but not dead yet.
Running as if our feet have wings.
We'll tug at our own heartstrings
With ecstasy that will remain unfeigned.
Charting the road less traveled by.
Striking chords of subliminal exhilaration.
We won't wait for the agony of rhapsody to ensue;
Our velocity will outrun the torment
Until we've become illegal aliens in our own state of mind.
Oh, but silence me, for words will estrange this to the point of breaking.
Devour.I Love you,Devour.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But you hate me.
I see you,
But you neglect me.
I speak to you,
But you ignore.
I give to you,
But you want more.
You got what i had,
I got what you need.
You have all that hunger,
That i have to feed.
I am running out of energy,
I am running out of breath.
Youve worked me so hard,
Your working me to the death.
So i have to stop,
Before you gain more power.
So you have to stop,
Before you completely devour.
The Nature of ChildhoodThere is a land not so far awayThe Nature of Childhood5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Where the sun still shines from day to day
And all tree's leaves turn with the fall
Vibrant with color till winter's call
And after the snow drifts pile high
And when dishwater gray fades from the sky
The birds will emerge and start to sing
Flowers and showers signal spring
Where the grass yet bends to summer breeze
And the winds whisper through the trees
Of rolling fields and hills abound
That could never utter such a sound
But only the sweet and somber melodies
Of one hundred cricket symphonies
A land that will stretch from shore to shore
With uniform serenity forever more
For the only souls that have ever been
Are those who are pure and innocent
I once knew this land so far away
Where the sun had shone from day to day
But just as the leaves in autumn must fall
I could not remain eternally small.