RantingsIt's been years now,Rantings6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Shouldn't that be enough?
Why this continued agony?
Just whatever. No matter.
The tears ceased long ago,
Made a vow, never broke,
Yet why won't the aching stop?
It's still there, it remains.
I try not to live in the past,
But I can't help going back in memory,
He'll never know how
Much he still means to me.
But do I care? Why
Should I care?
Will it ever end? This seemingly,
I probably told him once
That he'd always hold a piece
Of my heart, and I guess
That I must've actually,
Truly, undoubtfully unfortunately,
And painfully meant it.
On verge of forbidden tears,
Words he probably didn't mean for me to see
Now keep ringing in my mind,
Abba, Father...Abba, Father...10 years ago in Spiritual & Occult More Like This
Abba, Father, Daddy in Heaven!
cuddle me in your tender arms,
I need your comfort!
I become lonely on Earth when I sin,
for that seperates me from Your perfect love,
and makes me vunerable!
I'm sorry for all those sinful things I do,
and I need you so much more,
please carry me in your arms of love!
like a child craving for milk,
I crave your Spiritual milk,
And you're there, as loving parents are!
God the Father is my loving, heavenly Father;
God the Son, Jesus, is my Redeemer, and also closest friend;
God the Holy Spirit is my connection with You on Earth,
and my Fellowship
For You are the One true God,
Perfect in harmony, the perfection of the Trinity,
3 persons in 1, and always my loving Father!
But You're not only a loving parent,
for Earthly parents still die,
but You are my eternal, Abba, Father God...
...and my closest friend!
SUJU Valentine's Day.Valentine's DaySUJU Valentine's Day.5 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Today was the oh-so magnificent Valentine's day. Where love is just as boastful as ever. Just like the love in the Super Junior dorms
Henry had woken up Valentine's day to a familiar smell. Like a dog, he wiggled out of bed, putting on whatever shirt he found and trolled down the hallway. He heard Chinese from the kitchen and rubbed his eyes like a little child as he walked into the room.
Zhou Mi smiled, "you're awake early."
"I smelled food," Henry spoke.
"I thought you would."
"What are you making?" He ambled over like a little penguin behind Zhou Mi, wrapping his arms around the thin man.
"Go sit down and you'll see. And no peaking!" Zhou Mi warned.
"Fine," Henry whispered, sitting at the island. His eyes were still a little heavy but the smell woke him up, trying desperately to recall the smell but
Lackland"Drop it,"Lackland4 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
"You drop it,"
"I'm the one with the gun, missy,"
"Yeah, and your jugular's right under my knife," I press a little harder, showing him how much I mean it.
"Do I look infected to you?"
"Never was much for killing kids," He mutters, lowering the shotgun he'd had trained on my chest. He drops it carefully and nudges it towards me with one foot.
"I'm not a kid," I tell himnot whining, just telling. I don't pick up the shotgun, just kick it a little farther away from him. Not as if I've ever known how to handle a gun, anyway. I'm more likely to shoot my foot off before I hit anything.
After a few second's consideration, I take my knife from his throat. I don't think I could kill him, anyway, and he seems much more friendly without his gun. "My name's S"
"Nono names," he cuts across my introduction. "Doesn't matter who you are, does it?"
"Where're you from?" Again, he overrides me, but he does it in an amiable
To: A BeautyHi,To: A Beauty4 years ago in Letters More Like This
I know you don't know me, and I don't know you, but I know you're beautiful. When you walk into a room, it lights up, as if the sun is in your eyes.
You are strong. As strong-minded, and as strong-willed as God himself. No matter what challenge you face, know you can face it head on, without fear.
You are perfect. Whoever you are, whoever you love, it's perfect. Whoever is in your heart, is lucky; and those who have you in their lives, they are blessed.
Know that with each day, you will grow stronger still, and nothing anyone says can bring you down. You are loved, and if you think that's not true, know that I love you. All of the creatures on earth need love, and all the creatures need to love, so I'm here to say that you ARE loved, are beautiful, perfect, and strong.
My ScarMy ScarMy Scar4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"What is that?"
Arthur looked down from the ceiling to the person who was by his side. Alfred was studying something on the oldest man's arm, a thin line, not too high, not too long, it was white and almost imperceptible. Even it's keeper doesn't seem to remember it.
"It's just an old scar..." The British answered quickly.
"I didn't know you had one." Said Alfred, taking his eyes off the scar and staring the other guy.
"Well, everybody has one." Answered him, still wishing to enclosure the subject "Even... I don't know... Peter must have one too!"
"But most of them simply disappear" Alfred looked again at that old scar "How did you get this one?"
When Arthur heard that words, old memorues flashback through your memories. A rainy night, bayonets in hands, nervous eyes, screams echoing everywhere. He stood in front of that person, nervous, angry, didn't believing in what he
Live Another DayLive Another Day11 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Hold a knife
to my throat
they all think that it's a joke
but it's not
this is real
all the feelings they can't feel
are all kept
I just wish that I could hide
from the fear
and the pain
all is lost, nothing to gain.
Hold a gun
to my head
I just wish that I was dead
but I'm not
I don't know why I'm alive
but now I
have the gun
looks like I have finally won
so I'll stop
pull the trigger, no delay.
Wrap a rope
round my neck
wanna die so what the heck?
No one knows
no one cares
either that or no one dares
to say what's
on their mind
I just wish that I could find
to stay there
but I'm drowning in despair.
to my arm
can't live on so what's the harm
in this one
soon I'll make all of them pay
never see another day
but I can't
so I'll die
and I'll never wonder why.
Smoke a joint
pop a pill
one of them has got to kill
good and quick
make it fast
I don't want this life to last
all the pain
now I've figured
I Deserve....When I tell you I am fine,I Deserve....4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you better look between the lines,
because even I could tell you,
that's a Lie.
My eyes say,
what my heart,
I deserve to be alone.
I deserve the pain.
Still I miss love.
I still miss him.
This is what I deserve.
But you'd never hear it from me.
You'd have to just see it in my eyes....
Paper CutA bandage for a paper cutPaper Cut6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And stitches for a gash.
Ibuprophen for a headache
And lotion for a rash.
But tell me what the cure is
When your love is not returned
And each time your heart aches for him
You feel like you've been burned
And all you want is to be with him
And the pain to go away
And you know his feelings aren't the same
But you cannot help, but stay
And you care for him
And you're there for him
And you love him through and through
And you want to scream "I need you!"
You never do.
SkinVerden looked out of the window and sighed. It was a summer's day, complete with fresh grass, singing birds and rainbows. It was a good day, a perfect day; or it would be if the weather was real, and the window for that matter. It was just an illusion, a curtain, if he pushed it aside, it would only reveal the damp wall behind it. He grimaced; it had taken him almost a year to make all the windows on request of the King who was catering to the whims of the Higher Ups. The snobs who couldn't stand the fact that they were surround by grey brick and the green slime that seemed to trickle down from the ceiling. Not that there was anything good to see if the windows were real, just the occasional dead tree, miles of wasteland and the eternal black sky.Skin5 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
He hated being in the service industry, catering to the wishes and 'needs' of the stupid people, the Higher Ups who couldn't see a decent bit of magic if it slapped them in the face. He ran a hand through his dark green hair as he
I'll Love You Even In DeathHer hand tightens on mineI'll Love You Even In Death4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As I kiss her into the bed.
Her mouth is parted,
Inviting me in.
She's never acted this way before.
Always alone, always sulking.
But now she's opened up
She's shown me her scars, her tears.
I lick her neck right under the chin
She squirms under me, sighing for more.
But I don't.
Laying down besides her,
I kiss her on the head.
She may pout in protest,
But I just pull her closer.
Until she's wrapped in my arms.
She fits me, like a puzzle piece.
I'm not ever letting her go,
Not even if she dies.
Legends Ressurrection Part 1"Touko. I should tell you this right away: I'm the King of Team Plasma" N looked out of the window of the Ferriswheel. "What?! You're kidding!" Touko jumped alarmed on her feet. When N had offered her to help the Plasma Grunts she was hunting down she had gladly accepted his help. And she certainly hadn't mind his invatation to a ride on the Ferriswheel. But now the picture she had made of him started to crumble and break. "I'm certainly not." He fixed her with his emerald eyes. "Ghetsis asked me to help team Plasma. You see. I sometimes wonder how many pokemon there are in this world... How many are truly free. And how many have to suffer. I don't want any pokemon to suffer. Pokemon are pure creatures who shouldn't be treated like tools in fights for fun." He said to her and concern was in his voice. "But that's not true for all Trainers!" Touko shot back at him. "The Pokemon and their trainers are a team! they learn from each other and-" she was cut off by his hand grabbing hers.Legends Ressurrection Part 14 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Ferriswheelship - Eternal SnowFerriswheelshipping Eternal SnowFerriswheelship - Eternal Snow4 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
"White, will you marry me?"
Her heart stopped. She looked into his eyes, to see if this was a joke. It wasn't.
"N I " She was speechless. She tried to get her answer out, but it was as if her throat was paralyzed. It was difficult to form words.
"N yes yes, I'll marry you!"
White woke up with a jolt, startling her Tepig and making him jump off the bed in alarm. Slowly she sat up and rubbed her eyes.
It was just a dream, she thought in disappointment. It was just a dream after all Tears started to form at the corners of her eyes but she quickly blinked them away.
What am I thinking? White sighed and flopped back onto the bed. That could never happen in real life. Her Tepig tentatively poked his head over the side and jumped back up.
Slowly White began to pet the little Fire Pig Pokemon. "Oh, Tepig I miss him so much "
I wish he'd come back.
Nimbasa City, the
i'm fine..I'm fine means I'm really noti'm fine..4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Its fine means it's not fine
Don't worry means Worry
Leave me alone means stay with me.
Talk to me, hug me, kiss me, comfort me.
I smile when I'm dying inside.
I act like everything's perfect when things are really crashing down around me.
When I'm happy, all I really want to do is burst into tears.
Don't just say everything's going to be ok.
Because it won't be.
As long as I don't have you
Nothing will ever be ok.
You have no idea how much you mean to me.
I'll always love you.
Things You RememberYou remember the time when, as a child, you were taken away from your mama and guided to a forest by the man you thought was Papa. He left you alone in the darkness. You cried and cried for hours, but he didn't come back. You were cold and scared, and you could hear the sounds of the monsters coming closer and closer. All you had were the clothes on your back and the trinkets he had given you. The necklace at your throat was a strange cube with no center. You clung to it, desperate, and eventually fell into an uncertain slumber.Things You Remember4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
When you awoke, the monsters had appeared. They were bigger than you, and you were scared, and you started to cry again. But the monsters comforted you. They cuddled close to you to keep you warm, and dried your tears. You felt a little less scared, and although you missed Mama, you felt safe in the hands of these powerful beings.
You stayed with them in the years to come. You learned how to speak to them, and although you still thought about Mama and the man y
Outer SpaceI have constructed a canyon.Outer Space5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
( it will be an addendum to the dream )
Not a U.S.-Southwest-redrock-dayhike-national-park canyon.
(it's the sort of place you go to die
and so it is too tempting to pass up)
Before you go, I
will have to strip you of your juju.
Whatever it is.
Wherever you keep it.
I have constructed a canyon.
I dug long and through until the sharp point of my want for you
A Pinpoint Viewlook, they saidA Pinpoint View5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
what do you see
you can only have a pinpoint view
I turned the lenses upside down, sometimes it is good to look at things askew :
I saw crumpled paper hanging by a girl's head, she lay on earth suspended, looking
down upon the pages she was tearing from a book ..
Those Other Pages
time sometimes hangs
here we are again, reliving old transcripts
of who said what;
and then there are those 'other conversations'
which run in our heads--
who was justified or stupid - sometimes flipping
to the alternate ending,
where just for a moment
we enact the truth of ourselves.
it seems, we can never quite bring ourselves
to throw the transcripts aw
alas, i am gonethe shapes of birds on your lips,alas, i am gone4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
they leave me with only
feathers under my skin.
i never meant
to love you.
you were my only mistake,
big enough to break earth,
a downfall far down
enough to break my bones,
only opening up further
an angry mouth
jagged teeth peeling up the corners
wider still to swallow me whole.
you are the worst thing
that has ever happened to me.
and it still fills up my soul
to hear you talk.
just to hear you breathe,
just to know you're alive
it still fills me up
no matter how much
you empty me out
and i wish i could hate you for it.
ImperfectI'm imperfect,Imperfect4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
always will be.
No one really knows me.
I'm a ghost in a room,
full of people.
My words are hushed,
by the screams of my heart.
To say how I feel,
Is just impossible.
and I always will be.
Hamburgers With Rockin'Tea CH1Hamburgers With Rockin'Tea CH14 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
BL warning, don't like, don't read!!
USUK, Punk!Arthur meets Alfred at the McDonald's where Alfred works together with his brother Matthew after a concert he gave. Arthur and his band are getting more and more famous. Arthur seems to be somewhat liked by Alfred, so he doesn't know how to react on that. Fail summary.
Hamburgers with Rockin' Tea
Arthur had to hurry. He had to eat something before even the very last fast food restaurant would close. He hated to go to the McDonald's. But he had no choice, since it was already 2am and he was dead tired after the concert. He had been playing at some pretty well-known pub this night, together with the rest of the band, and the audience seemed to love their music. They loved it so much they kept asking for more. So that's how they ended up playing twice as much then they usually did. So now he was running to grab some fast food before the McDonald's would close and he'd end up without food.
Hate me for loving youHate me for loving you9 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I'm sorry I fell in love with you
For causing pain is the best thing I do
I should have left when love came around
But I found it's rarity too profound
I thought I could love and leave things be
But I can't so here's my plea
I'm sorry I let some feelings get in the way
But I fell in love so what else can I say
I wish I could turn back the hands of time
So I could stop this ongoing crime
Now I'm left wishing for a fresh start
Because it hurts to have a broken heart
Love screws up how and what you think
And causes mood swings as often as you blink
I won't allow myself to sit here and wait
For true love to turn to hate
There's so many reasons that can be given
For me wanting to be forgiven