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anxietyshakinganxiety4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
quaking
twitching
itching
scratching
never relaxing
never the chance to breathe – in and …
…out the door
hit the floor
running
to a destination unknown
known to be out of reach
but still reaching for greatness
when greatness only slips
through
my
fingers
fingers that tap the table
rhythmically
sending my body
into an uncontrolled dance
of shaking
quaking
twitching
itching
scratching
never relaxing
never time to stop
my mind racing
leaving my mouth chasing
words never spoken
am I broken
on a level unknown
or is it known
but not shown
to the world
instead curled
inside my head
making
Produce makes for strange ...I tried to sleepProduce makes for strange ...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with an onion,
but I found
it’s layers too deep
and when
I really got in to it
the onion made me cry.
I tried to sleep
with a potato,
but it got old
and wrinkled
way too fast
and its many eyes
seemed to always
be staring at me.
I tried to sleep
with a pumpkin,
but when I held
it in my arms
it burst open
and spilled its guts
way too easily.
I tried to sleep
with a lemon,
but on the outside
it was bitter
and once
it opened up,
it was so sour
that I kicked it out.
I tried to sleep
with a peach
but found it to be
too hairy by far
and at it’s center
there was an
impenetrable pit
hold meI never thinkhold me4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of me in your bed,
but I always think
of me in your arms.
I never know what
you are going to say,
but I always want
you to say it to me.
I came in
just to see
your eyes light up
and I stayed to hear
your voice touch my ears.
I never expect
anything from you,
but I always want
just a little bit more.
Just a little
more of you
to go with
a little bit of me
and a just
a little request:
hold me.
I didn’t expect
to even touch you,
but I wished
I could feel you
beside me.
I talked to hear
my own voice
in the silence
and I was shocked
to hear yours
answer me.
I glanced
in you
Joy RideSitting in the leather bucket seatsJoy Ride4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of your cherry-red, two-door coupe,
winding our way down Route Eight,
twisting and turning, following
the length of the bending Ohio River,
I gunned it up to ninety miles per hour
only to quickly drop it back down again
I glanced over at you in the seat next to me
and watched as your eyes opened wider
and your breathing came in quicker bursts;
you were excited and got more so with every
twist and turn, every little brush with death
as the tires squealed, trying to grip the pavement.
I heard a gasp escape your beautiful lips
as I yanked up on the emergency break
to allow us to screech around
bathed in moonlightMoonlight streams through the open window,bathed in moonlight4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
dancing with the curtains in a lazy fashion.
It streams across my naked body
moving in rhythm to my own dance.
Sitting, watching, I pull on my lit cigarette,
blowing the smoke in your direction,
as you seductively move across the room,
dancing to a beat that I can not hear.
You sit there, as still and as hard as marble,
watching me from across the room.
Eyes heavy-lidded with lust; your breath catches
as my twists and turns slowly lead me to you.
Your dancing draws you closer to the window
and the pale moonlight wanders across your body,
leaving me breathless for a moment,
making m
TetheredMy name, from my lover's lips, it does fallTethered4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
and there I melt into your whispered call.
Caressing my ears are the words of love.
sending my soul on the wings of a dove;
I’m no longer bound to this earthly form,
into ethereal bliss I transform.
All that from the words that roll off your lips,
think of my response to your fingertips
as they’re resting in the curves of my face
then slowly down my jawline do they trace,
around my collarbone, they dance their dance;
gliding around, leaving me in a trance.
Then into my eyes you intently stare,
letting me know we are a perfect pair.
And in your hand, my hand is tightly bound,
Separation Anxietyi think i'm getting claustrophobicSeparation Anxiety4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
alone and left to think of you
have you forgotten all about me
i am the one that put those roses
in your hair and left them there
in your vase and kept them alive
in your home so you wouldn't be alone
i was always your shoulder
here to absorb your tears and pain
your ear to chew on if you needed
someone to bite down onto
and i love you no matter what
and i love you even though you hurt me
and i love you even if you want me gone
yet you still throw me away like trash
push me aside so i can rot alone
just because he wants you to
even though you don't want me to fight
when he’s the one yo
from behindI take a stepfrom behind4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to press my chest
against your back
and bury my nose
into your hair
to smell
the flowers that
rested there.
I glide your hair
out of the way
to reveal
your neck,
naked and bare,
where i touch
my lips,
ever so softly;
exhaling
a breath
I didn’t know
I was holding.
I wrap my arms
around your waist,
drawing you in
for another taste;
feeling your
skin pressed
against mine,
I inhale
and exhale
in time
with you.
FreeDo not deny yourselfFree4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the ability to be free;
free from worry about
what others think and do;
free from care about
what doesn’t concern you.
Freedom to do what you want,
when you want,
with whom you want.
Freedom of choice,
of religion,
of sex,
of self.
Be what you want to be
when you want to be it.
For no reason,
make a paper hat
and go out and wear it,
telling everyone you meet
that it is in celebration
of a life you have
yet to live.
Or be free to do nothing
about everything.
Let yourself be –
free;
simply be free.
drawing you inAs you walk past me,drawing you in4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I draw you in
and wrap my arms
around your waist,
pulling you close
to feel your body
pressed against mine.
I encompass you
with both arms,
holding you tightly,
breathing you in,
never letting you go.
Stuck in SolitudeShe was sinking in her solitudeStuck in Solitude4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and lost in a false attitude,
a smile plastered across her face
leading to a cold embrace.
Her eyes were wet from unshed tears
as she kept silent all these years
about what she truly desired
and was never able to acquire;
someone to let into her life
without too much strife,
someone who she could trust,
who would show no disgust
for all that she would share;
someone that would always be there.
But instead of letting anyone close,
she turned friends into foes
and kept everyone away
for fear of what they might say.
Or maybe she stayed inert
so she would never again be hurt,
but by not giving a
Longing for the LostOf course I knewLonging for the Lost4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
we couldn't meet today
but I made sure I would look nice.
For you.
Even though you wouldn't see me.
This day is important to me.
Because of you.
Because I had the
chance to meet you.
So,
today was a somber day.
I saw you in your Sunday best
although we didn't meet.
And I looked pretty,
just for you,
at your funeral.
You're scaredGo ahead and love me,You're scared4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but you don’t dare.
You just don’t seem
to want to go there.
You say I scare you
and this feeling tears you
from the inside.
You just need
to lay back
and unpack
your emotional baggage;
all over me.
It seems to me,
that you’re
just scared.
You’re scared
of the things
on the inside,
crawling out,
fighting; alive.
You’re scared
of the things
on the outside,
crawling in;
worming their way inside.
You’re scared,
but I don’t care.
I want you
to go there
and be with me.
Lost without youLostLost without you4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
my arms wrapped around me
holding myself so tightly
rocking back and forth
missing your touch
trying hard to imagine
that you are still here
without you
I don't want to wake up aloneanother sleepless nightI don't want to wake up alone4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
in our room
with the lights
turned off
so I can’t see
what’s missing
but I can still feel
the empty space
where you
used to lay
and wrap
your arms around me
you held me as I
fell asleep in your arms
every night
then I would wake
to your beautiful face
every morning
and I took it all for granted
now I can’t sleep
because I don’t want
to wake up alone
I woke upJuly 10, 2000I woke up4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I woke up
after passing out
after smoking up
after coming down
from the wa-wa sound
induced by nitrous filled punch balloons
I woke up
after snorting lines of ketamine
coupled with hits of acid and ecstasy
I woke up
after seven people died
from shooting heroin into their veins
I woke up
in a folding camp chair
with a hand wrapped around
a bag of weed
stuffed in my pocket
to a booming voice
telling me I was going to jail.
and I thanked god when they put on the cuffs
that I was one of the lucky ones that woke up.
fearYou rip into my headfear4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
destroying my mind
leaving behind
nothing but you
and now
all I can think about
is how badly
I want to touch you
how I shake
when you are near
and how I quiver
with extreme fear
when you leave.
festering darknessA little more of mefestering darkness4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
entering nothingness,
more of me chipped away;
I am dead perhaps.
The corpse beauty
becomes you
hide away
from the prying eyes
and the backward
questioning glances
I throw up walls
around my heart
and watch as they
quickly close in
Shut off your ears
from the whispered lies,
cry UNTRUTH then let it echo
as the words beat in your head
My own silent singsong
comforts me and
the oppressive darkness
is my only playmate
run away, far away
because that is all
you’re good at
I pale to be thought of
as a fleeing coward.
Just shy away, get out of here!
Something in my soul lingers.
Its p
no need to crycracking my shellno need to cry4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
from dormant to risen
i climb up
and out of my
prison
breaking the soil
the first battle done
i reach up
and try
to grasp
the sun
enjoying the warmth
resting in the mud
i grow and
i sprout a
tiny little bud
feeling the rain
splatter down
i soak it up
but never
enough to drown
when it is dry
i accept my fate
revealing colors
that no brush
can duplicate
i shine for days
a sight to see
bees and bugs
have their
way with me
and there is a reason
when i wilt
wither and die
next season
i’ll be reborn
so no need to cry
washing you awaybaby blue eyes hidden in a ring of red,washing you away4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
salty tracks running down pale cheeks
covered in coarse two day old stubble,
a blistered and rosy nose, showing signs
of being blown too much and a set of chapped
bleeding lips turned down in a perpetual frown
ever since the tears stopped and I found that
I could cry no more, not because I was no
longer upset or sad, but because I was tired
and worn out, I was done giving you the
satisfaction of knowing just how bad you hurt me;
so now I wash my face and wipe away the traces
of your vacancy and plaster a smile that never
really reaches my eyes; fooling only myself
and, for now, that
Pass the Poem - ChildhoodThe shiny red balloon floated through the air,Pass the Poem - Childhood4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
whither it goes, it has not a care;
a breath of breeze, now it's over there.
So goes the life of a child,
innocence shining within bright eyes;
wistfully playing, so full of the wild.
Now this shiny red balloon frolics in my mind,
leaving echoes of untainted laughter behind,
dancing in curlicues of spiced apple-wine and childhood love.
On I go into the storm as blissful memories guide my steps
and the music of naivety charms my ears,
the grace of its floating pressing me onwards.
As the years go by I remember all the things I miss,
like my mother's homemade soup and bread,
oh the ti
finding peacedevouring my mindfinding peace4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
like a wasting disease
this feeling of emptiness
offers no release
so in my hand
i hold the key to peace
wrapped tightly in a package
just for me
i slide my finger
onto the trigger
close my eyes
and thank god its over
left aloneTrembling hands cover my crying eyesleft alone4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with my elbows propped on my knees
and my back firmly pressed against the wall.
This is where you left me when you walked away,
here out in the open where anyone could see me.
We argued over inane things
that meant nothing to no one,
but seemed to mean the world to you.
Then you stormed away, fuming
from something insignificant I said,
never once looking back
as tears fell down my cheeks.
Now I am truly alone,
with only the pity
of those that pass by
to keep me company.
So I gently rock back and forth,
trying to stop the endless flow
through cold fingers and will alone,
but failing as
just listenDo you see what you do to me?just listen4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Do you understand
the pain and the sorrow
you put me through?
Listen.
Listen to what I am trying to tell you.
Do you still not understand?
Do you not see that I am
trying to tell you something?
Something important.
Just listen.
Just pay attention to me for once.
Stop – Stop everything.
I wish I could make you understand.
I wish I could speak the words
that run daily through my mind,
but I can’t.
I fear too much.
You should know this.
You should know me.
We’ve been here on this ledge for so long.
You can never decide if you wan
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