AspieI have Asperger's Syndrome.
Even saying it makes me feel relief.
I'm not weird.
I'm not strange.
I'm not different.
Well, I am different.
But I'm different for a reason.
My brain is wired up differently.
My brain is square when everybody else's is round.
My brain has three layers and everybody else has eight.
I get worried when I don't know what I'm doing.
I get worried around lots of people.
I get worried if things change.
I'm bad at telling how people feel.
I'm bad at reading people's faces.
I'm bad at a lot of social things.
But I'm good at things too.
I'm good at Maths.
I'm good at Music.
I'm good at knowing right from wrong.
I was unhappy before I knew about my Asperger's.
I'm not happy now. But I am relieved.
I'm an Aspie.
And I'm sure about things that I wasn't sure about before.
In the shoes of an AspieIn the Shoes of an AspieIn the shoes of an Aspie3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Note: This is my experiences and thoughts on what it is like to be an Aspie. I understand others have their own experiences and opinions and I respect them for that. The reason I wrote this was a hope that those who read this gain some understanding as to how people with Asperger's live their lives. However each person is unique so their behaviour and way of life may be different to mine.
I wake to the sound of my alarm going off. I groan Ugh not again... I grope for my mobile and switch it off; the alarm is rather noisy. Here I go again; having to put on that masquerade; going undercover yet again. If only people would just understand what it is like to live the way I and many others like me have to live each and every day ..
Just imagine yourself living in a world where you see and deal with everything differently. Put yourself in the shoes of an Aspie; a person with Asperger's Syndrome. It's a high-functioning form of Autism. It's hard to
AspergersWhat is that?Aspergers3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A mental condition,
Is there something wrong
They ask curiously,
They couldn't have known,
So please try not to blame them
What is the closest definition?
Your mind is wired differently,
The man in the nice suit said,
Taking my mother's money
In return for a "diagnosis"
I did not look into his eyes
Did not like the
Calculating look he gave me
I say "Aspie"
It's almost pretty
In a way
For something with
It's not a real thing,
The faces say,
Stop making excuses for
If I had the choice
To act like the others
To feel natural
In someone else's skin
Long ago, I would have
But my oddly shaped glases
With lenses of thinly sliced opals
And the wire of dreams
are hard to give up
Indeed, I reach for them
No stranger to this skin of mine
Once, I walked with my head turned
To the ground
And didn't know the colors
Of peoples' eyes
I don't know about
I can't speak
Asperger's SyndromeAsperger’s SyndromeAsperger's Syndrome2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This is what makes me different.
It is what makes me both distant and compassionate.
It is what makes me both tired and creative.
It is what makes me both sassy and awkward.
It is what makes me both fairly normal and completely insane at the same time.
This is what makes me amazing.
It is what gives me my talents and achievements.
It is what gives me my intelligence and ideas.
It is what gives me my humor and individuality.
It is what gives me my passion and dedication.
This is what makes me flawed.
It is what makes me confused and anxious.
It is what makes me exhausted and frustrated.
It is what makes me uncertain and complicated.
It is what makes me lonely and depressed.
This is what makes me who I am.
It is both my curse and my blessing.
It is both the cause of my bliss and the cause of my sorrow.
It is both what leads me to make mistakes and what leads me to do great things.
It is both the founder of my past and my pathway to my future.
For more poetry by
Aspergers - The Curse We Bear:~ AloneAspergers - The Curse We Bear:6 years ago in Biography & Memoir More Like This
~ Dark minded
~ Kids with Asperger's/Autism feel like they're alone. No one understands them. It's like everyone you know hates you and you don't know why.
~ The rate of Autism:
20 years ago: 1 in 10,000
5 years ago: 1 in 500
Today: 1 in 166
Twenty years from now: ?
~ The puzzle pattern on the ribbon reflects the mystery and complexity of Autism/Asperger's. The different colors and shapes represents the diversity of people and families living with this disorder. The brightness of this ribbon signals hope - hope through research and increasing awareness throughout the world.
~ Everyone is unique!
~ Autism and Asperger's are life long disorders.
~ Love make
Positive Traits of Aspergers SyndromeMany of those with Asperger's syndrome have a number of positive characteristics, including integrity, intelligence, endurance, and freedom from prejudice.Positive Traits of Aspergers Syndrome3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Often referred to as "autism lite" or a "shadow syndrome" of autism, Asperger's syndrome is relatively common, with up to 1 in 250 people in North America meeting the diagnostic criteria (Brasic, 27 April 2011).
Those with Asperger's, or "Aspies" (a term coined by Liane Holliday Willey in Pretending to Be Normal) are high-functioning in the sense that they are better able to maintain social relationships than those with autism. Unlike those with autism, Aspies often score highly on measures of verbal intelligence.
When contemplating disorders such as Asperger's syndrome, there is a tendency to focus on negative aspects, such as difficulty in reading social cues. But many of those with Asperger's syndrome have positive traits as well, which has led some people to question whether it should be viewed as a difference rather than a diso
Essay from an AspieHi there friends! Have you ever woken up with a sudden bolt of inspiration in your brain? That happened to me just recently. I rolled out of bed at the crack of noon and the first thought in my head was that I wanted to write about something very personal to me: Asperger's Syndrome. It's something I've had to live with for my entire life, so I thought it be a good idea to share what I know with anyone who wishes to take the time to learn, and tell a few stories of how Asperger's has influenced my life. First off though, I think I should answer the obvious question of "What is Asperger's Syndrome?"Essay from an Aspie3 years ago in Academic Essays More Like This
Well, to put it simply, Asperger's Syndrome is an autism spectrum disorder that causes a decent array of symptoms. It presents itself through awkwardness in socializing, tics, a preference for strict routines and rituals, difficulty reading emotions and social cues, obsessions, and coordination problems. Despite all this, those afflicted with Asperger's Syndrome tend to have average to well a
An Anatomy of a MeltdownAll my life I’ve feared failure and now that fear has not only consumed me but has opened up a new fear. The fear of acceptance; to belong. The one thing I fear more than failure is myself. I fear my dark side of rage, frustration, stress and fear. I fear for both my wellbeing and of those around me. I fear also of not belonging in this world. Sure I have a loving family and loyal best friends and I’m living a great life but all of that amounts to nothing next to the fact all I ever wanted was to simply belong. To be accepted and respected for who I am. But I know that will never happen. I am stuck with a burden. One that is both a gift and a curse. A responsibility I was born with and will carry to my last breath. A thing that increases my senses and intelligence but made me a stranger to social communication and emotion. You see, I’m an Aspie; one who has Asperger’s Disorder. A form of Autism.An Anatomy of a Meltdown2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I look around me and see friendly faces of others around me. They t
I want to commission you!I have extra points and I'm looking to commission people to draw my newest favorite characters <3I want to commission you!7 months ago in Personal More Like This
If your commissions are open please comment here with your info ^-^
If I commission you, you can choose who you prefer to draw from these characters:
Bug Species Name Suggestions?I'm trying to find a really cool name for my new insect species!Bug Species Name Suggestions?6 months ago in Personal More Like This
Feel free to share any idea you have, it would be greatly appreciated <3
Solo para gente de Chile u w uSolo para gente de Chile u w u8 months ago in Personal More Like This
Bueno tambien estoy haciendo comisiones para gente de chile u w u y aceptando los pagos atraves de un deposito en cuenta rut
seran por un tiempo estos precios especiales ; - ; pos si quieren consultar algo diganme nomas no muerdo tan juerte (?) ;_;
commission info: General
-Sólo Digital / 300dpi
- Voy a terminar el encargo lo antes posible, alrededor de 1-2 semanas,
- Voy a enviarle el tamaño original JPG/PNG via nota o e-mail, como gustes.
- Enviarme una nota con "commission" subject, y usar la forma de encargo. (se encuentra al final de este journal)
- Pagos en efectivo através de un deposito a cuenta rut (Nº 18.191.894-2).
Lo que haré:
-Voy a dibujar casi cualquier cosa OCS / fanart / parejas / yaoi / yuri / ecchi / furries/ antro / gore / monstruos / etc.
Lo que No harè:
Let me explainI know, lately I'm posting only commissions, auctions and stuff like that. It's because our money situation is dramatic as my father said today. I'm slowly going nuts as well but still I'm doing my best to help parents even if depression doesn't help at all. Soon there will be only worse and in the worst possible version we will lose our home and stuff. I've never been in the situation like that. We never had money problems, but now It went critical.Let me explain4 months ago in Personal More Like This
So just saying, I'm open for commissions all the time, just note me. I'll be working days and nights.
I'm willing to give you tutorial streams to get some money, also draw custom character designs.
I'm desperate I would actually do anything you'd dream about from me.
I just want my parents to stop to worry, and to save us.
Emergency Nekoi Auctionowlity's is needing funds to pay for medical care for their sick catEmergency Nekoi Auction6 months ago in Personal More Like This
They are reselling this Nekoi:
See their journal for more info and bidding:
Esteem.Esteem.Esteem.2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Your loneliness has spread to your eyes,
It has now become a part of who you are.
You can no longer keep contract of your own lies.
Everyone else but you can see that this has gone too far.
Your expressions and body language have become bionic.
It’s almost like the lights are on but the room has been ransacked.
What is ironic is that you try so hard to subtly avoid the topic.
I choose and use my words carefully because I know how you will react.
There is only so much I can say or do; the rest is solely up to you.
Only you can dispose of the trespasser that lies underneath.
If you only knew the trials you have unintentionally put me through.
Maybe then you will shed your grief and embark onto a new leaf.
I hope you take my sincere concerns on board.
Because time is one thing none of us can afford
To squander and wonder our lives away.
Be true to yourself.
Samson's Prostitute: To You... To MeTo youSamson's Prostitute: To You... To Me1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
you're strong and powerful,
vanquisher of your foes,
avenger of your people,
sent by God.
This enemy ground
holds no terror for you,
who can walk out unscathed,
stealing the gates,
putting us to shame.
I am a piece of meat,
a ware to buy,
a bit of cheap fun
for half a night
to make you feel good,
feel manly and strong;
a pretty body
you'll soon forget.
you are coins in my hand
to pay tomorrow's bread;
a stranger in my bed
whom I have to please,
pretend to love,
for half a night;
Arragghfwifngfngr!!!!!HALLOArragghfwifngfngr!!!!!6 months ago in Personal Journal More Like This
I used to come on this site everyday but now I don't nuu. There's been a lot of notes and comments I've been neglecting for a while, I felt really overwhelmed at the prospect of having to go through them all. And I feel guilty about this and I'm sorry but I deleted them all If you really wanted to tell me something please send it again! Now that my inbox is at zero I'll try to answer things as soon as I read them instead of waiting til a week later and forgetting and then suddenly it's overflowing. I'm sorry I'm such a slow person even though I only have 2 sites All you people out there who have deviantart /and/ tumblr /and/ twitter /and/ instagram /and/ facebook /and/ draw /and/ do things in real life, how do you do iiiit?? Did everyone get the google brain chip while I was sleeping one day?? lol
Random no1currs life update: I went to the dentist recently and for the 1st time in my life I have cavities noooo. I ha
The Autism CreatureStanding before you is the Autism Creature.The Autism Creature1 month ago in Free Verse More Like This
There are many of its species,
But scientists are still studying its behaviours and mind.
Do not touch the Autism Creature.
It could lash out at you at any moment.
We have never actually touched it before,
But we don't want to take any chances.
A poor, poor thing, the Autism Creature is.
It cannot fend for itself, nor communicate
And it is not capable of registering emotion.
There are many subspecies of Autism Creature
Although they all share similar traits.
The Autism Creature is a shy, timid beast.
It's behaviour is erratic and unpredictable,
Therefore we warn the public not to come to close
Should they encounter one.
Should you encounter an Autism Creature,
Do not approach it.
It shall not harm you from a distance.
If you do feel intimidated,
Remind yourself that they are purely driven by instinct.
They are incapable of feeling emotion.
They don't know any better.
But most importantly,
Remind yourself that they are nothing but an animal
Never party with nations...At Latvia's house for his birthday party.Never party with nations...3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
It was getting late, but the party was far from over yet. Quite a few nations were still at the house. Alcohol had been present, and Prussia had somehow managed to drink himself unconscious and was slumped on the floor. He quickly became a target of some of the more mischievous nations that were there.
"I have an idea," England started, rounding up Australia, Sweden and Russia. He quickly relayed his thoughts, and it didn't take much convincing to get the others to agree to his plan.
"Now, where's the nail gun?"
"I'll get it." Australia volunteered.
It didn't take long for him to find the nail gun.
Lying in a pool of someone's vomit.
He crinkled his nose, and grabbed his brother's discarded jacket, wiping the worst off of the power tool. England noticed and bristled, automatically snapping at him.
"That already had puke on it!" He protested, glaring at the other. Australia turned to look at him.
"Well, now it has more on it." The nation tried n
Understanding AUTISMUnderstanding AUTISM4 years ago in Academic Essays More Like This
UNDERSTANDING AUTISM SPECTRUM DISORDERS
Click on Symptoms of Autism Spectrum Disorders to get more information about some of the Autism Spectrum Disorders.
The following is a simplified explanation of autism, followed by more detail. Near the end, I talk about HOW TO OVERCOME AUTISM. I will also talk about my own personal story of growing up Gay and overcoming much of my Autism. Just know that I finally got there I learned how to connect with people and make many friends, to find real love, not just people using me, and to find a measure of joy and happiness in life.
AUTISM SPECTRUM DISORDERS
It used to be that people were diagnosed with a specific Syndrome, like:□ Asperger Syndrome
□ High-Functioning Autism
□ Sensory Processing Disorder (Sensory Integration Dysfunction)
□ Developmental Coordination Disor
Lost, Trapped, ConfusedAlways, I’ve wondered what it feels like to grieve for something lost. To love, and be in a relationship, and what it means to feel sorrow with the tears falling down your face. I wish to communicate; to express my thoughts and get feedback on them, that is though, if I actually knew what was going on in my mind. Always I am wrought with rage, frustration, and confusion over my inability to socialise and do things that a normal person can do. I feel like an alien in a foreign world even though that alien is my human self and the foreign world, Earth.Lost, Trapped, Confused5 months ago in Emotional More Like This
It is a curse to have Asperger’s or any form of Autism for that matter, being born without some of the integral programming designed to make like so much easier. Neuro-typicals will never know of my plight. To them I’m weird. Different. A freak of nature. I care not for my higher intelligence, absurd logic, and heightened senses. I would trade all of them to experience even a single day where I don’t get ridi
Symptoms of Autism Spectrum DisordersSymptoms of Autism Spectrum Disorders3 years ago in Academic Essays More Like This
Common Symptoms of Some 'AUTISM SPECTRUM DISORDERS'
PLEASE Click on UNDERSTANDING AUTISM and READ it before reading this paper.
This is meant to be a relatively Short way to help you see if you are part of the Autism Spectrum Disorders, which includes:□ High Functioning Autism
□ Sensory Processing Disorder (Sensory Integration Dysfunction)
□ Asperger Syndrome
□ Developmental Coordination Disorder (Developmental Dyspraxia)
□ DysgraphiaMost kids and adults who are in the Autism Spectrum and who do not show significant obvious symptoms, are SELDOM diagnosed. If the problems and symptoms are not glaring, no one bothers. Even Kids with obvious symptoms are often not diagnosed, since many teachers are not trained to know what to look for and of course most parents do not know what to look for
Being Self-Diagnosed + What Friendship Never Meant(Skip down if you're afraid of the Teal Deer.)Being Self-Diagnosed + What Friendship Never Meant2 years ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
Being a self-diagnosed Aspie is not the same as being a plastic Aspie!
Yes, I am a self-diagnosed Aspie. I came to this conclusion after a lot of research and soul-searching. It's certainly not something I came up with on a whim.
I first heard about Asperger's when I was about 19. There was something in PC Format issue 135. It was only a small part of a larger article, and in some ways I think many people, AS or not, could relate to it.
But something flashed in my mind. I can clearly remember, even now, the feeling I got when I read it.
"Is this why I am so strange?"
As a child, I was pretty oblivious. My periods of mutism (I wouldn't speak to anyone at school for the first week or two of nursery and would never talk to strangers) and my love of reading earned me a reputation of being a very shy nerd.
Once into infants, then juniors, naturally the class was ta
Diversity of Women's BodiesDiversity of Women's Bodies1 year ago in Personal More Like This
From Howard Schatz's 2002 book, Athlete
Why it's embarrassing for comic book illustrators to only look to Sports Illustrated for references for female characters.
There is far more body diversity in the athletic world and characters should reflect that. Wonder Woman should be BUFF...and uh..that's all the female characters in comics I really know or care about....*cough*
I want to find the male version (I know there is one) of this because the message is equally true. While male characters tend to have more body variety; there still is that default buff man Conan model. My personal disgruntlement is when it shows up on batman who is suppose to be dexterous and not as buff as Superman.
33 day guro challenge1. Amputation33 day guro challenge3 years ago in Personal More Like This
3. Vore / Cannibalism
4. Piercing / Bodymodification
5. Mask / Covered eyes / Covered mouth
8. Undead / Zombie
9. Skeleton / Bones
10. Cyborg / Mechanical
11. Conjoined bodies
18. Ball-jointed doll
21. Breath play
22. Torture devices
27. Extra limbs
28. Knives / Guns / Weapons
32. Scarring / Disfigurations
33. Beaten up / Bruising
alright, let's do this
... starting tomorrow