AspieI have Asperger's Syndrome.
Even saying it makes me feel relief.
I'm not weird.
I'm not strange.
I'm not different.
Well, I am different.
But I'm different for a reason.
My brain is wired up differently.
My brain is square when everybody else's is round.
My brain has three layers and everybody else has eight.
I get worried when I don't know what I'm doing.
I get worried around lots of people.
I get worried if things change.
I'm bad at telling how people feel.
I'm bad at reading people's faces.
I'm bad at a lot of social things.
But I'm good at things too.
I'm good at Maths.
I'm good at Music.
I'm good at knowing right from wrong.
I was unhappy before I knew about my Asperger's.
I'm not happy now. But I am relieved.
I'm an Aspie.
And I'm sure about things that I wasn't sure about before.
In the shoes of an AspieIn the Shoes of an AspieIn the shoes of an Aspie3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Note: This is my experiences and thoughts on what it is like to be an Aspie. I understand others have their own experiences and opinions and I respect them for that. The reason I wrote this was a hope that those who read this gain some understanding as to how people with Asperger's live their lives. However each person is unique so their behaviour and way of life may be different to mine.
I wake to the sound of my alarm going off. I groan Ugh not again... I grope for my mobile and switch it off; the alarm is rather noisy. Here I go again; having to put on that masquerade; going undercover yet again. If only people would just understand what it is like to live the way I and many others like me have to live each and every day ..
Just imagine yourself living in a world where you see and deal with everything differently. Put yourself in the shoes of an Aspie; a person with Asperger's Syndrome. It's a high-functioning form of Autism. It's hard to
Aspergers - The Curse We Bear:~ AloneAspergers - The Curse We Bear:7 years ago in Biography & Memoir More Like This
~ Dark minded
~ Kids with Asperger's/Autism feel like they're alone. No one understands them. It's like everyone you know hates you and you don't know why.
~ The rate of Autism:
20 years ago: 1 in 10,000
5 years ago: 1 in 500
Today: 1 in 166
Twenty years from now: ?
~ The puzzle pattern on the ribbon reflects the mystery and complexity of Autism/Asperger's. The different colors and shapes represents the diversity of people and families living with this disorder. The brightness of this ribbon signals hope - hope through research and increasing awareness throughout the world.
~ Everyone is unique!
~ Autism and Asperger's are life long disorders.
~ Love make
Asperger's SyndromeAsperger’s SyndromeAsperger's Syndrome2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This is what makes me different.
It is what makes me both distant and compassionate.
It is what makes me both tired and creative.
It is what makes me both sassy and awkward.
It is what makes me both fairly normal and completely insane at the same time.
This is what makes me amazing.
It is what gives me my talents and achievements.
It is what gives me my intelligence and ideas.
It is what gives me my humor and individuality.
It is what gives me my passion and dedication.
This is what makes me flawed.
It is what makes me confused and anxious.
It is what makes me exhausted and frustrated.
It is what makes me uncertain and complicated.
It is what makes me lonely and depressed.
This is what makes me who I am.
It is both my curse and my blessing.
It is both the cause of my bliss and the cause of my sorrow.
It is both what leads me to make mistakes and what leads me to do great things.
It is both the founder of my past and my pathway to my future.
For more poetry by
Essay from an AspieHi there friends! Have you ever woken up with a sudden bolt of inspiration in your brain? That happened to me just recently. I rolled out of bed at the crack of noon and the first thought in my head was that I wanted to write about something very personal to me: Asperger's Syndrome. It's something I've had to live with for my entire life, so I thought it be a good idea to share what I know with anyone who wishes to take the time to learn, and tell a few stories of how Asperger's has influenced my life. First off though, I think I should answer the obvious question of "What is Asperger's Syndrome?"Essay from an Aspie3 years ago in Academic Essays More Like This
Well, to put it simply, Asperger's Syndrome is an autism spectrum disorder that causes a decent array of symptoms. It presents itself through awkwardness in socializing, tics, a preference for strict routines and rituals, difficulty reading emotions and social cues, obsessions, and coordination problems. Despite all this, those afflicted with Asperger's Syndrome tend to have average to well a
Solo para gente de Chile u w uSolo para gente de Chile u w u10 months ago in Personal More Like This
Bueno tambien estoy haciendo comisiones para gente de chile u w u y aceptando los pagos atraves de un deposito en cuenta rut
seran por un tiempo estos precios especiales ; - ; pos si quieren consultar algo diganme nomas no muerdo tan juerte (?) ;_;
commission info: General
-Sólo Digital / 300dpi
- Voy a terminar el encargo lo antes posible, alrededor de 1-2 semanas,
- Voy a enviarle el tamaño original JPG/PNG via nota o e-mail, como gustes.
- Enviarme una nota con "commission" subject, y usar la forma de encargo. (se encuentra al final de este journal)
- Pagos en efectivo através de un deposito a cuenta rut (Nº 18.191.894-2).
Lo que haré:
-Voy a dibujar casi cualquier cosa OCS / fanart / parejas / yaoi / yuri / ecchi / furries/ antro / gore / monstruos / etc.
Lo que No harè:
An Anatomy of a MeltdownAll my life I’ve feared failure and now that fear has not only consumed me but has opened up a new fear. The fear of acceptance; to belong. The one thing I fear more than failure is myself. I fear my dark side of rage, frustration, stress and fear. I fear for both my wellbeing and of those around me. I fear also of not belonging in this world. Sure I have a loving family and loyal best friends and I’m living a great life but all of that amounts to nothing next to the fact all I ever wanted was to simply belong. To be accepted and respected for who I am. But I know that will never happen. I am stuck with a burden. One that is both a gift and a curse. A responsibility I was born with and will carry to my last breath. A thing that increases my senses and intelligence but made me a stranger to social communication and emotion. You see, I’m an Aspie; one who has Asperger’s Disorder. A form of Autism.An Anatomy of a Meltdown2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I look around me and see friendly faces of others around me. They t
Let me explainI know, lately I'm posting only commissions, auctions and stuff like that. It's because our money situation is dramatic as my father said today. I'm slowly going nuts as well but still I'm doing my best to help parents even if depression doesn't help at all. Soon there will be only worse and in the worst possible version we will lose our home and stuff. I've never been in the situation like that. We never had money problems, but now It went critical.Let me explain6 months ago in Personal More Like This
So just saying, I'm open for commissions all the time, just note me. I'll be working days and nights.
I'm willing to give you tutorial streams to get some money, also draw custom character designs.
I'm desperate I would actually do anything you'd dream about from me.
I just want my parents to stop to worry, and to save us.
Emergency Nekoi Auctionowlity's is needing funds to pay for medical care for their sick catEmergency Nekoi Auction8 months ago in Personal More Like This
They are reselling this Nekoi:
See their journal for more info and bidding:
Samson's Prostitute: To You... To MeTo youSamson's Prostitute: To You... To Me1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
you're strong and powerful,
vanquisher of your foes,
avenger of your people,
sent by God.
This enemy ground
holds no terror for you,
who can walk out unscathed,
stealing the gates,
putting us to shame.
I am a piece of meat,
a ware to buy,
a bit of cheap fun
for half a night
to make you feel good,
feel manly and strong;
a pretty body
you'll soon forget.
you are coins in my hand
to pay tomorrow's bread;
a stranger in my bed
whom I have to please,
pretend to love,
for half a night;
Arragghfwifngfngr!!!!!HALLOArragghfwifngfngr!!!!!8 months ago in Personal Journal More Like This
I used to come on this site everyday but now I don't nuu. There's been a lot of notes and comments I've been neglecting for a while, I felt really overwhelmed at the prospect of having to go through them all. And I feel guilty about this and I'm sorry but I deleted them all If you really wanted to tell me something please send it again! Now that my inbox is at zero I'll try to answer things as soon as I read them instead of waiting til a week later and forgetting and then suddenly it's overflowing. I'm sorry I'm such a slow person even though I only have 2 sites All you people out there who have deviantart /and/ tumblr /and/ twitter /and/ instagram /and/ facebook /and/ draw /and/ do things in real life, how do you do iiiit?? Did everyone get the google brain chip while I was sleeping one day?? lol
Random no1currs life update: I went to the dentist recently and for the 1st time in my life I have cavities noooo. I ha
Symptoms of Autism Spectrum DisordersSymptoms of Autism Spectrum Disorders3 years ago in Academic Essays More Like This
Common Symptoms of Some 'AUTISM SPECTRUM DISORDERS'
PLEASE Click on UNDERSTANDING AUTISM and READ it before reading this paper.
This is meant to be a relatively Short way to help you see if you are part of the Autism Spectrum Disorders, which includes:□ High Functioning Autism
□ Sensory Processing Disorder (Sensory Integration Dysfunction)
□ Asperger Syndrome
□ Developmental Coordination Disorder (Developmental Dyspraxia)
□ DysgraphiaMost kids and adults who are in the Autism Spectrum and who do not show significant obvious symptoms, are SELDOM diagnosed. If the problems and symptoms are not glaring, no one bothers. Even Kids with obvious symptoms are often not diagnosed, since many teachers are not trained to know what to look for and of course most parents do not know what to look for
Lonely GirlThat lonely girl over there is a misfit.Lonely Girl3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She cannot do anything without
Making a mistake.
Everyone thinks she's trash
To be thrown away and
Be forgotten like trash.
Always lonely, always lonely.
Why doesn't anyone help her
from her darkness?
"I'm fine," a lie through
No one asks her how
She feels at all.
Just alone, just alone.
There's nowhere she can
Go at all to be safe.
There's nothing she can
Do to be praised for at all.
Why can't she be saved at all?
Forever alone, forever alone.
"Can I please speak no--?"
Shut up stupid girl,
Shut up stupid girl.
You're not even worth listening to!
"Why are you living?"
"Is your life worth it?"
There's nothing I can do
Without a cruel remark of my life.
Forever alone, the misfit girl is.
There's nothing she can be seen
In a good light.
Why does everyone ignore and
Continue to hurt her?
"I'm just fine," is a
Lie through clenched teeth.
Nobody praises her for anything.
Why doesn't anyone help her
To stop her crying?
Will someone ple
TearsTears are the windows to a soulTears10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Within them contain the emotions of one's being
Falling for the death of someone loved,
Streaming for brokeness
Rolling in laughter and happiness,
Tumbling in depression
Holding onto the light,
Clinging in fear of darkness
Windows to the hiding one afraid to be seen
Brief history of Celtic art AgesBrief history of Celtic art Ages2 years ago in Art Features More Like This
Brief history of Celtic art Ages
Celtic art is the art associated with the peoples known as Celts; those who spoke the Celtic languages in Europe from the Neolithic age through today. Celtic art is also applied to the art of ancient peoples whose language is uncertain, but have cultural and stylistic similarities with speakers of the Celtic languages.
Celtic art is a difficult term to define, covering a huge expanse of time, geography and cultures. One could make a case for artistic continuity in Europe from the Neolithic age, through the Roman Conquest and up to today. "Early Celtic art" refers to the Hallstatt period (before the 5th century BC). Art historians typically begin to talk about "Celtic art" only from the La Tène period (broadly 5th to 1st centuries BC) onwards. The Early
Darkroom Exposed: Digital OverlaysDarkroom Exposed is a series of articles highlighting talented deviants, noteworthy art and helpful information all about the Photography > Darkroom gallery on dA.Darkroom Exposed: Digital Overlays3 years ago in Art Features More Like This
This issue features digital overlays, which are created by layering two or more images (including but not limited to texture and colour layers) to create a final image, mimicking the effect of exposing photographic paper to two or more negatives and/or filters during printing. This differs from photomanipulations, where elements of numerous images are separately extracted and combined to make a final image.
Stock used in title graphic
007007 by mikm-STOCK
negatives stock 1 by :de
Diversity of Women's BodiesDiversity of Women's Bodies1 year ago in Personal More Like This
From Howard Schatz's 2002 book, Athlete
Why it's embarrassing for comic book illustrators to only look to Sports Illustrated for references for female characters.
There is far more body diversity in the athletic world and characters should reflect that. Wonder Woman should be BUFF...and uh..that's all the female characters in comics I really know or care about....*cough*
I want to find the male version (I know there is one) of this because the message is equally true. While male characters tend to have more body variety; there still is that default buff man Conan model. My personal disgruntlement is when it shows up on batman who is suppose to be dexterous and not as buff as Superman.
Lost, Trapped, ConfusedAlways, I’ve wondered what it feels like to grieve for something lost. To love, and be in a relationship, and what it means to feel sorrow with the tears falling down your face. I wish to communicate; to express my thoughts and get feedback on them, that is though, if I actually knew what was going on in my mind. Always I am wrought with rage, frustration, and confusion over my inability to socialise and do things that a normal person can do. I feel like an alien in a foreign world even though that alien is my human self and the foreign world, Earth.Lost, Trapped, Confused7 months ago in Emotional More Like This
It is a curse to have Asperger’s or any form of Autism for that matter, being born without some of the integral programming designed to make like so much easier. Neuro-typicals will never know of my plight. To them I’m weird. Different. A freak of nature. I care not for my higher intelligence, absurd logic, and heightened senses. I would trade all of them to experience even a single day where I don’t get ridi
About the River Inside My HeadThere's a river in my head and I know you haven't seen it.About the River Inside My Head3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You haven't heard it bubble and you haven't felt it touch your bare ankles,
because, like I said, it's inside my head.
I am, almost literally speaking, a fish out of water with you,
with my foggy eyes and gaze that always
It has never bothered me like it always bothered you
but you smelled of human skin and your palms were sweaty -
I could not hold your hand for the life of mine.
You had anger and something else, pity, sadness, all the like,
in your eyes as I took my sleeping pills
I can't remember how you looked like back then
prosopagnosia (greek: "prosopon" = "face", "agnosia" = "not knowing")
is a disorder of face perception where the ability to recognize faces is impaired
But the city smelled like coming night and fallen rain
and I might have smiled feebly at your
affection that I could not return.
They have not found a cure
for having a river in your head
And to tell you the truth, I would not care fo