Mother's DayEvery mother has her day; it's known as Mother's Day. But you have more days than that. They all started back in November of 1989. You were holding your newborn daughter in your arms for the first time. You most likely were looking into her eyes and thinking of what she could become.
You could envision her as a doctor, a teacher, even a veterinarian. A few days later you took her home and showered her in love and compassion. You showed her all the things the world could offer. You let her know that you would always be there to protect her and listen to her. You showed her how to smile.
As she grew you helped her learn to tie her shoes and dress herself. You fit the role of mom perfectly. You gave her the gift of caring. Her first day of kindergarten you watched her through the glass window in the wooden door cause you didn't wanna leave her.
As time passed she started elementary school and the time you spent apart got longer. Instead of not seeing her for 3 hours you didn't see her for
So Far Away 03So Far Away 032 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
So today I reached the 4.5 month mark... Yippee. And of course I had to not fit into my pants anymore. Did the baby have a growth spurt overnight? I mean my pants fit yesterday. Now I sit on my closet floor crying. My phone buzzed and I grabbed it. "Hello?" I said all sniffles.
"Matt where are you? We're waiting at the stop sign and you haven't shown and school starts in 10 minutes." I sniffled again. "Hey what's wrong?"
"None of my pants fit!" I said as I cried again. "They fit yesterday and now I can't button any of them! The damn kid had a growth spurt overnight!" I heard Jimmy telling the guys to go ahead to school he'd see them later. "I'm fat Jimmy!" I said in a rush of tears.
"Mattie you're no fat at all. You're pregnant. That is normal. The baby is growing which we all know is a good thing. Just take a deep breath and relax. What size pants did u wear yesterday?"
"13." I said in a whimper.
"Ok. Not a problem. I am 2 pants sizes bigger than you." I heard a door open
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I got to school the next morning and sat in the cafeteria waiting for first bell. The guys came and sat around my. I noticed Zack had a gash on his neck. "Dude what happened to you?"
"Living where I live has it's perks." We all looked at him confused. "Don't piss off your landlord." We nodded. "So any news on the Matt front?"
"None. I am getting really worried Zacky. I mean he's been gone 2 bucking weeks. You have no idea how much it hurts to see the sadness on Mrs. Sanders face when I visit her every day to see if she heard anything? It's torture." I put my head on the table. "Johnny have you heard anything? I know you have connections."
"Sorry man nothing. No one has seen a pregnant kid anywhere. I had friends put up posters from here to 3 towns over in every direction. We'll find him Jimmy, don't worry."
I sighed. "What if we don't? What if he goes into labor and has complications that kill him and the babies? For all we know the kidnapper can kill him before he h
So Far Away 18So Far Away 182 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I heard the chain on the door rattling again. He was coming back for me... I whimpered when moving sent a shock wave of pain through my arm. I stood leaning against the post. The chains fell off the door. The door opened and sunlight flooding the room blinding me. All I saw was a silhouette of my attacker. This was my last chance. I grabbed the pen from my back pocket and charged.
The person put their arms around me making my charge useless. I struggled. "Let me go so I can kill you!"
"Easy Mattie bear, no hurting your future husband." my eyes focused and I saw Jimmy. I gasped and backed away from him thinking he kidnapped me. "I know what you're thinking and I didn't do it. Why would I kidnap the man I love and plan on marrying? I am not that dumb." I looked at his neck for the wound I gave my attacker. I noticed no gash on his neck. He looked me over. "Oh god, what happened to your arm?" he started looking my arm over.
"Whoever put me here broke it. Last night... at
So Far Away 08So Far Away 082 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I woke up one morning to find Jimmy rubbing my belly and singing gently to the babies. He hadn't notice I was awake yet so I kept silent and watched as he sang to my children. He was singing lullabies to them and telling them Grimm Fairy Tales. At the moment he was telling them about Cinderella. He was at the point of the step sisters cutting off part of their feet to make the glass slipper fit. At that moment I knew that Jim was the best person to be the father to my babies. And I bet a ton of you are asking: "Well Matt what are you having? 2 boys, 2 girls, or one of each?" Well I can't tell ya cause I don't even know. I won't let the doctor tell me.
I smiled. "Jim..." he looked at me like the cat caught eating the canary. I laughed. "That was very sweet, telling them stories and singing to them."
"You heard all that huh?" I nodded. "So my reputation as a kick ass bad boy is over?"
"No, you're a kick ass bad boy who has a gentle side when it comes to love and children." I sat up on my
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I walked to my car knowing Matt was waiting for me. As I got closer I noticed he wasn't inside or outside the car. I dropped his book bag on the ground and ran to my car. Mattie's keys were on the ground by the front tire. I ran back to the school thinking he might have gone inside for something. I ran into the guys who were on their way out. "Matt's gone! He was gonna meet me at the car. I found his keys by the tire and he's nowhere to be found!" we all split up and went searching for him.
When we met at the gym we all had looks of fear on our faces. I cursed and kicked the basketball rack. I fell to the floor crying. I just got Mattie back and I lost him again. Zack sat by me and held me close trying to calm me. "Jimmy, we'll find him. I promise you, we'll find him." I hugged Zack and cried. I heard Johnny call the cops but I didn't give it much attention. The cops came, took my statement, and left putting out an APB on my love.
When I went home after picking up Matt
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"Why are you calling me? You told me to get out remember?" Jimmy said in anger. "You are the one that said to get out. That you wouldn't let me hurt you or the babies. So do me a huge favor Matt, forget I exist ok? I am not gonna let another person treat me like crap. I thought you were different but I was wrong. You're just like everyone else. You just wanna use me and abuse me. So just fuck off, and throw out that ring. I don't want it back." The line went dead and I cried.
I couldn't believe he said that to me. I love him and he just gave up on me without letting me explain. Then I did something I haven't done in a while. I called my old friend Rodney Song. I was happy that he answered. "Hello?"
"Rodney?" I asked still crying. "It's Matt Sanders... You probably forgot me by now but you were best friend and I need you right now..."
"Mattie, how can I ever forget you? What's wrong? You sound like you're crying." Rodney asked.
"Cause I am crying. I just got dumped by the one man I trul
So Far Away 12So Far Away 122 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
One day I was home in the kitchen after venturing from my room. I stood there in a pair of pajama bottoms with skulls and crossbones all over them and nothing else but the bandages on my stomach. I had just put something in the microwave when the doorbell rang. As I waddled to the door I wondered who it could be.
I opened the door to find Johnny standing there. "What a lovely sight to see. The door is opened by a half-naked preggo." I growled at him. "Can I come in?" I moved aside and he walked into the house. Once I closed the door he sighed. "Alright first I retract what I said at the door, I have a rep to keep intact. Second, I came here to tell you about Jimmy. Ever since you broke up he's been.... isolated. He hasn't talked to any of us. He has declared the band broken up. He even went as far to say that if we had any problems with it to come bitch at you.
Now I am not here to bitch. I am here in the hopes that you can fix Jimmy. I know about what happened so I can understand both
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The day arrived... The first day of school and my seven month pregnant mark. I sighed as I waddled to my bathroom to shower. Once the water hit my belly the twins kicked like there was no tomorrow. It's a good thing I have water proof stitches and crap or bathing would suck. I gave my belly an affectionate pat and rub to calm the babies down then went about cleaning myself. By the time my shower was done I had 30 minutes to get to school. As I was dressing I heard a car horn. I looked out the window to see Jimmy leaning against the driver door. "Come on up I still gotta eat and finish dressing." He nodded and I went to finish pulling on clothes. I can say it is hard to button your pants when you can't see the button or hole the button goes into.
Jimmy walked in when I was still fumbling with the button. He smiled and set his keys on the dresser. "Here let me get it." He kneeled before me and buttoned them for me. "There perfect. So are you excited for the first day of sophomore year?"
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I got home from my doctor appointment and went straight to my room for the night. My mother left dinner at my door. Other than that I talked to no one. I took a picture of my ultrasound and made it the background on my cell. I noticed that something was different with my phone. I looked through everything and found the something new.
I had 4 new contacts. It was the cell numbers of Jimmy, Brian, Zack, and Johnny. I smiled happy they were there. I sighed, got dinner, ate, put the plate outside the door, and went to bed.
I woke to my alarm clock blaring and sighed as I turned it off. I did my normal routine and went to school. My mother was looking out the window nervously. "Matt maybe I should take you today. There are so evil looking boys in our driveway."
I walked over and looked out the window at the evil looking boys. I laughed in shock to see Jimmy and the guys. "It's ok mom. They're my friends." I grabbed my water bottle from the fridge and walked outside. "Hey guys. How did you f
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It had been another two weeks of me in my depressive state ever since the meeting with Jimmy and Johnny. I know Johnny meant well but I guess seeing Jimmy sent me over the edge. I finally took the ring off that day too. It now sits in a box in my bathroom mirror. School literally starts in 4 days, yippee... not. I am gonna be a huge pregnant kid in school who is single. Yeah that's not a neon sign that says pick on me.
I sighed as I went to my closet for clothes that would fit me. That was when I saw it; there on a hanger, was the pants Jimmy let me wear when I was 4 months. I grabbed them and held them close to me. I cried missing Jimmy with all my heart.
I just want my jimmy back in my arms to comfort me and hold me. I heard my cell ring and grabbed it without looking. "Hello?"
"Hey, are you crying?" I was shocked to hear a voice I hadn't heard in so long. "Mattie? Are you ok?"
"Jimmy! Oh my god, is it really you?"
"Yeah it's me. I was wondering if I could come over. Is that ok?" I n
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I woke to a ton of noise coming from downstairs. I walked to the landing and leaned on the railing. "SHUT THE FUCK UP! I AM TRYING TO SLEEP!" I yelled at everyone. When they quieted I smiled. "Now stay that way." I walked back to my room and laid on my bed snuggling my body pillow. I sighed contently as I started to fall back to sleep. That was when the babies decided to wake and start kicking. I moaned and sat up letting the twins get comfortable again before I stood and went downstairs. I walked to the kitchen not caring who saw me in just my jeans.
I went to the fridge looking for substance. I saw a plate of bacon from this morning and pulled it out as well as vitamin water. I sat at the table munching away rubbing my belly gently to calm the twins. The kitchen door swung open but I paid it no attention. I figured it was mom or Jimmy.
The person sat across from me and I looked up when a hand touched mine. I was shocked to see Ryan there. "Matt I know I am not a true frie
So Far Away 01So Far Away 012 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It was a warm summer's day when my family moved to Huntington Beach, California. Mom got a promotion so we had to move, yippee for me right? Wrong, it was towards the end of the school year, May to be exact. So of course I will have to make new friends and try to fit in but that is pretty impossible since I am a Goth that ignores anything that moves.
My name is Matt Sanders and I am 16 and pregnant. Now really mom says we moved cause of the promotion but I bet we moved cause of what happened to me. You see it was 3 months ago that I was walking home from school when I was pulled into an alley by the school bullies and raped. Only last month I was pregnant positive. So most likely mom moved the family to keep me and the baby away from the bullies and jerks.
I hate morning sickness too; I don't understand why it's called morning sickness when it lasts all god damn day. I mean last night right before dinner I ended up puking! I just hate it; I like the baby but not the puking 24 fuckin 7.
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So it's been two weeks since we heard from Zack and I was starting to get annoyed by his bullshit. I pulled on my favorite black skinny jeans as well as a red shirt that had a dragon on it. Sadly the dragon was stretched to capacity across my belly. I rubbed my stomach gently as my children still slept. I put on my sneakers, grabbed my phone, wallet, and keys; shoving them into my pockets. I left a note for mom on the fridge and walked out.
I sighed as I started to walk the 6 blocks to Zack's house. Normally I would have Jimmy drive my places cause of my pregnancy, but today I had to do this alone. I had to get my friend back. I want to make things right with him. I miss him terribly. It's like that phantom limb thing: once the limb is removed you will still feel like it's there years later. Well I want Zack, not phantom Zack. For the past 2 weeks my nights have been filled with nightmares of how things were then how they are now.
I miss the Zack who would eat lunch with us at school a
So Far Away 04So Far Away 042 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It is now July, the fourth to be exact. School ended a few days ago and I reached my 5th month today. I am finally a sophomore! When school starts again I am gonna be 7 months pregnant... God I am gonna be fat as a whale. Also I learned something interesting a few days ago, seems I am having twins. The second baby was hiding behind the first. So now I will have to gain 2 times the weight than before and then there is the fear of the babies coming early like most multiple births do.
Tonight Jimmy, the guys and me are going to watch the fireworks. We're gonna leave a while later so that we don't have to worry about not being in a good spot. Jim says he is bringing a huge ass blanket for all of us to sit on, on the hill over the lake. In truth I kinda wish it was just Jimmy and I going so that we could be alone but hey the others are my friends too. I even go as far as to think of Brian, Zack, and Johnny as brothers. But Jimmy, he is a whole different animal. Jimmy is the alpha male, Jimm
So Far Away 05 option 2So Far Away 05 option 22 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
A few days later it came time for band practice and we noticed Zack didn't show. In truth we haven't heard from him ever since I walked away from us. I sighed. "I'll try calling him." I got off my stool that Jimmy caringly provides and walked to the mailbox at the end of the driveway for privacy. I was shocked when Zack answered. "Zack it's Matt. Why aren't you at practice?"
"Well let's see, could it be because you took away the man I love? The man that I seriously was gonna ask if we could start dating but then you moved into town? Maybe I don't wanna be around you if you're taking the man I love away from me." the line went dead and I was shocked. I just started crying on the spot.
Jimmy must of noticed it cause next thing I know he's behind me turning me so my head was against his chest. "Shh. It's ok Mattie, don't cry love." I cried into his shirt for the next 5 minutes. When the tears finally ended he kissed my forehead and looked into my eyes. "What bothered you my love?" I wonde
So Far Away 09So Far Away 092 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I woke to a sharp pain in my stomach and the feeling of something in my arm. When I opened my eyes I saw a white ceiling. Looking around I saw white walls with one window on the left wall farthest from me. I heard beeping noises that seemed too loud. When I looked to my right I saw the cause of the beeping. I was 3 heart monitors. One for me the other two for the twins. My babies, I put my hands on my stomach and was greeted by kicks and tumbles that seemed lazy and bored. I looked around more and noticed I was alone.
Where is my mother? Where is Jimmy? Where is anyone? Was I left her to rot? Am I a forgotten entity? I looked over as the door opened and a doctor walked in. we looked each other in the eye. "Well hello Mr. Sanders. Glad to see you're finally awake." I am confused, what did she mean by finally awake? How long have I been out? She set something on a table by the door. "I'm Marsha Roberts your doctor. You scared a lot of people kid." She started doing the flashli
So Far Away 20So Far Away 202 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
So now I am 8 months and in Home Economics it's time to care for the robot baby. We have to care for the thing for a dang month straight! I swear this is torture for me. Best part is I am the only one who didn't have to wear the empathy belly! I have one of my own firmly attached to my hips and abdomen. Johnny and Jimmy looked hilarious in it though. I have pictures. I mean wouldn't you take pictures for possible black mail?
Jimmy was given a boy doll and me a girl. We were given the control thing that is put around your wrist as well as the bottle and breast feeding thing. We also were given a spare diaper for each baby and a months worth of clothes. The baby had to have different outfits each day. This was gonna be fun... Not.
I watched Jimmy's baby and my own as he drove us home. I smiled. "Just think Jim, in at most one month I'll have two real life breathing babies in my arms... Well arm... I can't wait!"
"Yeah I know my love. Soon we'll be caring for two adorable little babies."
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Three days later I was discharged from the hospital. Jimmy lives with mom and me again. He just woke me up for school. He helped me dress due to the lovely black cast that covers most of my arm and part of my hand. Once Jimmy got me dressed he dressed himself. I went downstairs and mom kissed me handing me an egg and sausage sammich for the road as well as a new cell phone. "Here honey. It's special. Jimmy had it made for you."
I looked the phone over and saw the logo we had decided on for the band and the name on the back of it. I gasped as tears came into my eyes. Jimmy walked down at that moment. "Shh, it's ok Mattie. It's just a cell phone."
"It's more than that. It's a present from my Jimmy." I hugged him. "Thank you" he smiled and we left a few minute later. When we got to school I got out with my water in hand. We went to Jimmy's locker to get my things, mostly my bag to carry my crap in. I noticed the halls were mostly empty. Only a few kids were there. Were we late?
We went to
So Far Away 21So Far Away 212 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
So we've had Edera and JJ for a week now... I am more tired than usual. Mom has been dropping me and Jimmy off at school and picking us up cause we don't wanna walk or drive. Every time one of the babies cry the twins go into kicking fits as if the sound scares them. Right now Jimmy and I are sitting in the cafeteria waiting for the others to appear.
"Mattie, dude you ok? You look like the living dead." I looked up to see Zack.
"I am the living dead. I barely sleep first of all cause the twins are kicking me to death and then I can't get any sleep cause Edera and JJ keep waking me up. And most of the time Jimmy sleeps through JJ crying unless I push him off the bed." Zack glared at Jimmy who looked more energetic than me.
"What? I am a heavy sleeper. It takes a lot to wake me up."
"A screaming baby doesn't work?" Jimmy shook his head. "Well just you wait. Once Matt's twins are here you will be up most of the night. Mattie what do you want for lunch? I'll get it for you." I gave Zack my
So Far Away 24 FinalSo Far Away 24 Final2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I laid on my bed relaxing with friends when a nurse pushed in 2 bassinettes. "Hey Matt. Two people wanted to meet you formally." I smiled and Jimmy helped me sit up to hold them. I smiled as the nurse handed my babies to me. I tried not to wince as the weight of the one girl settled on my broken arm. "They need names still."
I smiled. "Which one was born first?" he nodded to my left arm. "Ok, that is Terra Lynn Sullivan. And her sister is Tanya Linnet Sullivan." I smiled when mom gasped. "Ma it's ok."
"You're naming her after me?" I nodded. The guys were all confused. "My name is Linnet." They all gasped an applauded. I smiled and looked at my girls. "Congrats Mattie. You have two beautiful girls.
I nodded. "Thanks mom." I smiled at Jimmy. "Want to hold them daddy?" Jimmy nodded and mom helped me hand him Terra and Tanya. I smiled at them. "Adorable." He nodded and there was a flash of light as one of the guys took our picture. "Whoever took that I want a copy."
Zack smiled. "Yes sir."
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When I came to again my human pillow was gone. I looked around and saw my mother in a chair across the room. "Mom." She didn't move much. I grabbed a spare pillow by my feet and chucked it at her hitting her head. "Wake up!"
I laughed when mom attacked the pillow as if it was gonna kill her. Finally the pillow surrendered and fell to the floor. I smiled at her and she immediately ran to me. "Oh Mattie, I was so worried about you sweetie. I am glad you're ok." I hugged her close with a smile. "All your friends were worried about you honey. And I must say some of your friends are really scary looking Mattie."
I laughed. "Oh and I look normal right?" she nodded. "Mom on a daily basis I wear so much manscara and guy liner that I look like a dead body. Right now I probably look human, but any other time I look like they do." She sighed in defeat. "So how have you been? I am guessing that was the worst birthday of your life huh?"
"Not the worst. The worst was when you father was killed. This
So Far Away 23So Far Away 232 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Um... sorry to ruin the moment but I think I'm in labor..." Everyone gasped looking at me. "I just had a contraction." Everyone jumped up getting my things as Jimmy helped me dress and put on shoes. "Jimmy I'm scared about this."
He kissed me. "It's gonna be ok Mattie. I know you can do this. You are gonna be a mom soon. I know you can do this baby." I smiled at him while inside I was screaming in fear. Johnny and Brian walked downstairs with my bag and pillow. Ryan and Zack came from the kitchen with a ton of my vitamin water bottles for me. Jimmy smiled. "Guys I'm gonna be a dad." The guys nodded and we all cheered. "Ready to go Mattie?"
"What is the point? I'd rather be here and comfy instead of waiting in a hospital as my contractions slowly get closer. Once my contractions are closer together I'll let you take me ok?" he nodded and we went to the couch again. I could tell everyone was nervous as hell already. "Guys chill out. I'll be fine. Hey Ryan if you're really curious there
Dear God 21Johnny's POV:Dear God 211 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The day started out well, Bri and I were watching Titanic in 3D when suddenly the power flickered "What was that?" I wondered curiously. I looked around us at the various things in the house.
"Maybe just the wind" Brian muttered half asleep. Suddenly there was a flash of lightning and a clap of thunder and the entire house went dark
"Shit!" I yelled over the wind. It was when the kitchen window shattered that I really began to worry. I looked out the window and saw the road was trashed and my car totaled. I had no way to get anywhere and I hoped and prayed that the guys were ok. My main worry was Brian, he was five days overdue and if labor were to start now I'd have no way to reach anyone. "Brian c'mon we have to get downstairs" I declared grabbing a few supplies needed for a home birth in case of the inevitable
"Johnny I'm scared" Brian stammered as the wind whistled outside. We had been sitting on the futon couch when I felt the cushion get wet
"Honey?" I asked looking
IWSYT 03IWSYT 032 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It's been 3 weeks since Zacky and I had sex all over the house. Zacky is hell bent on having a baby. We've been having sex every night for the past 3 weeks. We've both taken turns being the submissive one. I am hoping to god that one of us gets pregnant. I really am. We want it to happen so bad; I mean Zacky has gone so far as to start working on the nursery again.
I really hope I don't let him down again. Outta impulse I bought a pregnancy test while at the store. Something in me just said 'buy it' you know? I am gonna take it later while Zacky makes dinner. He's always super distracted during dinner. Right now it's hidden in my night stand under a book. I so can't wait for Zacky to start dinner! I am fucking fidgeting!
Finally Zacky went to make dinner but not before another round of sex. I ran, yes ran, to our bedroom and retrieved the test. As I got into the bathroom I was silently praying for a positive. I did the normal routine and then waited for the answer to appear. After 5 mi