When the world around you feels so surreal
And you can't tell what's fake or for real
So you work your way through, trying to discover
And your memory's lost, so you're trying to recover
Feeling as if all the pages have flown
And wishing if only the world was clear and you'd known
But your brain is filled with plain morning dew
And is leaving you empty as the chilled wind blew
reality?You want me to savereality?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The person you all see;
I'm dying to save
The girl I'll never be.
I'm Sorry MommyPlease don't do itI'm Sorry Mommy4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I promise to be good
Just don't hurt me again
I promise not to talk anymore
Mommy I'm sorry
Please stop showing me the pictures
I know he is gone I miss him too
Stop rubbing him in my face..
Mommy I'm sorry
I love you so much
Please stop hurting me
Can't you see I'm already doing that
Please don't give me the bottle..
I don't wanna drink tonight
I'm so sorry Mommy
Mommy please stop
Why do you do that?
Please leave my body alone..
I thought it was pretty before,,
Why must you keep hurting me with your words?
They make the voices worse
They tell me I'm such a horrible daughter
Mommy I'm sorry
I just wanted to express myself
Please don't punish me any longer
Please don't take away my gateways
Why do you keep hurting me?
I only love you..
Yet you despise me to no end
Mommy I love you..
Please just love me back
Broken.Broken.4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I put up with all your shit.
So why cant you out up with mine?
After everything you'v done that hurt me
I stayed cool. i stayed with you.
I tried not to cry.
You cant always tell what I'm hiding inside.
I know i act like i don't give a care
But i do.
I don't like to let it show.
Its killing me inside
My heart is cracked and crying
From everything we've ever done to each other
I just want it to be like it used to
When we were happy and in LOVE.
I don't want to loose you
I cant live without you
Your my addiction
I know i fucked up
But so did you.
I'm sorry for all i ever did.
Please forgive me.
I'm sitting here trying pay attention to class.
But i cant stop thinking about YOU and US.
xoxo, Your Love.
Die TryingI know it's time for me to move nowDie Trying3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Standing still makes me numb
If I just wait for life to happen
To living hell I'll succumb
There is no place for surrender
This time I can't afford to yield
For once I'd rather die trying
Then hide behind my fear shield
Nobody is going to live life for me
So I've got to mature and grow
Sitting still will keep me ignorant
And I'd rather fail then not know
I've still got much to experience
I'll learn much on this long road
Though sometimes I'm going to stumble
Still I will carry my load
Life is something that I've got to pursue
I'd rather die trying to live
Maybe I won't get there as soon as I'd like
But sitting on my ass I just cannot forgive
The time to move has arrived now
It's time for me to depart
I won't always know where to go next
So I'll just follow my heart
Luck'Luck' is to have met you.Luck3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't know if it's good or bad, just yet.
What I do know, is that I don't want this to end.
'Luck' was finding you.
So far apart, different circumstances...
such different lives.
And to coincide.
'Luck' was giving you a chance.
Because the whole situation was so bizarre,
that I didn't want to risk it.
And realizing it was worth it.
'Luck' was when you saw Me.
The part of me no one had ever noticed before.
'Luck' was when I saw You.
And trusting what I found there.
'Luck' was finding each other.
When everything else indicated
that we would never meet.
I Like YouI know your name,I Like You5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
First and last,
I know the color of your eyes,
And how they take me aback,
I don't know your favorite flower,
But with it I want to fill your room,
I don't know your favorite movie,
But I hope to see it soon,
If it takes a lifetime to know you,
Let's start today,
Because if today is all we have,
I have only this to say:
I like you.
A Friend Like YouA Friend Like YouA Friend Like You8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Not many people can do what you do
To listen and care and talk and help
But you're always here,
When I need some of your time
And all I can do is give you these lines
I wish I could give it all back
With a hundred times more
Because it's more than I could ever deserve,
Even more than I asked for
So I thank you with all of my heart,
For keeping that wide, open door
I thought I would never find
A true friend like you
I never thought we'd be this way
I thought it would never last
But it has all stayed together,
The heartache left in the past
This is all that I have
To give you my love in return
Please know how grateful I feel
And just in case we one day grow very far
Just look up, and we might be looking at that same star
GoodbyeShe couldn't believe what he was saying,Goodbye3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
understanding awakening her fears,
her feelings suddenly straying,
from the happy path of recent years.
Dreadful thoughts filled her mind
making her see what he had implied,
there was no relief to be had,
for he was saying goodbye.
He said they couldn't be together
and that hurt somewhere deep inside
She wanted to know the reason,
but he said it'd always been a matter of time.
She wanted to know how,
he'd learned to lie with his heart
and he said that sometimes,
you have to rip it apart.
His eyes were full of silence
something that made her hope,
But his words were loud and clear,
even if his feelings were not.
She couldn't make him stay,
she loved him enough to let go.
She couldn't hate him either,
and God knows how hard she tried,
but no matter how deep they are buried
there are dreams that simply won't die.
And to this day she is still waiting,
against all odds, her heart starts to crack,
aching for the absolute absence
of a love that may nev
MelodyMelody4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The music flows into
And all through my soul
It's provoking emotions
And making me whole
I close my eyes
And I move with the beat
My body is swaying
With the music so sweet
I'm starting to soar
And I'm losing control
It feels so amazing
It awakens my soul
So come take my hand
And give up control
It's a magical world
It inspires us all
That GirlA girl is standing there,That Girl3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
in the middle of the night,
searching for a light,
in a path where everything's dark.
Something else was found,
a feeling, she thought forgotten
the hope of being that girl
who doesn't take no for an answer.
A girl who takes risks,
who laughs for no reason at all,
the one who knows what she wants
and will stop at nothing to get it right.
She had buried that girl, a long time ago.
Real life threatened to drown her,
if she didn't do it first.
And suddenly he shows up,
full of life, and laughs, and love
and reminds her of that girl,
she thought was forever gone.
But now she is a woman,
and a fearless one at that,
he has helped her without knowing
to overcome her fears and doubts.
She liked to have control,
she'd learned to never give in,
trying so hard not to show,
neither laughter nor her tears.
But now she is different,
so much more than before,
now that woman is smiling
for the renewed hope she thought lost.
She got what she deserved...My mind was corrupted by malicious jealousy;She got what she deserved...4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
drowned in regret, and tormented by her ecstasy.
Bitter I was, filled with pure anguish and hate,
disgusted and tortured by our analogous trait.
Lividness was ripping and wrenching at my soul;
abhorrent at the horde of lies she'd told to make you whole.
Brutally suffering in agony and despair,
I viciously sliced with envy, knowing regret he and I would share.
How mistaken and selfish I was to utilise myself,
thinking my grief was damage to him, and not anyone else.
Anxiety and tears filled the eyes of those so dear,
but they never tried to stop the pain, even though it was my fear.
I locked myself away, and just stared at my reflection;
scowling at my evident mistake, and every imperfection.
What was done was done; I couldn't change it if I wanted to.
I could only forget my years of heartache, and somehow start anew.
I thought the name written in my scars would always remain;
reminding me of my misery, and the help I
Missing YouMissing You4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
All of the words that I have said to you
Are words I don't know if I should follow
And I can't sleep
With you in my dreams
I need to find a way to escape
The essence you left behind
All of the words that I have thought of
Are words that I'm not sure I want to give you
All I know
Is that I can't let you go
There's a part of me that's screaming inside
About this lie
I'm not sure of anything anymore
Could you ever forgive me
And all the days
That are now gone away
And all the pain
That's now with me
Makes me wonder if I'd ever regret what I've done
To see you cry
It breaks my heart every time
All of the words that I have said to you
Are words I don't know if I should follow
And I can't sleep
Without you in my dreams
things that occur to meI could stop the car. I could imagine you haven't yet departed. I could call you and ask when you'll be home, and should I just go in, and did you get that laundry done because I can finish it if not. You haven't been gone so long; maybe I wouldn't even notice what was missing.things that occur to me4 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
I could step inside. I could imagine you haven't yet departed. I could excavate the spare key and ease open the door and breathe the familiar smell of mold, of rotting, beautiful old house. The hallways would be mine to roam; I might be a mischievous child again and pawing through your belongings while you're out grocery shopping.
I could find a bed. I could imagine you haven't yet departed. I could fall into the bed and instantly fall asleep and I could wake up in a parallel universe, the kind where only one thing is different. You'd be there when I wake up; you'd be making breakfast or reading a book but most importantly you'd be there, which is a much better place than where you are in this universe.
Love WarI am stuck in a tired state of mind,Love War4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I cannot stop to sleep.
So I must leave my worries behind
And battle the troubles in my keep.
Insults are shot as cannons ring out.
The deafening loudness of it escalades
Until the sounds of war is our shouts,
Sounds of which never seem to fade.
We stare at eachother in pain and defeat
Until we both understand that it is over.
All that is left to come is grief.
I am sick of receiving blame
For actions that I did not do.
My decision is fianlly and without shame.
I no longer need you.
The OceanI sit on the dying hill,The Ocean5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
as the soft waves collapse smoothly
upon the golden vanilla shore.
Burnt from the fading sunlight,
rays of shimmering resilience kissing bare grains
without a whisper of apology or regret.
The hush of the waves mesmerises us,
and soothes our souls until we feel that indescribable numbness;
for the clouds are but a mist of dreams, lingering, waiting.
Beyond the shore,
the dead city lies motionless,
soaked and consumed by itself;
but enraptured by the beauty of the silver waves,
I sit on the dying hill
Truth Be ToldI'm not a perfect angelTruth Be Told4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Nor will I ever be
Because there is no such thing as perfect
And that is a guarantee
We all have our own opinions
And we won't always feel the same
So don't get mad at me over it
Because I don't play the game of shame
I'll say whatever is on my mind
No matter how harsh it may be
'Cause if it is the truth
Then it should be told for all to see
Please don't order me around like a robot
I'm a human being not a slave
I wasn't born to serve you
And I'd rather live then be put into an early grave
Why must you sit here and lie to my face
When you taught me as a child that lying is a sin
In the end it won't get you very far
Because a liar never wins
I found a little heartI found a little heartI found a little heart4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Beside a hollow tree
I lifted it from the earth
And brought it close to me
I held it soft against my chest
And smiled with relief
Though it had been left behind
This heart still had a beat
On the ground I found a note
A note addressed to me
It said that you had left it here
In hopes that I would see
It told a story of grief and pain
And this pain, I could cease
If I exchanged my heart for yours
Then it could set you free
But when I asked this of my heart
My heart did not agree
All these years of wear and tear
Made it hollow like the tree
And there is so much between us
Miles of land and sea
You say to listen to my heart
And it tells me it's not ready
So your broken heart slinks away
To cry itself to sleep
I always knew it would end this way
For it was never mine to keep