When the world around you feels so surreal
And you can't tell what's fake or for real
So you work your way through, trying to discover
And your memory's lost, so you're trying to recover
Feeling as if all the pages have flown
And wishing if only the world was clear and you'd known
But your brain is filled with plain morning dew
And is leaving you empty as the chilled wind blew
reality?You want me to savereality?5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The person you all see;
I'm dying to save
The girl I'll never be.
Broken.Broken.5 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I put up with all your shit.
So why cant you out up with mine?
After everything you'v done that hurt me
I stayed cool. i stayed with you.
I tried not to cry.
You cant always tell what I'm hiding inside.
I know i act like i don't give a care
But i do.
I don't like to let it show.
Its killing me inside
My heart is cracked and crying
From everything we've ever done to each other
I just want it to be like it used to
When we were happy and in LOVE.
I don't want to loose you
I cant live without you
Your my addiction
I know i fucked up
But so did you.
I'm sorry for all i ever did.
Please forgive me.
I'm sitting here trying pay attention to class.
But i cant stop thinking about YOU and US.
xoxo, Your Love.
I Like YouI know your name,I Like You5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
First and last,
I know the color of your eyes,
And how they take me aback,
I don't know your favorite flower,
But with it I want to fill your room,
I don't know your favorite movie,
But I hope to see it soon,
If it takes a lifetime to know you,
Let's start today,
Because if today is all we have,
I have only this to say:
I like you.
Die TryingI know it's time for me to move nowDie Trying4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Standing still makes me numb
If I just wait for life to happen
To living hell I'll succumb
There is no place for surrender
This time I can't afford to yield
For once I'd rather die trying
Then hide behind my fear shield
Nobody is going to live life for me
So I've got to mature and grow
Sitting still will keep me ignorant
And I'd rather fail then not know
I've still got much to experience
I'll learn much on this long road
Though sometimes I'm going to stumble
Still I will carry my load
Life is something that I've got to pursue
I'd rather die trying to live
Maybe I won't get there as soon as I'd like
But sitting on my ass I just cannot forgive
The time to move has arrived now
It's time for me to depart
I won't always know where to go next
So I'll just follow my heart
Luck'Luck' is to have met you.Luck3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't know if it's good or bad, just yet.
What I do know, is that I don't want this to end.
'Luck' was finding you.
So far apart, different circumstances...
such different lives.
And to coincide.
'Luck' was giving you a chance.
Because the whole situation was so bizarre,
that I didn't want to risk it.
And realizing it was worth it.
'Luck' was when you saw Me.
The part of me no one had ever noticed before.
'Luck' was when I saw You.
And trusting what I found there.
'Luck' was finding each other.
When everything else indicated
that we would never meet.
A Friend Like YouA Friend Like YouA Friend Like You8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Not many people can do what you do
To listen and care and talk and help
But you're always here,
When I need some of your time
And all I can do is give you these lines
I wish I could give it all back
With a hundred times more
Because it's more than I could ever deserve,
Even more than I asked for
So I thank you with all of my heart,
For keeping that wide, open door
I thought I would never find
A true friend like you
I never thought we'd be this way
I thought it would never last
But it has all stayed together,
The heartache left in the past
This is all that I have
To give you my love in return
Please know how grateful I feel
And just in case we one day grow very far
Just look up, and we might be looking at that same star
GoodbyeShe couldn't believe what he was saying,Goodbye3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
understanding awakening her fears,
her feelings suddenly straying,
from the happy path of recent years.
Dreadful thoughts filled her mind
making her see what he had implied,
there was no relief to be had,
for he was saying goodbye.
He said they couldn't be together
and that hurt somewhere deep inside
She wanted to know the reason,
but he said it'd always been a matter of time.
She wanted to know how,
he'd learned to lie with his heart
and he said that sometimes,
you have to rip it apart.
His eyes were full of silence
something that made her hope,
But his words were loud and clear,
even if his feelings were not.
She couldn't make him stay,
she loved him enough to let go.
She couldn't hate him either,
and God knows how hard she tried,
but no matter how deep they are buried
there are dreams that simply won't die.
And to this day she is still waiting,
against all odds, her heart starts to crack,
aching for the absolute absence
of a love that may nev
There Was A TimeAnother day,There Was A Time7 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
As the clock moves forward,
A precious gift,
A soft caress,
As the clock begins to unwind,
I look forward,
Not knowing what I'll find
And in time I will learn to breathe...
In time I will learn how to believe...
A warning sign,
Don't cross the line
I know if I try a little,
I'll be just fine
So turn the page
A longing sigh,
A kiss good-bye
A feeling lives,
A feeling dies
I want to hide my heart way,
And just cry...
And in time, I will learn to love again...
In time I will learn to live...
There was a time when none of this mattered,
There was a time when differences,
Didn't mean a thing
Now it is time to learn to live,
A fleeting thought,
A war is fought
Sometimes what we want to be,
Is just not
Just for us to share,
You and me
An angry glare,
A thoughtful stare
When I reach for the words,
They are just not there
So I make my life mine,
I'm Sorry MommyPlease don't do itI'm Sorry Mommy4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I promise to be good
Just don't hurt me again
I promise not to talk anymore
Mommy I'm sorry
Please stop showing me the pictures
I know he is gone I miss him too
Stop rubbing him in my face..
Mommy I'm sorry
I love you so much
Please stop hurting me
Can't you see I'm already doing that
Please don't give me the bottle..
I don't wanna drink tonight
I'm so sorry Mommy
Mommy please stop
Why do you do that?
Please leave my body alone..
I thought it was pretty before,,
Why must you keep hurting me with your words?
They make the voices worse
They tell me I'm such a horrible daughter
Mommy I'm sorry
I just wanted to express myself
Please don't punish me any longer
Please don't take away my gateways
Why do you keep hurting me?
I only love you..
Yet you despise me to no end
Mommy I love you..
Please just love me back
MelodyMelody4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The music flows into
And all through my soul
It's provoking emotions
And making me whole
I close my eyes
And I move with the beat
My body is swaying
With the music so sweet
I'm starting to soar
And I'm losing control
It feels so amazing
It awakens my soul
So come take my hand
And give up control
It's a magical world
It inspires us all
That GirlA girl is standing there,That Girl3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
in the middle of the night,
searching for a light,
in a path where everything's dark.
Something else was found,
a feeling, she thought forgotten
the hope of being that girl
who doesn't take no for an answer.
A girl who takes risks,
who laughs for no reason at all,
the one who knows what she wants
and will stop at nothing to get it right.
She had buried that girl, a long time ago.
Real life threatened to drown her,
if she didn't do it first.
And suddenly he shows up,
full of life, and laughs, and love
and reminds her of that girl,
she thought was forever gone.
But now she is a woman,
and a fearless one at that,
he has helped her without knowing
to overcome her fears and doubts.
She liked to have control,
she'd learned to never give in,
trying so hard not to show,
neither laughter nor her tears.
But now she is different,
so much more than before,
now that woman is smiling
for the renewed hope she thought lost.
She got what she deserved...My mind was corrupted by malicious jealousy;She got what she deserved...5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
drowned in regret, and tormented by her ecstasy.
Bitter I was, filled with pure anguish and hate,
disgusted and tortured by our analogous trait.
Lividness was ripping and wrenching at my soul;
abhorrent at the horde of lies she'd told to make you whole.
Brutally suffering in agony and despair,
I viciously sliced with envy, knowing regret he and I would share.
How mistaken and selfish I was to utilise myself,
thinking my grief was damage to him, and not anyone else.
Anxiety and tears filled the eyes of those so dear,
but they never tried to stop the pain, even though it was my fear.
I locked myself away, and just stared at my reflection;
scowling at my evident mistake, and every imperfection.
What was done was done; I couldn't change it if I wanted to.
I could only forget my years of heartache, and somehow start anew.
I thought the name written in my scars would always remain;
reminding me of my misery, and the help I
A SmileI'm waiting terrified for the last decision,A Smile3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You gently touch the knife,
My heart is pounding, waiting for the lethal incision,
I almost see the blade shedding the liquid of life,
I hear myself choking with my own blood,
The sound of the knife rending my flesh - a deafening thud.
But your hand goes further; over the axe it leans,
Shining ruthless under your fingers,
I'm about to die, by all means,
A sick suspense lingers,
I almost hear the sound of my breaking bones,
The gushing blood, the moans,
But no; your hand, well, further it goes.
"A gun? "
With it easily it will be done,
Infix the cold metal and let me bleed to death,
"Will it be fun? "
Just imagine the blood outflow until the last breath,
"Or a hammer? "
My body you could simply mash,
But you'll need to endure the blood splash,
That will stain your hands and face.
But instead that, your fingers, they retrace.
"The most lethal weapon isn't any of these",
You say stepping back, as my heart is starting to appease,
"It would be to
Feelings InsideYet again you feel it within yourself,Feelings Inside3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like a twisting pain, sharp, and
You somewhat enjoy it, the pain, for
It brings color to a dull world that you see.
Is it jealously?
Perhaps, although there is no reasonable
Thought that comes to mind as to why it
It doesn't go away, but when it does,
After much will and forcing out,
You think that you have conquered it,
And if it may ever return again,
It will be easy to rid of and ignore,
However, that never seems to be the case.
DrowningI reach up,Drowning3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But my hand grasps the nothingness
That is around me.
I cry out-
So painful and sorrowful,
But no, no one hears me,
And ones who do
Wouldn't care even the slightest bit.
Surrounded by the horror,
As I am sucked in further,
The life forced out of me,
Like God's hand squeezing my soul
From my body, and I gasp-
And drown soundlessly,
There's Always a Little...There's always a little TruthThere's Always a Little...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Behind, "Just Kidding",
Look at them over there, glancing at where you are sitting.
There's always a little Pain
Behind, "I'm Fine",
How can you not see me crying inside, are you that blind?
There's always a little Knowledge
Behind, "I don't know",
Why do you always talk of this intelligence that you do not show?
There's always a little Emotion
Behind, "I don't care",
Why is the whole world so quiet, why is it our emotions we cannot share?
There's always a little Something
Behind all in the world that is big,
Don't act too thin, or you'll just snap like a twig.
Breathe AgainAnd you swim to the surface,Breathe Again3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hands mounted on outstretched arms
And breaking the slickest of barriers,
Then a burst of God's ingredient to life
Trembles down around you in a curtain of realization.
Your lungs implode just before water
Floods your system, and carbon dioxide is released
Gently into the precious air your lungs so badly
A breath and rejuvenation of the mind, soul,
And your very body itself.
LifeLife;Life3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What is it?
Really, does anyone know its true purpose?
Some claim they may,
Some claim they know all.
Those who do, they are simply fools.
Rain gathering on city concrete,
Love blossoming year round,
Yet wilting all the same.
Emotions, life, all the same.
Thoughts gathered carefully and
Survival of the fittest, back stabbing
And betrayal, not my way.
But isn't that it?
The way we see it?
People are going to have different opinions,
So let them think what they do.
People are going to hate you,
So deal them some love.
People are going to give you a hard time,
So show them you can take a few punches.
It'll throw some problems at you, definetly not easy,
But life isn't easy, it isn't fair,
Never was, never will be.
That's life, my friends.
So live to the fullest, and live it right.
You only live once.
.:Her Soul Will Never Know True Happiness:.She was born, cursed to misery.:Her Soul Will Never Know True Happiness:.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
For from misery she was born
Brought up into poverty
And to poverty she is sworn
A life of labor is her fate
And nothing in return
No matter how long she decides to wait
Not a penny she will earn
And every lover that she'll ever know
Will never truly love her
And every heartbreak she'll have to undergo.
Will have been something she tried to deter.
For she was born, cursed to misery
For from misery she was born
And everyday will pass by bitterly
And she'll be left forlorn.
InsideIs this really whats inside me?Inside3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My heart I once thought was so full
Of love and imagination,
But once my greatest love seems to be manifested
Into the world...
It seems its only a dull thought masked by
The false assumption of great concept,
Not that it is,
Or is it? No way to prove it seems now.