Bits of Nothing 61On paper you're perfect.Bits of Nothing 612 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Isn't it a shame the world isn't made of origami?
TerrorYou canTerror2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Bits of Nothing 145When I feel alone I like to think about the people who mean something to meBits of Nothing 1452 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
like my mum and my dad
and that man whose only role in my life
is to be the person that I walk past every morning at twenty to six
and I imagine we both wonder where each other are going
(sometimes when he's not there I worry about him)
and sometimes at night I walk down the middle of the road
to see if a car will hit me and it never has yet
but I don't think I'll do that anymore
because I'm going to learn to drive soon and I can't stop imagining
how I'd feel if I was the person in the car.
When I was thirteen I used to stand on the tips of my toes
Bits of NothingI don't remember what I was going to write but I know that it was succinct and beautiful and it summed up exactly how I feel with the necessary number of words and it wasn't fanciful or over the top or pretentious and now, dream-like, it's gone and I'll never be able to find it again.Bits of Nothing3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Instead, all I have is this and it's everything I didn't want it to be.
Bits of Nothing 85I honestly can't remember ever having a week as happy as the one I've just hadBits of Nothing 852 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and you didn't start being in my life again until the seventh day.
I've come to a very important realisation:
I don't need you
I want you
and there is a beautiful and comforting difference between those two statements.
Bits of Nothing 95Last year was about holding onto things so hard that they started to break.Bits of Nothing 952 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This year is about learning that everything doesn't fall apart around me if I let go.
Still Not Ready to Give ThingsSome people fall in love at a finger-clickStill Not Ready to Give Things2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and their hearts matter
but some people don't
and I can't help thinking their hearts matter a little bit more.
Bits of Nothing 97You said that leaving me wasBits of Nothing 972 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
one of the biggest mistakes of your life
and that means a lot because
you've done some really stupid things.
Anon.It scares me how well I get on with you.Anon.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hope you're ok.
I'm really genuinely looking forward to seeing you in January.
I think I'm making myself miserable for the sake of it,
and I'm sorry that I feel as if you're the person I need to tell this to.
It scares me how you know something's wrong, just from my syntax,
and how you're always interested in what I have to say, even if it's not interesting,
and how you care too much, especially when nothing's wrong.
I wish that you didn't, because it makes things really complicated.
I hope you're ok and not starving and something close to happy.
I think you're a really, really good per
Note to SelfPeople aren't always either in a relationship or looking for love.Note to Self2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Some people never find love.
Some never even look for it.
Maybe this is obvious.
Maybe I'm just being an idiot.
(I envy the ones that don't look but find it anyway.)
I Will Not Tell LiesAfter the fifth beerI Will Not Tell Lies5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
she would always
start to speak truths
and they said,
'You shouldn't drink beer,'
but they meant
'You shouldn't speak truths,'
and they would watch her slowly refill her glass.
Counting ScarsI think the reason you think that you didn't do anything wrong is because you didn't.Counting Scars6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
You just broke my heart a little bit, each day.
There was no big scandal,
no dramatic break up.
Just a lot of misunderstandings
and blind, blind stabs in the dark.
I know you think that you didn't do anything wrong;
The trouble is, you didn't do anything right either.
Bits of Nothing 157I tried to write a poem about mountains but when I looked at the page all I could see was 'you' crossed out seventeen timesBits of Nothing 1572 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and a jumble of nonsense that pretended to be about trees and flowers.
Bits of Nothing 45Shit. This is real isn't it?Bits of Nothing 452 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Bits of Nothing 88Usually when I think someone's lovelyBits of Nothing 882 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I get to know them better and
I still think they're lovely but
I realise they're only human.
The more I get to know you the more heartbreakingly beautiful I think your mind is.
Bits of Nothing 7I fell asleep crying on your floor last night and you didn't notice because you were fast asleep.Bits of Nothing 73 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I only came here because you said I wouldn't dare go home alone and you knew it would work
because you know that is what I fear the most.
If anything was going to convince me of the existance of god then it would be the existance of you.
Maybe, just maybe, you were made in his/her/its image
and somehow they managed to fuck up just a little bit when they made everybody else.
Bits of Nothing 3I feel sick but I don't know whether it's the alcohol or just butterflies because I can't believe I've woken up with you again.Bits of Nothing 33 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Bits of Nothing 158You told me you loved me onceBits of Nothing 1582 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but didn't remember saying it
because you were high on anti-depressants
and somebody else's perfume
but I remember
carrying you when you couldn't carry yourself
and holding him when I couldn't hold you.
Later I asked if you would have done what you did
if I hadn't done it first.
I think it was the most honest thing you ever said to me when you answered
"I don't know."
You invited me to her room afterwards.
I don't know if it was some kind of perverted humour
(you wanted us to be friends)
but I couldn't stay long
(did I ever tell you I'm allergic to perfume?)
Bruises are like magnets
Bits of Nothing 49I'm heartbrokenBits of Nothing 492 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
or just broken.
I haven't decided which yet,
but just you wait till I'm fixed.
ISLNDSyou like the wayISLNDS11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
the i slants,
in a sea
in cropped crests
made to full-
in lost chests.
now a motive
and proceed greedily,
the leap's froth;
breath is only
as sweet as the
speech that breeds thought.
Bits of Nothing 160Last night I was afraid of the darkBits of Nothing 1602 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
so I looked at the stars and thought of you.
but I kept falling off the pavement
because I wasn't looking where I was going.