Warning SignsWarning Signs
Sadness and crying
Changes in appetites
For no reason at all
Suicide, death, thinking about
Taking high risks
GoneA locked doorGone4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
An old razor
Clothes stained with red,
A folded note upon the floor
And a girl who lays there dead
A young life cut short by grief,
A loss too big to believe,
Everyone's lives begin to unfurl,
She was moms perfect angel
And daddy's little girl
Why?Why do I feel this way?Why?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like I'm sitting on the peak.
It's all going,
My life isn't going anywere.
I'm always going to be,
My Invisible HeartI gave you my heart,My Invisible Heart4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But you never gave me yours.
I placed my heart in your hands,
And you dropped it.
It killed me on the inside,
But I wear my mask to protect myself.
I kneeled next to my heart,
My best friend gave me a needle and thread.
I sat for hours fixing what you broke.
I finally finish fixing my heart.
When my best friend tells me,
She is going out with you...
My invisible heart broke again and again...
BrokenHow am I supposed to tell you thatBroken4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With your trust in me intact and your heart wide open
It would kill me to tell you
You think I'm so strong
But I've been messed up for so long
And it would be wrong,right?
To let you keep believing in me?
While all the while I'm deceiving you
It would hurt me
It would hurt you,too
Because how can a broken person protect you?
But I have to
Keeping you alive is what stops me from wanting to die
And if it crushes me to see you cry,how would you feel if I cried?
You'd comfort me,I know
But you'd lose that innocence
That I've worked so hard to protect
You're going to find out someday and when you do,
What happens next?
You'll still love me but it won't be the same
And the way you love me now is what keeps me sane
Don't dare tell you I'm broken
ComprehensionPain laces my heart like silk.Comprehension4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It is soft and cool, and chills me to the core.
I used to dream. Back then I had hope.
I can't dream now. I finally understand.
Too long. It's taken me too many months to comprehend it.
I shiver, goosebumps croping up on my arms, though the sun beats warm against my neck.
I should've already known. I was being a stupid little girl again.
Why did no one tell me?
Or did they and I was just too caught up to see?
All my dreams are broken.
All my hopes... Shattered like glass....
There will be no "I've changed my mind."
There will never be a "Stay with me. Forever."
There will never be any promise of return.
I finally understand.
I had hope, once upon a time.
But that now seems a long time ago...
Time After TimeTime after time I hear those same wordsTime After Time4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"I'll never leave you"
"We'll always be friends"
"I won't ever hurt you"
But they're all lies
Time after time
Time after time I feel those same emotions
But they all fade
Time after time
Time after time I think those same thoguhts
"I love you"
"You're perfect for me"
But they all die
Time after time
Time after time
I hear those same words
I feel those same emotions
I think those same thought
But time after time
And time after time
I'm left more broken inside
I Get Mad."I get mad." she saysI Get Mad.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But her room is perfect
And her parents tell
Of a sweet-tempered angel
"But when I get mad...I don't smash things. Or yell."
She rolls up her sleeves.
Soft, porcelain skin
Marred with red, ragged lines
"Only sometimes.." she whispers
But it seems too much
To be nothing
Like she claims
I Want...I want it to,I Want...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't want to,
I'm done with my,
So just give me the,
I won't take any,
I just want to,
There is no more to be,
Because now I'm,
My EyesWhen I look in myMy Eyes4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I see beauty that
no one else sees.
I see pain that
no one else feels.
Hides my soul.
Inside I am beautiful,
out I am,
I can't force you to see,
the beauty in me.
For I myself,
have trouble seeing the,
Five SecondsI stare out the windowFive Seconds4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
as the clock ticks.
I don't see the trees,
instead I see ugly little me.
I can't get it out of my head.
No one really understands.
Why do I feel like this?
I grip the desk,
as I hold back the tears.
No more. God Please. No More Tears.
I think about,
My heat slows,
but my eyes still swell.
I look around but,
no one sees.
Oh no, they don't
see the pain in me.
The tears dance down my face.
I just want to get out of this,
GoodbyeI wish this wasn't happening now,Goodbye4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wish you would learn already,
That i will not bow.
Too many times have I gone under your embrace,
have I not seen past your grace.
I didn't know you like I thought I did,
everything bad you had,
I need some support,
You did too,
But then she came,
Right out of the blue.
One year later you knelt on your knee,
And just like that,
Why Murder?some murder because of loveWhy Murder?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
some murder because they have to
some murder because their nature
and some.... they just murder for the FUN!
Gray-Scale ClownI see you breathing in there,Gray-Scale Clown4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You, hiding within your shell,
Crying the poet a song.
Hope's the jack-in-the-box,
Coming out when the melody ends,
There's just a hand of disbelief,
Pushing it back down,
As soon as it is released,
And it all becomes black.
So, check the forecast for today,
Sub-zero clouds dominate,
Overwhelming cuts bringing pain,
And the light fades slowly...
Why does it dim away?
Feel the cold creeping in?
I'm an honest clown,
Colored in gray-scale,
Jokes I've got plenty,
Laughs are my pay,
Dark humor my power,
In this black world,
Your feelings may get hurt,
My indifference allows me to survive,
So sorry if daggers escape my mouth.
Is this your deep illusion?
Just a forest of lies.
A matter of perception,
The breeding of despair,
They despise you...
'Tis such a revelation,
To have no adoration,
Burn it down in self-induced altercations.
Find the light,
Cure the wounds,
It's all within faith.
Because who am I,
To deny you a decent
Guardian Angel...A daily basis,Guardian Angel...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I traveled down familiar streets.
- Screaming out in silent,
- - hollow roads.
Hurry, HURRY..., I have no time to waste!
Holding, your sister,
your step father, or mother?
- A guardian angel of steel, I made haste!
Hold on, HOLD on, PLEASE! I am your lifeline.
I don't want to hear,
another long beep!
- To many went silent,
- - when I cried, speedily to sanctuary.
Stay within me..., STAY HERE!
to alarm pedestrians.
- A hope,
- - of red and white, to reach,
- your final destination.
Bless you, I saved - another - but..., I am off again!
Right From WrongGot a conscience like a cannonRight From Wrong4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But a heart set in stone
Its disgusting what we do
Just to never be alone
I'm sorryI'm so sorryI'm sorry4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
For making you all worry
I'm so sorry
For being so demanding
I'm so sorry
For making myself suffer
But I'm not sorry
That I'm still alive
Yeah I want to live
I don't want to give up
But sometimes it's
To freaking hard for me
Friends?More like AquaintancesThey don't understand how it feels to be encased in a dark coffin of panic.Friends?More like Aquaintances4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
They're supposed to be my best friends,but how can we be close if they don't know how awful it is when your gut,then your entire body clenches inside,and you need to clench on the outside,too.
So you grab onto your arms,gouge half-moon shapes all over them with your fingernails.
I'm surrounded by friends but I'm alone because none of them have ever been where I am.
None of them could ever comprehend.
Cut Open: chapter sevenCut Open: chapter seven4 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Everything was black once again. No light, and no life. The white glow that was coming off of Jenna, was gone. I was alone, and scared. I took a deep, shaky breath and held it. I held it for as long as I could, then let it out. What was I suppose to do now? I didn't know, so I stood there, waiting for something to happen. But what?
Hands grasped my shoulders tightly and started to shake me rapidly. i couldn't see anything, just blackness. The hands clenched tighter and tighter on my shoulders, and they started to shake my even more rapidly than before. Voices started to travel around my head in circles. But where were they coming from. I didn't care, just make them stop. The shaking kept getting more and more fierce, and the voices started to get even louder and clearer. The voices were calling my name, but everything was still black.
"Alex!" The voice screamed, "Alex, wake up!"
Once last shake, was all it took. In the blink of an eye, everything was white. I fluttered open my eyes and
Ruby TrailsRuby Trails4 years ago in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
The razor that peirces my skin
So riviting, it glistens
I can't help but smile
at the emerging redness
They look like tine ruby trails on my skin
Then the numb feeling kicks in
And i'm hypnotized by these trails
It stings for the first few seconds
But then you feel like
They're supposed to be there
You can't hide them....they'll just smere
I blew on the ruby trails
And the trickled down
like rain drops on a window
Or tears from eyes....