Do Not DisturbYou know, there's nothing more tempting than a closed door.
So, you can imagine what I thought when I was a wee little girl and I first saw that armoire in my Grandmother's home. She lived in the French country-side, and every break in the winter-time, we would spend with her.
My Grand-mère loved to entertain us children with stories of her childhood, and old French fairy-tales that her Grandma had told her when she was our age. She especially told us about her cabinet. The one she called cachette.
Grand-mère told adventure stories, of love and life and death. The main character of her story was always a red headed girl with almond-shaped eyes that was painfully shy (at this point, my little sister would exclaim that it was me, for I did have red hair and I never spoke more than I needed too). My cousins and I would ask for our personal favorite stories about this little red-haired girl. My favorite was told like this:
The child's family had moved from England to Germa
Being with youIt could be better.Being with you3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe I could be taller or stronger
but you don't care.
I could be handsome and nicer
but you don't care.
You just love what I am.
You just love what I have.
I never thought somebody like you would love me.
I'm that simple, that silly.
I thought I'd be the last you'd look at.
I thought I didn't deserve you dreamed of me like that.
I'm just a crazy lonely man.
Maybe you're crazier, maybe you're blind.
No, my sweetheart, I'm not wrong.
When I say you're the most beautiful,
I don't lie.
I think all of you is perfect.
I think your eyes can see my soul
and your lips can make a poem just calling my name.
Your hair can dance
and your smile can heal my heart.
You already know what I'm gonna say.
You know the colour of my thoughts.
You know my past, you know my goals.
You know my fears.
You know my love, my dreams, my faults.
You paint my life wiht your kisses.
You draw a landscape on my chest
everytime you stroke my feelings,
everytime you touch my cheeks.
You have me in yo
I don't know howI could count eighty seconds in a minuteI don't know how3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
just seeing you
and they were not enough.
I could look into your eyes more than
a mother could look at her children
and it was not enough.
I could write seventy poems about your smile
and they were not enough.
I'm afraid you laugh.
I'm afraid you lie.
I've been waiting for this for long.
I've tried to show you my heart, my dreams, my soul,
I don't know what else to do.
I don't know how to say it.
I don't know what word to use.
But if you don't love me,
I can't do much.
If you don't feel the sun each time I say your name,
then I can do nothing.
If you think I'm just a friend,
then I can't insist.
I really believed you thought of me
everytime I had to go.
I really thought you needed me so much when you cried,
when I stroked your cheeks.
I thought you were my soulmate,
my dream, my girl, my all.
I might say sixty times 'I love you'
and you wouldn't move a finger for me.
I might give you the sky
and you wouldn't fly over my clouds.
A blind loveA pure heartA blind love3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
so far from here
and so close.
A beautiful life
to shine and shine
And I'm without you
but you're with me.
A big sun above my head
and my eyes can't see.
Let me imagine the shape of your cheeks.
Let me imagine the colour of your teeth.
Show me how I can live in a world without rainbow.
Teach me how to love something I don't know.
Just my hands stroking your forehead
and my fingers touching your lips can tell me about you.
Your hair is so soft,
it feels like the water of the sea kissing my legs.
There is no day or night to me,
Everything is just ...grey?
Only the sound of your voice
calms down my anxiety to see you,
my anxiety to live.
Your hands on my face tells me how pretty you are.
Your body warming my heart says how much you love this blind man.
Your eyes...your eyes, I can't talk about them
But I guess they're just wonderful
like a kind of Heaven waiting for me.
If my soul knew what is red or blue
I'd paint you in each centimeter of my skin.
If your tears had a colour
Breaking upSo unfair, you say.Breaking up3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And it seems I don't love you as you want.
You're there looking at me with eyes of Heaven
And I'm so cold like Dante's Hell,
like the soul of a man that loved so much
but never trusted again.
So unfair, you say.
And my lips don't taste as yours.
My kisses are salted like a rock,
like my sweat, like my thoughts.
And you want me to love you.
And you want me to feel.
And you want me to be...
yours... and it's hard.
It's hard to be as you dreamed of me.
It's hard to love without heart.
It's hard to live as I'm not.
It's hard, just hard.
No, please, don't cry!
Don't cry, my love!
Don't say I'm mean.
Don't say I'm cruel.
Don't say I lied.
Don't say you'll die
if I leave you,
if I stop calling you "my life",
if I see you for last time,
if I go and you're not there,
if a 'bye'
is the worst word I can say.
I'll understand if you don't want to hug me.
I'll understand if you don't want to take my hand.
I'll understand everything you do
'cause you know that you lost me.
When an Angel lovesI don't wanna lose youWhen an Angel loves3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but sometimes u seem that far.
I'd like to strecth my arm
and touch the tip of ur fingers
but there is a big wall of glass between us.
I could find another girl
but nobody will be like you,
nobody that sweet,
nobody that kind,
nobody that funny,
nobody that cute,
nobody that smart.
If I only could have you just once
to know how much we love.
If I only could melt in front of your eyes.
If I only could smile seeing ur lips moving
saying my name.
If I only could whisper "I'm yours".
Even I'd be yours if you're not mine
but it seems that an angel can never love.
It seems nobody can destroy this wall
between you and me.
They say if an angel kiss a woman he'd die.
But for a kiss of yours I'd do it,
just for feeling your fingers stroking my hair,
just for feeling ur head resting on my chest,
just for feeling your weak body in my arms.
I'd quit to my life for you
and thousand times more
Ugly boy in loveI forgot you don't love me.Ugly boy in love3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I forgot all of this dream was only mine.
I forgot you're in the top.
I forgot I'm on the floor.
I forgot who I am.
I'm the ugly boy of the class.
I'm the fatty one.
I'm the loser.
I'm the nerd.
I'm that one that nobody wants in the group.
I'm that silly boy that never learned to stop falling in love.
I'm that boy that always thought a smile of you would mean more than friendship.
I'm that soul that cries in the silence of the night.
I'm that heart that writes your name in a paper
each time your face appears in my mind.
I'm the man that only can kiss your lips on a pic.
I'm that guy that strokes your cheeks on my pillow.
And I dream of you.
Everything is perfect there.
I'm that good looking man you want.
You hold my hand
and it's not me whom looks at you,
it's you whom looks at me.
And I don't need words to say "I love you"
'cause my eyes sing it.
And I think of you.
God knows how much I think of you.
Maybe you just think of me for mistake.
Maybe you just do
I Get Mad."I get mad." she saysI Get Mad.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But her room is perfect
And her parents tell
Of a sweet-tempered angel
"But when I get mad...I don't smash things. Or yell."
She rolls up her sleeves.
Soft, porcelain skin
Marred with red, ragged lines
"Only sometimes.." she whispers
But it seems too much
To be nothing
Like she claims
It Almost Feels like CheatingRight now,It Almost Feels like Cheating3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't care who's arms I'm in.
They're all the |s|a|m|e|;
Just shells of people with names that don't matter;
None of them are you
I wish I was better then this,
That I wasn't some whore seeking some attention just so she's not so
a l o n e
But baby, what can I do?
You're gone & there's nowhere for me to go;
I've lost my direction, darling.
I wish I could be strong;
& not just sit here and try to lock away
Painful, S-U-F-F-O-C-A-T-I-N-G memories,
Memories that used to make m
Dying slowly.Why?Dying slowly.4 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
One minute we were laughing.
On our first date,
You gave me butterflies,
Our first kiss
Sticks in my mind,
Reminding me of how we once were
Not a care for anything,
Eyes only for each other.
Laying in the park
My eyes watering half from
The smell of fresh grass
Half from laughing at your jokes...
Now my eyes water
But not from grass or jokes
We are not who we once were-
Something has changed.
Innocence is lost,
And we're to blame.
We fight and argue-
Only to make up again.
But each time we do
It's like we leave part of us
We still say we're in love,
But maybe we've forgotten
What love is.
The important question is:
Do we want to remember?
You're my melodyDance with me!You're my melody3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The piano starts to sing.
Flowers falling down from the sky.
Hold my hands!
Look at the birds,
they dance too,
they cover your dress with leaves,
they kept them for you.
The butterflies made a crown for you
with each colour of the rainbow.
The bunnies untie your braids.
Your hair looks like a hill talking to the sun.
Then I take water from the river
to paint your eyes
and put a rose on my brush to paint your lips.
The clouds help me to colour your face
and the sunset kiss your cheeks.
The song tells about your dreams,
each note is new
and my heart loves your song
'cause this melody is you
and there are no black keys on my piano
'cause I'm your keys
and only your fingers can play me
when you love me
when you live
when you exist.
The Stopping of TimeTimeThe Stopping of Time3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
For no one
Red and salt, but not from the same area
This can either be sex
Red welts rising on the skin
From the water
-ing on skin
Red splotches covering the skin
From the scrubbing
"You've been so quiet lately."
"Are you alright?"
"Your grades are dropping."
"You know you can talk to me about anything, right?"
"What happened to your boyfriend?"
They don't try to talk anymore
Everyone is gone
No point in them staying
No use in them pretending
No one likes a whore
You chose sex. So it wasn't rape.
So you wanted it.
And the nightmare continues
Oh, god, the nightmares
You're always running-
But you can never escape the MoNsTeR
Breathe.One. Two. Three. Four. Five.Breathe.3 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
Inhale. Hold your breath. Exhale.
One. Two. Three. Four. Five.
Inhale. Hold your breath. Exhale. Eyes focused on his chest.
One. Two. Three. Four. Five. Hands crossed as if you were praying.
Inhale. Hold your breath. Pinch his nose. Lock lips. Exhale.
One. Two. Three. Four. Five. "Don't give up on me now!" Dizzy feeling.
Inhale. A tear falls. Hold your breath. Muffled cry. Exhale.
One. Two. Three. Four. Five. Shoulders in agony."Please! Breathe!"
i promisei know i'm different. i know i mess up. i know i'm a bit of a fuck up. i know my opinions stand a bit stronger than others. i know i can be highly confusing.i promise3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
but one thing i know for sure beyond anything else is that i love you.
you, my dear sweet emily, who means the world to me. i made promises to you that i plan to keep. you don't deserve anymore pain. you don't deserve to feel broken anymore. i want you. i need you.
you are my angel, my sunshine, my sweetness...all i want is you. i want to be able to repair your heart and erase your scars. i will be there for you as soon as i can be, i promise. i am proud to be yours and be in love with you. i hope someday soon i can hold you for real while we watch our childhood favorites giving each other popcorn and sneaking kisses. i want to meet all our friends and let them get to know me and hopefully like me. i want to hear you sing, to me and only me...we just need to keep being patient.
i just want you to know you are the best thing that's
Unknown LoveWhere are you?Unknown Love3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Night and day trying to find,
trying to see,
trying to say.
I've drawn you a lot of times,
but you're not on my drawings.
I've painted you wasting my eyes,
but I can't get the colours of your feelings.
Tell me what I have to do to know you,
to get a bit of ur love,
to get more than a dream,
to get your nose rubbing my cheeks,
to get your hands
drawing your name on my lips,
to get ur fingers giving shape to my face,
stroking my loneliness,
stroking my fears.
Paint a star on my forehead,
the sun on my chest,
the sky on my eyes
and wings on my arms.
Let me fly with you
where you live.
Show me the world.
Show me the wind.
Show me your soul.
Show who I am.
Show who you are.
They told me I'd find you,
but it seems too far.
It seems I've lost my voice
and you can't hear,
It seems I've done all that I could
and you never existed
and you'll never exist.
But I still have a hope.
If you're there, my unknown love,
You have here a poor heart,
you have here a lil song,
you have here a
The Hollow CityI've got this feeling like I want to dance in falling ash. I want to revel in the rotting softness of it against my skin, in the morbid beauty of death. I want to lie down and make an angel in the remains of a once great city. I want to be alone in the ruins. I want to run through abandoned streets I own because no one else will have them. I want a broken place to hang my head and hide a smile because I know, eventually, the whole world will come to this.The Hollow City3 years ago in Philosophical More Like This
Out of Sight"out of sight but not out of mind"Out of Sight3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
we can hide the cuts and scars
but we will still think about them
we can hide the razor
but we will know it's still there
we can hide the cigarettes
but they will come back sooner or later
we can hide the anger
but eventually we will explode
we can hide the sadness
but soon the masks will break
we can hide all the problems in our lives
but someone will eventually find out
we can always try to hide things
but they will never truly be gone
Untold wordsThere was always this feeling that was holding me back.Untold words3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Everytime I tried to get over you, I could never do it. I just couldn't forget everything. It just kept on coming back. It hurts me very much.
I try and seal those emotions away, deep in my heart.
Maybe... maybe I just had the feeling that we could build it together again. We could relive all those memories. The good ones.. even the bad ones... b-but.. it'd make me the happiest girl if we could just erase all those bad memories and replace them with new and happier ones. I know that's unlikely though.
I don't even know why I feel this way. Maybe because you were so caring, loving and awesome...? Maybe because you were the first person to ever tell me "I LIKE YOU"?
--Even now. I still think there's hope. Hope for us to get back together...It's been over a year now, yes?
I want to rebuild such a connection. Even if you're moving schools... I still want to make one again.
I miss hearing your voice...
I miss staring straight in
Not yetYou cant go. Not yet...I still have everything in that broken drawer in my dresser.Not yet3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You cant leave. Not yet...I still remember your breath on my neck. I still remember the warmth I felt in your arms. I still remember you.
You can't say goodbye. Not yet...I'm still in love with you. I'm still sad when your not around. I'm still just stupid me.
You can't hang up. Not yet...I don't want to never hear your voice again. I cant not hear it in the back of my head.
You can't say you don't know. Not anymore...because I'm not over you...Not yet.
Greater ExpectationsLove...Greater Expectations3 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
This doesn't feel the way I was told it would feel.
There's nothing effortless about it:
Love requires work.
There are no romantic words said in public:
Love doesn't need words.
There's no fluttering of my heart when you're near:
It instead falls into rhythm with yours.
There's none of that "I'd die for you" nonsense:
You already know I wouldn't let you.
But you know what?
I think I rather like this kind of Love,
If that's what this is.
I want to make an effort for you.
I want to love you privately, not for the benefit of others.
I want to feel secure around you.
I want you to live for me
Not die for me.
Who wants that?!
People making each others hearts flutter
And people dying for one another
Are putting their health at risk anyway.
i hate myselffor breaking your hearti hate myself3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
losing your trust
causing so many tears
i don't deserve you
i don't deserve anything
maybe i should stop trying
I'm Not the SameI used to laugh openly,I'm Not the Same3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I used to cry in someone's arms,
I used to smile at jokes,
I used to love people,
I used to care,
I used to be human,
But I'm not the same as I was, then.
When the moon fell downI'm the sun,When the moon fell down2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
so strong and powerful,
ready to give life,
ready to speak,
ready to call,
ready to sing,
ready to love.
I'm the sun in love wiht the moon.
The glorious, magnanimous,
My rays can touch your face, my dear,
but it seems you need more.
My arms can hug you,
but it seems you need more.
My lips can burn your breasts,
but it seems you need more.
I thought I had you.
I thought you liked my beauty.
I thought we'd meet in the morning.
I thought you needed me.
I thought you felt me.
I thought you cried for me.
I thought I was yours.
I thought you believed me.
Now your voice stopped saying my name.
Now your hands can't stroke my hair when I sleep.
Your heart is far,so far from me.
And I'm far from you,
but I never left,
I never quit.
I never put my heart in other hands
'cause you were my life,
You were my soul, you were my eyes,
a lovely dream,
You meant everything to me,
each day, each night,
each word I say was so true.
Self you need to seeHeartSelf you need to see3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want you to stop
I want you to stop hurting
yes I know you are broken by her
That she told you she loved you
But she doesn't
She loves her now
I know you are missing a part of you
She just hasn't quite returned it yet
you need to stop
Look away from her
Yes I know she is beautiful beyond belief
That she still makes that poor heart skip a beat
I know you can't stand to see
Her kissing her
The way she kissed me
I wish you would have told me to stop
That it was a bad idea
To fall in love
Because you keep me in constant replay
Of every memory we once shared
Control it all
Because right now I am weak
I need you to be strong
control my face so she can't see
That she has caused me so much misery
It will be okay
I promises we are better then this
Love will find us again
Until then just take it day by day
to say i love youonce upon an empty worldto say i love you3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you existed and i set my eye on you
because you glowed with a magic
renounced to all in
brown-eyed, sleek-haired glory
i loved you.
i loved you for your uncanny ability to
charm an audience with your
wayward smiles like fleeting glances
and your spark of candle light alone
in darkened chambers
drew me irresistibly to the warmth of your glow
i waited, for what else was there to do
when you could stop my heart
in its beaten rocky tracks
and work a magic over crumbled promises
split down the middle and returned
i languished in the agony of your beauty
and a softness you withheld from me
or i was yet too cowardly to reach out and
caress for myself
so you lost yourself in my
unsaid words and i waited
for your hunger to leap aside
i lusted after lowercase feelings of despair
despite your untapped warnings
of a love dangled before my
red-rimmed eyes on rose bush thorns
like the petals of blood red and inky black
i placed o