FreeI am finally
In my abilities
You can no longer hurt me
With disgusted expressions and
Eyebrows raised sardonically
If you don't believe in me
It matters not
I believe in myself enough for both of us
And I won't be brought down by your vicious plot
To destroy me with "constructive criticism"
With smirks and words of cynicism
For years you held me on a leash
But now,out of me comes a wild beast
And from you,my best friend,I am released
My 'Imaginary' Friends"They're not real.They're just figments of your imagination."My 'Imaginary' Friends4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"Yes,I know." They're real.More than you are.
"If they were real,wouldn't I be able to hear them when they speak to you?"
"Of course.But their voices are in my head." Maybe they just don't like you.
"And wouldn't I be able to see them?"
"Yes...you would." They only show themselves to me.They love me,not you.
"So you won't listen next time they tell you to do bad things?"
"No.I promise." They aren't bad.You're bad.Just leave me alone.They're real,and they love me more than you people ever will.Maybe you're the imaginary friends,not them.
I'm LyingI say I'm ok but inside I'm dyingI'm Lying4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Blame allergies but really I'm crying
Tell you nothing's wrong
Smile like I'm happy
I'm really just faking
Behind this facade my heart is breaking
Maybe for a second you'll worry
I'll say I'm fine,everyone's favorite line
Then I must leave as my vision goes blurry
The sorrow begins anew
But I would
not want to bother you
I'll be right back,don't worry all's good
Everybody surrounds me,and it's so sick
They are vying
For my attention
Because it seems my life is perfect
The price of perfection-not worth it
I'll say I'm alright,I'm lying
Murder Can Be FunDon't worry,dearMurder Can Be Fun4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'll just cut off your head
It won't hurt too much
And then you'll be dead
Calm down,my love,don't be afraid
I'll just kill you now with this knife's wicked blade
What could be scary about that?
Your blood will trickle in thin streams
From you,a few slightly pained screams
Then silence will descend
The blood will start gushing
And for you,it's the end
Beautifully BrokenWith not a tear in her eye,Beautifully Broken4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because she's cried herself dry
She whispers weakly,
"Why do so many people always hurt me?"
Through pale pink lips that endured each vile kiss,
She says "I'm tired of all of this."
Pleadingly,she shows her scars for all the world to see,
Begging,broken,crying out,"Someone please help me."
Fading...Am I still here?Fading4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sometimes I'm all alone and I fear
That at some point I disappeared
And just haven't realized it yet
Am I gone?
Do I exist?
Is being dead the same as this?
With no one to acknowledge that I'm real
I slowly,surely start to feel
Like an inanimate object might feel
Am I still here?
ForgottenI am the voice for the muteForgotten4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And the eyes for the blind
I am the fighter for the weak
And the protest for the meek
I'm the ears for the deaf,
The hope where none is left
And the love where it's been long forgotten
The Martyr"I'm not cold,"she said as she froze to death.The Martyr4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To the BoyTo the boy who stopped in midsentence,To the Boy4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
At random intervals,just to say "I love you"
Whose eyes lit up when he saw me,as if I really am
As wonderful as he says I am
The boy who stated his thoughts in screams
Who was so much deeper than he seemed
To you,the boy who lacked eloquence
But made up for it in confidence
The boy who once said "I cannot be
Anybody else but me.
And I can't be me
InsomniaPhysically,I could sleep right nowInsomnia4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But the problem is I can't,somehow
Mentally I'm not tired
Just let me sleep
It won't be long until everyone's gone to bed
The voices of sorrow will enter my head
And I just know I'll start to weep
Oh dear God,just let me sleep
InvisibleWas I born invisible?Invisible4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Am I naturally expendable?
There are times I can't help but think of this
It's when I yell repeatedly
And everyone talks over me
When it's obvious I'm crying
I say I'm not and they KNOW I'm lying
But pretending to believe is the easiest way out
I know you see,the silent tears
I know you hear,the screams of fear
I know you wish I wasn't here
So you act as if I'm not
The Nonexistant Love StoryThrough text messages late at nightThe Nonexistant Love Story5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I fell in love with you
Don't say you didn't too
We both know that isn't true
We shared jokes
And we poked
fun at each other
And when you were feeling lonely,you begged me to talk to you
Of course I obliged
What did you expect me to do?
I would give up the world for you
But which world,exactly,would I be willing to give?
Because on planet Earth with its people WE didn't exist
There was no we,just a you and,separately,
No speaking went on
of what happened
I was just another girl,and not one you knew at that
You've made it clear
That no one will ever hear
About you and I,how we traded secrets so dear
It matters not that I loved you so much I cried
Or that for me you would've died
No one can know about us;as far as they know,there isn't an us
Silent TearsMore painful are the silent tearsSilent Tears4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Than the desolate moans
Petty are the pained groans,
And they just seem more so when you're grown
But crying silently
Can often be
For no one comes to comfort me
When I'm alone in the dark and they cannot see
That I didn't get better-I just got better at hiding my sorrow
Better at acting like I don't dread each tomorrow
Can they really not tell how much I'm hurting?
Or are they afraid to admit
That it is most definitely NOT okay
My misery's well hidden but it hasn't gone away
I'll just fake a smile and die inside all the while
It seems sadness is here to stay
The TowerShe looks inside herself and doesn't like what she seesThe Tower4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She looks in the mirror and asks "How long will this be me?"
She's trapped herself in a tower made of self-inflicted scars
Hopelessly,fruitlessly,she looks up at the stars
As she begs and cries out "When will I be free?"
But nobody listens to the girl behind bars
LiarYou said you'd be here forever,Liar4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Swore we'd always be together
But now that I need you,you're never here
You don't notice my silent tears
It's like I'm talking to thin air
You aren't really there
And now it's come true,the worst of my fears
Everyone who says they love me is lying
Mind of a SchizophrenicShe can't go to sleep at nightMind of a Schizophrenic5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She's afraid,full of fright
There are monsters,she says
Mommy and Daddy check in the dark closet
Under the dark bed
Smile and shake their heads
No monsters here
Nothing to fear
You are safe,we promise you
The girl,with tears in her eyes
A helpless sadness seeps in
But Mommy and Daddy don't see
Because Mommy and Daddy aren't there
Even when they're there
She knows it's no good to explain
Or like so many other children,complain
That the monsters aren't in her closet,
Or even under her bed
They reside inside her head
They tell her bad things
Fill her with doubt
She bites her lip to hold in a shout
No one would understand,no one would care
And even if they did,they would not save her
Because who can stop the monsters?
I'm Not CrazyMy feet don't quite reach the ground on this couchI'm Not Crazy4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
They're dangling above the blue carpet,making me feel small
And there's a pretty blond woman wearing red shoes,and she looks like a nice person
Seems like a nice person
But she's trying to define me using inkblots
And she's asking me if I feel scared often
I say no,but I can tell she doesn't believe me
I'm not lying.
I wish she would see
That she's wrong about me
And she's smiling sympathetically,and now I am afraid
Afraid that she's right after all
BloodI drip from your wristsBlood4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I pool on your skin
I burn as I flow
Your blade is my best friend
Setting me free
I deserve that freedom
I make you feel better, don't I?
The anger is red hot
As it desolves into your skin
Why are you so ashamed of me?
Why do you wish you didn't see me?
Just an old friend
Wanting to say hello
Why do you deny me that?
I miss you
Just Keep In Mind...Remember,gay isn't all I am.Just Keep In Mind...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
BrokenHow am I supposed to tell you thatBroken5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With your trust in me intact and your heart wide open
It would kill me to tell you
You think I'm so strong
But I've been messed up for so long
And it would be wrong,right?
To let you keep believing in me?
While all the while I'm deceiving you
It would hurt me
It would hurt you,too
Because how can a broken person protect you?
But I have to
Keeping you alive is what stops me from wanting to die
And if it crushes me to see you cry,how would you feel if I cried?
You'd comfort me,I know
But you'd lose that innocence
That I've worked so hard to protect
You're going to find out someday and when you do,
What happens next?
You'll still love me but it won't be the same
And the way you love me now is what keeps me sane
Don't dare tell you I'm broken
Scream For the Stolen VoicesBlock my ears so I can't hearScream For the Stolen Voices4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Blindfold me so I shed no tears
And keep me in my tower
So the world's pain has no power
Close the curtains so I cannot see
Gag me so I cannot scream
Scream out for the lost innocence
For the lives taken in voilence
For the hate and hurt,all for nothing
Someone scream for the stolen voices
Or will we hide behind closed doors?
We find our bliss in ignorance
Our joy in not listening
But someone has to take the chance
Of screaming for those who can't
Trying To Fix MyselfAge 11:Trying To Fix Myself4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I could just pretend to be
Anybody else but me
They'll like me,and I'll finally feel happy
If I start over somewhere else
Without my reputation in tow
I'll be able to be myself
Everyone will like me,and I'll finally feel happy
If I just hide
Go stay inside
Take classes on my own
I'll be okay and I'll be safe
Locked up all alone,and I'll finally feel happy
If I go back and start again
Maybe I'll meet the perfect friend
Finally all my pain will end
And I'll finally be happy
Will I ever find a way out,or do I just need to up my dosage?
WearyPlease help,I'm too scared to screamWeary4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I'm not as happy as I seem
I don't want to disappoint you,
I know you think I'm cured
And I know,pills made it so easy
But they never really fixed me
Sometimes I feel so empty
It rushes up behind me
So suddenly I want to cry,but the tears won't come
And then the emptiness goes back to where it was from,
To be replaced by sadness,overwhelming
Tears pour down in streams
Please help,I know you can't see
But I need someone to save me
This inner storm has made me so weary
Still CryingI try to write,my hands are shakingStill Crying4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can't tell you,my heart is breaking
And with every smile that I'm faking
With every forced,choking breath I'm taking
I find these acted-out rituals are making
Me feel better,piece by piece
I'm regaining me
My hands still shake and my heart is shattered
My eyes are red and my body's battered
But it's over,I'm not dying anymore
So what am I still crying for?