Paper CranesI chased my dreamsPaper Cranes4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Into a forgotten past,
Across a nightingale floor-
To a cherry blossom room.
Where, in fine gossamer silk
I folded flocks of paper cranes,
And often wrote you Haiku
Of amusement and romance.
Chasing after you like wind
With my wild butterfly heart,
Loving so unconditionally
Even though, - regrettably,
My most beloved dragon;
In this long, lost, lifetime,
You found me far too late.
So, when our paths crossed
You already belonged to another.
Frosted GlassCelebration flutes exploded with bubbles,Frosted Glass4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And twinkling crystal seemed to shatter
Dream-like in slow motion Before wide eyes.
Expressions lit up like the fireworks,
That spilled downward from the night
In sparkling, brief kaleidoscope showers,
That ignited a sense of fragile beauty
That lingered in my mind and imagination;
But failed to warm my frosted glass heart.
WavesTell me;Waves4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Do you remember,
How we watched the waves?
Listening to the soft crashing
Of the ocean and her lullaby,
As she breathed in and then out
With the screams of the grey gulls,
To break those soft sea sighs
The waters were always cerulean.
The age was golden, we naively thought
That we had it all - and I think we did;
Except a shelter from the coming storm
A disaster, that even with all our knowledge
We never could have possibly predicted
Much less have ever prevented.
Those continuous, falling, grains ran out
Of our allotted time in an hourglass past .
Becoming a vast shore - a beach of regrets
To be swallowed up by the high tides,
The ocean just one too many salty tears,
We were drown like the great city.
But I never loosed your hand,
As those tears fell from crystal sockets
Into some now long forgotten memories.
Even as our two souls were left
To sink or to perhaps swim with fickle fate,
And to chase on
Analysis of a break...I was the last person to feel my heart break.Analysis of a break...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In addition, I cannot say it was a sudden cracking,
It began gradually as a slow, strange numbness,
That I observed inching slowly - creeping in.
I watched it - in the fashion of a third person,
With a methodical and near scientific analysis;
Mentally stepping away from the scenario
And becoming just a casual observer.
It was all okay as long as I could think
That it was not happening to me - not really.
A degree of disassociation to the entire matter,
As I finally understood how this all worked;
That I would never be as important in your life,
As I dared hope or think that I might be,
Or as important as you truly were to me in mine.
I was the last person to feel my heart break.
For the brief time we were allotted in unity
I can say a last and conclusive thank you
To end this failed experiment of you and I,
And then I can say goodbye.
ReflectionsFor centuries we lay together;Reflections2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Past upon layered past.
But, fates are cruel in the present,
Cleaving we two apart instead of together.
I look at my own face in polished surfaces--
Hoping to see your eyes reflected somehow in mine,
Maybe you hope to see mine in yours?
As our bodies and hands were once so very close
I think on how our hearts and souls still are;
Still so inexplicably tangled together--
And they always will be.
No matter the distance to overcome.
BetrayalYou gave me scars;Betrayal3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Cuts that run soul deep.
I can never forget you,
Because in absolute truth
I never felt the knife slide in--
But I felt it twist.
Dawn...The daylight is yours.Dawn...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your future is in that sunrise
And its indiscriminate scorch,
Even as it eats and burns away
At my frail rice paper dreams.
Elude and finally escape me--
A prayer to my lost gods;
Please, forgive a fated fool
For so very truly dreaming
Of what was never mine to have?
I can't even repent.
Give me shadows
And dreamless nightfall,
I can't face the dawn
--not any more.
Guilt.The confessions faltered my heart,Guilt.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As you spill them so casually;
They eat into me,
Hollow me out--
Becoming doubts perched upon my shoulders
That evict both the angel and the devil.
An echo of who I remember me being,
I'm a trusting fool
As you change the subject,
And avoid my eyes.
Will I be a future guilt on your list?
Looking into an empty glass; I wonder,
Do I have anything to admit?
I meant every single 'I love you.'
--But I don't think you did.
Strange FateI no longer beckon unheard,Strange Fate4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
For you to come and find me,
And maybe save me from myself.
With every breath,
I fear I diminish
That I somehow
It scares me.
As I accept this strange fate.
As the waking world holds
Fewer and fewer secrets,
And no more mysteries for me to unravel.
(It was never the butler in the library with the revolver)
Dreams and reality blended so very long ago
I have no desire to try untangling them
But a wish for them to fully embrace me
Like an old friend.
That lies somewhere past reach .
When the urge to still live, becomes much less
Than the longing to see what lies beyond,
The solid, grounded, 'supposed reality'.
PomegranateI devour seedy apples--Pomegranate3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A thousand times over;
Tart seeds and sticky fingers
Feasting lips stained red.
Day : 29 The QuietSilence is too loud.Day : 29 The Quiet4 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Spring birdsong or winter storm,
Can't replace your voice.
Cherry BonesYou spat out cherry bones,Cherry Bones4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And kidnapped my breath;
Before freezing the summer
Grasped between finger and thumb.
One such perfect moment--
Then you unravelled me.
Forgetting...One-thousand tears fall;Forgetting...4 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Like raindrops from a blue sky.
Still the world forgets.
ForestryYour frail twig-like frameForestry2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And befuddled mind at peace;
Committed to already hazy memory--
A kindness in the saddening loss
Of another fragment of a generation,
And another branch hewn away
From the living family tree.
DismemberedYou're a butcher.Dismembered4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With your cutting,
And the gristle and bone--
Cutting out hearts
Without mincing your phrases.
Branding any verbal opponent
As gutless and spineless
With such dry, bloodless wit.
Your crimson laugh
Spilling like a slashed throat;
Your favourite cuts of meat--
Always the cold shoulder
And sharp tongue.
InsomniaMakeup bled into watercolour ruinsInsomnia3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As I swim the room eel-like.
How close to you , yet how far
After all this time still so distanced;
Somehow you're a stranger to me now.
Somewhere between dark and dawn
I realize don't want to think any more.
I want mercy-- where the gears of my mind
Stutter and wind down
The restlessness of my pulse to slow
And Morpheus to claim me with his whispers;
Locked in wakefulness I'm a beggar
'Please-- give me good dreams?'
I still can't say it...I've grown.I still can't say it...3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
You no longer haunt me;
I have changed
I accept my face is my own,
You are part of me but I'm not you.
I never have been
And never will be.
Four years on;
I still can't find the words I need
To finally manage to say
Lost...Unfamiliar.Lost...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Among Victorian mausoleums;
Despite the sunshine,
Something inside me
Seems deader than those beneath my feet.
I think I'm lost here--
But I don't expect you to find me.
Patchwork.I feel guilty.Patchwork.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That you're already patchwork.
An abstract being of thought;
Perhaps incorrectly remembered,
Voice, eyes and smile
your seams are all undone.
And no-one to fill in the spaces.
Unless you creep into the gaps
Of future generations,
When finally my mind fades,
So will the last of you.
Don't ask why...The more you have to ask;Don't ask why...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The more I will hide things away.
If you pry and pull and have to ask 'why'
You will never truly understand me--
And will only ever know half my secrets.
I will keep you guessing and searching;
I might lay out all of the keys for you,
But I won't tell you which locks they fit.
If you must look for my love so intently
Then you are not ready to truly have it.
Don't ask why-- just accept it.
Still Travelling...After four hours travellingStill Travelling...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The dream-gods finally claimed me,
Finding me scrunched up
Beneath a black velvet coat.
I moved under oceans
And through time zones,
Arriving a day and three countries later.
But the beat was the same--
Though when I danced
I ignored it.
And followed my heart
Ignoring the first of the cracks
And unable to leave unaltered.
Personal godsIn your own arrogant head,Personal gods4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You lined up your personal gods;
A pantheon you alone created --
Other beings that you could blame,
For every one of your human errors
To keep you from blaming yourself.
I won't be a sacrifice on their alter
And certainly not one on yours.
Missing.Where are you?Missing.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I thought I was beside you…
Or did I dream that intimacy?
When you say ‘I love you’
Your eyes lack the spark I adore
And your words ring hollow
You’re lying to yourself--
Even more than you lie to me.
Your heart talks differently now.
Times have changed.
And deep down so have you…
Let me go.