SleeplessI should very well be asleep by nowSleepless2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But the thoughts that hold my being captive are only of you
Your soft skin
Smelling so sweet
The clothes I still have hidden in my room
Have that same, faint, scent.
I close my eyes and feel your breath on my neck again
Feel you kissing me
Making me feel things my sleeping soul hadn't felt in so long
I feel your soft lips crash into mine
Clumsy in their endeavor to explore
Every part of me.
They took some part of me with them
In that last,
I can't sleep knowing that you're no longer mine
Maybe you were never mine to begin with
Dying By Your AssumptionYour assumptions causes me to shake, to become another,Dying By Your Assumption4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The confused son, friend and swaying brother,
Scars live with shadows; don't turn off the light,
Monsters blur ethics and call it right,
I don't speak much at school,
Confused by each contradicting rule,
Teachers and other students stand in front of me,
Despite this, a source of help I fail to see,
Kicking a football in a distant park,
Alone with my father, not enough of a spark,
I pray to a god I can't believe in,
Wanting him to take a family sin,
I turn away from each policeman,
Strings do more then control each hand,
They influence patterns, something strange,
Love, my parents have to share,
Different methods to ensure I know they are there,
Your assumptions causes me to shake, to become another,
My father didn't rape me, it was my mother.
About a GirlAll I ever did was love you,About a Girl1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
All I ever did was try to see you happy,
All I ever did was care for you,
But you took my sincerity as a lie,
You passed me off as a monster,
Only wanting a cheap fuck,
And being drugged out the rest of the time,
And you know what,
I still yearn for you
I wish to give you my love and my time
You have a hard time feeling safe
You ask what if I hurt you
And I give you a promise that I won’t
You say promises break,
But this one shall not be broken
Believe me when I say,
That all I want is to call you mine,
And to say I love you
Mere DesiresI am sitting in the darkMere Desires2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The one I loved throws my things about the room
She is angered
She packs and yells
She tells me that I am a cheater
I am no cheater
I am merely a pawn to my desires
I see no wrong in my actions
Just being honest to myself
Honest to my urges
It would be wrong to fight them
Wrong to ignore myself
I am sitting in the dark
Illuminated only by the headlights
The one that hates me has gone from here
She is wrong to hinder
I am myself
This is her fault after all
She was not more available
She called me an animal
She asked why I did it
It's just that
We are animals
My instincts drove me to it
Wrong to call me wrong
She was wrong
Learn to live with that
you THEN - NOWI loved you because...you THEN - NOW4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
...you were natural.
...you saw through me.
...you made me feel safe.
...you knew everything & yet you still excepted me.
...you were yourself.
...you change so that you can be "more" likable.
...you can't or won't see through me,not even if i feel hurt.
...you make me feel like i have to be careful for my own sake.
...you still know my past but now you don't know about my present.
...your someone else.
I don't even know if you really mean it anymore when you say you love me.
your changing so much,I'm not even sure your the person I loved so dearly.
could it be it's time to end everything?
He Lied - She BelievedFooling her was so easyHe Lied - She Believed4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
She fell for it so fast
I knew she was so in love
Too bad it wouldn't last
My heart ached when he was close
I felt my heart pick up speed
His love was like a drug
Having him close was my greatest need
I told her she was the only one
That she was the love of my life
And one day I'd buy a ring
And make her my lover and wife
I trusted and believed
I let him hold onto my heart
I knew he would keep it safe
I knew he wouldn't tear it apart
But she didn't know who I was
She didn't know all the other girls I had
Maybe she would never find out
But maybe she'll find out I was actually bad
They told me he was a player
That he'd play with my mind
But I couldn't believe them
He was the one I had once set out to find
I knew how in love she was
I could crush her heart with my bare palm
I didn't reply when she confessed her feelings
I tried to remain calm
I joyously told him he was my world
I'd do anything he'd ask me to do
I held him and cried tears of happiness
But then I did
my storyWhen I look at you all I see is shame. I see myself ,my story4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
classed and judged as the whore the street walker, all because I believed in love,
I look at you and I see mistrust.
and you know what? why does it matter what happened back then?
Today is now and yesterday is gone, I can't change what happened and neither
can you ,with snide looks or whispered disappointment.
Maybe that's why I can't tell you,
I can't ever tell just how I feel
Being with her is the most natural thing in the world,
It feels right and perfect, different from what
I felt for him , better maybe even.
telling you would give you another reason to look on me with disgust
give you another reason to tell people I'm a handful
another reason to say why I'm not good enough.
Being perfect is all you care about and it just isn't
I'm no wonder woman or She-Ra and I wont ever be.
I need you to learn to accept me for me.
I am your daughter, I don't believe, I am bisexual and proud to be me.
For YouWhat is loveFor You4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
but the soft sigh that escapes your lips
What is love
but that in hich is shown of the wind that carasses your face
What can it be
but the way you save me every singleday
What is it
but the brillince of the Earth as it celebrates that you live
Yes, this must be love.
This must be but that which I feel for you.
This happiness that I feel because of you, that must what it truely is.
Oh, how I long for your love.
And, oh, how dear I hold every second spent with you.
But, then again, isn't every second that I live spent with you?
For, surely, you never cease to be in my mind, a sweet, gentle smile upon your face.
So, without a doubt, every second you breath, every second that I continue to live, I celebrate.
For you, I love.
For you, I live.
For you, I smile, laugh.
No entity on this plane can stop my everlasting and eternal love for you.
EscapeEvery day, I die a little more inside;Escape4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My soul, yearning to escape, my emotions, I try to hide.
I only want to shield you; hide you from the pain I feel;
But in reality, it's no use; it's not the best way to deal.
It's not that I don't want you to know, or that I question your trust.
It's just that all my sorrows are becoming way too much.
I don't usually speak my mind or even think things through.
But at the end of every day, I'm thinking about you.
I'm sorry for all the times that I have lied straight to your face,
The truth is, no, I'm not okay, my memories, I'd like to erase.
Maybe one day, I'll be at peace, and share the reason for my sadness.
But until then, I'll let my mind escape into the blackness.
Lie To MeThe banging on my front door awakened me from my heavy sleep. And all I could think was, who the hell is at my door at 11:30 at night?Lie To Me4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I wearily pushed out of the bed and went to my front door, dragging my legs and resisting the urge to dive back in bed, so I could go back to sleep. I unlocked the door and swung it open, ready to curse out the one who woke me up from my needed sleep. But my face instantly softened when I saw her. My baby, my cute girlfriend, my loyal lover.
But she didn't look so happy.
Her hand lashed out and my head jerked to the side at the force of her slap. I stumbled back as she put her hand on my chest and shoved. My door slammed shut and pain thundered through my body as she pounded her tightly clenched fists against my chest.
"You lied! You said you loved me! You said I was enough and you'd change! But you lied even after I gave myself to you!" she screamed, but her voice kept cracking as the sobs started.
I looked down at her, my arms lim
Gay, why yes I am-1Not a GirlGay, why yes I am-14 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am not a girl.
That was the first realization that hit me
Before I wanted to play with dolls
Before I wanted to kiss boys
That I was not a girl.
After that I understood exactly what was wrong with me.
I was a boy,
That was the biggest problem.
Boys could not be Girls
Like Dogs could not be Cats.
It was not supposed to happen
But I wanted to be a girl!
I wanted it and I prayed for it
But they told me God doesn't listen
To Boys who want to be Girls.
CutThe razor that cuts my skinCut4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The blood that falls into a silver tin
When i feel the pain
The whole world seems sane
The blood that paints a gruesome picture
The razor my pen
My blood the ink
The paper my soul
Nobody must see this bloody scene
My wrists sliced open
The blood never ceases to stop seeping out of the wound
It will never stop
For i will never die
After all in my writing, i am immortal
PromiseI promised you I'd stay alivePromise4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Only for you, only for you.
And you looked at me and said,
'Good...because I need you always.'
And I smiled.
As you found her
My friend warned me,
His eyes cautious, his eyes pained.
'He will soon forget you,' he said...
And my world fell apart.
And I realized he was right
More and more each day.
I was being forgotten...
'Looks like you don't need me anymore..'
I looked up at the night sky that evening...
The stars forming my favorite shapes
The moon piercing me in a way I'd never felt.
Perhaps..because..I wouldn't ever see it again?
I got the paper, I got the pen
And I wrote, wrote, wrote...
Until my hand ached.
I folded the little page
And put it on my bed,
And hoped it would reach him.
Then I took the rope
I tied the knots
I stood on the chair,
Then jumped away.
I woke up again...
In a bright place.
Below me was a glass floor, and I could see the world.
I saw him.
I found myself growing closer
Until I stood right in front of him.