SleeplessI should very well be asleep by nowSleepless3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But the thoughts that hold my being captive are only of you
Your soft skin
Smelling so sweet
The clothes I still have hidden in my room
Have that same, faint, scent.
I close my eyes and feel your breath on my neck again
Feel you kissing me
Making me feel things my sleeping soul hadn't felt in so long
I feel your soft lips crash into mine
Clumsy in their endeavor to explore
Every part of me.
They took some part of me with them
In that last,
I can't sleep knowing that you're no longer mine
Maybe you were never mine to begin with
About a GirlAll I ever did was love you,About a Girl2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
All I ever did was try to see you happy,
All I ever did was care for you,
But you took my sincerity as a lie,
You passed me off as a monster,
Only wanting a cheap fuck,
And being drugged out the rest of the time,
And you know what,
I still yearn for you
I wish to give you my love and my time
You have a hard time feeling safe
You ask what if I hurt you
And I give you a promise that I won’t
You say promises break,
But this one shall not be broken
Believe me when I say,
That all I want is to call you mine,
And to say I love you
Dying By Your AssumptionYour assumptions causes me to shake, to become another,Dying By Your Assumption5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The confused son, friend and swaying brother,
Scars live with shadows; don't turn off the light,
Monsters blur ethics and call it right,
I don't speak much at school,
Confused by each contradicting rule,
Teachers and other students stand in front of me,
Despite this, a source of help I fail to see,
Kicking a football in a distant park,
Alone with my father, not enough of a spark,
I pray to a god I can't believe in,
Wanting him to take a family sin,
I turn away from each policeman,
Strings do more then control each hand,
They influence patterns, something strange,
Love, my parents have to share,
Different methods to ensure I know they are there,
Your assumptions causes me to shake, to become another,
My father didn't rape me, it was my mother.
Mere DesiresI am sitting in the darkMere Desires3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The one I loved throws my things about the room
She is angered
She packs and yells
She tells me that I am a cheater
I am no cheater
I am merely a pawn to my desires
I see no wrong in my actions
Just being honest to myself
Honest to my urges
It would be wrong to fight them
Wrong to ignore myself
I am sitting in the dark
Illuminated only by the headlights
The one that hates me has gone from here
She is wrong to hinder
I am myself
This is her fault after all
She was not more available
She called me an animal
She asked why I did it
It's just that
We are animals
My instincts drove me to it
Wrong to call me wrong
She was wrong
Learn to live with that
you THEN - NOWI loved you because...you THEN - NOW4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
...you were natural.
...you saw through me.
...you made me feel safe.
...you knew everything & yet you still excepted me.
...you were yourself.
...you change so that you can be "more" likable.
...you can't or won't see through me,not even if i feel hurt.
...you make me feel like i have to be careful for my own sake.
...you still know my past but now you don't know about my present.
...your someone else.
I don't even know if you really mean it anymore when you say you love me.
your changing so much,I'm not even sure your the person I loved so dearly.
could it be it's time to end everything?
Mental Hiding PlaceMy mind is a bad place to beMental Hiding Place5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But sometimes is the only place
Where I can hide and feel safe
Nobody can find me or hurt me
When I'm there - hidden in some
dark corner or trapped in some imaginary world...
All I have to do is close my eyes,
cover my ears and I'm alread there
Where time and space are no longer important
There are times though is not so easy to get in
I have to try harder, sometimes I need a extra help
But once I get in
I stay there for as long as I can
I wish I could be there forever
And forget about the outside world
written in november 24, 2010
Lonely But Not Alone...It saddens me to knowLonely But Not Alone...5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that you don't talk to me no more
It turns my heart to stone
each time you left me alone
how did it end this way?
can't you please stay...?
I don't wanna lose you
not before I die too
I didn't believe you'd do this
rip my heart to bits
I didn't believe you'd do this
'cause I was so masochist
I'm a fucking coward
for my happiness won't last an hour
I hide in self-pity
for my scars are too filthy
If you hear my sobs in the night
remember for you I'd fight
You had me at the palm of your hand
yet, alone, you made me stand
The light in your eyes
have riddled my cries
the light in your eyes
turned yourself to a lie
Not one person can take your place
yet anyone knows your disgrace
They all have a presence
yet only yours I can sense
I've made myself blind
leaving only YOU in my mind
He Lied - She BelievedFooling her was so easyHe Lied - She Believed5 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
She fell for it so fast
I knew she was so in love
Too bad it wouldn't last
My heart ached when he was close
I felt my heart pick up speed
His love was like a drug
Having him close was my greatest need
I told her she was the only one
That she was the love of my life
And one day I'd buy a ring
And make her my lover and wife
I trusted and believed
I let him hold onto my heart
I knew he would keep it safe
I knew he wouldn't tear it apart
But she didn't know who I was
She didn't know all the other girls I had
Maybe she would never find out
But maybe she'll find out I was actually bad
They told me he was a player
That he'd play with my mind
But I couldn't believe them
He was the one I had once set out to find
I knew how in love she was
I could crush her heart with my bare palm
I didn't reply when she confessed her feelings
I tried to remain calm
I joyously told him he was my world
I'd do anything he'd ask me to do
I held him and cried tears of happiness
But then I did
Sex.I lied.Sex.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This isn't about love-making.
Or anything irrational.
This is about you...
About how you're my first thought waking up...
And my last before escaping into a deep, dark abyss called sleep.
This isn't about sex.
Or anything related to that.
This is about my heart, intertwined with yours.
Our hearts, as one...
About the butterflies you give me every time you say a single vowel,
And when i'm with you, the logic just d i s a p p e a r s.
my storyWhen I look at you all I see is shame. I see myself ,my story5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
classed and judged as the whore the street walker, all because I believed in love,
I look at you and I see mistrust.
and you know what? why does it matter what happened back then?
Today is now and yesterday is gone, I can't change what happened and neither
can you ,with snide looks or whispered disappointment.
Maybe that's why I can't tell you,
I can't ever tell just how I feel
Being with her is the most natural thing in the world,
It feels right and perfect, different from what
I felt for him , better maybe even.
telling you would give you another reason to look on me with disgust
give you another reason to tell people I'm a handful
another reason to say why I'm not good enough.
Being perfect is all you care about and it just isn't
I'm no wonder woman or She-Ra and I wont ever be.
I need you to learn to accept me for me.
I am your daughter, I don't believe, I am bisexual and proud to be me.
EscapeEvery day, I die a little more inside;Escape5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My soul, yearning to escape, my emotions, I try to hide.
I only want to shield you; hide you from the pain I feel;
But in reality, it's no use; it's not the best way to deal.
It's not that I don't want you to know, or that I question your trust.
It's just that all my sorrows are becoming way too much.
I don't usually speak my mind or even think things through.
But at the end of every day, I'm thinking about you.
I'm sorry for all the times that I have lied straight to your face,
The truth is, no, I'm not okay, my memories, I'd like to erase.
Maybe one day, I'll be at peace, and share the reason for my sadness.
But until then, I'll let my mind escape into the blackness.
Lie To MeThe banging on my front door awakened me from my heavy sleep. And all I could think was, who the hell is at my door at 11:30 at night?Lie To Me5 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I wearily pushed out of the bed and went to my front door, dragging my legs and resisting the urge to dive back in bed, so I could go back to sleep. I unlocked the door and swung it open, ready to curse out the one who woke me up from my needed sleep. But my face instantly softened when I saw her. My baby, my cute girlfriend, my loyal lover.
But she didn't look so happy.
Her hand lashed out and my head jerked to the side at the force of her slap. I stumbled back as she put her hand on my chest and shoved. My door slammed shut and pain thundered through my body as she pounded her tightly clenched fists against my chest.
"You lied! You said you loved me! You said I was enough and you'd change! But you lied even after I gave myself to you!" she screamed, but her voice kept cracking as the sobs started.
I looked down at her, my arms lim
Gay, why yes I am-1Not a GirlGay, why yes I am-15 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am not a girl.
That was the first realization that hit me
Before I wanted to play with dolls
Before I wanted to kiss boys
That I was not a girl.
After that I understood exactly what was wrong with me.
I was a boy,
That was the biggest problem.
Boys could not be Girls
Like Dogs could not be Cats.
It was not supposed to happen
But I wanted to be a girl!
I wanted it and I prayed for it
But they told me God doesn't listen
To Boys who want to be Girls.
She Wrote, He SangOnce there was a girl who wrote poems instead of sleeping and sheShe Wrote, He Sang4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Loved a boy who sang when he didn't know she listened
She wrote, "Dear boy, I love you"
And he sang, "Dear girl, I cannot love you back"
This answer did not satisfy and did not deter her
So she waited more and wrote less
For three months she waited with pen poised above paper
Her mind too full of him to bring her hand to write
Then she wrote, "Dear boy, I loved you enough to wait"
And he sang, "Dear girl, I am glad you waited"
The boy started singing sweetly in her ear
The girl wrote no more so that she could listen instead
With nothing but ecstasy in the corners of her heart
Her pen lay dormant for many a month
Then he sang, "Dear girl, I am going to leave you"
And she wrote, "Dear boy, I don't wish you to go"
But the boy could not be contained by the look in the girl's eye
And he ran while she chose to walk behind
While he ran, he unknowingly injected power into her pen
And sucked out the love-drenched words tha