firsts...As I looked in your eyesfirsts...5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As I fell more and more deeply in love
As I firstly understood what a crush is
You're my first crush
As I touched your hand
As I felt so safe between your arms
As you wiped away my tears
You're my first love
As you started hating me
As you started ignoring me
As you started hurting me
You're my first heart breaker
As you let go my hand
As you left me behind
As you stole my soul
As you walked away
You're my first and last love .
No EmotionsSometimes it's easy,No Emotions8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sometimes it's not.
Sometimes it's cold,
Sometimes it's hot.
Sometimes I smile,
Sometimes I grin.
Sometimes I lose,
Sometimes I win.
Sometimes I pout,
Sometimes I frown.
Sometimes I'm up,
Sometimes I'm down.
Sometimes I'm sweet,
Sometimes I'm nice.
Sometimes I laugh,
Sometimes I cry.
And then there's those days...
I want to die.
lessons I wasn't taught at school1.I've gotten really good at walking out on people.lessons I wasn't taught at school8 months ago in Emotional More Like This
2.He was only collateral damage.
3.There is an infinity carved on the tree where your head once used to rest.
4. You smell of apple cyder, musk and her.
5. She created drama when there was none because that is how she liked to be; weak.
6. I've never seen snow.
7. They always misinterpreted your emotions, didn't they?
8. He never got why she preferred sitting cross-legged on the floor.
9. She knew by memory to the last detail every crease that strained his face.
10. He never really understood her.
11. You're selfish and self-absorbed but that is partially my fault because I gave you even more than I ever thought I had.
12. I wish I knew who I was.
13. Lets try to be optimistic for a change.
14. I can't get your pain and suffering out of my system and God knows how many times I've tried.
15.'Don't you ever leave the house?' The short 82 year old man says.
He has more life at this moment in him than my entire 1
Best FriendsHe sighs and gets up. He turns away from me, as if afraid to see my face. He is afraid. I can always tell. It comes in the job description of being a best friend.Best Friends6 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Its not that simple, he says, facing the wall. He runs his fingers along the rough plasterwork. I ought not to have paid the guys who did it.
I bet it is simple, I say venomously. I hate it when he cant get to the point. He can never say what he means and I, all too often, say everything I mean. Were supposed to compliment each other. It doesnt work all too well. In the three years Ive known him everything that was important could never be said out loud. In the three years Ive known him Ive insulted him and hurt his feelings too many times.
He shrugs and begins tracing the Greek alphabet on my wall. He loves languages. He knows at least four. English, Dutch, Greek and something else: I cant remember. I dont have the patience for them. He always
Teachers Vs. StudentsTeachers Vs. Students10 years ago in Editorial More Like This
Top ten things that teachers do that if students did, would get them in trouble.
Teachers think that its ok to walk into class ten minutes late and give the excuse that they had something urgent to do. Please. I dont know about your school system, but when we are tardy (unexcused) we have an automated voice notification system that calls our house and tells our parents. Now considering this, Our campus consists of four different buildings that we have a matter of ten minutes to walk to in order to get to our class. One of the walks is a quarter of a mile! And thats just outside. Try walking through a big crowd of students who dont think they have a class to get through. Its murder. So when a teacher that doesnt have any walking to do, and practically no reason to leave thier room is tardy, who calls thier parents?
2. Late Grades.
I ChangedTrying to cover the tears, trying not to show my fears.I Changed9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why do I keep it all inside? My pain getting harder to hide.
I used to be cheery, it used to be real.
But now it's different, and they're making some big deal.
Saying "Why are you so sad?" and "You look depressed."
Can't you just leave me alone, let it rest?
So maybe I've changed...what's that got to do with you?
Just because I've changed? Well maybe you have too.
Love"Hey! What're you scribbling on your notebook?"Love3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
"It's always nothing. Com'n, tell me." With that she snatched the notebook from him and caught him offguard. She was only able to read the first few words that he snatched it back from her.
"Love doesn't exist?" She asked in a confused tone
"It's nothing alright!"
"It is something. What are you not telling me?"
"I said it's NOTHING" a rage in his voice. She was taken aback by his anger that she couldn't reply in fear.
After a few minutes of silence, he finally spoke.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't of reacted the way I did."
"It's okay. It's not your fault."
"The thing is I don't want people to know how I feel about things."
"You can tell me. You know you can trust me. Please tell me. I want to help you. How can you say love doesn't exist. What about your mom? A mom always loves her child."
"My mom left me and my dad when I was five for another man." His reply was cold.
"I'm sorry. I....I didn't know. But your dad loves you right?"
EscapeI'm trying to escape,Escape9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
trying to get away,
trying to ignore what they do,
forget about what they say.
No move I ever make,
can ever be one right,
every simple thing I say,
always starts a fight.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect,
the way I'm supposed to be,
the thing is your slowly killing me,
why can't you see?
I'd really like to run away,
where someone would understand,
to someone who could see my pain,
and gently take my hand.
Manika: Teddy's ConfessionManika: Teddy's Confession10 years ago in Fantasy More Like This
IT WAS SAID that Manika had been crafted out of pain. As a means of expressing whatever it was that had begun to claw at the insides of a man's heart.
And he – our "Father", the one being who created us, was so much like the Christian God who made the world and man upon that world, all because He could not think to exist in nothingness and the void of utter silence.
And so, upon carving out two eyes, he bestowed upon a simple block of wood the vision of something so close to whatever it is that makes humans what they are. By painting these eyes, he opened up the worlds and layers that show the complexities of a soul yet to be in full fruition.
By shaping lips that did not exactly smile nor frown, he gave the form a personality and a voice to speak for it. The purpose of such a shape, was to mimic people as truthfully as he could – for no one person was always altogether happy, nor always altogether sad.
He also gave her two hands, his way, perhaps, of showing his own need to
I'm In Love With YouI'm In Love With You5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I found you, one day in July.
I didn't know you, but I thought you were gorgeous.
You were perfect, to me you were stunning.
That day in July, I became so happy.
I had you, for my girlfriend.
Now, 7 months later, I'm still happy.
I have your kisses, your hugs and your smiles all for myself.
I won't share you, I can't.
You're mine as I am yours.
These feelings you give me are so unreal.
It's more than lust, more than a crush.
It's even better than I thought, better than I heard about.
I've got something to tell you.
I'm in love with you!
The way you smile and the way you laugh.
I fell in love with you, your personality.
Not for the way you looked, but for the way you are.
For the way you acted and I love the way you make me feel.
Now let's tell our story to the world.
Of how we met and fell in love.
Some people say I'm a kid and what I'm feeling isn't true.
'Cos people say teenagers can't fall in love.
But let me tell you, it really is true.
I've never felt this way before.
And I don't
pain from one side..As I watch you and stare in your eyespain from one side..5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I feel the love inside of me growing
I know that the hopes in my heart are lies
But I can't keep myself from loving you
Why did I choose to love someone that doesn't even see me?
I wish you could see the love I hold for thee
I wish you could know how many nights I cried
How my dreams you stole
I need you because I feel so alone
I need to be in your embrace
I've always thought that you loved me
But I cannot stand it anymore
The pain I feel broke me down
But you don't even know that you tore me apart
Dear Mom- ContestDear Mom,Dear Mom- Contest5 years ago in Letters More Like This
I have something difficult to tell you. It would probably be best if you read this letter alone.
I've tried so many times to tell you, but I could never find the words. Finally, I decided that I was going to tell you next week when I came down. It would have been bad timing, but I felt that you deserved to hear it in person. I agonized over how and when to tell you and . I lost sleep. I lost my appetite. Every few days, I would just break under the stress. That's why you're receiving this letter. I couldn't handle telling you in person. It's the coward's way out and I hope you'll forgive me for it. But I feel this is the only way I can find the words and the courage to do this.
As far back as I can remember, I've always felt different from everyone else. I suppose a lot of kids feel that way, but for me it seemed to go beyond simple growing-up awkwardness. It was a feeling as if there was something wrong with me. But being so young and not even sure what the feeling was, I ch
Introduction"Hey"Introduction3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
"Do I know you?"
"No, but I know you."
"Yea, you're the girl whose boyfriend cheated on her"
"And he tore you into pieces and broke your heart and you've never been able to trust
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"You're the girl whose parents got separated living in one house and then the other."
"How do you..."
"You're the girl whose friends betrayed her. They just toyed around with you until they found out you were no use for them anymore and let you hanging"
"STOP IT!" Her eyes stinging with tears
"You're the girl who lied to her mom to go to parties."
"That is not true." Her voice wobbly
"You're the girl who cried herself to sleep at nights when she lost all faith."
"I did not cry alright"
"You changed yourself to fit in but still no one accepted you."
"You're the girl who hides the scars under her sleeves so no one will call her names."
"It helps ease the pain." The tears threatening to escape
"You're the one who took th
Sorry.I'm sorry for the things I do,Sorry.9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
sorry for the things I say.
Sorry that I talked to you,
sorry that I'm this way.
I'm sorry that I trusted you,
and sorry that I lied.
Sorry that I laughed at you,
sorry that I cried.
I'm sorry that I hated you,
I'm sorry I loved you too,
I'm sorry that you broke my heart,
and that it still belongs to you.
the love murder...."Oh, no please don't, Please don't take my heart, I need it! How am I supposed to live without a heart?" but he put his hands in my chest and dug inside, he grabbed my heart and took it away, he smiled as he saw me bleeding, every drop of blood was a word he said, he looked at my eyes and smiled wider, "oh please don't, please don't steal my soul, I need a soul!" but he sucked out my soul, my soul was so dark, we heard a scream of pain he covered his ears, but smiled wider and wider, he stepped closer and held my head "oh please don't, please don't make me lose my mind, I need memories!" but he took my mind and my mind was filled with him, he smiled even more and more wider, and watched me as I bled, as I screamed, as I cried, as I died, he knelt beside me "hey lover! Any last words??"the love murder....5 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Why does love always kills its owner?? Why does it always torture our souls? Why it's so hard to forget? Why does it run in our blood like if we were addicts?" I shed my last tear and died
One Last GoodbyeWriting one last letter, saying one last good-bye,One Last Goodbye8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My blood falling to the floor, as if coming from the sky.
"You told me that you love me, but we could never be,
I cannot live without you, so I'm doing this you see."
"If we cannot be together, then I don't want to live,
I've got nothing left at all, nothing left to give."
I close the envelope softly, seal it wish a kiss,
Turn to look the other way, and wait for my dismiss.
This T-ShirtI'm a boy, I'm a boyThis T-Shirt5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
But my ma won't admit it
I'm a boy, I'm a boy
If I say I am I get it.
I am a person, shoved in a gender box
Stuffed into an orientation cage
Packed into a one-zero-one-zero-one-zero binary of sex
I was born as a girl, but I feel like a boy
Just imagine being born in the wrong body.
Once you hit puberty, you feel like everyone else
got the instruction manual,
and you got a blank piece of paper.
This is what my life is like.
Ok, so transgender. Lemme explain.
A transgender person is someone who feels like
the opposite of their biological sex.
Acting and looking like their biological gender
feels a bit to them like wearing their
pants on backwards or their shoes on the wrong feet.
It just feels weird and wrong.
I explained transgender,
but the questions I always get asked are
"What's the difference between transgender and transsexual?"
"What's a transvestite?"
"Does that make you gay?"
Well, transgender people feel the oppposite
of their biological sex, and
Gay L.O.V.E.Gay L.O.V.E.11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
L is for Lonely.
What we all are until we find that special person to which we share our hearts and souls. That single person that brightens our darkest days. That is there to comfort us when we're sad. Can give us strength when we are at our weakest. That will be there to tell us when we're wrong, or stand behind us when we're right. That single person that means more to us then life itself…
O is for no Option.
Please understand. Love is not an optional thing. It doesn't ask our permission first. It won't even give us any warning. It will just come along and fill that empty space in our hearts. You never know with who, or when it will find you, though when it does…you'll surely know it. It will be the greatest feeling in the world…
V is for Virtue.
It's for being able to stand against all odds with the one we love. It's for not being afraid of who knows we care for this person. Not letting what others think mar our decision for happiness. It's
My Vers. Of I Kissed A GirlThis was always the way I planned, the way I intended it to be,My Vers. Of I Kissed A Girl6 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I don't want to be mean, but I don't like to kiss someone with a wee-wee.
It's exacly what, I thought it would be, it's more comfortable kissing someone without feeling something hard against me.
I kissed a girl and I don't care, I just didn't want to kiss someone with facial hair.
I kissed a girl and I don't care, I'd love to see her in pink pretty underwear.
I moaned so loud, I felt so proud,
while I was picturing her bare, I kissed a girl and I don't care.
I don't care.
Yes I'm used to it by now, kissing a girl I mean, so tired of kissing cows, girls are so much more clean.
It's not like, this is new,
Not how most girls act,
My mind is already made,
Forever I shall obey.
I kissed a girl and I don't care, I just didn't wanna kiss someone with facial hair.
I kissed a girl and I don't care, I'd love to see her in pretty pink underwear.
I moaned so loud, I felt so proud,
While I was picturing her bare, I kissed a girl and I
I Wasn't Supposed To Be Worth It.Was it worth it?I Wasn't Supposed To Be Worth It.11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Trading the taste of cinnamon on your lips
To smell like cigarettes and a painful hangover.
Was life so cruel to your perfectly skewed smile,
That you had to swallow a bottle of brandy
Every night at 9 pm
To hear yourself laugh again?
How could I have not noticed
The tremor in your right hand
Every time you held a pen?
Was I so blind for the love you had for me to see
That my love was destroying you?
'I am yours.' You whispered when you still had Petrichor surrounding you.
I inhaled your scent like oxygen,
All the while I suffocated you like sulfur.
You gave me your heart on a plate,
And I was the last pill that took your life away from you too.
Mother always told me I broke the things I had
Because that is how I was;
Selfish and undeserving.
I didn't deserve you.
You weren't supposed to be mine.
"Best Friend"You left me here,"Best Friend"8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
alone in the cold.
I can almost see the wind blow.
It brings back memories,
memories of you.
The way you used to smile,
you know, back we were two.
three musketeers minus one, "best friends".
The warth of your hug,
and those silly jokes you told,
while trying to cheer me up, force one smile out of me.
I opened up to you, telling you everything.
& now thinking back I realize...
you told me nothing.
Nothing worth knowing, anyway.
Whatever happened? Did you just get bored?
I'm not always cheery, not always interesting,
but I thought best friends was more than that.
Maybe I was too eager,
eager to believe I finally had someone,
some to call my best friend.
you were the closest to it,
almost the closest I'd ever had.
now you're just every other "friend" in the hallway.
In death's hand -CancerGrowing up knowing you could die any secondIn death's hand -Cancer3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Seeing the other kids, with no worry
How you wish you could be like that
And not be cursed with such a disease
Feeding yourself with lies that you're perfectly fine
Nothing to worry about
But inside you know there is nothing you can do to save yourself
How the pain weighs down on you
How you wish you could change it
So many trips to the doctor
So many machineries all around you
But the results are the same
With a deadliest death of all
Your life comes to a tragic end
Those sweet innocent eyes close forever
That helpless body fades
And it is buried 6 feet under the ground
You'll never be forgotten
Because you are a hero
A hero who fought the biggest battle of all
Cancer is the enemy
You gave your all
Even if you couldn't win
Trust me, you didn't lose
No matter how much time passes
We will never forget you
You'll always be alive in our hearts
In every breath we take your rememberance will be present
This might be goodbye
Crash+An Akatsuki Story+Pt. 1~Crash World: A Deidara Love Story (with hints of Itachi): Part OneCrash+An Akatsuki Story+Pt. 17 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
The silver haired girl threw a glance over her shoulder. The small room she was locked in was dark and dusty, there was no source of light except for the bit coming out from under the door. She brushed some of her short and choppy hair out of her sparkling green eyes and looked down. There wasn't much in the room, just a very uncomfortable bed and a single table with two chairs. On the table was a single glass vase with a single, very dead, white rose in it.
She was a prisoner. She didn't enjoy it.
She picked up the vase and examined the intricate design of red clouds against black. She had learned to hate that symbol. Had learned to fear and despise it.
About five days ago she'd been on a mission in the Sand Village, just a simple delivery of a simple letter...but she'd been intercepted on her way back to Konoha. By a face all to