addictionaddiction12 years ago in General More Like This
have you ever been an addict. and im not talking
about the hey-i-like-to-do-this-alot type of addict.
im talking about the
type of addict. im an addict. ive never blown anyone
to get it. i dont think i would. but i havent been
given the opportunity to either. the reason i say 'i
dont think i would' is because i like to pretend that
i still have something thats mine. dignity, pride,
standards. but i know i would easily toss those away
just to get it. i know because i have. so all i
really have is it. for one hour. for two hours. for
fifteen minutes or however long it last. however long
i can afford it to last. ill be high for fifteen
minutes if thats all i can get.
im an addict. i dont get high just to get high. i
get high just to get my mind off getting high for a
few hours. after a fix im good for eight hours.
maybe. then the last of my previous highs memory
cells dry up and i want. need. how ca
You, Caffeine and CigarettesI crave youYou, Caffeine and Cigarettes4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I need you like an addict
Needs their fix
And if I was addicted
Would you mind?
Addicted to what?
Or cigarettes. Cigarettes?
Would you mind
That I smoke forty
A day or that I shake
Withdrawal or overdose?
Well, would you mind
That I write, like an addict,
About you and your smile
And your hair and your laugh
And your voice and your beauty?
kissing your eyelidsi.kissing your eyelids7 years ago in Biography & Memoir More Like This
i cannot tell you.
i am afraid to open my mouth because i know the aperture is tempting, and i do not want you to see the raw that has spread from my heart to the back of my throat.
i am afraid to speak because the slightest movement will give me to you, and i cannot trust that i am ready for the plunge. your hands are inching me closer by the day and i am trying to read the fortune of your open palms but they tell me nothing about how to fall. they dont even tell me your story but somehow they still manage to be the most beautiful thing in the world.
i am standing on the verge. i have noticed that you give yourself better when i am not looking, so i unlock our gaze with the key of my patience and look away when you speak of the things your heart skips over.
anything to make you feel safer.
there is sleep in your voice when your baritone carries over miles of wire and i am amazed it does not crackle with the electricity
Childish.My head is swimming with visionsChildish.7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
That'll never ever come true
There's nothing quite like daydreams
To submerse yourself into
I think about my future
and whether I'll change my mind
About my views on marriage or
Leaving childhood behind
I think of where I'll live,
and rarely what I'll do
I dream that I might travel
Around the world with you
See now, there's my problem
The "you" in that equation
Lately I've been faced with
A "you"-filled mind invasion
I wonder what you're doing
How 'bout if I was there?
I dream that you're thinking of me
Though you're not, I'm well aware.
I imagine what we'd talk about
and what we'd want to say
I try to think of how you'd move
And how, by me, you'd lay
But mostly I imagine
You can see my daydreams too
I know that it's impossible
I know that it's not true
But I still like to imagine
What it'd be like if you did...
Too bad it wouldn't matter
'Cause I'm just some stupid kid.
I should put these thoughts behind me
'Cause this annoyance is my cue
In dependant womanIn dependant woman12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In dependant women i find the brink of lost hope
A tilted ice skating rink
With a layer of soft soap.
A broken vase. Poker face. No joker, ace.
The hand shes dealt is knuckles
and a battery of bible belt buckles
She wears the make up so he wont lose face.
Fat slouch, soiled briefs, mouthful of tooth paste.
He's a relic from a past era.
She will never run faster than her mascara.
Scared...waiting for the second R to come
Scarred...no healing, beckon martyrdom.
Far from numb...but palsy ingrained
A flesh of mesh...and everything taken in vein.
Maiden turned maid
Laden with Jade
A once bright son, faded to shade.
Lost first, past second, now life is third nature.
Memory's mummery and mammary's milk
Now nothing but a trifle herd of stray blurs...
Eyes of overdue cataracts
Still life lies in matters of fact.
Her excuses are frail.
Each night she reads her bruises like Braille.
I'm SorryI love youI'm Sorry4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Few know what those words truly mean
Someone who knows how to mend hearts
And sew up all the seams
A person who can read your thoughts
Before you even think them
A person who can heal your wounds
Before anyone else can make them
I wish that I could understand
Whatever's wrong with me
But you don't know and I don't know
I guess no one can see
I'm sorry that I hurt you
I'm sorry that you cried
I'm sorry to desert you
And to push you aside
Sometimes my thoughts are messed up
My words cannot be said
But thoughts of you go on and on
And keep spinning in my head
You are the greatest person
I've ever met in my life
I wish I could figure out
Why I'm so filled with strife
Please don't hate me
I couldn't bear the thought
Even now as I think about it
To my eyes tears are brought
While life goes on and on
I'll always be filled with sorrow
Of the friendship I had with you
That has no new tomorrow
So yes, I do know
What the words "I love you" mean
And I'm sorry that you don't understand
Eek. - OneFreak. I get called freak a lot. That time I spilt Jell-O on my best friends girlfriend. That time I asked if I could sit on the swing beside one of my fourth grade classmates. That time I tried out for the football team. Everyone seems to have reached the same consensus; that kid is a freak.Eek. - One7 years ago in Transgressive More Like This
Sneak. No one ever calls me a sneak. No one ever notices when Im sneaking, because Im good at it. No one caught me that time I snuck out of school, because I was too scared to go to gym. No one saw me when I sneaked around the hallways of my old school, trying to build up the courage to say hello. No one notices me when Im standing right behind them, close enough to touch. No one knows that kid is a sneak.
The words are close enough I mean, they rhyme and everything but no one ever makes the connection. I sneak around all the time and I only act like a freak sometimes, but one everyone knows about and the other, nobody realizes.
Irony is nowhere near resemblin
05.04.2905.04.2911 years ago in Typographical More Like This
If I told you
you—anymore — Maybe
I never did
I wonder if you would survey
me with those
yet have I been unpromising:
WorthyWorthy 1/6/09Worthy7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You smile, but your melancholic eyes
give you away by glistening like
sea green glass about to shatter.
I ask, but you cannot recall a bright day.
You own a pain so deep it hurts me.
My tolerance is high enough for the both of us.
You are afraid that if you let go,
you will have nothing and be empty.
This hurt does not define you.
The walls begin to slowly melt
as all those buried feelings are felt.
The stone castle you meticulously built
crumbles down with your doubt and guilt.
I'll meet you halfway between
absolute truth and deceiving dreams.
We can create our own imperfect
out crippling fear where hope
is alive and always near.
The more you resist the more I persist.
You are worthy my sweet one,
beautiful through and through.
I know you don't hear that enough.
Just believe that I believe it's true.
You need saving from your mental prison -
the key locked away where only you can reach.
Guide me there and I will release you
Modern MythI lye chained to this flat rockModern Myth7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
while the sun glares down upon me.
I glance around if my head turns,
but desert is all that I see.
You know what I long for most?
A cascading downpour of rain
to soothe my blistered skin
and rust away this chain.
But I know it will never be.
God's never forgiven me...
So I just stare at my chain
when my head won't turn at all.
Each link is crafted carefully
to hold me in its thrall.
But they show no sign of breaking
as years pass me by. Thus,
I am forced to watch my chains,
As a modern Prometheus.
No Train For YesterdayI spend two & a half smiles on strangers,No Train For Yesterday12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
drink a bottle of casual words
& head down a silent street, accompanied
by muted endeavors of faceless clowns.
It's a tired, malnourished day, strained
over frail dusty bones of hours
& as I run my hand along a minute,
it feels like leather, worn from wear.
You still arise in idle thoughts:
the way you stopped to watch me at
an ambiguous train station up north.
You were the streetlight that blinked on
& off in futile attempt to murder wind
while snow raced horizontal lines
& hurried past large metal doors.
You seemed to revel in movement,
smoothed air with your skin
as I headed on. Gave shelter
to a misplaced thought & lost another
in muddy puddles behind my temples,
aching now, condensed for spare.
The smell of old liquor & masculinity
still lingers in my nostrils' memory.
You asked for clarity in all I said
out of spite & I couldn't find the words.
Shreds of sentence fragments tasted bitter
& I washed them down with another
On HalloweenShe said "I'm dying", with a jack-o-lantern grinOn Halloween7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Then smiled and giggled and held up a heart shaped lolly
She said "This contains carbs"
And bit down so it shattered
The brittle shards of sugar coated her tongue as she laughed
Her breath smelled like fake cherries
Her teeth tasted of bright glass
She said "I like your smile"
And touched his face
She traced the spirals that only she could see
Her fingertips were cool against his skin
She said "All I need now is you"
And kissed him
But only for a second
She could never hold back a smile
Her lips curved up at the corners
Her eyes glittered with thoughts
She said "I love you"
And looked at him the way she sometimes did
She tilted her head and looked
Her expression was solemn for once
She said "I'm dying"
And her face twisted into a jack-o-lantern grin
CENSOR THIS 08880CENSOR THIS 0888013 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I remember when I know why the cage bird sings
was challenged for the "encouragement to take action
in premarital sex, homosexuality, and the use of
I remember when the Bible was banned and/or
challenged for being "pornography and obscene"
in Alaska and Pennsylvania in 1993.
I remember when the The Autobiography of
Malcolm-X was challenged in Flordia in 1994--
because it was "racist against white people"
I remember when Jambo Means Hello: The Swahili
Alphabet was charged with "degrading white
children" although it was a book for white children to
understand the African-American culture much better.
I remember when Daddy's Roomate was removed
by most libraries by most of the United States---for
AngelicaAngelica (My Final Prayer)Angelica11 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Darling jaded Angelica, can you hear me call?
Can you hear me from heaven; can you hear at all?
Is the sky blue life up there treating you so kind?
Sometimes I wish to join you and leave this world behind.
Oh Angelica, you cried so much before you had to leave
Was dying really the only way to save your sanity?
Angelica you'd died of a heartbreak I'll never understand.
You were already dead inside, though I was there to hold your hand.
Oh my stained Angelica, with your tainted soul,
Have angels bathed you tenderly and filled your growing hole?
In heaven do emotional wounds show like cuts then bleed?
And is anyone up there giving you the bandages you need?
Have they wiped the dirt of heartbreak yet so far away?
Are you beautiful again my love? Can you stay that way?
Has heaven purified you so that you'll never hurt again?
Is it really a new beginning, or…is it just the end?
Angelica, do you miss me, up in the sky so free?
When it rains down on the earth, is tha
WhiteLilliesRoses are redWhiteLillies7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And I love a white lily
And I dont just say this
To folks willy-nilly
I love you a lot
Suffice it to say
You are the light bulb
That brightens my day
You illuminate darkness
Chase shadows away
And just how much I care?
I could never convey.
Cant exist without you
Youre the sun to my moon
When you walk in the room
I cant help but swoon
My heartbeat quickens
When you come into sight
I could repeat it forever
And it still wouldnt quite
Be enough to tell you
How much I adore you
How much I admire
Each action that you do
I love you a lot
This day and the next
But hey, youre you!
What else do you expect?
ephemeralOn the table in the middleephemeral7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of my apartment,
a postcard reads,
"we are all ephemeral"
and I wonder what anonymous
means by that.
I was walking in the park
when I heard a conversation
between a mother and her
son. (He was about twelve.)
"Why can't you be
good? Do you
want to go to hell?"
The little boy answered,
"no matter if it's heaven
or hell, eternal life is always
That shut her up.
I added those words to the card
and sent it to you. The next day,
I found a green leaf in an envelope
in my mailbox. There were words
written on it. "The knowledge
that everything could end
at any time
makes every second
something to be grateful of."
I put the leaf up on my bedroom wall and
the next day it died.
You stopped by the day
after that and said it was okay,
the leaf died, but the words didn't.
IFIF7 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
If I loved you and you let me
What would life have looked like then?
In the midst of all our quarrels
Where could love begin to live?
If I followed where you led me
How much darkness would I see?
If you did all that you promised
Would you still be here with me.
Life is love and care and sharing
And its dedication too.
When the one you love is falling
Catching them is up to you.
As the sun sets in the evening
and the fireflys buzz round.
Dont forget the love you promised
Hold them close, dont let them down.
Days are brighter, life is good
Seems that love will find a way.
Never doubt the love youre given
Or it might just slip away!
How Long Is ForeverHow Long Is Forever12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How long is forever?
How can it ever last?
How can we look so forward
Without looking at the past?
Does it bleed through day?
Does it weep at night?
Does it tear through emotion?
Does it really have much might?
I suppose it\'s real
Though I can never tell
They tell you they\'ll be there
And leave after the bell
Maybe it\'s the beauty
That\'s infinite in today
But their wisedom upholds all
And their exterior does decay
They say they will hold you
They say they\'ll never let go
You turn your back for a second
And they\'ve become someone you don\'t know
But how can there be forever?
If you just walk away?
Without even breathing a word
You just turn and leave me strayed
So until I find this \"forever\"
I will wander proudly alone
Never giving into this reality
Never having a proper home
Drugs:Such drugs these drugs, Such wonderful drugs!Drugs:8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
This drug does this, and this does what it does.
So many pills on the shelves today,
Many of them legal, so come what may.
Side effects, strange actions, all things can be fixed!
They crush up some plants and create a new mix.
A drug for everything from headache to AIDS,
You can take them yourself! No need for a maid.
You become old and decrepit, but still living fine.
Because we have drugs to save you, until the end of time.
Genesis, To FlyGenesis, To Fly11 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Genesis, To Fly
Main Entry: 1vol•a•tile
Pronunciation: 'vä-l&-t&l, esp British -"tIl
Etymology: French, from Latin volatilis, from volare to fly
1 : readily vaporizable at a relatively low temperature</i>
An era of Edenistic emotion
curls around my finger tips and toes,
slowly working its way to my heart—
felt cold, inside,
in the summertime; and winter fills itself
with warm motion pic
ShatteredShattered, broken,Shattered7 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
In pieces on my knees
With the denial of my needs
My voice lost!
My voice drowned!
My voice tossed away,
There is no sound!
From a fire deep within
Hotter, and hotter,
I have burned for all my sins
My voice ignored!
And with my voice I'm bored!
I don't want to speak anymore!
I forget what I was speaking for...
Into my soul I fall
I close, behind me,
The doors to my hallowed hall
My voice is silent!
My voice is in chains!
All my thoughts arrested,
Only a hint of memory remains!
FeelSilence,Feel7 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
In a darkened room,
I feel insane
And things will never,
Be the same
I know that,
Things will always change
And I know that,
Sometimes I just feel pain
I know that, no-one is...
Sometimes things are just surreal,
But at least, at least, at least...
I feel shame,
For the things I've done
And I feel like,
I'm the only one,
I feel elated,
That I have survived,
When yet another,
Piece of me has died
And I know that,
I long for you still
But at least, at least, at least,
Holding me hostage,
Driving through my brain
Coming from me,
The words seem so strange
I know that,
Some things just are
And I know that,
They leave scars
I know that, I have fallen...
The joy, life from me steals,
But at least, at least, at least...
I feel purpose,
To start again
And I feel like,
Maybe I'll win,
I feel harried,
And I feel worn
An old life has died,
And a new one is born
And I know that,
I long for y
How I Knowhow do I know I love you?How I Know14 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
a simple question
with more answers than we have kisses
and more reasons
than you have time to hear
your smile makes me wish for immortality
if only to see it over and over for always
and to be in your presence
is be myself
with no pretense
or need for impressions
minutes spent without you
tick by slower than years
but the sweet promise of us
brings a secret smile
and a calm assurance
that leaves a delicious taste in my mouth
the way you look at me
makes everything in the world
stop and wait for us
and the way our eyes love to touch gazes
makes my heart hug itself with contented delight
I am stronger because of you
and yet weaker all at once
but I would not trade this sweet vulnerability
the sacred opening of everything I am -
I willingly offer it,
because I feel your desire to see it,
to cherish it as you cherish my kisses
I have begun to think of you
as an extension of me
another part that I have always searched for
and somehow never found