I'm Just That Kid 1I don't even know.
Great way to start isn't it?
Yeah, I thought so as well.
Oh my dear heavenly Father, I don't know.
So, let's begin.
My name is Loren. I'm of the male gender. I'm sixteen. I'm pansexual.
Pansexual, for all of you homophobic straights, means that I like whatever grabs my goat, tickles my fanny, flies my kite, blah blah blah, I'm sure you have your own way of saying it. It does not mean I'm putting on some freaky romantic moves with Mommy's dinnerware, thank you Evan.
By the way Evan, your face reminds me of my fathers soiled underwear, and you should definitely go screw a tree.
Anyway, I've been this way since...well, there was never a day that I chose. I get asked that stupid question so very often, and so I'm going to share the answer with all of you.
So here goes.
"Lorrreennnnnn," drones some random kid.
"Yes?" I answer, fully polite and patient.
"Like, duuuuuude, when did you choose to be like, gay?"
Go on and insert
letters to you...letters to you...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
I can see the look of devastation
That will be on your face if you ever read what they say
The look of hopelessness and despair.
The longing for me to come back
But you have lost your chance
I will never come back
You broke my heart
You tried to rekindle something you broke
My heart has turned to steel.
Torn out of my chest...
These letters I write tell you that I still love you
But rather than give them to you and free you from misery,
I read them once again
And then burn the evidence
Make it as if it was never there
I will not let you to know how I feel
That I want us to be together
But I can not forget what you did to me...
Would you even take it back?
You will be trapped forever
With the knowledge that you were the cause of my death
You will never know that I forgave you.
But did not want to let it go.
I will take my own life
Because you stole my heart
And tore it to shreds...
You made me cry...