This poem was a bit more cryptic then what I usually write, and I'm happy with that. I got a chance to use a bunch of uncommon words in this piece of writing as well, which was pretty cool. But anyways.. this poem wasn't started with anything in particular in mind. I just had a title. What I personally put into this poem I intend to keep a secret. But I hope you find something in it.
I had a lot of fun with this poem, although it carries a more serious note. I hope you enjoy it.
Why do you feel like you have to lie? Why can't you say what you truly feel inside? Can't you see that there's no reason to hide from me, whatever your true feelings happen to be?
To me, you have no obligation, I know where I stand. I know I'm just an opportunity here to take away the sting of lonliness, willing to be your toy, at least for a little while.
I have needs too, ones only you can fulfill, so come lay with me, and I'll kiss your troubles away.
I don't mind being used, at least that's what I tell my heart. It's happened before, but then I was stupid enough to think of it as and wish for more.
I'm wiser now. I know not to expect or hope for anything else. So please, don't bullshit me, don't make this into anything more than what it is. There's no point lying, I know you don't see me as anything but a friend with added benefits.
Help me, Hold me, Save me from myself. Or, When I turn away, Will I feel your once practiced blade, Recently dormant, Yet meticulously cared for, Bite into The old, fading scars Spidering Across the pale flesh of my back?
Through my eyes, The abyss flows. A gentle breeze, A stream of shadow. The masking cover, The cloak of night, It hides my actions, And shows your fright. This revealing light Shall be snuffed out. And your pleas muffled, Every single shout. I come for you, And I come for your soul. Clothed in darkness, To swallow you whole. I am the end, I am your fear. Yet your frightened breathing Is all you hear. I am death.
I see infinity lying at my fingertips When the moon rises and the stars quip In their speechless tongue, Measured in nanometers and wrung From the union of basic simplicity, The language of our complicity In mysteries billions of times Beyond our scale and sublime Before our minds ever existed: We are small, yet we persisted In walking out of ourselves Into foreign gravities, to delve Deeper into the words stars shine Into our eyes and trace their lines Back to the beginning, so that one day We may see a foreign sunrise and say "It's beautiful" in the company Of others from another place, and finally Know why everything came to be. I don't understand the words reaching me, But trusting the possibilities of their meaning I continue in observing the sky and freeing My fellows from the surly bonds of Earth; For their meaning I'll give all I'm worth.
Hiding the tears, Hiding the shame, Hiding self loathing, Hiding the pain, Donning my mask once again.
Behind this mask so many emotions I feel, Never again will I share them and express how I feel, Buried deep they will stay, away from all that causes me pain.
Taking off this mask was a big mistake, All it did was cause me more misery and pain. Trusting people, letting them in, only caused me to be hurt again. So from this moment on none will see, all of this turmoil inside of me.
I will smile in your face, and you won't know, the depths of the tears, that run from my soul. '
My laughter is the screams, that echo in my mind. My joy is the fear, that lurks from behind. The twinkling gleam you see in my eyes, are really tears I try to hide.
Up and down my emotions glide, but never will you see this; it is hidden inside. Never again will this mask come off It is safer here in the dark,
An Angel smile is what you shall see, Happiness and joy I will spread to thee, I will be there to listen and stand by your side, Wiping away your tears when you need to cry, Opening my arms when you need a hug, Holding you tightly and showing much love,
I face the world with my mask in place, My head held high, A smile on my face, Never will you see what lies inside of me.
Hiding the tears, Hiding the shame, Hiding self loathing, Hiding the pain, Hiding behind my mask once again.
This is my first writing I have put up in a very long time. It was actually a challenge from . I had to pick one of his pictures and put a poem to it. Unfortunately the one I picked wasn't on his gallery here on DA but on another site of his. Here is the link [link] I felt an immediate connection with this picture and new it was the one.
Here you go as promised. I hope you like.
As for my other reason behind this poem, well those close to me knows what it is for and what is behind the words.