Poem III'm sorry that I hate you,Poem II3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm sorry that I cared.
I'm sorry that I live my life;
With your face right there.
I'm sorry if I wonder,
If you're dead, and you're girlfriend too.
Sorry, I can't help myself,
I live to kill you.
A Suicide's PoemA SUICIDE'S POEM BY: ANA LOPEZA Suicide's Poem6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
There are seven rings to a Noose Knot
Seven reasons not to care anymore
Six why life isn't worth living
Five less people who will have to worry about you
Four reasons not to hold on any longer
Three why this is the better choice
Two choices left
One answer remains. . . .
IncompleteLook here! I made a puzzle,Incomplete7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It is of me and you.
But I've run into trouble, see,
I've lost a piece or two.
Don't worry – your side's perfect,
With detail in every line.
Yet, there is a problem here –
I can't quite finish mine.
I first notice a blank up top –
One certain piece I cannot find.
And when I can't complete my head,
I know I've lost my mind.
My eyes next move onto my legs,
When I see them I can't help but frown.
Clearly missing are my kneecaps,
From all the times you've kicked me down.
I run my fingers over the puzzle,
Next noticing a blank piece where,
My hand and yours should intertwine.
Yet there is nothing there.
I then notice the final piece –
The one I should have from the start.
And to my surprise you've left me,
A gapping black hole in my heart.
So as you can see this puzzle
Demonstrates my greatest defeat.
Because, although you're perfect,
Without you I'm incomplete.
You're DeadYou're Dead9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What makes you think you know me?
What gives you the right to care?
Fool me with the lies you show me.
How could life ever be exactly fair?
The drifting in our lives could not be so easily recovered,
To think that you were my friend,
The truth has finally been discovered,
Driving this to an untimely end.
To end what loyalty, happiness and trust,
With hatred and anger,
Or just a selfish untold lust?
You have your happiness,
Let me have a chance at mine.
Instead of using your falsehood to tie me in a mess,
Loving someone is not a punishable crime.
So when you see me walking,
Do your best to turn your head,
Instead of friendly talking.
Because to me, you've been dead.
SmileYou're down on your luckSmile2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Don't even have a buck
But everything will be worthwhile
If you can just smile
You would have nothing to lose or gain
But what would be the point of living
If you wouldn't be taking or giving?
You have everything but nothing
Because there is no loving
In your life
You would want everything to end with a knife
But don't lose hope
If you can cope
Just wait awhile
Everything will work out if you just smile
Schizophrenic LovePlease just look away.Schizophrenic Love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Seeing your existence terrifies me,
Because I still can't stop my heart from beating.
Its you that I want,
But compared to everybody else,
I'm the only one that seems so insignificant.
When you smile like that,
I die a little more inside.
The words I spoke are nothing more than empty fragments,
And you constantly remain out of my reach.
I came close to not breathing,
Once we almost shared glances.
I tried to pretend you couldn't see me,
Without losing myself entirely.
Like a whisper,
You had been so near and so close,
Reminding me of how putrid and filthy I really was.
Object of Your LustI can't stand myself.Object of Your Lust2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I could stop my hands from reaching out to touch you,
But I'm still not what I should be.
You reduced me into one of those quivering girls,
And I had long discovered that I'm filled with too much emotion.
Can't you see?
This is not who I wanted to be.
My days are repleted with longing,
I can't bring myself to forget you.
You alone are my living essence.
I don't have any desire to part from your waiting arms,
Or your sweet words.
Your lips hovering over mine...
Were you the paradise I dreamt of all along?
Could I really give in to you?
You whispered into my ear to surrender,
And I'm captivated,
Mesmerized by how helpless I was to your caress.
I knew somewhere deep inside,
The answer to all my problems was to succumb,
But even if I gave you my heart and soul,
I would be just an object of your lust.
LiesIn my dream,Lies5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
It would always end up so perfect.
Though you weren't my reality,
I became engulfed in this illusion.
So as I hug my pillow tight,
I would let your arms sweep me off the floor,
Drink in those words,
And stick your voice into the further reaches of my heart...
Because that's what I can only do,
Since there is no way I can ever talk to you,
And be special to you.
So I hide a part of me,
By folding those feelings in half,
Whenever you're around.
But the more I'm reminded of your existence,
My chest fills up with pain,
Until the empty urge starts growing into stronger yearning.
Back in the room,
I would draw up my knees and cry...
While realizing how lonely it is without you.
All my insecurities were driven into my mind,
But now, I wonder if you would care,
If I needed you this much.
Upon letting my eyes close,
I knew it would never be the same,
Because deep down inside,
I still want the real you to comfort me.
Social NetworkingTwitter is for telling the world every single thing you do.Social Networking3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Facebook is for saying the thoughts that only you choose.
Formspring is for your self esteem to be attacked with a strafe.
and Tumblr is the only place that can be called safe.
All You Are Is MistShut up.All You Are Is Mist1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
None of you are there
You promised me you would never leave
I trusted you and you abandoned me
You left me like the worthless wretch I am
There is nothing left. Do you hear me?! Nothing!
You aren't there! None of you are there!
So just shut up.
And I'll cut
Under I can see that blood...
Like honey, a drug
Relief so hypnotic I stagger
The only cure...
You...my precious lover..
You are gone
All you are is mist.
Forgotten by OurselvesThe dark abyss opens wide,Forgotten by Ourselves2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
We find ourselves drawn to it,
Loneliness sneaks in--
a snake, hissing and spinning,
Turned against one another,
We spiral into destruction.
Enamoured by the False Light,
We follow its path,
becoming the Not, the Un.
We are Forgotten.
I'm Sick of LoveWhy is it that I'm so scared?I'm Sick of Love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can't come any closer to this,
Because I'm really afraid...
Of you and me.
I can bear this pain,
But the sadness is just too overwhelming.
I wish I could say I take back everything,
Though I have nothing else left to gain.
My heart is there for you to take once again,
With cracks and splinters lining the edges.
I had swallowed a deadly poison,
Simply so you could look at me at a different light.
I couldn't understand you,
Though I always try to.
I'm drowned in an endless sorrow,
Wasting away in silence,
While you continue to shine so brightly.
I never meant any of those things,
But does it even matter to you now?
I couldn't find any good in you,
No matter how hard I tried,
Yet I wish you were mine,
Even if it was just for once.
FeverThe faint sense of fatigue reaches towards me,Fever2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Inching its way closer and closer to my head.
I could see you quite clearly through my blurred vision,
Wearing that same orange shirt of yours,
And I knew instantly that this was the first sign of weakness,
As you quickly averted your gaze.
The warmth envelops me,
Makes me sway and stagger senselessly on my feet.
I can't blink you away,
No matter how hard I would've tried.
Though I might have walked directly past you,
I simply couldn't disappear from your memory;
The image of my unattractive face peering up at yours was something not one would normally forget.
I let my thoughts slip into oblivion,
A certain emptiness haunting me while I slowly descend down the stairs.
The desire to stop was growing more and more overwhelming,
With an intense heat completely emanating from my body.
I eventually fall to the ground,
And crumple to my knees.
"...V-Vivian? Hey! What's wrong?! ...Hey! Can you hear me?"
I feel hands wrapping themselves around me
Dear Anonymous...AgainDear Anonymous...Again2 years ago in Letters More Like This
Hi... I'll keep this short. I...Miss..You. If the world ran out of muffins, I'd miss you more than Gir would miss those muffins!
I miss your:
-You being in my classes
-Everything about you!
And these reoccurring dreams aren't helping at all. I mean, i LOVE seeing you in my dreams, but I wish they would actually happen.
I feel like crying at the moment..but anyways..We'll meet again one day..I hope.
~The Girl You
Something MoreIn the end,Something More2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I really didn't know what I wanted from you.
I often contemplated the things I should say to fill in that empty space,
So you can finally pay attention to me and smile that beautiful smile of yours again.
I thought I needed to know,
But even then,
I wasn't satisfied.
You're the first one I managed to not scare away,
And I wonder why you just wouldn't tell me that you didn't want me around.
I tried to make my words sound meaningful,
But after they came out of my lips,
I feel so detached,
As though maybe you weren't interested in me anymore.
I had seen your head turn many times before that,
And it might've been my imagination,
But you seem to be focused more on something else,
Instead of me.
Maybe there's no hope for us.
Maybe our future is only a delusional dream,
No matter how much effort I put into patching up our friendship.
Would you cherish me,
The way I did?
Would you be sad if I were to suddenly leave you,
And be dead to the whole entire world?
Untold ConfessionIs it OK to love you this way?Untold Confession2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Do you find it disgusting?
I don't want to be disgusting...
I just want you.
But if you don't like it, I promise I won't love you anymore.
Master of Unrequited LoveI master in the art of unrequited loveMaster of Unrequited Love4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
And that's why this time,
my fantasies aren't enough
Sooner or later, I'll have to speak my mind
And I'm done breaking down; I'm done crying
Because these tears qualify as a crime
I have to start trying
tearsit's not the tears i crytears6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that make me sad
it's the thoughts
behind each one
that stands for each
emotion i hide
behind a painted smile
~ HJ march 2008
excuse meexcuse meexcuse me6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
for not being
for the things
i do naturally
to find the things
that make me happy.
~ HJ 12/2006
PonderPonder ~Ponder6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of your destiny
To distant lands
A little more
~ HJ 2004
The Hidden WaterfallThe mysteryThe Hidden Waterfall6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Behind those eyes
So I may
A hidden waterfall
Into the veiled pool
~ HJ 2004
A Pair of MasochistsThere is this pairA Pair of Masochists1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
In my kitchen drawer
When I thought i was...better
I wrote on them
"I have defeated you"
My own rebellion
But the pressure grew
The weight was too much
Now every time I touch it, I hear it
In my head...
Now, I have defeated you
I have carved you
I have burned you
I've collected your tears
And I have drunk them up greedily
You are my property
I am you
I was the one who created you
I shaped you into what you are
I own you
You are mine
Those chains that surround you?
They are what I have become
A small bout of stress relief
Now a hobby?
Isn't that fun?
A small slice here
A few X's there
Just a kiss on your innocent wrist
You belong to me
You hopeless bitch
You broken toy
Winded out clock
I will watch you cry
And smile as you bleed
And, I my love
Will haunt you
Until the very day you die.
Am I?Am I selfish?Am I?1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just wanted attention?
What is so wrong with me I've just realized this know?
I honestly thought so many people cared that I would talk about myself so much, never bother to ask
If someone else, with more problems then the selfish affairs of my heart...
What have I become? Why do I hate myself so much?
A selfish, worthless, pathetic brat
Whining just because a lover broke his vow
Is that all thats really wrong with me?
Or is it parents who don't care about me? And just want the grades to match,
This idol and this image built up inside their head.
Maybe the fact I feel so empty, bipolar, wrecked
Just look at me!
I'm making up excuses for my actions
I have no excuse...
Is there something really wrong with me?
Or am I just...
Selfish. And arrogant?