All alone in her own little world,
she cries herself to sleep.
No one there to save her from herself,
She says no one loves her,
she has no friends,
but it is all in her mind,
I sit back and watch,
there is nothing I can do,
nothing I can say.
When she drinks,
she does not think.
And it is like the knife has its own mind,
when it cuts,
each time another peice of her mind falls away,
I know what she is going through,
I almost did the same.
So what I can do is give advise,
on things I would have done different.
Those things I should not have said,
should not have done.
My friends worried the same as I worry for her,
I caused so much pain.
It is a wonder they're still here,
to help me get through.
And I still think God that I did not go to far,
it took wakeing up to realize,
I have people who care,
people to love me,
because I am not alone.
Slipping Into InsanityThere is no darkness inside the lightSlipping Into Insanity3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No frantic ramblings of twisted fright
No bleeding wrists of barbs held tight
No screaming fangs prepared to bite
No demons gathering in dark delight
To torment you every day and night
Such bliss in these flames alight
Until insanity snuffs out your sight
Dance the dance within the day
No letting nightmares have their way
Refusing to look beyond today
Closing your eyes in hopes to stay
To dance within the light's bright ray
Feeling the cold being held at bay
Ignoring the winds that tear and fray
Until insanity comes into play
So much for light and smiles dear
Happiness forever lost inside the fear
Within this cold no friends come near
You are very much alone without a cure
No gentle voices will you now hear
No arms to hold and sunlight cheer
Just the welcoming demon's sneer
No denying insanity is right here
ALONENo one can see the pain that we hide,ALONE11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
They're happy for us to keep it inside,
Our fear is our own; they don't want to know,
Why sould we involve them; why should it show.
You live your whole life in confusion and fear,
The need to feel something unbearably near,
Half of you living, Half of you gone,
And inside you know what your doing is wrong.
The thing's that can help, the thing's that may heal,
Are the flame or the blade and the sting of the steel,
The destruction of skin means the death of your soul,
But there's nowhere to run when your living alone.
AngerAnger11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You call me weak,
I might be,
You call me names,
I take them,
I stood up to you,
You pushed me down,
My body feels hot,
My knuckles turn white,
I close my eyes,
When I open them you lay on the floor,
You get up and swing at me,
I swing back harder than ever before,
As you fall I see tears of blood,
Istill feel rage,
I still feel hate,
Everyone stares as they pull me away,
Covered in blood that is not mine,
You called me weak,
But my hate for you made me strong.
Victim of a John DoeDo you want to hear the storyVictim of a John Doe3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of how I died?
I promise it won't be boring
so if you would
just take a seat, have a drink
Past memories reach,
I met the most amazing man
who spun words of silver and gold
with a tongue more fine than silk.
He told me he could do no wrong
and I, young and foolish, believed him.
And when we went home,
his eyes shining with new excitement,
things were perfect.
Then it shattered.
Nothing more intense
than feeling my own blood
trickle down my body.
stares traveling down
blood spattered knife
a gaping wound
cries of shock
gleaming white smile
solid drops of blood
and fading light.
I knew him for one night
he disappeared the next.
To this day I am simply known
as the victim of a John Doe.
Black BirdBlack Bird8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A black bird
up a gloomy trees branch
Its beak stutters,
of rabid vultures scavaging,
preying on rabbit's flesh,
searching... scanning the area,
as it tries to fix
its broken wings,
learning to fly, away
RedScarlet is like sin,Red7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And sin is temptation.
We are slaves to ignorance,
And the light is our almighty.
Crimson is like poison,
And poison is potent.
We are children of anarchy,
And the darkness is our saviour.
We are a new occult,
A new outlet for insanity.
We are followers of the damned,
And the Reaper is our master.
Vermillion is like danger,
And danger is erotica.
We are agents of death,
And Death is our god.
We built god from blood.
Blood that came from us.
God restores the blood.
And we, in time, will build a new god for our sick religion...
...when they prove this one evil.
Violin WristDays go by as I play this songViolin Wrist8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
playing this sad song in my heart
tears of blood pout from my wrist
I play my wrist like a violin
stroke this sad song back and forth across my wrist
sound track to slit your wrists to
tears drip and dry
but this sad song will never stop playing
play til the bow breaks
play til the end of time
this sad song lives and never stops
playing my wrist like a violin back and forth
Curse of The LiarsDiscreet silver spidersCurse of The Liars2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
slip from the tongues
of filthy liars
to weave webs
thick and replete
with hazy veils of deceit
that grow more dense and complex
as they spread and mature,
Inducing confusion and delusion
while damaging lives,
But fear not oh ye swindled,
Because those webs either
collapse or implode
retract or explode
as the discreet silver spiders
come back to bite the flesh
and gouge the eyes
of their original creator,
For Heaven and angels utterly despise
filthy mouths that spawn silver spiders,
This is the curse of the liars…
Talons of the CrowYou all must die,Talons of the Crow2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So that my little black birds,
May fly high across the twilit sky,
Irrevocable doom is heralded by,
Their uncompassionate cries,
Live by the blade,
Perish by the blade,
Warriors are merely farmers,
Who reap what they sow,
Every true man of blood,
Shall one day rest beneath,
The talons of the crow…
SuicideI'm sorry i've got to do thisSuicide10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can't take anymmore.
I loved you, and always will,
please don't forget me,
cos i'll never forget you.
I hope to see you later on
when your time to pass has come.
thankyou for helping me
I'm sorry it didnt work out better,
you all tried your best
please dont blame your selves.
thats not what I want,
I want you all to be happy,
go on with your lives.
do it for me cos I couldnt do it,
not even for myself.
I tried my best to be happy and free
but at the end of the day,
thats just not me.
Suicide NoteDear friend, dear family, dear all whom I hate.Suicide Note9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This is my chance... My time to escape...
My time to shine, I've just crossed the line.
I swallowed some pills and am slowly dying.
I've taken my life, with no kind of regret.
I came to realize, my life isn't shit.
Reality hates me, fantasy ignores me.
But this shiny little knife, all but adores me.
I cut my wrists, my blood falling into mists.
The vein slowly hisses, as I look into abysses.
I draw the steel, from is red warm womb.
Trail the blood on this note, spelling out "Doom".
I cry acid tears, they burn out my eyes.
They take the sights away from this world I despise.
I still feel the pain, I still hear the torrment.
As my soul in my body, still remains dorment.
I get out the rope, tie up the noose.
I've remained here far to long, it's time to be set loose.
I hang my head is sorrow, bidding my farwell.
I jump off the chair, and fall down to Hell...
My NightmareMy Nightmare11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It is half past twelve
And I'm tossing in bed
I think I hear you
But that is all in my head
This is the third night this week
I toss and wake to my screams
In my nightmares you live
When once you were part of my dreams
I grip my pillows tight
And cry out so many tears
But if I close my eyes again
The blackness returns me to my fears
In my dreams
I can see the pain
As death took you from me
I relive that dreadful hour
And this is what I see
There I am
Holding you in my arms
And giving you a tender kiss
When from behind
A monster with a knife
Stole my love and bliss
He stabbed you deep in the back
With a knife as dark as his eyes
And falling to your knees
My heart broke
And life lost all her ties
I try to comfort you
In my arms
Tell you everything will be okay
But that monster laughs
And kicks me in the face
Before running away
I crawl to crouch over your body
Holding you tight to my chest
You try to speak
But the blood trickles
Down your mouth
Into DeathInto death,Into Death11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Out of mind,
Gone from body,
All are blind.
Gone are we,
From the earth,
We are free,
No more mirth.
Upon our graves,
Are roses red,
To quell the fact,
That we are dead.
SuicideWhen life gets tough,Suicide11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You get your knife.
When life just sucks,
You take your life.
When you have problems,
When no one cares.
The scars on your arms.
All the stares.
The blade of the knife
Held up to your wrist.
The blood leaking out.
Your hand in a fist.
There is no pain.
You do not start.
To the pain in your heart.
If you're in the mood
You might get artistic.
Carve a morbid message
"I am sadistic."
"Screw the world"
Most don't understand
What it's like to suffer.
"There are people in the world worse off than you."
Do you care?
When life gets tough.
The blade. The knife.
When life just sucks.
Your death. Lost life.
The cuts. The blood.
The freedom you find.
Take a look inside
The suicidal mind.
Guardian AngelGuardian AngelGuardian Angel3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I will be your guardian angel
I will protect you for a million times
I will ease your pain
And guide you in the right direction
I will not let others hurt you
Your world will always be happy and peaceful
You will develop and prosper
You will watch over our children
And they will make you proud
I will save you from the horrors of this world
It is always good to feel safe
You will grow wise and graceful
You will achieve all your goals in life
I am sorry that I am not there with you
But I will always look down on you
I am your guardian angel
I was your first and only love who died in a car accident
We will always be linked together
A bond that death could not break
We will share our souls for eternity
Whenever you need help or support call on me
And I will be there to guide you
I will whisper to you in your dreams
Sleep peacefully my love
(Inspired by the song Guardian Angel by The Frozen Autumn)