IF I HAD A MILLION DOLLARSi am fighting with dragonsIF I HAD A MILLION DOLLARS5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
when i try to spit out any
semblance of reason. the
moment i try to start i am
overcome with what i once
thought was a shortcoming
but i know now to be ghosts
of what i used to value (life)
i am a death
hidden in the
leaves of your
i am honestly bad for the health
of any traveling bard or passing
soldier. i am a plague. i am your
sickness. i am an anaesthetic.
i am a vaccine against
or was is jaundice?
i'm yellow-bellied and
i'm yelling to the sky
like i can't hear the
I JUST WANT TO SPEND A DAY
IN YOUR (SOMEBODY'S) ARMS
LIKE I BELONGED, LIKE I WAS
A PART OF THE FAMILY.
APART FROM THE FAMILY.
i can't help SCREAMING because dear
i don't know who "you" are anymore
and nobody is listening to this but
the static is thinning. i'm still the
mountain of broken toys i was
assumed to be so long ago.
i'm pulling my guts out.
i'm pulling my ears.
i'm listening but i
can't hear you.
i'm just he
Giving InGiving in to what she cannot controlGiving In4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No where except by his side, go
It does not matter to which shore
Alone, without. Together, more
Surrenders to what she does not comprehend
Not giving up, Begins again
He decides who he is, His right
She dreams, and circumvents fights
He has to live the truth within, His needs
She knows what she wants, He supersedes
Be it a Reason, a Season, or Forever
She sighs, cries, does not sever
What may be less than temporary
Part-time lover, distant friend
Here today, escapes tomorrow
Laughter, solace, whispered sorrow
Returns, lost in the misty morrow
Silent murmurs, plead to know
Yielding to faults, hers, his dying passion
Death of love, a lifetime stripped of compassion
He will be what he will be
She, whatever falls in between
Not much left to say
Until the day she is a castaway
The heavens shall then
A cacophony of screams
slashing holes in the seams
Of a wrenched psyche
and her ravished heart
Wrung of every drop
Metal rulesA man once said, "Metal rules"Metal rules9 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
That was when I was ten years old
That's was 1998
Metal rules that I know
If you say no
Well you just don't know
Heavy metal rocks your socks off
You damn emo skunk
Thrash metal will fuck you up
Skater punk you're shit out of luck
Black metal will destroy your ears
You rich prep won't survive
My power metal barrage
Hey wigger listen to my
Death metal roar
Soothes my soul
Hey country redneck
Here some southern metal
Metal rules you know
You can't change us metal heads
We love to mosh and to roar
You just can't kill the metal
God blessed the metal
I Miss... You.I miss your hugs.I Miss... You.7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Those hugs of yours
always brightened up my day.
I miss your laugh.
The tone of your laughter
is enough to lift my sorrows.
I miss your smiles.
Your smiles are flawless
and are the cure to any problem.
I miss your love for me most of all.
For your love was true and innocent.
It was pure and real.
I miss your soft kisses, your darling voice,
your enchanting brown eyes.
Your love and my love
once shared a heart.
The heart was complete;
it was filled to perfection.
Since then you've opened our heart
Others who I became envious of
for making your soul lustful.
Our heart became vacant;
yet not completely vacant,
for I am still here.
Still waiting for your love
SoundSound4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Something against the sky -
a kestrel wing
drifting godward -
the circle of sound
dents the morning
and turns my ears
second guessing the weight of
and how your breath
measures the morning light.
Miss youI never got the chance to tell him how I felt.Miss you8 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
How his beautiful smile use to make me melt.
If I could Id turn back time and make things right.
Id have kissed him on that very last night.
I wonder if he even remembers our very last night.
How the words he whispered to me sent my heart into flight.
And that was the last time I saw him. Never said goodbye,
If only I hadnt been so shy.
I never thought Id miss him so much.
How much Id miss his laugh, his smile, his touch.
Never did I think hed be the cause of so much lost sleep.
I hadnt realised Id fallen so deep.
I love him more then hell ever know and even though
I cant see him; my love for him continues to grow.
Hes still the only one who ever captured my heart.
I still love him despite how many miles we are apart.
Maybe one day well meet once more.
And Ill get a chance to tell him that hes the one my heart beats for.
That Ive loved him all along a
trick candle emotions_cthere are faces that don't existtrick candle emotions_c6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and love letters never written
down and we will shout until
tree tops crumble and branches
sway, until spines snap and
there are hearts dissolving
in the atmosphere, and ribcages
rusting down on main street,
and hearts were never meant
to breathe on their own, but
we never did learn how to love.
we are people in two separate
worlds with two different
definitions of the same words
and screaming is like killing
to me and laughing is like
drowning to you and we compute
on a daily occasion, through
error messages at least.
we're breaking the world between
our palms to watch the life spill
out of the fault lines and if we don't
know what we're doing, then neither do you.
we're just haphazard at best,
mechanical emotions crossing wires
and calling the misfires beautiful.
make me laugh until my lungs burst,
bleeding four leaf clovers spilling
out through my nostrils and tear ducts,
i'm smoking trick candles at our properly
Dear DiaryDear Diary10 years ago in Humor More Like This
I ate a sandwich today. I realized for the first time that one does not use a spoon to eat them. I was at the deli and I ordered my usual, a turkey breast with salmon, bacon, and teriyaki sauce, sat down and began to eat, spoon in hand. The man next to me turned and said, "You know… You don't use a spoon to eat sandwichs…"
This blew me away. All that I had known: destroyed. My world became swirling mist of the unknown. Every fact I thought I knew suddenly came into question. The way of the universe died that day.
The man grew concerned about the glazed look I had while I was shaking uncontrollably in my chair. I snapped to, spoon still in my grasp. Then I stabbed him with it. A lot.
Thanks for ruining my day, asshole.
Today was unusual. I went to the super market and the cashier winked at me. I mean, it's good to be winked at by such a beauty of a person, but I didn't think it was very appropriate. Flattered, I gave a small sign of rejection, whi
DuplicityCaring about othersDuplicity6 years ago in Open More Like This
and wishing they were dead
Affirming other's success
lets me know i've failed
even compared to idiots
Tell me I'm pretty
InsanityInsanityInsanity11 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I am plagued with a madness
Anger turns to pain
I am filled with a sadness
I cannot tame
My brain has gone dumb
Darkness has engulfed me
My senses have gone numb
Runs through these veins
Stuck in this profanity
Trapped in these chains
DiabetesIt was years ago. Many, many years ago. 13 years ago, to be exact. I was four.Diabetes8 years ago in Biography & Memoir More Like This
And I remember being four and normal. Id been a happy kid. I remember that much. I found immense joy in playing with dolls in my back yard, near the big tree the neighbor kid had gotten stuck in one summer. I loved to swim, and was convinced that I was a mermaid princess and my parents just hadnt told me yet. I had a dog that I loved and played with frequently. His name was Marutte. We also had two cats; mouse and bear. I watched The Lion King, Wish Bone and Bill Nye the Science Guy religiously, and seemed to always be with one of my friends, a trait that Ive still retained to this day.
I dont remember the exact date; it was thirteen years ago. But I remember that I was at a girl named Kindles fifth birthday party, and Id eat
Whammy Boys - Matt's StoryWhammy Boys - Matt's Story4 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
According to evidence, such as old photos, clothes, toys, and talking with the still living relatives, I have been able to explain all of our questions about *THE* Whammy Boys.
In this chapter, I will answer all of the questions about Matt.
Question: Where did Matt get his first game system, and what system was it?
Answer: His first gaming station was the Gameboy Advance. This gaming system was given to him by his mother, for his 4th birthday. This is his cherished item, because his parents died only a month later.
Question: When did Matt start smoking?!
Answer: Age 15.
Question: What's the deal with Matt and his goggles?
Answer: The goggles he wears were also a gift from his parents. He picked them out at his first gaming convention, when he was only 3. His parents had previously told him he could get anything he wanted, and he held them to that. This gaming con was where he also received his first vest. Yes, he's been wearing the vests since he was merely 3. A fun fact about this sai
divulgefor the last time idivulge5 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
am saying, get me the hell
away from myself
R.I.PR.I.PR.I.P8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rest In Peace
My good friend
Well all miss you
Even the ones who
Dont know you
Youll always be in my mind
Youll always be in my heart
Ill never forget you
Although I wish you were still here
I know it will never happen
But you can be here in a way
Therell always be a piece of you in me
And I know that youll
Watch over me
Until Im back with you
So dont you cry
When your up there
And I wont cry
When Im down here
Cuz when I die
Ill see you again
Way up there
The StickThe Stick10 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
So frivolous in conception
So obsolete in design
The media has played a role in deception
In this deep addiction of mine
It seems the answer is cancer
And I can not disbar the tar
The obsession runs profoundly
The recklessness is never ending
Although soon I will be resting soundly
With these lungs in no way ever mending
Three MinutesThree MinutesThree Minutes9 years ago in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
So what if I am.
She didn't like considering the possibilities of pregnancy. It was a surreal state of being reserved for women in their middle twenties to early thirties (she was twenty-three, but this didn't matter). It was for the adult world, which she was separate from and had always been separate from. It seemed like schools and television went out of their way to extend youth, so why couldn't biology as well?
I could get an abortion.
She sat on the side of the bathtub and stared at her fingertips while she waited. The test was balanced on the edge of the sink. Just a little piece of plastic with a damp, now yellow-tinged stub jutting out of one end, harmless-looking and generic. She'd never been afraid of anything else so much in her life, except for maybe talking to her parents. She was pretty scared of that too. The clock on the bathroom wall ticked methodically every secon
Missing YouI can't sleep,Missing You11 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I lye awake, tears in my eyes,
Heart acks, mind can't think,
Longing for you touch,
The sound of your voice, I can't hear it.
The wanting for you in my heart.
Thoughts of how good it was to have you near,
You and only you thats all I want,
Wishing to see you smile,
Longing to hear you laugh,
Charishing all the time we shared,
Hopeing my heart will heal,
5 Years Later - Prelude 5 Years Later5 Years Later - Prelude7 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
~A Final Fantasy VII Story~
-August 13th, 45 years later. . .
-My name is Cloud Strife. It feels like it's been forever since all the events that have happened. I decided to keep track of everything that has happened in my Journal as it seems I may not be around for much longer myself. So much has happened ev
Male Fascination with LesbiansI believe I've thought about this before, but just recently I was reminded of my thoughts on the subject. Why do males have this utter fascination with lesbianism? Herein I attempt to answer the question in an informal essay/list format. There are, as one might be inclined to imagine, several reasons for the fascination, and each one shall be given its own paragraph and explanation.Male Fascination with Lesbians12 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
Reason #1: Double your pleasure. This is probably the most obvious of the reason, but also the most shallow interpretation of the fascination. Often said is the old proverb "Two heads are better than one". A logical extension of this is that two naked girls are better than one.
Reason #2: In most lesbian situations, there are no men. This is personally one of my largest contributing factors as to why lesbian porn is my favourite kind of porn. Nothing ruins a nice piece of female nudity like a big j