Hey Sunshine, you kill meLook across the room.
I'm smiling,you're laughing.
But we're dying to know what we're about.
We're biting lips for different reasons
nervous as hell, pain, turn ons...
You're dropping kisses on my lips and saying "I'll see you everyday,right?"
I fall a step back and say "No... we can't."
If I'm ruining this for you, what do you think its doing for me?
We can't work it out
LIFEThe boys' and girls' bare feet were sinking in the green grass and sunlight backlit their shapes against the sky.LIFE9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She twirled towards him, still wearing the delicate white dress she had worn on stage minutes ago.
"You missed it. I was beautiful."
"What are you talking about? You are beautiful."
Lights danced in her eyes and she laughed softly.
"Bet you can't catch me."
He grabbed her hand and said "I've already got you."
"Not for long" she teased.
He pulled her closer and whispered
"Oh Dollface, I have you forever."
He kissed her.
Their eyes were both closed and the boy figured he was in love.
The girl smiled against his lips and felt lucky to have caught
FactoriesAndFailures"Yes,"FactoriesAndFailures9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"you make life beautiful
and loving you is living it in the best way,
His smile radiates complete happiness as he pulls her into his arms.
"It's like it's always been like this, will be this way forever,"
he breathes in her hair.
They were classic.
Then he met Heroine.
The type that doesn't save people
and he as good as yelled
"Forever is over."
Days, weeks, months, passed and she stayed awake for lonely nights.
One day at dinner she attempted a watery smile
[to wash out a dry conversation]
"Hey boy, I dance on water."
His face remained calm as he muttered
"Hey girlie, I swim in skirts"
Suddenly, she stood up and crossed the room in one quick move.
She opened the curtains to a spacious meadow where the ground was wet and the sky hung low with dark clouds.
He walked past her cautiously and pressed his face against the glass to see a woman standing on a small ladder.
BreakEvenAtDowncast.I remember staring at the cracks, looking for where the rain falls through.BreakEvenAtDowncast.9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Those yellow walls seemed to stifle me
when my father called and told me he was sorry
And he loved me.
Tears threated my eyes with that beautiful commodity.
(No one knows the semantics behind "I love you")
I stared at the sky until the stars behind my eyes collided.
Thinking "This will never be something that keeps me awake."
(From then on, everything kept me awake.)
The bird on my window said
"Hello, my wings do not work."
I pushed him off and learned how to deal with grief.
A lady walked in and confided
"Hello, I do not feel like breathing."
I walked her to the ocean, finding out that a ship wreck has its afterglow.
And walked back Home alone.
Next Exit 30 MilesOn the sidewalk, out of breath.Next Exit 30 Miles9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The boy held out his hand, she tried not to take it.
The girl held out her heart, the boy wouldn't break it.
The little stuttering kids were in love.
liar liar, wrap her in piano wire
They were just out</i> of it.
She ran into the cathedral to cure her broken heart.
He walked in ready to tear her apart.
(God helped both of them..)
She looked out the window and saw morning.
He glanced at her and saw she was crying, clutching her chest.
The boy was two steps away from asking her if she was having difficulty breathing when he heard her whispering
TheSkyWontBeBlueByTheTimeYou..Weak in the knees, you don't feel a thing.TheSkyWontBeBlueByTheTimeYou..9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm the one who ends up falling.
You notice my eyes light up everytime they land on you.
(i'm like christmas lights. you can be electricity.)
And you couldn't crack this smile with an 80 pound cinderblock.
You make me stutter.
I can hold my breath. I just can't seem to catch it.
It confuses me.
How come I feel everything and you're stuck at level zero .
We're in the same car- i'm going 90 and you're going backwards.
Fields on a monotonous drive fly by.
You don't talk anymore.
You're never in the mood to see my pearly whites.
(which aren't so white anymore.)
Everything about "us" is smashed.
ItsAlmostLikeAHurricane You've got miles to go until you get to me.ItsAlmostLikeAHurricane9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You've got miles to go until you sink this low .
"I want you to hit rock bottom"
My pearly whites cracked on impact.
A little girl tugged on my dress and said "that boy doesnt love you"
I squinted up at the sky and said on a sigh "I believe you're right."
To my surprise she had tears painting her face.
"Don't give up. You dont care about something until you've lost it."
When my eyes refocused she was gone.
I sat down on a bench and on my left saw a sign that said
"Welcome to rock bottom. Rain's always falling, tears are always on the brink of our eyelids."""
I can't g
RyeAndAirI was thinking you make me feel things that I couldn't buy with a million bucks.RyeAndAir9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You crash my train of thought with
"Let's never talk about this or bring it up again."
"Okay. I agree."
I cant figure out what lies even mean anymore.
All I know is my eyes sting and my throat isn't working very well.
I manage a small wave and walk away as fast as I can without actually
b r e a k i n g i n t o a r u n .
Tonight I'll take pills and fall asleep with the t.v. on.
You called after me "Darling, we'll be seeing eachother soon."
I love you. And I'll never look you in the eyes again.
I woke up on the upstairs floor.
And took the elevator to the clouds.
Your sky blue eyes dont seem so deep up here.
as they did when we were at the bottom of
the ocean and every breath
I dragged in made
Last.Look.Crushed.You're crushing me.Last.Look.Crushed.10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Boy, do I wish.
You see, I've got starry eyes for you but its only hurting me.
You're breaking hearts like its going out of style, but thats not "the bad part"
You don't want to shatter mine.
Call it my masochistic side, but give it a shot.
Bring a knife and give me a chance.
"forget highschool crushes and grow up"
Yellow flowers still make me swoon
and forehead kisses still make me smile.
You still make me nervous.
I'm not pretty but I still keep you on your toes.
With flaws we're batting a thousand, but
it just feels perfect.
It feels completely wrong that my breathing's tearing my lungs apart.
And I dont think my pulse was designed to race this fast.
My heart's screaming at you to love me.
You, raised voices, and dark looks are a shock to the system.
You leave me:
Hugging pillows and sighing into untouchable shoulders.
ery,miss society.She lies in a field of wild flowers with her eyes closed.ery,miss society.9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The sun hits every angle of her face and what society would call "weeds".
This is the most glamourous that she has ever felt.
In the distance she can hear the construction; more "sky scrapers" being built every second, slowly closing in on this meadow.
She sings "Cloudy morning, my own early bird will save me."
A shadow falls across her face and a voice says "hey familiar".
She looks up at a brilliant smile that doesn't quite reach the eyes of the boy staring down at her.
tie, suit, the boy she couldn't sweat out.
White dress, composed, the golden sky enhanced her pain-filled eyes.
The buildings were coming up closer and closer now.
She would not move, taking a stand on her beliefs.
The boy turned away and his tears fell to the green grass.
The ground started shaking.
He walked to a safe spot as society stepped on what she would call
"beauty of the best ty
MyLittleFishThey said you were like a fish-MyLittleFish9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
spending your life in the depths only to resurface in a world you couldn't breathe in.
And I always thought
you were a wonderful prelude
to a damning life.
Now cover girl, you don't cover up anything.
Your makeup does not hide your flaws as you walk to the ocean and drown yourself.
The beach is your last runway, the lightening your last flash.
You yelled "Call this one 'Hollywood'" over your shoulder.
[He told me you do not know how to swim.]
"He's so handsome."
Yeah. He can't keep his hands off other girls and then some.
The boy took away the air you couldn't afford to lose.
He stomped on your lungs when you overheard him-
"She is the balloons that touch the ceiling at a birthday party.
After a few days you will want to throw her away."
Your smile crashed in the same way that the waves do.
You pulled yourself back and felt your
I Saw Stars"Reach for the stars" you said.I Saw Stars9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I stood on tip toe and felt the air close in on me.
I was reaching for oxygen as much as stars.
My eyes and my lungs needed more than I could get.
You sit on the moon, swinging your feet, laughing.
Tears fall from my eyes and you yell down at me
"If you were at the height I am, you could pass that off for rain."
I ran inside the abandoned building that used to be "home".
The peeling paint chipped and when I looked, it was under my fingernails.
I scrapped my way to the room at the very top.
I looked up at the small lightbulb and watched it flicker out.
The window was missing too, a tree branch reaching into the room.
I let it take me and knew it was time to end everything.
It set me down on the moon and I landed facedown, lifeless.
You walked over and kicked me in the ribs.
"Get up. Reach for the stars. Hurry up, your time's almost up."
You held my hand and helped me up but when I got to my feet you let go and my knees unhinged.
To Break A HeartI would like to tell youTo Break A Heart9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Our whole conversation
Started out with
The honest truth.
But it didn't.
I would also like to tell you
We talked like
Civilized young people.
But we didn't.
And last but not least
I would like to tell you
We solved everything
And became friends.
But... we didn't.
I was growling;
'Do you even love me
and you were sighing;
'I loved what we had
And that put us
Where we are now.
And you, not caring.
We were NOT JUST
Teenage fucking romance.
We were true,
And in love
... like you'll never be again.
You said you loved me,
In the nights
When I was pretending to sleep
And you pretended not to know.
Now you say
I loved you too much,
And make that your excuse
For forgetting about me.
Well, I'm sorry then,
For not setting a limit
To the greatest love of all.
And right now I wish
I could make you hurt,
Just as much as I have,
And drown you
In all the tears I've ever cried.
Thanks for the lies Babe.
You sure kn
Contemporary Girla girl stood on the street corner clutching a red balloon and an old, beat-up suitcase.Contemporary Girl8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
she was looking off into the distance, above the people and the skyscrapers and the look of determination on her face was so resolute that noone bothered telling her to get out of the way or that she was holding up sidewalk traffic or anything.
she was vivacious, religious, and ready to take on the world.
the dazzling city lights,
the dreary trash- covered streets,
she loved it.
people at work would ask her if she was thinking about ever going home.
she would reply "Home? like with Jesus Christ, my family, and anyone else I love ? I suppose I will go to Heaven whenever God decides that I've been out here away from home for much too long."
they would shake their heads in amazement and try to stop the jolt of sympathy they felt
while she managed a smile.
on the outside she was confidence, beauty, and building a very steady staircase upwards.
on the inside she was empty, excluding prayers and dreams.
Downhill. Lose your Drive.MONDAYMONDAY.Downhill. Lose your Drive.9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i met him today.
i met you today-
the boy that will change my life.
my feet sink in this blindingly white carpet.
there is a trail of yellow flower petals winding it's way across the floor.
i would follow it, but i'm not sure what's at the end.
i throw away my nerves and thoughts and slowly step along the path.
it's you: you're the end.
I lay in the dark and wait for the part that you sing to me. When I called you my little songbird, you grinned boyishly and gave me a half hearted shove that caused me to laugh until I fell to the floor, holding my sides. You held my hands like we were playing london bridge and told me that this was f o r e v e r .
You pushed me into the pool, but I held your sleeve, causing you to tumble in after me. We laughed and tried to keep our heads above the surface. [You cannot float when you are dragging eachother down.] We floated perfectly. my.life.is.perfect.
Lovers and LiarsI don't stand a chance.Lovers and Liars10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That's what I thought while I was
climbing the stairs to the seduction scene.
Same time you're thinking
"I can't seriously distress her."
Pushing the door, I'm all mechanical flutters for your masochistic stutters.
You turn slowly, smiling.
You're smiling.. but there are tears in your eyes.
How was I to know that you could still get to me?
You stitch my lips shut so my jaw won't drop.
No "are you ready's".
It's just unstitch and no promises.
Dropping breaths and picking up you
"Hey Black Lungs"
take your last drag on your cigarette.
"We're playing with fire sweetheart"
"Save regrets for later"
My blood heats but my veins are filled to capacity with misery.
Because I know there's nothing to it.
I'm so busy playing despondent that I cant figure o
tights , toe shoes , troubleWe're kissing in a closet.tights , toe shoes , trouble10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Not exactly a stage, but I've got high nerves anyway.
My feet are arched to a ballerina's point and I'm all but
'falling out of my jewelry box'
"I'm off to the city. I Breathe Broadway."
You Said: "Forget it, doll. Forget coming back to me. I wont want you by
the time you're too used and loveless to be valuable to
You mean everything to me, bu
I'll Sit This One OutYou took the stars out of her eyes and placed them in the sky.I'll Sit This One Out9 years ago in Scraps More Like This
It seemed nice until you realized she can only see in black and white now.
To make it up to her, he visits with a look that says he's not really sure why he's here or why he feels like he owes this girl.
(small talk turns not-quite-casual)
He feels compelled to ask her how she is.
"Right as rain."
And as it's sinking in that he's the one who ruined her smile and made all her laughs hollow,
he thinks he hears something along the lines of:
"Baby you don't know how bad it is."
"You don't know how much I need you."
Then again, it could just be the wind.
(shrug it off. Go on, shrug off the thing that's killing her.)
Her chair scrapes backwards and he asks "you wouldn't lie to me, woul
3am WaterworksWide eyes shot butterflies,3am Waterworks8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
my organs contained them in a cage.
I sat, studied, I'd explain-
"I heard a drop of "self control" and "confidence in God."
Watched it shatter, shake, disintergrate-
We'd stop, we'd kiss, we'd hold, and you'd say-
"Breathe ,Girlie, breathe. Breathe babe please pray for me.
Cause I'm hands felt on spines
trembling nerves as I push the rewind
to hear a delayed message of regret but I'll keep-
Stages And ActsI take careful steps to the center of the stage, pull a deep breath, and yellStages And Acts10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"This isnt what I meant it to be."
Excuse: "forced myself to cry" Truth: "I cant keep myself together these days."
I'm up. Wish me luck. Break a leg, break a heart, whatever.
"my eyes water so bad now, they're almost always
black. my problem's gotten so bad now, my teeth
are turning black."
Do you like my smile?
"I'm giving up on everything.
Well, not my little habit.
I've got control of it."
Memorized lines. Because I relate so well.
I shot you a look that mattered. You gave me a glance that shattered.
I hate when you and me share eye contact-
it almost makes
I'm Thinking Lip LockMy breathing is steady.I'm Thinking Lip Lock10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am sinking into pillows in the same way that a ship sinks in the ocean.
with grace, with horrifying beauty, and without help.
The light that drifts in through the blinds
shadows half of your face and underlines my request
for you to be the cloest thing I've ever been able to call "company".
You can only nod and shut the shades completely.
Dancing across the sheets brings us face to face; toe to toe.
Breaks are automatic.
I'm going for a collision. a wreck of any type.
Sunlight rips my eye lids open.
this dream only works when my eyes are closed and you're imprinted on the insides.
Ripping out my eyelashes to pass the time.
I waste away daylight making unrealistic wishes.
i wrote you down,I wrote you down,i wrote you down,9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
because I could not bear to
keep you in my head any longer.
You were a lot of attempted
beginnings and unfinished
endings. Every word I wrote
confined and limited you. There was
just something beautifully intangible
about leaving you unwritten.
I could never grasp you, I never
wanted to. You were always
just out of my reach. And I
And I began to lose you, in
some beautifully heartbreaking
manner. I said it was healthy. I
said you were a dream. That your
ghost was just residue from some faint
memory of your face.
I had to say goodbye.
So I wrote you down as
best as I could.
I wrote down absolutely nothing.
And I threw you in the fire, as
if it were your final bow. To watch you
And you did. Every word you
never spoke, every feeling
you never shared, flickered
and danced on the ends
of the flames.
And then you were gone.
And I was free.
I was here and you were
so far away.
I loved you. And I know that now.
And somedays, I think
recoveringi am forever rewriting myselfrecovering2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with strokes of ink
running dry within the pen,
with pencils shrunken
so small that the point
i coloured myself with shades
of black and blue,
begging for the shadows
of my bones to come forth
and tell everyone
the things i can never remember
i swam in coral reefs
til my arms were marred
and my wrists tattered
because the silence beneath the water
was too much to hear.
today i am painting myself
in roses and peaches,
white teeth and red lips
because smiling and marker
speak so much louder
than the things i've tried
and shout with no pause
today i am choosing
to swallow health
and spit my words
so that finally
i can be heard
the memory in my jaw
that make my smile