BreatheBreathe,Breathe3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just take a big,
I will be okay,
I will be okay,
I will not cry,
I will NOT CRY,
I WON'T CUT,
OH, JUST FUCK IT.
Take A Good Long LookLook around,Take A Good Long Look2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is that a smile or a frown?
Can't you tell?
Can't you see
That it is all
A big show.
Can You Even,
know what is real?
Can You tell?
Can you tell?
Smiles and kisses
Screams and frowns.
All so similar to us now.
LettersI'm a little paranoid,Letters2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As if everyone is out to get me,
break me open and steal everything.
Does it matter if this smile isn't real?
I can't feel anything anymore.
Why do I feel so nervous inside?
As if everything wants to die?
Can't I just close my eyes,and
live my life?
I see you standing there as
if nothing matters,
What if I came over, and
gave you my
I wrote it with you in mind,
just a piece of the kindness
I was feeling,
A little more then just words
That no matter what I do,
I will never forget about you.
Now please keep this close in mind,
That love is true, but I'll never
get it from you.
Always and ForeverAlways you said.Always and Forever3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Always love me.
Always be with me.
Always protect me.
That didn't include
Would You?Would you miss me?Would You?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I died right now,
would you miss me?
If you found me dead at your doorstep,
would you cry?
Would you even care?
Would you go to the funeral
and cry with my parents?
Would you look up to a faceless god
and pray in his false name-
ask him to take me up to heaven?
If I died today,
would you go back
and look at all the broken promises?
Would you finally feel sorry?
Would you care about my broken heart-
the way you crushed it time and time again?
Would you finally try to fix all of it
even though everybody would know it was already too late?
It's never too late you say?
Everything About YouYour really not good,Everything About You3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You never know,
what to say.
You always forget,
to reply hey.
Your new at this,
but, all I really want,
is for you to kiss,
and easy to talk to.
in every way.
You can always,
make the pain go away.
You know everything,
So I question,
are you going to set me free?
With my blade and my penI promised myself I wouldn't do it againWith my blade and my pen3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Yet here I am with my blade, not my pen
Forget the paper, I'll just use my arm
Despite what they say, I do it for harm
No, I don't need a pencil.
and I don't want a stencil;
I'll make a creation all my own,
and on my body it will be shown.
Full of criss-cross lines
that drape down my wrist like vines.
I'll color it red
with all the words that you said
and I'll bring it down deep
to try and wake myself from this sleep
I promised myself I wouldn't do it again
Yet here I am with my blade, and my pen.
Sealed With a KissI never knew,Sealed With a Kiss3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I never knew anything,
Until I knew everything,
I didn't want to know.
If ignorance is bliss,
I'll kill it with a kiss,
I killed it with a kiss,
I never thought I'd miss this.
I swear it's a lie,
Cross my heart and hope to die.
DepressionDepression9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Can you really sit in a tunnel of noise and yet hear only silence?
Can you scream so loud that you feel as though your heart will break and yet make no sound at all?
Can you be so trapped within yourself that you see no way out?
How can it be possible to need someone so badly but want every one to stay away even more?
How can you exist in a moment but have no emotions attached?
How can you be in so much pain that you are no longer able to feel?
The overwhelming sense that one more moment of anything that amounts to more than nothing will be more than too much?
Trying to make sense of it all.
Asking questions, trying to understand, trying to be more than the moment but being so buried in it that it suffocates.
Trying to try.
Holding on to the belief in self.
The endless fighting to prove that the lies are the lies and the truth is the truth and someone else's eyes create the muddle and confusion.
The want to believe that things are as they should be, that all the numbers add up.
Just AskAsk me if I'm okay.Just Ask3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I know I've already told you I am, but ask anyway.
Ask so that I can tell you I'm not.
I want to tell you I'm falling apart.
I'm sinking lower and lower into this and I can't move past it.
Ask me if I'm okay so that I can cry on your shoulder.
I need someone to make me feel safe again.
I need to feel like I'm wanted by somebody.
Everything is just so fucked up lately.
It feels like I've lost everybody that's ever mattered.
Please, just ask me if I'm okay one more time.
You're supposed to come back and see that I'm lying.
You're supposed to stay until I tell you the truth.
I need to feel loved, and you took that away.
Just give me something back in return.
Tell me that I'm good enough for somebody.
Say that I'm good enough for you.
Look me in the eye and tell me you know I'm not okay.
Hold me in your arms and keep me protected.
I know you can see the pain here.
Just ask me one more time.
I promise I'll give you the right answer this time.
I can tell you I'm not okay.
Something I cant ForgetEverytime I close my eyesSomething I cant Forget3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I see your face
I hear your voice
Traveling back to the day
When I came to know
Another side of me
A side of compassion
Compassion so long with-held
I wasnt sure I still possessed it
But you found it
You set it free
With that first hug in your kitchen
I know I shouldnt
The pain should be too much to still care
But I miss the feeling of being wanted
I miss how you held me
The more I remember the more I smile
The more I remember the more I cry
LinesPerfect lines,Lines3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Love the feeling,
My head is realing,
What's so wrong,
Can't You Hear Me?Hello,Can't You Hear Me?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Don't you hear me?
Don't you hear my cries?
Out to you.
You don't answer.
You don't answer.
You don't answer.
And all I get is an E
I need help.
I need you.
Don't you hear me?
Don't you understand?
Can't you give me a hand?
SymphonyWith whispered words we watched the moon explode;Symphony3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Stars lit up like fire,
Captivated by your mouth I did not notice the horizon;
It burned ever on.
The softest water danced between your lashes,
And as you closed your eyes they fell
Onto my skin,
Creating blissful harmony
Broken by a single thought;
So reluctant, my heart cried,
The game of sin was spun.
Burdened with the weight of the world,
I let our symphonies go unsung.
Heart-MurderGrab the knife.Heart-Murder3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Strike my heart.
Watch as blood impacts the floor in rolling waves.
My clothes start to stain crimson, like your own.
Skin faded into Death's pale bone.
Breaths tearing to escape my lungs.
Tears now flowing in rivers down my face,
begin crashing to the ground like thunder.
Do you see what you've done?
Who do you think you are?
Are you scared?
Because it's killing me.
Go. Now.Get away from me.Go. Now.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How could you..
You said you loved me!
You said you wanted it to work!
But you won't fight.
No you won't try.
And what are you doing?
Playing video games?
I'm so fucking done with life.
Love isn't real.
What is love?
Nothing worth fighting for.
Not when you won't fight for me...
To die alone,
From my own bloody hands.
This Is For YouIt's not for looks.This Is For You3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
It's not to fit in.
And it's not for your criticism.
Cutting, Burning, and something I call Breathing are all emotional filters. They help calm the burning physical pain of that single individual. The physical pain takes your mind away from the horrible aching pain in your heart, and in your soul.
Though it is NOT something I would suggest. Ever. But it is a popular route for those in pain. I don't expect everyone to understand this, I also don't expect everyone to stop and actually comprehend this. Everywhere you look, it says that if you know a friend that is physically harming themselves make sure you get them help. Okay, yes harming yourself is bad. But do you want your friend hurting on the inside. I've been to therapy and it didn't help. I think of the people that need me. Of the people that actually care. If you're reading this, and you're a cutter listen to this. You are loved. If not by your friends, or by your family, message me. I swear on my l
Dreams DestroyedTwo dreams crushed today.Dreams Destroyed2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Taken and destroyed.
You stomped on them.
You spit on them,
And all they did was try.
You kicked them.
You burned them.
You left them there to die.
All they ever wanted,
Was for you to try.
You hurt me bad.
You hurt me "love".
And now I'm gonna hurt me too.
Thank you "hun"
Thank you "babe"
Would you like to pull the trigger too?
I'm Done.I'm done.I'm Done.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Don't think I'll be back.
What on earth have you done?
What you said.
What you did.
Can never be undone.
So I'm done.
My heart is frozen.
My thoughts are repeating.
My eyes are not dry.
But I'm done.
I'll never love again.
Who believes in love away.
Life is pain.
Life is lies.
like you were doing this for me.
If you were,
you wouldn't have told me to leave.
But I'm done.
So don't worry about me...
Just worry about cleaning up the bloody mess I leave.
The Key To His Heart You gave me the key to your heart...you begged me to lockThe Key To His Heart3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
your heart away from danger, to keep it safe with mine...but what you
didn't know is that my heart was locked in barbed wire...i let my
feelings get a head of me, thinking your heart really would be safe
with mine, and put it to close.
As days passed, your heart was slowly scratched up by mine.
But you kept a smile on your face, no matter how much i hurt you.
Your Pain turned into anger, and my sorrow turned to hate.
Angry words flashed between us. You coped with alcohol, while
i coped with pain pills.
The anger slowly faded between us, replaced by numbness and
You cry during the day, sitting alone in your cabin, slowly
sipping from a warm beer, while I sit in class, so far away from
I cry during the night, cuddled in a ball in my bed, taking
I have been taughtI have been taught3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I have been taught to fear the darkness
and look but to the light
to accept the life before me
and never try to fight..
I've been told that this is fate
and I'm all I'll ever be...
But somehow I just know
their is more than what I see..
In dreams I walk in darkness
trying to find my way
in a place that has no meaning
nor a night or a day...
My eyes are open blindly
for I do not see the light
But I seek the senseless nothings
hidden in the night..
'Do not fear the darkness'
'Do not be afraid'
for with the break of dawn
your nightmares they will fade...
But what if what I fear
does not linger while I dream?
But is hidden in the light
as a foe that is not seen?
I've been told to trust the morning
to turn from the night...
but I do not bow down freely
For my dreams I do fight...
Her RoutineShe hopes not to caveHer Routine3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To the pressure of her parents
To the pressure of school
To the pressure of friends
To the pressure of sports
She hopes to be good enough
For her parents
For her teachers
For her friends
Yet she knows shes not
She hopes everything will be okay
But she knows it won't be
She goes into her room
She turns and locks the door
She plugs in her headphones
She lays on her bed
She closes her eyes
She takes a deep breath
And she cries out her soul
This is her routine