Social PhobiaPeople scare meSocial Phobia3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
this world is a scary place
why is everyone staring at me?
They must think I'm not worth it
Hiding alone in the corner
crying my heart out
why is this world a scary place?
Why am I hiding all alone?
There is no true feeling
no fear that i ever had
a feeling of restlessness
a feel of hate and disgust
Why is it crowded around here?
why are they all looking at me?
I can't control these emotions
I need to hide from this world for good
Life of DepressionLiving with a mood disorder makes every day a struggle. A struggle to wake up in the morning, a struggle to get yourself ready for the day, a struggle to maintain relationships – a struggle to smile and mean it. I’ve never been professionally diagnosed, but I know something’s not right. I knew around the beginning of high school. Something isn’t right, isn’t balanced, inside of me. I’ve read enough books to give these thoughts and feelings a name – depression.Life of Depression6 years ago in Academic Essays More Like This
The commercials which say depression hurts everywhere are right. It hurts emotionally, cognitively, physically, and behaviorally. It makes me feel sad and hopeless, lonely and confused, angry and dragged down. It makes me think that no one cares and no one understands, that I can’t handle my life or even myself, and that I don’t have much value. It makes me sluggish and restless, eating too much, and having trouble falling asleep and waking up. It makes me cry spontaneously an
Hiding my DepressionHiding my depression behind a mask of happiness,Hiding my Depression9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
trying to be like everyone else by not showing my true nature.
Depression is who I am nothing can change that,
I'm not happy, I'm sad on the inside but people cannot see it.
I'm hiding my depression from a truly judgemental world,
They wouldn't understand my feelings at all.
This depression grows stronger with each angery moment,
Consuming my soul and making me hide more of myself.
I'm hiding my depression from all my family and freinds,
They wouldn't be able to fathom what they can't understand.
They see a cheery person when they look at my smile,
But stare into my cold eyes and you can tell I'm dead inside.
I'm hiding my depression from a truly happy world,
There is no one else like me, I'm all alone.
They wouldn't understand what I'm going through,
They'd push their happiness on me, and make my saddness worse.
I'm hiding my depression from this evil world.
I will never show my true side, or maybe I will.
Maybe someday I'll show how I
I am a monsterI am a monsterI am a monster4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
in this darken world
No one wants to be near me
as i cant control myself
I am a monster
of so many sizes
a monster on the inside
but trying to control my anger
Living in my darken life
loving all morbid things
i am a monster
and a demon from hell
No one wants to be near
this wicked monster
no one wants to be near me
as my dark side is out of control
Loving my black
loving my eyeliner
I am a monster
from the demon hell
I was born to live in!
Two little scars...two little scars,Two little scars...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
on my left wrist,
faded and dark
from a long
they tell me,
i gave in
that i was
weak and useless
my first little
and left me
with the memory
of the needle
tearing my flesh
the small lines of blood
how i loved the feeling
the two little
that i always re-open
everytime i start
those little scars
those two little
scars have a story
of pain, loss, of greed
they got me addicted
now the two scars taunt me
no longer can i
no longer must i
tear my flesh
no longer can i
give into my addiction
but my two little
keep me company
remind me why i love it
but they taunt
no longer do i
have that pleasure
but i do have
my two little scars,
on my left wrist
faded with age
but still there
my two little scars...
HelpI.Help6 years ago in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
I cant handle this anymore
I cant laugh anymore
I cant hold this mask any longer
Anything could be fatal
Im like the lonely depressed girl on the painting
The invisible one
I want to scream, cry
And fight against the depression.
But i cant.
Because the paint is holding me captive
I cant enjoy the smell of flowers anymore
I dont know why
(maybe because their color
of happiness i once felt)
I used to like pies.
I hate them like I hate myself.
(maybe its because
reminds me of the love
I once let slip between my fingers)
Please get me out of here.
DepressionI smileDepression6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As you talk to me
I don't find what's so funny
In your empty words
Sometimes my smiles and laughs
Are from deep inside
And are really, truly
I usually don't care
Days go by
As I stare
At the empty board
In front of me
As I wait for someone
I think of tears
Drenching my face as rain
Remembering the choked sobs
I try and suppress
But Is it real?
Does anyone understand
How I feel?
The road ahead
Is so long
As if I can never stop it
But I keep strong
Even though the rain
Keeps pouring down
When I'm alone
I try to meet your eye
But I really am thinking
Is this what it is like to die?
DepressionTrapped in darkness,Depression7 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Like a tiny box closing in, choking me.
They call it nothing,
But we few sufferers call it depression,
A black gaping hole in our lives,
They call it attention seeking, we call it life
The SuicideI saw your pain,The Suicide10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and yet I did not try to fix it.
I saw the tears,
and yet I could not dry them.
You talked of your troubles,
and yet I gave no time to listen.
I feel as though I could have saved you, now.
I made no effort at all.
I feel as though I added to your anguish.
I wanted to help, but I didn't know what to do.
I cannot imagine the pain you must have been in,
forgive me for not seeing.
Oh, God, I don't know why I couldn't see!
Blinded by my own petty distractions and excuses
Too busy to save you...
I am so sorry, Dan,
And I pray that you're in heaven as I pray for forgiveness.
Please know that I cried for you once it all sunk in.
I have never cried like that before.
Please know that I am sorry.
Depression hurtsBroken, shattered, torn into piecesDepression hurts5 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Caught in a world where everyday life ceases
Depression, cutting, bleeding my heart
Everything I loved is all falling apart
Everyday life feels more like a chore
There's not a whole lot I can do anymore
I don't expect you to understand the pain
although, if you did, I wouldn't have to explain
One cannot say "no pain no gain"
For emotional pain is hard to maintain
It cuts deeper than the deepest cut
Imagine a wound that would never shut
You bleed and bleed but you put on a smile
thinking if you do, the pain would go away for a while
But at night is when it all comes back
everything you tried hard for, all falls off track
You often wonder if life is worth living
when people around you can be so unforgiving
and no matter how much you try to stop crying
inside, emotionally, you feel like your dying
Before you even think or say "stop being so depressed"
We wish we could and it's causing us more stress
It doesn't go away with a mere hug or a kiss
Do you re