I have done it, again.
I have been here many times before.
Hurt myself again today.
And the worst part is,
There's no one else to blame.
Tears threatened at the corners of her eyes. She stared helplessly into the mirror, her wrist turned away from her body awkwardly, so she could see it.
She breathed out harshly in a dry sob, resisting the urge to break the mirror. She yanked her sleeve down, covering the fresh cuts as she swung her backpack up onto her shoulder and walked out of the bathroom. The hallway was busy. No one would notice her.
Breathing slowly, she weaved through classmates until she reached the door, pushing it open forcefully and stepping out. The cool fall wind struck her skin, raising goosebumps. She shivered slightly, but kept walking.
The urge to cry got stronger and stronger the farther she walked, and finally, she gave
stuckUNDERmySkINOur eyes meet and the room begins to spinstuckUNDERmySkIN3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Something so perfect is must be a sin
You're a god lost in human skin
A reminder I don't want to be where I've been
Ring of fire, ring of void, ring on the hand of your soon-to-be wife
A symbol of devotion thoughout this life
To stay by your side through the glory and strife
Darling, don't beg me to put down the knife.
Perhaps I do like it when the blood runs red
Though maybe I don't like whatever you said
Silver and glass coat the ground we now tread
Reflecting like mirrors the tears that I bled
You're my rescue from this crazy fight
Cause if I have you I don't care who's right
Life will continue and this love will ignite
Everything that shines in the dead of the night.
Song of a Difficult GirlA tortured artist, I might beSong of a Difficult Girl4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And somehow he knows I can't see
Just how much he really cares about me.
And maybe I do take advantage of the way
He holds me when I cry on a rainy day
Even if I tell him I don't want to stay.
I don't know why he puts up with what I put him through
But if he ever wasn't there, I don't know what I'd do
I don't want anyone else to have his 'I love you'.
Tomorrow morning, before my day is spun
I'll try not to think about the life after this one
But remember my blessings and the brightness of the sun
Because he's my light within the rain
An angel I've been gifted for all the pain
Even if I forget, even if I complain--
He'll forgive me of my sins and help me up to try again.
Un-safe Saftey PinThere's a bent safety pin.Un-safe Saftey Pin5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
On the shelf by the bed.
That one bent pin.
Has helped blood be shed.
With a sharp point,
Skin was carved.
With the coils on the end,
The monster was never starved.
That clasp for protection,
Supposed to hide the danger.
Only exposed the furry,
Of the self as a stranger.
Yes that bent safety pin,
The crooked sharp one.
See that pin and know,
No good has been done.
Listen To Me Bleeding is something we all do right? Then why is it that every tear, ever drop of blood we shed is so unique? It's because they always have a different insult. We as a race care far too much about what people say. No matter how wise, we are hyper sensitive.Listen To Me4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Why is it that we say cruel things? Because we are taught that way. It's because we see them do it everyday. We do it as a form of protection. It's defensive. We as a people are wicked, no matter how kind we seem to believe we are.
Why do we think our lives are unimportant? It's because they tell us they are often. But that's a lie. Every life is important! Every soul has a reason! Be it to save a life or simply be the apple of someone's eye. You are important. We are important.
Hear me my friends. Listen to me my fiends. For i shall only say this once
You have no rightYou have no right to feel badYou have no right5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No right to feel sad
Why do you hurt yourself?
I know people who suffered more than you
in this life
You never told me how your life was but I know you never went
through some really terrible
You're just seeking attention
And doing it because is a trend nowadays
If you're going to harm yourself
Do it only if you're going to commit suicide
If suicide is not your goal, don't even think about doing it!
Get a fucking life!
written in august 26, 2010
Love She WroteLove...Love She Wrote5 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Love she wrote
For all the world to see
A promise, a sacrifice
She gave it up for me...
Love she wrote
In thick black pen
She gave it up, threw it all away
Never going back again...
Love she wrote
Scrawled across her wrist
A signal, a remindewr
Don't ever do this...
Love she wrote
For a ll the world to see
A promise, a sacrifice
That she made for me.
WaitingWaitingWaiting4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want to leave and go far away
Because all that is here,
Is your painful memory.
I wake up every morning,
My eyes filling with tears,
Because the spot next to me
I was addicted to
The happiness and love
You made me feel
I loved how you
Filled my senses and
Invaded my mind
And how you could make
The hurt and pain go away.
You made me believe in true love,
But now I understand a broken heart.
I thought we were meant to be
Forever and always
You left me.
Crying in the rain.
I have never felt so
Alone or hurt,
Bet never more in love either.
I miss you.
I love you.
I need you.
But it doesn't matter
You needed what I couldn't give you.
You wanted someone who I am not.
And so you gave up on me
Once you found that someone who could,
Love wasn't enough for us,
And you left my heart in pieces
But I meant it when I said forever.
I'll always be here waiting.
The Beauty Of A LieTell me lies, tell me what I want to hear,The Beauty Of A Lie5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The known solution before the universal fear,
Tell me, the bank account is full,
That without a drop of blood, you get wool,
Tell me, every piece of rubbish has a home,
That, no grandparent has to ever be alone,
Tell me, cars preform without the pollution,
That, gods hand is the same as evolution,
Tell me, that no child has to hide,
That, differences co exists on the same side,
Tell me, that we accept more then we have seen,
That, a gun can only exists in my dream,
Tell me, love is more powerful then hate,
That, god doesn't discriminate when standing at heavens gate,
Tell me, food sources can't run out,
That, a whisper has the same affect as a shout,
Tell me, that no reaction is strange,
That, we control the ability to rearrange,
Tell me, that anyone can have regret,
That, I will always forget,
Tell me lies, tell me what I want to hear,
My child died, the reason behind each wanted miss steer,
Like a DrugWhat starts as a thoughtLike a Drug5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Evolves into an urge
Then becomes an action.
Happiness is out of my reach
If I can control nothing else,
Let me control my pain.
Blades dig into my forearm,
Metal races against my skin.
While euphoria races through my body,
Stress evacuates my body
In the form of bright red liquid.
It's like a drug
After the first high, you only crave more.
Press, cut, feel
More pain, more cuts, more relief.
Nothing exists but my razor and me,
Nothing else matters.
My secrets are concealed by my clothing,
No one will know,
No one will understand.
Nightmares.I used to have this dreamNightmares.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I was back in my old school
About to be hurt.
But at the last moment,
You'd save me
And hold me
And whisper to me
'I'll look after you...You're safe now'.
Now I have this dream
I'm back in my old school
And I'm hurting.
And at no point
Do you save me.
I know you're behind that door.
And you don't come.
Until I'm a bloody mess on the floor
Then you walk out
And I'm all alone to be hurt
Hospital HellI'm stuck here in this hell,Hospital Hell5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
what people call a hospital.
But to me its a living nightmare.
Forced to eat, forced to stay here,
no way out theres no way out.
I clutch my head as the screaming and voices,
makes me insane, it makes me crazy.
I just have to get out, i gotta get out.
I scratch at the door till my nails bleed.
Its not worth it anymore,
Its just not worth it.
Rusty Steak KnifeRusty steak knife,Rusty Steak Knife4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Slice them up,
Hear them scream,
Tie them up,
Taste their fear,
Oh so sweet,
All they know,
Hear them scream,
Hear them shout,
Now there is,
No way out!