Suicidal Looking down this 63 story high building was terrifying. Looking back was mortifying. Living a lie, mistake after mistake was deadly. I felt like a thousand needles were piercing through my chest, to my heart. Like I was bleeding out slowly from the inside. Such pain had to be ended quickly. Only one step. Just one. That's all death required...Suicidal4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
"Ann, Carole, Dave... my sweethearts... Well, at least I left them a note. But a note probably wasn't enough. I also told everybody I loved them, this morning except for Roger... but I didn't even like him." I thought.
Then, the worst thing happened. The wind picked up right when it shouldn't have, for no apparent reason, which made me stumble and evidently... fall. Fall to my death. The death I was so impatiently waiting for, but now was dreading. I wasn't ready yet. But there was no going back. It was over. Nothing under me but cars I-don't-know-how-many meters below and
SuicidalSuicidal10 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Just let me die,
because it's easier than living,
just let me slip away,
because life is less forgiving.
Don't try to console me,
because I already left you,
don't try to change my mind,
because I warned you, you knew.
Stop the finger pointing,
because you're the reason I tried,
stop throwing around the blame,
because you encouraged my suicide.
Leave me alone,
because you only bring pain,
leave my life,
because it's for my gain.
I'm sick of you pretending,
because I know you coudln't care less,
I'm sick of you hating me,
because you created your own mess.
Forget the apologies,
because they weren't sincere,
forget the excuses,
because they aren't even near,
compensating for the pain you instigated,
compensating for the monster you've created,
compensating for all the lies that've faded,
into the backround, the tears that cascaded,
down my face as I realized,
that you weren't my friend,
you were just trying to use me again.