WordsThey're only words, a bunch of letters,
Black marks on a bright screen,
So why can't she bring herself to delete them,
Put them where they'll never again be seen?
All it would take is one push of a button,
And they would be gone for eternity,
She wouldn't have to endure them,
Those loving words of agony.
She doesn't understand,
She's not a glutton for pain,
Yet she can't tell anyone about it,
Else they'd think her insane.
But as she gazes down at those beautiful words,
She can't stop the glittering in her eyes,
Can't she keep them a little longer?
Just until her love for you dies?
She hates herself for being so weak,
And she knows what she should do,
But she's afraid of doing it,
Because she's terrified of forgetting you.
Only one thing she knows for certain,
And it must stay true,
She can't let you know how much she hurts,
Because she knows it would kill you.
WordsWords of the world that can't be spoken.Words5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Words that can't be broken.
Words as a single promise once kept.
Words living in the moment lifelines running through our veins.
Words that bring Memories once had fading in a gaze.
Words meant to be.
He Is Sitting Alone Again...He is sitting alone again.He Is Sitting Alone Again...5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
His shoulders sagging, limp.
Almost as if he has no energy to hold them high with pride.
I wonder, but I am afraid to ask
Who has driven him to believe he is nothing?
The sun is kissing his skin again, highlighting his beautiful imperfections.
Is he ashamed?
Scars wrap themselves around his slender wrists.
Delicate lines of silver, a puzzle of past pain.
He winces as people walk past.
What would he do if I went up to him?
Would he take my hand if I were to hold it out?
Would he look past me seeing only what he wants?
I do not understand.
His eyes are dark, lost in a doomed depression.
He is crying now.
Tears slip over his high cheekbones glistening in the fractured light.
I want to hold him and show him someone loves him.
Walking Through My RealityBlack roses speak from where the heart never wishes to goWalking Through My Reality5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because we must stay in fear
We fear what we have not yet seen
Mysterious sounds keep us on edge
The unknown traps us in the reality of the real world and the throws of imagination
Something that can never leave us
The taste stays on the tips of our tongues
It's sweet and we want more of it
Unless it's too sour, then we dont want it again
We want what we all want
What all our hearts so vigoriously desire
And yet we can say we're not ready to see what we really want
So you choose not to answer the phone
Simply because you're not sure who's on the other end
It's never that simple
If she touched your hand you'd probably flinch
When the first kiss happened, what will you say
You'd perfer the moments to freeze in time
When it comes down to it, we were never ready to live
Or die for that matter
But that option has always seemed easier
Escaping reality, Escaping unwanted dreams
When you're thrown into reality unwillingly
It leaves your
I'm falling apart.I can feel it, I'm crumblingI'm falling apart.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
into a thousand pieces. My china-
skin is finally cracking,
splintering off shards and
jagged, whispering edges.
I know I'm self-destructing
I'm disintegrating, and
before long I'll be caught in
time, held in a moment
before crashing down.
The peeling glue which held
me together, it's tearing away.
the sticking plasters which
covered the cuts, they're
falling apart at my fingertips.
The hushed words, the quiet
vows, they're nothing to me
anymore. They healed the bruises,
they sewed up the slashes
but those promises were lies.
I hope you're watching, liar
as I disappear slowly into that spiral
of nothingness. The carefully
pieced together jigsaw of my life
is missing a piece.
And so it all comes to ruin.
Loner by the RiverLonerLoner by the River5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That's how they called me
When I walked right down the hill
In the biting cold
To a flowing little river
I followed on my stream of consciousness
For someone to save me from my solitude
I threw a rock and bounced it
On the sparkling sunlit reflections
Memories, good old days
Came back to mind without reason
Painted on invisible canvas
I couldn't talk, yet wanted to hear
Someone listening to me
To my voiceless help request
"I am here"
I wasn't even so sure anymore
All I had been together with
Was the bottomless still water and my inner self
In silent grievance
To the point I became my past
A slightly lighter shade of colour
An illusion, a chimera
Had I ever really existed?
Seems like nothing matters anymore
This stream, my stream
Neither of them made a difference
Since there was none to begin with
Silent drowning came to an end, nothing remained
I'm still feeling somewhat blue
In this world in black and white.
What Do You See?When you look in my eyes,What Do You See?5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What do you see?
When I look into my eyes,
What do I see?
Why do perspectives have to be so different?
I'm the same person,
But no one sees the truth
There's an act
An act that anyone can put on
Appear simply happy
But be dying underneath
It's one of the only two things that's sure in life
Death and taxes
I wish that at least one person could see how I feel
Know how hard life is
For me, at least
I can't handle it
I need to tell someone
Show who I really am
I can't keep hiding behind this mask
It's all I can do from ripping it off
And throwing it in the trash
But then I know I'd let everyone down
Even though I don't see how
I'm only me
I'm not special
I'm not anything.
There are so many better people in life
People who are actually worth something
Why can't I be like that?
Because I will never be special
I will never be anything
Except one who takes up space
Why is h
AloneI can't breathe,Alone5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My fear has overtaken me.
Spiraling and falling,
I lose all control.
Sheltered no more,
I hide exposed.
Hating the lies,
That kept me together.
Where is my salvation?
Where is my hope?
There is none,
For I don't want to be seen,
In this weakened state,
Alone and helpless.
Spread our wingsTake a chance.Spread our wings5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Roll the dice.
See where it can take you to such great heights.
To live life as it is.
Fully alive to follow our dreams.
Fully alive to set foot and spread our wings.
When I Was LittleJust because I don't remember a whole lot doesn't mean it didn't happen.When I Was Little5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I remember that you lied.
You said he didn't want us.
they didn't want us.
It isn't true. I don't know if you believe it, but
it isn't true.
She told me, you know. The one I can only dream is my mother.
Told me how I took care of my little sister, made sure
that she had food. I was almost four, at the oldest.
I stored food for years, even after I no longer needed to stock up
to make sure I
to make sure we had enough.
I don't remember all of it, but I remember that.
Remember you being asleep
or maybe you were passed out
in that big recliner, and she and I snuck around, stayed up all night,
shared a bowl of cookie dough.
We were hungry.
I remember the window being broken,
the huge window that takes up most of the front
of the house.
I remember a guy named Jason.
There were others, but I don't remember them so well.
I don't remember you almost dying,
don't remember you leaving us alone,
'Till my fingers bleedI'm going to play till my fingers bleed,'Till my fingers bleed5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
till the blood pours over the keys
and turns into music,
I'm going to play until I find peace,
until I can't think of anything else
but the melody I'm playing,
but the notes that are flowing out of my head
and out to the open,
so they can be heard by all,
I'm going to play till my tears stop falling
and I can't cry anymore
my eyes will become dry,
I'm going to play till I stop thinking of you
because I don't want to,
I'm going to play till I stop missing you,
and dreaming of you,
no matter how long it takes,
even if I have to play forever...
Am IAm I everything?Am I5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Everything you imagined me to be
Am I that gem you compared me
Strong, molded, and Beautiful
Am I someone you'd be proud of?
Important, impactful, and perfect
These questions filling my head hurt me so
I feel I've grown to nothing
Because life silently took you from me
I am now someone you'd never know
What am I?
I Will Count The StarsThe stars that illuminate the deep void of nightI Will Count The Stars5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The stars we wish upon, the stars we rely on
To guide us and lead us down the scripted path
The stars that vanish and burn away with the rising sun
The stars that shoot acrss the sky
Leaving behind the lonesome stardust
The lost stardust left to fend for itself
Left to find its own way in a place it does not recognize
And eventually finding itself as its own star one day
My pain has crystallized in my eyes
As they appear as tearless streaks of sorrow
The longing that I feel deep within my chest
That empty abyss I cannot fill up again
My throat too tight to utter a sound
Too closed to speak and tell you
I will count the stars that shimmer in the night sky
Each and every one that twinkles so high
I lie here counting each possibility and regret
I will count the stars that shimmer in the night sky
And the number will match that of these scars
The scars that do not represent my true sadness
I will count the stars in the night sky
And maybe th
My life..Chaos and lonelinessMy life..5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My constant companions...
Sadness and anger
My only friends...
Despair and misery
Luck and fate
Shadow and hate
"Birth a curse,Death a gift"
Its finally over"Dont do it," the little voice in my head pleads. But if i dont then the pain will never stop, i counter. "Theres got to be another way." No there isnt! Ive tried yelling, i tried poetry, i even tried cutting. And the cutting worked for a while but its not helping as much anymore. Tears are streaking down my face and the voice is at a loss for words. Exactly, so shut the hell up and let me have my last moments in peace. And with that, i got up, walked to the medicine cabinet and downed a whole bottle of pills. I stood there for a while and stared at the image reflecting back at me in the mirror. It was then that i knew i was finally going to die. It was strange though, i didnt shake and convulse or start throwing up. Instead i felt really sleepy. I stood there in front of the mirror waiting, waiting for all those pills to take affect and stop my heart for good. As i was waiting and willing the pills to finish me off, my legs gave out and i started to fall. It seemed then that everythinIts finally over5 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Paper HeartIn the brightest darknessPaper Heart5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In my deepest sorrow
I finally see what is wrong with me
I can't get over her
You can see how I feel
All these memories
That keep haunting me
Of a paper heart cut into pieces
By the scissors it fell for
He cannot forget her
When these days come and go
I'll remember what seems to be not to long ago
And as weeks fly by
These scars won't escape my eye
I'll tape myself back together
I'll fall apart when I walk past her
And I still hold these piece in my arms
The torn up shreds of my paper heart
The pieces that keep falling apart
I still wonder what happened to us
Was it something I've done? Was it something she said?
I can't keep putting the pieces together
I'm falling apart each time I think about her
And my paper heart is crumpled up
This paper heart is cut up and torn up
And no tape, no glue, will make it whole again
And still I hold these pieces in my arms
Waiting to see what you can do to fix me
Waiting to see if things will go back to how they used to be
i wrote your name in the sandLast night, I stood on the banks andi wrote your name in the sand5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I wrote your name in the sand
Standing back from the water
I watched the waves wash it away
My tears join the tide
As it rushes back into the sea
It carries all my hopes
Of what we could've been
The warm sand becomes drenched
With the weight of my tears
As I try to let go
Of the dreams I held so close
Staring out, into the vast oceans
I tell myself everything is going to be alright
That I will overcome my heartache
That the pain you left will fade with time
I start to believe
As I stand here on the shore
The tides brush over my feet
As it rushed back to join the whole
I start to heal
Here in this lonely place
The cracks on my heart are washed away
As if they follow after your name
Last night, I stood on the banks and
I wrote your name in the sand
Standing back from the water
I watched the waves wash it away
Self-ExpressionI'm going to pull out all my paintbrushesSelf-Expression5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and run color down a canvas, then turn out all the lights
just to point out how useless self-expression seems to be
when you get down to the shady business of a drunken night...
I'm going to run my pen dry writing letters
and awkward poetry, then set fire to the pages
just to remind myself words only last as long as a breath
which I always seem to lose when I'm asked to speak the truth...
I'm going to stand on my own private stage
and recite Shakespeare from a faulty memory, then duly take a bow
just to point out how the crowd will clap for any show
when they know next to nothing about the story told...
I'm going to take candid photographs of everyone I know
and capture every moment, then watch time slip away
just to remind myself that I'll never hold on a minute
'cause time is flying by and it doesn't give a damn if we cry...
I'm going to grab an acoustic guitar and pluck a few awkward notes
and call it low-fi experimentation, then sing an ove
ButterflyYou call me Butterfly,Butterfly5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and when I ask why,
you say it's because
in your hands I am small.
In your hands I am fragile,
a harmless distraction,
a pretty thing soon to die,
then you will catch yourself a new Butterfly.
Thrown Away - MTC 3When this moon falls behind you,Thrown Away - MTC 35 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and i am cast into your shadow,
can you see the rose pierce my lips,
blood stained thorns falling to your feet,
screaming at your eyes?
When this day ends
and you are thrown aside,
do you not feel me reach for you,
keeping you from the ledge,
the jagged blades at its end
crawling towards your heart?
When you leave me tonight,
and i'm left stranded in your silhouette,
will you tell me goodbye,
lips falling toward my broken face,
When tonight is over,
and you lie alone once more,
who will remind you of this moment,
when we touched
and became thrown away:
a memory to regret.
Reminiscences Gazing into the mist I was.Reminiscences5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The way I used to into your eyes eras ago.
The howling wind promised me.
To bring me back a gasp of your voice, over soundless hills and a new breeze with a broken smile.
And drops of a tear. And drops of a rain.
With knocks and beats over long forgotten memories. With airstream flown away from a shuttered window.
And I wake up from a cloudy dream that I am a Golden Queen. Behind smog, above clouds.
Waiting. Waiting. Waiting
Waiting the first leaf to dry and fall again.
Waiting a winter, crawling slowly over hopes... Lost. In despair they sleep.
A Girl CanIt's really quite extraordinaryA Girl Can5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's so unreal and bizzare
How a girl can tear our world apart
How a girl can mend any wound
A girl can make you feel on top of the world
A girl can make you feel so invincible
A girl can fill any void in your heart
A girl can do the smallest things to make you smile
A girl could smile at you
And your world will fall apart as you smile back
A girl could strike you with awe
With a simple "hello"
A girl can make you feel like you're living at the bottom of hell
A girl can make you feel the greatest pain
A girl can leave you guilt stricken and left to die
A girl can do the smallest things to make you frown
A girl could shrug you off
And your world would crumble to ruin as you stand under it
A girl could make you feel so empty and helpless
With a simple "good bye"
It's truly unnatural and wrong
So fascinating and beautiful
How a girl can make you fall for them
How a girl can make you insane
A girl can build you up and tear you down
A girl could break your he
For These Things I AmFor all the things I couldn't do,For These Things I Am5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
For all my plans that fell through,
For the lies I told in lieu of truth,
I am sorrowful.
For all your tomorrows that wouldn't come,
For all my wrongs in their awful sum,
For the words I used that made you glum,
I am regretful.
For all the smiles you put on my face,
For all your beauty and all your grace,
For the warmth you gave in each embrace,
I am joyful.
Don't Cry, LoveTearsDon't Cry, Love5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Stream down your face
What have you done
Your salty cheek
That it's okay
It's all over now
But you keep crying
It's all your fault
It's all your fault
I hold you
Everything's going to be
I forgive you
Please stop crying
You bury your face
In my shoulder
I stroke your hair
I'm crying too
I'm not going anywhere
I Miss YouI miss you...I Miss You5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I see you every day.
I hug you,
I see you smile, I see you laugh,
I'm with you,
You're not with me.
Sometimes I wonder if you even like seeing me,
If you care.
But I always care.
Always love you.
We had such a perfect world.
A happy world.
We were together...
Drowning in our love for each other.
We didn't mind drowning.
It was something we shared.
Something we cherished.
And we knew we were safe
Because we had each other.
And I remain breathless in the water.
Knowing that there's no one to save me.
No one to bring me back to the surface and feel the air.
Only you can bring me back.
Give me the kiss of life.
Help me breathe again.
Days come and go, but my feelings for you last forever