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Why You?Sometimes I wish I may forget,Why You?3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
All things that I very much regret,
How I fell for you and loved you,
Because I'm hurt, now dying too.
Why you?
Sometimes, when our eyes meet again,
It brings back memories of pain.
Moments that should have not happened,
Oh, we could have been only friends!
Why you?
But I think of you all the time,
To repeat all our past somewhat,
To hold you so tight - a grave crime.
I hate my mind for doing that.
Why you?
Yes, It hurts a lot when I see,
That you'll never again touch me,
That you replaced me for someone,
And for dreaming I was that one.
Why you?
How I want to have the courage,
To make you
volcano childrenvolcano children3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
dancing on the edges of
something like a game and
something just
not
we could be on fire and
not know it half the
time because
fuck it, this was too much
fun
and your eyes and my eyes were
burning with a similar
desire to
know everything about
this huge expanse of
world that we owned
time was nothing because we
lived in a place
where we had all the time
in the world, and
when there's nothing
there
to stop the flames,
we'd be damned if we
were going to put them
out
we learned how to
better-than-fly,
something so explosive
that nobody else could even
see
it
and scissors skimming wrists that
you loved to study,
p
+crash+and sometimes, its better to just let the world burn. to watch your problems turn to ash. see nature run its course and life goes on.. just make sure to stay outta the flames. they hurt...+crash+3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
yet at other times, make sure to embrace the fire. let it eat at your skin and mutilate your flesh. for its better to seethe and scream in pain alone and by yourself than to let the fire touch another.
but after a while of the second option, you become used to the burns, nothing hurts like it used to, everything is only semi felt...
you're just like a skeleton.
but the fire will still come, and you just become thinner and thinner. no longer able to prot
In My DreamsIn my dreams I am fifteen again.In My Dreams3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am innocent
and bored
and dealing with it.
(These days I am still bored,
but not so innocent.
I'm not dealing with it so well either.)
But in my dreams
I am that awkward,
bony,
debilitatingly shy girl again.
In my dreams I give roses to a strange boy,
and it seems
the most normal thing in the world
I clean blood off his wrist in the bathroom,
and secretly I watch his eyes
in the mirror.
(When I'm awake I feel tainted.
When I'm asleep I feel guilty.)
In my dreams
I lean against my boyfriend
but
I'm watching that other one
across the room.
In my dreams I'm pregnant.
My b
A quiet thought"It started out as a feeling,A quiet thought3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
which then grew into a hope,
which then turned into a quiet thought,
which then turned into a quiet word,
and then that word grew louder and louder,
till it was a battle cry"
~Regina Spektor - the call
I thought I'd forgotten you,
Thought I'd forgotten that feeling,
Thought it had been replaced.
By her.
It didn't matter if it was,
Because you loved him,
When I loved you,
So I "moved" on.
Actually I don't think I did.
Because my her,
And your him,
Love each other more than us.
Since that party,
I feel terrible,
For kissing that girl,
Because she was nothing.
And that's when I got the feeli
Just a little note...You make me sick.Just a little note...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I cannot believe that even though we trusted you,
You could actually do what you've done.
What makes it Infinitely, worse is that,
Even after seeing how much pain you have caused,
All you have to say is, "Oh shit, sorry."
I cannot believe that I considered you a friend.
Or rather, I cannot believe someone I've looked up to,
Actually admired and respected could do that.
She is so important to me.
My closest friend, one of my oldest companions.
You have no idea how much I want to hurt you,
To feel your blood run hot over my hands
As I let the fury that burns in the very core of my soul
Free.
But I won't
Not fo
04. dying04. dying3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The water…
I felt it fill my airways
I felt it pound against my skull
The pressure was too much for me to handle
And my heartbeat slowed and dulled
The anchors…
They were tied around my ankles
They refused to let me go
So I let them drag me further
Into the murky depths below
The pressure…
The further the surface grew
The closer death came near
And no matter how much I swam
The water wouldn't disappear
The bottom…
Everything was blurry
But I took in all I could
I was stuck inside this world
Where calmly time had stood
The ending…
It was a nice trip down
It may have been a long descend
But I kn
Dear Monster....Dear MonsterDear Monster....3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I know you're scared
I know you're hiding
I know that the stuffed bunny you sleep with isn't always enough
My Monster
I know that right now your black and white world is tainted by red glass
I know that the wall you have damaged is not as damaged as your heart
I know you want to disappear and that's why you try to run away everyday
Young Monster
I know he hurts you
I know you aren't strong enough to stop him
I know that you love him more than he could possibly comprehend
I know that you're right and he will probably never understand
Sad Monster
I know he burned you
I know that the cuts and scrapes hurt
I know that
A Lesson in CharadesEverything was different todayA Lesson in Charades3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Today was Tuesday
A day of 25 hours
Maybe dates on Tuesdays were just irregular
Maybe it didn't really matter. Things fall apart anyway.
Don't they?
It was a quiet room
Where they sat
Hearing Tick Tocks
Chimes
Bells and Whistles
And there they were
His and Hers.
He gazed at the flowers in front of them
Sinking in the image of innocence and untouched beauty
A mirror image of yesteryears and yesterdays
It dawned on him then, that he only had to look at them.
He didn't need to do anything else
Everything they had was ruined anyway.
Certainty washed over the two
A mutual understanding
Albeit
A Voice UnheardCan anybody hear me?A Voice Unheard3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My voice remains unheard,
no matter how loudly I speak.
They obviously can't hear me.
Sure They may hear me speak,
but are They really listening?
You have no idea what is happening.
I try to make You think I'm a happy person,
but would You still love me if I told You?
It's broken up.Yet another misadventureIt's broken up.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
yet another girl with lies
but while the skin is growing stronger
it's the blackened heart that dies.
Cut off the snakelike head
and the body burns
but I am fighting on the floor
making sickening turns
to get the fiery tongues off me
and to not end up between the urns
I know I am overdoing
any reaction that would be sane
but you know my mind is splintered
and that I have no need for this pain.
So don't cry for how it ended
don't cry for my defeat
cry for the mask that smiles now
because you know what's underneath.
My corrupted mirror image
still has that evil smile
and when I thought about you yest
LiesI like you, You say you like me,Lies4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
But I'm pretty sure that that can't be
There's a girl in your mind that I can't see
And I'm pretty sure it's not .....
Me, I'm sitting here on my own
Even though you say I'll never be alone
You're in my heart,
But am I in yours?
Of that I'm not really....
Sure, You hug me, hold my hand
But I still don't really understand
That hollow look in your eyes
Are all the words you say to me
All just ......
Lies surround me,
Hurt my pride
You say you'd cross the ocean wide
But would you in reality
Or just drive me into....
Insanity, I close the diary in my hand
Don't really understand
My head is h
Your Love is My HateYour Love is My Hate3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
"You know you can tell me what's bothering you, right?"
"...Yeah, I know.."
"So will you tell me what the fuck is going on..?"
"..I don't think you'd understand.."
Listen to them ramble on about how they would help you, if you needed it.
Do you really believe that bullshit?
What they want you to think: " Ohh darling, you know I'd do anything to help you~ You can count on me!"
What they are really saying: " Ohh darling, you know I'd love to help you~ Just as soon as I tend to my lovers every flaunted whim and want
FallaciousYou believe youFallacious3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
speak of truth
yet all I see
is contradiction.
Your acid tongue
lashes out,
leaving boils
on my skin
for every single
word you've spoken.
These lies
you tell
cannot provide
redemption.
You can only
manufacture
so much of
your own reality
before you're
forced to
break mirrors
just to save face.
-Brian Shuffett
June 29th, 2010
True LoveSee her lying on the hospital bedTrue Love3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Doctors rushing, knowing it's too late
Holds her hand, says he loves her
Flatline ringing in his head
Tears fall, splashing on her lifeless body
Harsh lights, cold, blinding
Driving home, thinking of her
Empty house, lonely silence
Agony, heartwrenching pain
The closet, hidden deep inside
Searching, frantically searching
Grab it, load it, walk to the nightstand
Her smiling face, captured in photograph
Closed eyes, don't think
Next to his head, hands shaking
Deep breath, in, out, in, out
Look at her face one last time
Smile, say they'll be together soon
Pull the trigger, collapse, never to ri
For SaleI'll sell you my heart sir, I hear they're going quite cheaplyFor Sale3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and its not badly broken, not really;
With just a little mending I bet you could fix it
and to make the perfect deal I'll throw in some
veins to help it beat strong, and some lungs, maybe my tongue..
Oh honey what's wrong? No tongue? Okay, I guess I'll take that,
wouldn't want a heart that could talk back
now do you?
What about some bones for your dog to chew?
Would you like a femur? Or a funny bone?
Or perhaps my ears, they aren't too far gone.
You could probably hear the ocean if you listen to them.
Here's your bag, sir, look. All wrapped up and ready to go
and I a
Eventide.Night is discerningEventide.3 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Blanketing the trees and skies
Darkening my life.
Cooking in Cold BloodYou walked up to meCooking in Cold Blood3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with a blank expression on your face,
and a dagger in your hand.
You carved a hole in my chest,
and ripped out my heart.
I could only stare
as you began to cook it
in a white wine reduction.
You ate it slowly, savoring every bite.
Once my heart was safely in your stomach,
you smiled,
and told me that it was delicious.
I wanted to yell and scream and be furious,
except...
you never smile.
So instead I said,
"I'm glad you enjoyed it."
Make Me the AirMake Me the AirMake Me the Air3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Make me the breeze so that I might fly.
Make me the shade so that I might not cry,
And witness, instead, the pain of another,
Offering darkness like the shoulder of a lover.
I am the stone pathway, being trodden underfoot.
I am the stream, sweeping debris, and life ,and soot,
Into the ocean and far away,
To encounter again, someday, if chance permits.
I am a girl, lost in the light of day.
I am a woman, seeking life on the moon,
Bored with the emptiness of her messy room
Makeshift moments as strong as a breeze.
Leaves fall from their heights
Like driftwood floating on a stream,
And trees dream of a sleep they
WordSpill: CarrySpill:WordSpill: Carry3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Ceased folds. Sunkin in. Soaked through./ Cold to the touch. Heavy in your hands. Like a deadweight, buried far below. Beauty in the making. All waiting for you to being. You carry the whole world on your shoulders. every burden and breathe taken falls upon you. Sets you apart, keeps you up at night. Simply because you have so much to hold. More than any man can bear. NMothing else can really matter. When words hold so much waterr. And the errors of man. Weigh you down. Until you bend and break. Under the hurt we allow. To exist. Because it's always easier to let someone else do all the work.
Scrub up:
Creased folds
Sunken In
Soak
Little one. I'm here.Little one. You can stop shivering now.Little one. I'm here.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Little one. You can stop crying now.
Little one. Believe in me. I can be your faith.
I can be your hope. I can be your miracle.
Little one. You can start smiling now.
Little one. You can start laughing now.
Little one. Believe in me. I can be your protection.
I can be your guiding light. I can be your strength.
I can be your miracle.
Little one. You can wake up happy now.
Little one. You can be full now.
Little one. Believe in me. I can be your guardian
I can be your friend. I can be your smile.
I can be your miracle.
Little one. Please wait for me.
Little one. It won't be long.
Little
Summer FruitStrawberries. Drop sweet nectar on our thoughts,Summer Fruit3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
For us to think in the cherry cream of iris clouds,
Puffy and welcoming everywhere you look, every time,
You look me in the eyes.
The rain washes away the grape jelly of our skins,
And the cherries. The strawberries of the dew beads,
Spread along our feet coating our empty souls fully.
Ready to dine with happiness of apples and pears,
As we prance around the orchard trees. This world,
Can never get old, with you here with me.
The sun gives way, and the sweetness of us stays,
Blushing roses upon our young cheeks. soft hands,
Intertwine as we jump into a pond of kiwi fruit. pucker,
A
A New BeginningThe ancient tree stood weepingA New Beginning3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rooted to the frozen ground
"I'm all alone", she lamented
As she looked around
It only started as one
They said it would do no harm
But the axe just kept on swinging
And the forest lost its charm
Something this wise old tree had never seen
Greed like a hunger never sated
Unable to bid them stop
So she just nervously waited
Factories stood where trees once thrived
Underneath smoke-smothered stars
The animals all fled their homes
As they heard the roaring cars
At last when no more trees were left
Save for the eldest one
They came to her with hatchets high
Underneath the blackened sun
That's whe
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