DamagedWhats it like to be pure
To be blissfully ignorant
To not know the ugly dangers of this world
How I long for my stolen innocence
I am broken, filthy and hopeless
I pray to the darkness to steal my breath away for good
like these countless men do every day
I pray to be given just one chance
at a happy white nothing
please please please
Eat me up
Wipe away my mind
I don't want to think anymore
It hurts me so
I want to be free
To get away from it
No such luck for the forsaken
CigarettesInhaleCigarettes4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
The lovely smoke
the calming smoke
the toxic smoke
Is your body truly a temple?
Why preserve It, why keep it pure
When its doomed to rot away
Slowly, knowingly, dying with each drag
Its really a blessing
Being able to control at least one aspect of
“Please don't start”
“It's so bad”
“It will kill you”
Too late, I already know
And do not care
You should really try it
Its quite refreshing
Your so called GodYou say your God is a forgiving oneYour so called God4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You say he's loving, righteous and just
You say he will bring you happiness and good fortune if you honor him
You say you won't need anything else once you've found him and had his greatness shined upon you
If this said God is real, how can you call him these things?
All I can see is how cruel he is, if he is at all.
Everyday people die from disease, starvation, murder and suicide
How is innocent people suffering from these terrible things loving or just?
God is a monster, if anything.
He throws precious life away carelessly
I think he hasn't an idea of who he is, let alone what he could be.
I think his making life was a complete accident and mistake.
He and his brother don't know what they're doing
They just figure these things out as they go alone, playing with people like toys.
They are childish and ignorant.
How can you so blindly worship him for all the good things in life,
when the bad things so overly outweigh them?
It blows my mind,
Thoughts of youIts funny... I thought I was over you.Thoughts of you4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You were gone so long. I hadn't forgotten but it didn't hurt to think about us anymore. Then one day you suddenly popped up, I was happy of course – overjoyed even. Everything was finally back to normal. All of our conversations were just playful fun, they gave me that sweet sense of nostalgia for the old days, when we had first met. When things started to change, our relationship warping centimeter by centimeter into something else, something deeper. I started to fill with joy at just the thought of speaking with you again, but I also started to fill with dread at the thought of you leaving... It was love again, or at least for me it was. It must be wishful thinking on my part that you'd love me again, completely.
I knew it would come though, the day you'd leave once again. You'd be absent more and more. Our talks which were once teeming with life, emotion and giddiness had died down to nothing. We exchanged almost formal “Hello's
To be ourselvesthe only truth isTo be ourselves4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and the only way to be
that drips... bleeds out the
brings us closer
EnlightenmentYour wordsEnlightenment4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Mean absolutely nothing
Today, as you tell your friend about something you discovered, while eating your tasteless cornflakes and drink you lukewarm bitter coffee, does it cross your mind that what you're saying is actually important? Will this friend really care?
They might nod their head in agreement, they might say a few words of approval. But in the end that doesn't matter either.
Because you are just one person, drowning in the ocean of what we call life.
Out of billions of people, what does your mere opinion matter? What does anyone's for that matter?
That's exactly it. They don't.
In all this fake happiness forming false perfection, what do we gain?
Having the best job.
Getting a large check every month.
Buying the most expensive car available.
Eating the best-tasting, healthiest food.
What does all that matter? In the end we still aren't happy, we still don't matter, we're still going to die.
Somewhere inside we must know this, so why do w
Dim magicGentle fingersDim magic4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Fine, fine cuticles
Tells a story?
When you're running ringers alone your lovers palm
Or when you're shaking a friends hand
Maybe even when you softly brush the mail-mans knuckle as you're receiving a package
Don't you feel it?
The life, the emotions, of the person?
The hardships, and happy thoughts of every continuing day, etched into everything
The light touch, grip, that gives you a clear window
into the precious life of that person.
You only catch a glimpse, but subconsciously you learn so much more
Your body has read the story of their life, walked in their shoes
Such a special gift it is
The invention of abnormalWould you rather know the truth?The invention of abnormal4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Or listen to my lies?
Do you want to hear the words
that will tear us apart?
Because you know they will
So why do you keep asking
Why do you keep pushing me?
In reality its your fault
You must realize this by now
Every night I sneak out of bed, out of the house
You know what it is I do, yet you keep up
with all your questions
Stop it all
I hardly hide it anymore
Yet you blind yourself to it, you can't handle the truth
You know it as well as I do.
So let's just preserve our normality,
of lies and fading love
Lets drown together in a web of deceit and lust
Without YouMaybe I can live without youWithout You4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not sure anymore
It seems as though all my senses,
Feelings, are numb, gone
Yes I go on living through every day
But nothing feels real, right
Once in a while, people ask me if I'm okay
I make excuses, agree, just to get them to leave me alone
Really I'm not okay
Maybe ill never be
But it doesn't matter
Because I'm without you
Am I Lonely?All the bodies, all the handsAm I Lonely?9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
They try to grab what they can
Touch as much as their sticky fingers can reach
They always seem to miss my heart
You don’t notice,
When I start to wane from the high
When I really need someone
At least thats what I tell myself
If you knew and didn’t care, I don’t know if I could take that
My head slumps against your neck
My face is pink, skin sticky with sweat
And hot just like the crook of your neck
Our clothes are like a second skin
I huff against you, trying to catch my breath
You shiver as goosebumps race across your skin
I feel as though my skins burning
But my chest hurts
I want you to touch me
My hand drifts to your chest
And i cuddle as close to you as i can
You cover my hand, squeeze my fingers
Its strange when you don’t let go
Almost foreign feeling, your hands
“Did you want to leave?” I ask
You shake your head and let go of my hand
I shut my eyes so as to not see your empty ones.
the covered slide kingHe stood slouched, faking nonchalancethe covered slide king11 months ago in Profiles More Like This
Craving a taste of something chemical
Black jeans clinging to bone legs
Empty-handed he settles, sucking on a cigarette
The wind is nipping, turning his knuckles pink
Burrowing inside a tight black jacket
The cars and pedestrians race by
His only shelter in the form of an empty playground
Virgin CanvasLook at me that way again.Virgin Canvas4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I love goodbyes,
dripping with dark blue sentiment.
Wasting precious breath and loving words on me was a mistake.
I warned you at the beginning, you thought i was kidding.
I was not, i will harm you in the end.
I know how to survive, in this beautifully cruel world.
I will take you away from everyone who loves you.
I will be the only one you see. I will be your tangible world.
But in the end i will harm you.
I will crush you with my goodbye.
I feed on your sadness, your suffering,
Make myself stronger.
You will be left broken, lost and empty.
And i will live on, repeating my circle of survival.
Child Eyes I love youChild Eyes4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
He whispers to me in the dark
I don't know what love is
My fallen angel
I won't live without you
Every time he murmurs these things
Against my neck
It sounds like another language
I don't understand
With my child eyes, I admire him
As he admires me with his old eyes.
You're just a boy, with age you'll realize
I will do anything for you
You're my precious secret love
His words sound so meaningful,
They fill me with a sense of comfort
That I still don't understand, even after all these years
I'm no longer a boy, and he is now far older
It matters not though.
I don't have the words for what I feel
His once uncomfortable touches,
What are they now?
They fill me not only comfort, but warmth
He says it is love
But what is that? What is it really?
UntitledI wish I could say I've dreamed of all the things I would say to you, but I haven't. There' still millions more I could say, and it all flows through my mind at just a small mention of you.Untitled3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
But I'm starting not to mind y'know?
I guess I really have been growing up through these years. Its not so bad to know its never going to happen, or that I might never know your face again. Things that used to tear me to bits are sorta trivial now.
I guess time does that.
All that really matters anymore, is that I've met you, and we had a lot of lovely memories together. I really cherish them. And despite all of the stupid things I've done and said, and still continue to do, I don't want to change them quite so much. I guess I could say I still love you.
But I'm positive I always will.
All the bitter feelings I held on to, to keep my love beating and fresh, I don't need them anymore.
I'm fine with this throb of love that comes and goes.
I'm fine with being the other girl. The other friend. The other
InfatuationI don't know you.Infatuation11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't know your name.
But i see you,
I can feel your presence across the room.
My eyes can never stay far,
always darting back whenever possible.
And i can feel whenever you look back,
my eyes darting away when they meet.
I'm always waiting for a smile too,
or a laugh I'm too far away to hear.
And when its over, its far too soon.
The room starts to pack up to leave,
classroom chatter muted as i listen for your silent departure.
With my head down, I watch you from the corner of my eye.
The air lightly brushes past me when you walk by.
I'm alone now,
and i wish you stayed.
bunny bunny kill killKill me Miss Bunnybunny bunny kill kill11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Love me Miss Bunny
I just want your gaze,
But your too busy playing cards.
Let me feel your eyes
Let me kiss your fingers
I just want you to know how beautiful you really are
But all I can reach is your sillouette.
Miss Pretty Baby
Miss Lips of Honey
Why won't you grin at me anymore?
Every shrug breaks my heart,
But the stars don't fade,
The feeling still fresh,
I can't help it Miss Bunny,
Can't help but hold onto the time that was almost ours.
Tomorrow's whispersSpiral free-fallTomorrow's whispers4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
right into the ivory
My senses blur together
All I can hear is a hum,
like a thousand voices talking at once
Second after second turning into forever
It finally speaks to me
A thousand voices whisper,
”I love you so much, too much”
Fear explodes inside me
It touches me
A thousand invisible hands swarm my body
I can't feel anything
I can feel everything
It blinds me
Swallowing me up,
I'm disappearing now
The voices all whisper against my nothing
“Everything will be okay”
“You will understand in time”
“It won't hurt”
“It will all be okay”
“We love you so”
I'm so afraid, I try to speak but I have no voice
“...It will all be okay...”
I don't want this
I don't want this...
I don't want this.....!!
Number 5Paradise is lostNumber 54 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Death and turmoil claim us whole
Faith stolen, souls gone
Cuts, bruises, and blood
Feel the rush with each punch, hit
Truly alive now
Are you really there?
Memories are all that matter
A name is just letters
Blood, it tastes like wine
The dark our only haven
Am I damned to hell?
FatherI feel like I'm nothingFather4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I try so hard to be what you want me to be
while trying to be who I want to be
But its not enough, I'm still not trying hard enough
I'm still not showing enough “initiative”
I try so hard to be a good daughter
To love you as I should
To be thankful of my existence
To keep my mouth shut
But I can't
You say I never listen
I don't do enough, I'm lazy
That I have a bad complexion,
a bad haircut,
a bad attitude,
a bad everything.
It's like I can never do anything the right way, your way.
You say that I'm just like everyone else
All the ones that don't listen,
that won't care if you die
The ones you hate so much
And it's true
Because you did it to me
You've made me hate you
With you idiotic words
and pointless logic
I have so much hate for you,
but never enough
to let go.
Your loud voice and ugly face
Always angry with me
Always hating me,
underneath your mask of parental love
I don't think I could ever be enough
Special NeedsI've tried giving people everything they demandSpecial Needs11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Though it's not enough, it was all i had
I've lost some things
And i suppose i've gotten what i wanted as well
So why am i still not happy?
I don't understand why i feel so hollow
Some nights i am so smothered by it i want to cry
But i can't find the tears
Some days when i'm not swept up in everyone elses flow
I get so lonely i can't keep up my routine
I sink into my numbness forgetting where i am
And no matter who i surround myself with,
I still see it seeping into my vision, clouding up my mind
I don't know whats wrong with me
Dreams of youthThe purple and pinks blended intoDreams of youth11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
reds and oranges and yellows
disintegrating into a blinding white.
Loosing touch with reality, dreams seep
through sticky fingertips.
Were spinning round and round and have lost form
melting into the neon carousel.
There's no escape rapidly changing and the
sugars boiling up inside, overflowing now.
Pink honey suffocating.
I can't make my way out.
Untitledi don't know when it happenedUntitled11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
that all these books,
tattered and torn,
have turned into you
my emotions are mirrored back at me
the words cold and taunting
im tired of filling these pages
stained with loveMushroom drop caressstained with love4 years ago in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
Mist my eyes
Fill me with magic
So i'll drip with
Lostcan you feel the falling stars around usLost11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
as the debris tear our limbs off one by one
and when its over were gasping, broken,
now the flies start to swarm
and the only thing keeping us breathing
is my fingers laced through yours
Little FallTheres a poison running through my veins yearning for a taste. The landscape of you reminds me of something vaguely beautiful. That shine in your eye starves me. I want to dig it out with bloody stumps, that source of soul that emanates such vivid color.Little Fall11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
One day we'll all be grey.