Pause. Rewind.Dark road,Pause. Rewind.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
harboring darker hearts
beneath accusing streetlamps.
hiding secrets and lust. Shame and love.
The streets are shrouded in darkness,
for the forgotten and the fearful.
Another short skirt disappears into a tinted vehicle.
I wonder if she's at all ashamed,
as she slips bared legs into his car.
I wonder if she's ever wished a better life for herself.
I pretend that I can see her,
moving back in time,
stilettos to sneakers and skirts to daddy's t-shirts.
When she was still young.
When beauty was a big smile.
And when happiness could be found in a chocolate bar.
When her sister could still look her in the eyes.
When her mother could be proud to call her a daughter.
A better time.
Suit and tie kinda guy,
nose turned up and heart closed off.
He passes by the heartbroken and the homeless,
with nothing more than a sneer and a belittling glance.
I wonder if there was a time when he wasn't this cold.
hate mesew buttons on my mouthhate me5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
poke needles in my eyes
i promise i wont shout
i promise not to cry
slap hand prints on my cheek
burn circles on my arms
i already know you hate me
i know your thirst for harm
call me dirty names
ignore my presence here
i know how much you hate me
ive died inside, my dear.
Tightrope WalkerI grasp the coldTightrope Walker4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
bars in my hands,
and tightly close
my eyes... my mind... my heart.
I step up the rungs,
one at a time,
as fast as my feet can
take me... let me... make me.
I reach the absolute
top of the world,
and I feel my heart
beating... racing... stopping.
I spread my arms wide
as far as I can,
and pretend I'm
flying... soaring... escaping.
I take a small
and feel the rope
sag... stretch... snap.
I keep steady
while I walk,
and feel myself
twitch... sway... shake.
I hold my breath
and shut my eyes
as I imagine myself
slipping... falling... dying.
I catch myself before
I lose all control,
and I try to keep
walking... breathing... living.
I reach the other side
as I fall to my knees
and I look back to see
my accomplishment... my success
don't call me a loverthese thin painteddon't call me a lover5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
walls seperate us
and i trace the audible sounds
with my ear against the rough
space i require
by then the
is wiped clean
and the wall
she is no longer
Jak to jest z ta miloscia?To ja od ciebie odeszłam,Jak to jest z ta miloscia?4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
To ja wszystko zniszczyłam.
Nie umiałam wybaczyć
Swoje serce spaliłam.
Popiół zebrałam do skrzynki.
Zamknęłam żelazną kłódką.
W wódce topię swój smutek
I nie jest mi już tak trudno.
I krzyczę w ciemności nocy
Lecz nikt mnie nie usłyszy
Bo tylko ci z sercem spalonym
Potrafią dziś słuchać ciszy.
Więc siedzę. Cicha, samotna.
Alkohol, przejrzystą smugą,
Odkaża rany w mej duszy
I nie jest mi już tak smutno.
I wiem, że to nie rozwiązanie
I rano, gdy głowa mi pęka
Mówię: już wszystko jest dobrze. Już nie potrzebna butelka.
A nocą umysł mój wyje, a w duszę
Jak pył diamentowy się wbija
Popiół, co ze skrzynki okutej
Przez dziury w bokach wypływa.
I znów w ruch idzie butelka,
A świat, za miękką zasłon
goodbye, lettermani love you enoughgoodbye, letterman5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that my heart is
like a wound
in my chest.
i know it's not pretty
but i'll tell you
how you leave me
into the sink,
porcelain veneer sneering
at the broken teeth and mirror
a foot ahead.
you smell like
drink & weed,
and you are making me sick.
in the morning,
i will sit you down at the
kitchen table to show
you the vomit behind
eyes bleed rivers
dead sea salted
over the bends
of my thumb.
you read sad poetry
to the caves
inside my heart,
because sadness knows
and expect me
not to crumble.
Whatever you want, it's mine.It's paranoia that pushes me throughWhatever you want, it's mine.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
this world of love, and hate,
and whatever lies in between.
If I stopped for a second, I'd be stepped on;
I'll just walk on, for a moment, while I can.
How much do you need? I have none.
I assume you need it all, so you can have it.
I hope the void is as consuming as the flames
that burnt my heart to ashes, just this morning,
just now, and ever.
It's this nothingness that throws me around.
There's no direction, and there's no need,
all is you, the whole is us, the hole
I wish I had
in my lungs
as I bled
to the floor;
On your feet.
On your door.
The feeling I had - gone;
The life I felt: nothing more.
It's my face, it's mine. There's nothing on it, in it, beyond it.
It's all the same, the whole, the same, it's all us, and nothing, and nothing.
I walk on, and you step on whatever and whoever gets in your way.
Cry, cry as you want.
I never cry, because I know
there's nothing like a good day, to get your feelings numb.
If I could open my heart, it'd swa
Just Let Me Go"Just Let Me Go"Just Let Me Go5 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I thought it was over,
I thought that it was the nightmares end.
Blinded by false words
And masks of painted smiles
I lead you from the path ahead
To the spiral fall of your demise.
In a world of puppeteers,
Its not I that pull the strings.
So how can I be blamed
For what fate had already chosen to commence?
Im sorry .
Why must I bleed from scars
When its you that bear them?
Why must your face haunt my dreams
When these eyes arent sleeping?
Why must I pay
For the mistakes that arent my own?
Why cant you just let me go?
A blink of time, a hundred years have passed
Across the mirror,
Its still your face that I see
In the shadows,
Its my death you wish to seek
In my heart,
I know its peace that I must give to you
But how can I
Break the shield of hate burning deep inside
Kept alive by the monster Ive set free?
Why must I bleed from scars
When its you that bear t
reflecting upon reflections.flesruoy evol t'nac uoy fi em evol t'nac uoy dnareflecting upon reflections5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
rorrim a ni gnikool er'uoy dna
em ta kool
.uoy ees t'nod uoy dna rorrim eht ni kool
.hturt ees t'nod uoy dna rorrim eht ni kool
.seituaeb thguat-fles ro sretupmoc ton era ew
.gnihton si ereht erehw esnes fo
,gnicaf-tnorf otni su secrof taht
ytilanoitar dellac gniht a s'ereht
nine.younine.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
swallow razorblade sharp words and cut yourself wide open
to see what your insides look like then. let them sneak
negative thoughts past your skin and have them echo inside
of your bones. let the sound waves etch scars into your soul
and whatever is left of it will come out when you are beating
yourself up over how uglyimperfect you are. when you are
hurting yourself thinking over how you could have done everything
better, drape yourself over a sheet of metal in a thirty
degrees celcius sunshine because it is the hip thing to
do and because you want to look exactly the same as every
other pretty, petty person who isn't you. jump off of a
building so that you can get out of your body for just a
moment. be reckless because you can and because conformity
just isn't cute anymore. blow up the generation gap with
dynamite and shoot at the rules. kill whoever you used to
be and whoever you could be, because who has potential anymore,
nowadays? weep and sob and cry and scream because you k
ValleyThere were no storms.Valley5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I didn't fall.
God, I know you're out there
But the Devil's awful loud.
I'm afraid that I'm crashing hard,
I'm afraid that I'm a fish,
But they want me to learn to fly.
I can't fly.
I can barely swim.
Weles sie weseliWładca bagna siedział na jednym ze swoich podwodnych tronów, spoglądając na unoszące się nad taflą morza chmury. Ze względu na wysokie zanieczyszczenie Bałtyku, widoki nad głową Welesa były ciemne i niewyraźne. Z ledwością odróżniał unoszące się na powierzchni opakowania po chipsach od kuprów mew i rybitw, którym nie przeszkadzała brzydka pogoda. Mimo że czuł każdą kością, iż w okolice Świnoujścia zbliża się jego znienawidzony brat Perun wraz z wichurą i błyskawicami, było mu wyjątkowo wesoło. Podniósł do ust drewnianą łyżkę i zachłannie siorbnął.Weles sie weseli4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Ciągnąca się maź natychmiast rozpuściła mu się w ustach, dając słodki smak. Dawno już nie jadł kisielu. Co prawda ten nie mógł się
Fractured IdentityMy heart clutched in a paper bagFractured Identity4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I stagger through darkness that only I can define
cloaked in insecurity and the tattooist's story
I collect definitions
to hang from my ears and lips in interlocked
chains of gold
perversely beautiful and all that I need
(like the brush of your lips in forbidden places)
these chains were forged from verses
that I thought I understood
But I didn't notice that the brambles never died
despite the change in season
Explosions of realisation and the loss of laughter
crowd my skull in their thousands
pushing for vacant spaces left by past ideals
If I disappeared they would not notice
but they would get hungry
and seek sustenance from the dust that you leave behind
I stay obligatory merely for convenience
and because I don't know how else to be
Floating through whirlpools
may well be the salvation of this lost one without a name
I did not drag myself this far on cloven hooves
just to feel my hate soar
I might have died a million deaths
Mezzanine Blues.Sometimes I wish my blood still filtered throughMezzanine Blues.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
my old riverbed heart
light glowing through the cracks.
No one knows it but
I am trying to destroy
all my microscopic addictions
just in case and just because.
My mind withdraws into itself
at first sight of feelings.
It was conditioned to look past itself
like vodka or glass
and see absolutely nothing.
But I try anyway
with coral monsters
and red thighs
to dance in all the April showers
but I can't dance
and I cry in them
but I try anyway
and I empty my refrigerator
and I read about autolysis
and I don't like telling you I love you
because it doesn't make me feel
one mile closer
but I try anyway
and I decide to quit food for a few weeks
and I think of the new ways we will love each other
with toys and guns and money.
i cannot feel it anymoremy own heart,i cannot feel it anymore5 years ago in Other More Like This
the most terrible thing i ever knew,
more than the seventeen candles i could
not gather the breath to extinguish,
more than the shake in my fingers as i said
i could not love you like you love me,
more than the sheer face from which
my stomach sank
as you swore you loved me the same
way i loved you and how i knew in my heart
you were wrong;
peeling back my thoughts to see
how you loved her, seeing that the windows
gleamed because you loved her,
knowing that your dreams bloomed because you loved her
never feeling how your body screamed
I Love You...I love you.I Love You...6 years ago in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
You said you loved me. Liar.
I know you were lying by that distant look in your gorgeous eyes. For anyone else they were full of life. But whenever you looked at me it was a dead look. Like I wasn't worthy of your time...
Then why did you put up with me? All the things I said to gain your attention, to please you, to make sure you stayed with me. All I ever did was to try to make you smile. You did, but never at me.
Why can't I have you? I would do anything for you, even throw away my own life. And yet you won't even give me a smile.
What am I to you? Answer me! Do you really love me or am I just a play thing to you? Please tell me the truth. I won't get mad, I promise. I could never get angry with you. I love you too much.
I hate it that you won't return my feelings however. Everything I do is in vei
In these momentsI've seen you going throughIn these moments5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So many emotions
Had my heart torn when
I heard you cry
to not be able to
simply be by your side.
You do not deserve to
suffer , cry or even doubt
you're a good person
worthy of so much more
a life filled with
music , smiles and laughter
a happy ever after...
In these moments
I yearn I could wither away
and simply make a wish
for the wind to carry me
a current made out of will
to be with you
to show I care for you.
In these moments
I simply want to testify
of the affection that
I have for the person you are
were and will ever be
and to bestow you
my unlimited devotion.
In these moments
Of doubts and confusion
I felt the urge
to confess you
That you could rely
on myself to
help you through...
In these moments
of doubts and confusion
I felt innocently
that maybe I could muster
the mighty power of words
to bring back for a second
The purity of your smile.
SpillI had almost forgottenSpill4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
how to spill my blood and plasma into patterns of exposure
vivid and real on empty sheets of possibility
and my frozen heart cried its silent tears
and ceased its caress
I joined in the dance and became
food for the crows which swallow knowledge and vomit it back
how they mock the mistakes we make
as we flail in our oversized outfits of irony
I always was a hypocrite
and I claimed otherwise
You found me
crouched under a cloak of black magic
shivering and alive with unspoken magnitude
I suppose I should be grateful
but I still don't know what to do with this flame
and your nails are already starting to burn
Potter vs WedrowyczHarry Potter i polski egzorcystaPotter vs Wedrowycz4 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Był piękny czerwcowy dzień. Słoneczko przyjemnie grzało, a jego długie promienie oświetlały Stary Majdan podkreślając subtelnie, w jak koszmarnym był stanie. Lecz czego innego można się było spodziewać? Bogate, przyjazne środowisku czasy komuny dawno minęły i Stary Majdan, jak większość wiosek z terenów popegieerowskich, szło opisać trzema słowami: bida z nędzą".
Myli się jednak ten, kto sądzi, że mieszkańcy zwracali na to uwagę. Byli zbyt zajęci uprawą roli, hodowlą zwierząt, musieli też martwić się o przyszłość swych dzieci. Lub, jak nasi dwaj bohaterowie, zalewali się właśnie w trupa.
Jakub Wędrowycz (bimbrownik, kłusownik i egzorcysta-amator) i Semen Korczaszko (kozak, weteran wojny w Mandżurii i obu św
DreamsThere are some dreams that will alwaysDreams5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like birthday wishes that have long since
Dissipated into the night air
Along with the candlesmoke and my
UntamedThe scream tore its way from my lips,Untamed5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Threw my head back,
And heaved my chest to the sky.
It cracked my breastbone,
Shattered my ribs,
And shoved my lungs aside,
All in search of my heart,
Which it clawed at desperately
Before ripping from my chest,
And whispering away to the wind.
senescence.if i ran out of paper,senescence.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i'd write it in my skin
longevity and scars,
the permanence every writer
poets in the bible
eli wiesels memoir.
we are all tragedy and cosmetics
painted with goldleaf
and grey smoke. we will
never go home.
caught within our own
rain shadows, we pull each
white little shoulders
like snowcapped peaks
sip the strange face of the earth, and
you move my breath in small
shudders, the clicks
of a heavy film camera.
tonight feels like a broken bone,
sharp gasps of breath burning into
the ghosts i chase, the spectre of
your body still on my skin.
you learn the shape of my
spine. twisted before bed,
the lights were black
& the air churned like a
seasick stomach. the violent
clashes of skin and bones
cease in pidgin english, tongues
unknown and alien from
our lips -
i waited for you.
Hold My HandNobody gets it,Hold My Hand6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No one understands.
Nobody knows how much,
I just need someone to hold my hand.
Theres something comforting,
About fingers interlaced.
As though the world is perfect,
No worries in your way.
The warmth of someone elses hand in yours,
Keeping away the cold.
Holding on tight,
So theyll never have to let you go.
I cry myself to sleep at night,
Wanting someones hand to hold.
Knowing if I had them,
The tears would freeze and go.
Oh, is there anyone out there,
Anyone at all?
Anyone who would love me,
And just hold my hand?