she finally quit
who is that girl
she seemed so unbreakable
she seemed so stong
you thought she would never stop
thought she would never quit
untill she meet you
that unbreakable girl soon broke
that strong girl son crumbled
that laughing girl soon cried everyday
she just stopped one day
she finally quit
The Diary of a Suicidal GirlThe Diary of a Suicidal Girl10 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
The Diary of a Suicidal Girl
My names Emily Katend and I am in 9th grade. My grades are bad, I have
no friends, and I am REALLY fat. I can't stand to look at myself in the
mirror, because I look so bad. I have never had a boyfriend and no guy will
even look at me. I went to a dance on one Friday night and I asked a guy to
dance, he laughed in my face, and I went in the corner and cried. Everyone has
someone to love, and I am afraid I will never have that. Vacation just gives me
more time to look at my imperfections. I hate it. The world is so dark. All of
my siblings are out in the snow and I am sitting inside looking down on their
happiness. That will never come for me.Â I am forever alone.Â It's sad but my
diary's my only friend.
I haven't written in so long because of my mom. She hates me and she
is SUCH a verbal abuser. She
let me escape to .............let me escape to .............10 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
they may not be your dreams
but they are mine
so please stop cutting them at the seams
i think they are just fine
let me go free
don't clip my wings
lead me to the world let me see
cut my strings
bring me to a land of love
not down to your hell
where i can fly above
let me leave this shell
let me stay
where the wind will whisper in my ears
and tells me a story tells me just what to say
and drive away my surfacing fears
let me be in control
let me pretend for just once i have powers
i don't wanna be the one falling down the hole
let me escape to my field of paper flowers
negative thoughtsnegative thoughts10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
death is beauty
beauty is pain
pain is dark
dark is fear
fear is created
by the shadows around you
dreams wont come true
reality eats u alive
hope is taken from you
faith never is really there
fantasies only in my mind
and you just beyond my reach
happiness is fun
fun is good
good is love
love is magic
magic is fake
fake is how everything seems to be around me
LifeMy heart is falling,Life10 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Knees are shaking,
Eyes are wondering,
Mind is crawling,
Back of the line just like always,
No ones cares,
My eyes are bawling,
Life can bring sadness, joy, or pain,
But all i know is that it can stain,
Stain your heart and stain your soul,
Can change your idea of all you know.
Dreams ShatteredDreams Shattered9 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Smile not for me
For I'm not your key
I'm not the thing
that cause your heart too spring
Run away from this
Guess it was a worthless kiss
It didn't touch your heart
Thats why you ripped mine apart
I'm stuck between your truth and lies
Thats why I pray for brighter skies
I think it was all a joke
thats why you left me there to choke
None of this ever really mattered
Thats why all my dreams are shattered
It never mattered at all
Thats why you left me there to fall
Death In Small DosesDeath In Small Doses10 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You think it feels good
You think it feels nice
To pick up a razor
And give your arm a slice
The first time's o.k.
The second time's great
The third's even better
But the fourth can not wait
You think every thing's fine
So you start taking some chances
You start cutting new places
And begin receiving strange glances
"What could go wrong?"
"Nothing, who cares?"
But you keep getting weaker
And continue getting stares
You're feeling depressed
And you aren't sure why
You weren't when you started
But now you break down and cry
You know something's wrong
But you just can't stop
What started as a few
Has progressed into a lot
You've turned into an addict
You love seeing the blood
You like the feel of the razor
And watching your veins flood
Your friends start to yell
Your parents do not know
They'd send you to the psych ward
A place you don't want to go
You're going insane
And you aren't sure why
You keep getting thoughts
About wanting to die
You're getting very sick
You're getting very weak
believe in me and youbelieve in me and you10 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
dreams come true
so if there's something to believe in
belive in me and you
EscapeEscape10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She enters her room
And softly cries
She walks to her dresser
And sits in the chair
She looks in the mirror
And pulls at her hair
She raises her eyes
And forgets to care
She takes a breath
And closes her eyes
As from within
She slowly dies
It runs down her hand
And covers her wrist
She stares at the mess
And lets out a sigh
She lays down in bed
And prepares to die
She'll never awake
From this unwelcome dream
Her worst fear
Has become her life
And all that she has
Is a sharp kitchen knife
She slices her wrist
And her veins start to flood
She crawls under the covers
And the sheets turn red
By the time someone finds her
She'll already be dead
She flys away
Into the night
Riding on clouds
And silver stars
She forgets the past
And all of her scars
SmileSmile10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I'm lying in my bed,
When I wake up in the morning,
When I go to sleep at night,
When I hear your voice,
When I feel your touch,
When I see your sweet face,
When you hold me close,
When you say my name,
When you run your fingers through my hair,
Every thing you do,
Every time we are together,
Every time I think of what we got,
10 Things I Hate About YouI hate the way you brought me up,10 Things I Hate About You9 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Believing I'm not good enough
Afraid to fail, Afraid to try
Scared of what you'll say to me
I hate the way you pretend
That none of this is your fault,
Because the others turned out 'just fine'
Even though they're not.
I hate the way you blame hormones,
Or say 'It's just a phase',
When we both know the truth,
It's deeper than a passing thing
I hate the ways you try to 'help'
When you don't even know what's wrong
And I make it so obvious
That I want you to leave it alone.
I hate the way you can't accept me,
In my ongoing mucked up state
Making like I'm normal and happy,
When that was never quite me.
I hate the way you spend so much time,
Telling others how to help their kids,
As if that should make up
For how you've abandoned me.
I hate the way you always pray,
Asking God to save my soul
When so often I've told you
I don't want a prayer said in my name.
I hate the way I can't love you
Because of things in the past,
The scars running deep in my mind,
Alone and LostAlone and Lost10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I dont what else to feel sometimes, i feel am alone
I'm sitting here
Wanting you to return
Go away from your pains
That i have caused you
The endless sadness you experience
All because of me
I am not worth your time or your love
I never wanted to hurt you
I never wanted you to not trust me
But because i am who i am
You feel less than perfect
Less than beautiful
Less than true
I have no way to apologize to you
I will forever regret my life
I am nothing but a waist of flesh and soul
Why was i the lucky one to be chosen?
Chosen by an angel from up above
I have done nothing of valor
Nor of aptitude
To deserve you
Please be true to yourself
Be true to your heart
I have given you mine
Now decide if you still want it
Forlorn HeartForlorn Heart9 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I long to feel that gentle caress.
That playful brush across the chest.
A desire filled sigh in the ear.
My God, you were the best.
Gaze into your eyes all the day and night.
See the smile play out on your lips.
Kiss you like there's no tomorrow.
My hands placed firmly on your hips.
Hold you for eternity.
Feel your arms round me so tight.
You breathing slowed.
It always felt so right.
Then our world fell apart.
We each went down a separate road.
I'm left with this forlorn heart.
My body it's sorrowful abode.
I miss you so much.
It drives me crazy.
It feels so much worse.
Now that my memories grow hazy.
I don't want to forget you.
Never wanted to say goodbye.
A fire for you stills burns with me.
I hope it will never die.