LegacyI guess I'll never understand
The way you lived your life
You neglected the role of mother
In favour of being a wife
And left behind this legacy
Of secrets,anger and pain
And I've tried to understand
But my attempts have been in vain
See, I've never been a mother
But I'd do it differently, I'm sure
I'd slice my own wrists and tear out my veins
Before I let my children hurt
And I'd never let some monster
Steal their innocence away
You said "Half a loaf is better than none"
But I'd take none over that any day
Because the repercussions of your actions
Didn't stop at just your kids
The daughter of your daughter
Has suffered for what he did
WordsThese words tumble inside my headWords3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dancing dangerously close to the tip of my tongue
Demanding not just voice but action
To become more than words
Something real, something true
So I shut my mouth and shut my eyes
Growing to despise these words
And the inevitable pain they signify
No choice is still a choice
But I have no choice at all
No voice at all
Or rather, a voice with false words
To mask the truth
That the real words stay silent
Because they mean nothing to you
Progressive DescentShe resides in the realm of regretsProgressive Descent3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
where every memory screams blame-
shame, she glows with it,
shining like a beacon of self-hate.
She swims in the sea of despair
waves of hopelessness wash over her-
she has become a true pain connoisseur,
for she drowns in it, choking down agony.
She dances in the land of the dead
pretty pirouettes spinning in her head-
she is dizzy with stillborn insanity,
quietly raging at a loss she cannot see.
She lives in the state of lunacy
now she sees the devil in the fallacy-
what an enormous lie love can be,
open are her eyes, and it's a trickster she sees.
Now, she bathes in the blood of men
wicked, hurtful they tricked her again-
she loved and lost her mind,
in her heart, it is death they will find.
Only One PeaceLittle tin boxes set ablazeOnly One Peace3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
As Hydrogen ignites the flame
With a single spark of static electricity
The world becomes visible like day
Explosions sound and snuff out the night
Skies weep phosphorous red
Ether fills the air you breathe
Hydrochloride rains over head
Tonight the city waits in vain
No wealth of death to be had
Red skies will tell the tale of new
Sirens sound of dread
Dealers will earn their money now
When tweakers come to collect
For only one peace is known to them
It goes by the name of Meth death
Onward, we wentOnward, we went;Onward, we went5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
taking the wrong exit
on purpose, just to see
where the winding road
would find us by daylight.
And who would've thought
that daylight would find us
sitting on shingled rooftops
in the freezing cold,
just to get a little bit closer
to the sky.
Our eyes shown reflections of
and pirate ships
and space pirates,
and how if we could,
we'd take to the stars and
never go back to work,
without even giving
two weeks notice.
Onward, we went;
breaking from the
to find towering highs
and stream-water lows
among the mountainous rocks;
none too high
for our little bodies to conquer.
And when we grew tired
at the water's edge,
the cold air didn't dissuade us
from taking a swim.
Onward we went;
when we had to work,
when we were both broke,
when those towering rocks
shown over a bottomless ledge,
onward, we went.
And onward, we'll go.
opportunityunexpected.opportunity3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
this would be unlike me if I was who I thought I would be.
and I'm trying to decipher this occurrence.
there's a pounding in my head and I assume its Opportunity,
but I've never had a welcome mat and it's only knocking out my sanity,
which is better than my teeth so I can still dream of insecurity,
but honestly I've never claimed a bit of my immaturity.
I think I'll tell you frequently how much you cannot mean to me
and push away my any thought that tries to convince me differently
because I'm frightened of this change you suggest with every move and look you give
and I think you should know that I wish this wasn't good for me.
RebirthHow thoughtlessly we speak these wordsRebirth5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of life and love and hummingbirds;
who's wings beat rhythmic with the earth
through soil and sky,
through you and I,
relent, release, renew, rebirth.
How close we came to 'knowing why,'
or so we thought, but found we'd lied,
and in defeat, surrendered sighs;
no hopeful word,
had we not heard,
what's once decayed shall burst and thrive.
CinquainYou areCinquain5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
nothing more than
eyes in a cold mirror;
a hollow reflection of who
insoucianceanother time you've looked through my pulseinsouciance3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
deaf to the shrieking of vital failing
only my song has the stealth to slip by you
no vacancy near your balance
and I'm sorry.
elastic reaches and falling short
distance chills my pleas
released all warmth and
the wraith of allure.
your insouciance drips
down my spine. crawling
inside memy desire clots in my heart and threatens to rupture.inside me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
precious internal compass rose
this glass is blown inside me.
every sliver shreds and shivers
slicing through my warrior's knots
scattering each of the steps
I had hoped would be only enough.
ApologyFor the sake of my sanityApology5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
please stop all your lies,
for I'm certain that inside
something slowly dies.
I'm done listening to you
because you don't hear me,
I'm done trying for you
because it's me you don't see.
For the sake of my safety
please hide all the knives,
for I'm certain this feline
does not have nine lives.
I'm done fighting for life
because I'm dead to you,
I'm done living this lie,
because you're never true.
For the sake of my silence
please cut out my tongue,
for I'm certain these secrets
will have my head hung.
I'm done breathing you in
because it's toxic I taste,
I'm done letting it out
because this want is a waste.
For the sake of my skin
please erase your touch,
for I'm certain these thoughts
hurt to handle too much.
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All Is NumbMy fate's been mistakenly chosen.All Is Numb4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Pallid, I place my feet on the ground.
No balance, I buckle, without a sound.
Resting In Pity, on the cool floor,
unsure if it is worth it anymore.
Dead circuitry that drives no power,
synapses shut down as thoughts devour.
I'll stay numb until the guilt is gone
and bloodstain on my hand is faded
It beads up, beckoning and glistening.
Sanity stops and to the urge I start listening.
Like an old television that's stuck on one channel,
the fuzzy static has me fixated to dismantle
white noise white lies without waking
the sheltered souls who don't know I'm breaking.
Here is the silent suffering
Lost within layers of unending emotion,
how to nullify I haven't the slightest notion.
Pending, pending, the process won't override,
the data indestructible and access denied.
Plexiglas pain you strike but can't shatter,
pounding at prisons until your fists splatter
bleak blood and breathless you buckle again,
depleted, desolate, ideas inhumane.
daughter of doubtthere is a feeling in this air, this midnight air -daughter of doubt5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
it caresses my face and opens my eyelids.
my knuckles ache from lack of attention
but my chest sparkles with pride,
for your face is a sight like the moon.
there is a halo of light
and you are a being. a human being.
our fingertips touch and our flesh gives way;
how is it you are so fascinating
when you are just a glimmer made from
the secrets i shout from the rooftops?
my mouth opens and my tongue is an unfinished song.
the emptiness inside me flows out past my teeth;
it tastes like choking on salt water.
i would not be surprised if it infected you.
it is a virus and i am its breeding ground -
my soft-spoken words making their way into souls
you are so very hard to believe in
you are so very hard to believe
because every word you utter
The Asphalt MelodyThe asphalt imbeddedThe Asphalt Melody3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Into my melody
Chorusing from in to out
He was continual
I was contrasting
A fight for the spotlight
With tempo of abundance
Sweet tire song humming
I sang of nothing but endurance
Delicate tender stroke of the handle
Rushing wind of the asphalt song
Whirling of the soprano
As my melody rested
The asphalt sang baritone
In a thud, it now leaves a mark
The audience witness
A moment in flat
A shrill of pain
A split of divine
The tune it sang
Came to an end
My head split with a beautiful parting gift
Pebbles of quiet but lasting memory
Sweet songs of pain.
Familiar TouchYour pheromones are fleshed with mine,Familiar Touch4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
grinding on my temple's door.
always gripping on for more.
Scraping sin against your scars,
tugging at temptation.
Peeling back the barriers,
to lead us to damnation.
Salty steam that rises up,
as my voice still climbs higher.
We lit the fuse and set us off,
flames furious like Greek fire.
Past Celsius and all sense of thought,
we burned new memories.
Deadly hands with sniper skill
whose aim is only to please.
I tear at you, you rip right back
and pin me down for pleasure,
you know I won't stay locked up long,
I'm hunting down the treasure.
Your expression as you fall away
from the world that swirls around,
makes me want to stop the ticking time,
freeze the face that I have found.
Hundreds of days have not halted the want,
the need, the desire to feed.
To feast upon your naked form,
to finally feel I am freed.
Copyright © 2010-2011 LYNETTE EMERY. All rights reserved.
chronoswishing days would slip by faster but,chronos3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
how long is it exactly, until this now is past me?
Chronos softens the blades of mistakes
and readies ears for old outtakes.
"You can hardly call it a prevarication,
if you're intending to reveal it on a different occasion."
it takes time, they say, but everything does.
to heal any wound, to remember lost love,
but I think so old and I feel too young,
and I wont find peace til my neck is wrung.
forgiving me is like an invitation,
almost allowing equivocation.
and I've deduced that I need some assistance
unless you're offering...
you should keep your distance.
My Past is Presently FutureMy mind swims in vitriolMy Past is Presently Future3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Corrosive thoughts form burnt offerings
Decayed and deconstructed pieces of my soul
Presented in black wrapping and blood colored bows
I backstroke through the ash, choking on smoke
Floating in the void between losing and loss
The beginning and end
The why, where and when
Lost in the poisoned hallways
The lostways of what I was then
I will wander here in wonder of what I became
Never saying goodbye to the old me, my hated friend
A weak, sad reminder of what I could have been
You see, when you say goodbye you must mean it
Else, you'll be saying hello again before the sun sets
So, you'll never get a goodbye from me old friend
I know my internal torture will never truly end
ThoughtlessRemove your righteous clawsThoughtless5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
sunk deep into my spine
your lashings and your laws
corrupted you confine
infantile, I try to stand
against the growing guilt
I am the knife held in my hand
the blood that has been spilt
soaked into skin and sheets
in time will turn to rust
I blame you for these broken beats
my heart will wrongly trust
falter, fail to function me
this paleness is no ploy
starving myself with misery
this body brings no joy
teenage turmoil you blame it on
medicine to make it blurrrrrrrr
darkest just before the dawn
cancer then the cure
repulsed by the reflection
of a future fading black
of your words into my back
a daughter that is driven mad
leashed by your leaching love
choke collar and muzzle clad
where's the mercy you speak of?
ruthless ruler in kingdom of kin
where the sun sets with sleeping pills
rises when the beatings begin
deserting once the scream spills.
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wish for shorti wish untilwish for short5 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
my skin fades to green,
i wish i
wish i wish
i wish (i wish
you were here)
and i hope
and hope that one day
i can break
the bonds that hold me
here right now.
hope is a
boat that is kept a-
float by love,
heart palely posing
be that as
it may, the rope that
boat and anchor
is weaved from each other's
i wish we were fish
with no need for ships; let the
waves take us to each
others' hearts, tides
and currents won't pull
if that were to be
true i fear that we'd be ripped
apart by shoddy
fishermen and sold
for less a buck or be
the stray cat's dinner.
we are slid along
the hull, over empty bar
nacle shells until
we bleed; if
that's not love, i don't
know what is.
who can say
what love really is
the stars in the mid
night sky, or risking your life
for that of another.
we will fall from build
ings like the stars in the sky,
love is the nighttime.
i believe you're wrong,
we can jump, and we will fall
Why I want to actMy feet are tired of treadingWhy I want to act4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
too much suppression.
The only ounce of truth left
is too far buried
to be seen.
It isn't until
the tireless sun finds it's way
to the other side of the earth,
and the misted moon tumbles
halfway across the sky
that the unrelenting day gives way
our barriers give way
I have dreams;
dreams that make mountains look like
and anthills look like
grains of sand.
I want to tell the truth.
I want to say exactly how I feel,
I want to feel
exactly how I feel.
I have dreams,
dreams that make my aching feet feel
they could run to the coast,
where the sky breathes the stars
right into the ocean,
right into my lungs
and through my veins.
And with every crystalline breath,
exactly who I am;
and I'll be
exactly who I am.
like a sunburstcold air anaesthetisizes my suffering of body and mindlike a sunburst3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
where my flesh warms the snow, it morphs to liquid that trickles
away from me on all sides, like a sunburst
aqueducts for my very last memories, being delivered far
from where I am going
Once Upon A Time...Painted smilesOnce Upon A Time...5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and plastic skin,
that life is within.
Patience my puppet
keep telling them lies,
for you're a real boy
and I'm just a guise.
A shell of a sorcery
long lost ago,
heart made of hexes
and burning sorrow.
Phantom fingers caress,
choke this child that threatens
the machination of madness
I have created,
no longer will this
fucking future be fated.
I am taking control
and crafting a curse,
make room in hell
for a heaven-sized hearse.
Abandon your angels,
their purity stained,
unleashing ubiquitous pain
I've had chained.
Head full of heavy water
I've been drinking all these years,
combustion I've constricted
but it's time to crank these gears.
Copyright © 2009-2013 LYNETTE EMERY. All rights reserved.