RegretI do miss you.
Even if you don't believe me.
My heads pounding.
Pounding with thoughts of you.
My hearts earning.
Earning just to feel yours beat next to mine.
My eyes scan rooms and hallways.
Searching for your face.
Hoping your still here.
But your not.
You left me here with no one.
We both know you won't be coming back.
I'm just sorry I couldn't say goodbye.
That I didn't tell you I love you.
I regret it...
It's BettterLight surrounds me.It's Bettter5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Falling from the grey sky.
It's hard to keep my eyes open.
For though this is a beautiful sight,
It has you written all over it.
Terror takes over my body.
I no longer feel the cold.
Just the fear.
How hard I'm shaking.
My feet want to run,
But I know I'd never run fast enough.
I can't escape this.
I've tried before.
All I ended up with was losing everything.
Everything that meant anything to me.
I won't let that happen again.
If this is my fat then I won't change it.
You can't change me anymore,
And I give up on trying to fix us.
I'll turn my back.
Take that first step.
I thought this would be painful.
But I feel free.
I can soar through the light now.
No longer am I restrained by you.
My would wish would be...
For you to be here with me.
Wings spread out.
Your hand in mine.
But your not here anymore.
And maybe it's better that way.
We were never meant to fall in love
AmazingIt's amazing...Amazing5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How you can make me smile so easily.
Just a few words and I'm laughing.
I would tell you you're a miracle,
But you don't believe in those.
Still...you're my miracle.
How your eyes are so alive.
With one look you make my heart race.
I would try to tell you this,
But you wouldn't believe me.
Still...I believe in you.
How warm you are.
Just one touch and I'm at ease.
I wished for someone like you,
But you don't believe in wishes.
Still...you're my 11:11
How you're all mine.
All the smiles.
All the exchanged looks.
All the simple touches.
Those are all mine.
And for once you agree with me.
Still...you're not mine yet.
Little GirlYou saved me.Little Girl5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Showed me what it's like to be ok.
I listen to what you say.
Then save those words for a rainy day.
Because each word is a work of art.
And I keep them all in my heart.
You healed me slowly.
Gave me your love.
That's why your the only angel in my life.
And when I lost the one I loved.
My knees went weak,
You saw my cry.
But you still tell me I'm invincible.
Even though my words aren't pieces of art,
And my touch isn't as soft or delicate.
Though I'm frayed at the edges,
I'll always be yours.
For you are my angel,
And your wings are always around me.
Your little girl
Perfectly LostThis endless beating.Perfectly Lost5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's your fault.
All the thoughts rushing.
They're all of you.
Nothing else is important.
Not compared to you.
I'm not sure why I care so much.
But I care about you.
You know how to make it fade.
Make it all fade away.
All I need is you by my side.
Holding my hand.
Just don't stop...
Whatever you do.
You're making my life complete.
Like it once was.
I need your touch.
It comforts me.
I long for the sweet taste.
The taste of your lips.
What am I to do with you?
You and I.
You are here.
Yet never truly mine.
Not mine to hold.
All I can do is look.
Behold your beauty.
I long for you.
Everything about you.
The way you walk.
The way you talk.
All the stupid little things you do.
They make you perfect.
Perfect for me.
They're what makes me so lost.
Lost in everything you.
I am nothingWhat am I?I am nothing5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What will I be?
What am I to you?
What am I to myself?
What have you proved to me?
What have I proved to myself?
for without you I am nothing
Let's Pretend One Last TimeTalking.Let's Pretend One Last Time5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hear it in my head.
That something's wrong with me.
That I'm sick.
That I'm shutting down.
But they don't get it.
No one does anymore.
So please stop pretending you do.
It just hurts me more.
I've been fighting and fighting.
Holding on for so long.
And for what?
All I get is people calling me sick.
Telling me I need help
What's the point?
I should just leave.
That would make it all better.
Make everything better...
I'm not worth it.
Not worth it at all...
Keep saying you're sorry.
And I'll keep nodding my head.
Because all we're doing is pretending.
Pretending that you understand.
Pretending that I'm not hurting you again.
Pretending that this will work.
Let's drop the act.
What's done is done.
I think it's time to give up and run.
But now you're asking for forgiveness.
And I'll grant you this one last time.
For the pain is surfacing.
And I think we all know,
If OnlyEvery time I see you.If Only5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Whether it's mere seconds.
Or a few minutes.
I'm filled with joy.
Just as soon as joy comes,
It all crashes down.
My heart is filled with dread.
So deep and wonderful.
So full and joyful.
So handsome and amazing.
But I know none of that...
None of you will ever be mine.
I can never get lost.
Not in your eyes.
I can never laugh.
Not with you.
I can never smile.
Not along with yours.
For we are only friends.
Maybe it's better that way.
Still my heart screaming for you.
Day and night...
You are the only thing on my mind.
I have cried only for you.
Yet you no nothing of my feelings.
For those words never escape my lips.
Never when I'm in your presence.
I only wish I could tell you.
Tell you how much my heart races.
Jumps right out of my chest to yours.
If only you knew my thoughts.
For I only think of you.
And I'm addicted to them.
If only you knew my dreams.
Dreams of you and I.
Together is how we'd be perfect.
But you don't know.
VoiceThe cold burns on my skinVoice5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But your warmth still remains
The dark makes my vision blur
Everything but the sight of you
Your love makes my heart stop
The way your scent still lingers
Your eyes makes my mind shut down
Leaves me alone to drown in them
But your voice...
Your voice is why I can still hear
Your words make no sense
Yet I must repeat them slowly
Quietly your words come out
Saying them one last time I understand
We didn't make it...
The world fades away
All but your voice
Those deafening words
SongFists pound the wall.Song5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Screams echo in emptiness.
Just like I always wanted to be.
But it's different...
I hate it here.
I thought the memories would leave.
Like everything else.
I lost my heart.
Lost my mind.
Yet the memories still remain...
I dance around.
This house empty and bare.
But it my head it's alive,
Warm and cozy.
Trying to dance along.
Your like a bad song.
One that I can't get out of my head...
Feet stop dancing.
I start running.
Running away from here.
Away from this song.
But I can't escape one thing,
I can't escape you...
I'll just keep running.
Hoping one day this will stop.
All of it.
That one day you'll come back.
But if not,
Promise me one thing...
Promise to make our song...
Everything go away
Once Upon A TimeClose your eyesOnce Upon A Time5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Drift far away
Then sleep your little life away
You can't escape
But you always try
This world isn't going to disappear
Problems don't go away
Not unless you face them head on
Just keep on pretending it's all ok
Your sick of me
But I'm sick of your lies
What do we do now?
My eyes meet yours
Stone cold and hallow
What happened to you?
Once upon a time you were mine
That was only a fairytale
And we all know fairy tales don't exist
Now all I have left of you...
The only thing that proves this was real...
Is this metal around my neck
He who holds the key...
Can unlock my heart
So why didn't you?
Our Time Ran OutIce floats down from the skyOur Time Ran Out5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hitting my frigid skin, melting into fragments
Like the fragments of him that roll down my face
All around me lays a world of white
Though the cold no longer bothers me,
Missing warmth causes my skin to be pale
Pale as the hands that used to hold me
The arms that held us awkwardly together
But have now fallen into the white
Right along with the boy that has my heart
Greens and browns cover the Earth
All the ice has melted as far as the eye can see
Except for the ice captive in me
I should hear birds chirping in the air
I should see new life surrounding me
But all I hear are the What could have been's
All I see is the way we could've started new
It's too late for that now
The clock only moves foreword,
Leaving the past cloudy with regret and wishes
The days are bright and sunny
Moon hiding until it's dragged out
Bringing along the stars and the night
Nights like these I miss how the grass felt beneath my fingers
The way I could close my eyes and still
Will You Try?Why don't you understand?Will You Try?5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My feelings aren't known
But if they were...
Would there eve be a difference?
You're so clueless
Don't know a thing
Sure you make me smile
Make me forget for a little bit
But as soon as your gone...
Reality crashes down
I can't help but cry over you
Think about you all the time
It kills me
Knowing you're not mine
That you'll be gone soon
Will it go back to before?
No thank you
I don't think I could
A life without you isn't livable
It's not worth living
I need you
And I know that sounds clingy
You hate clingy...
But it's the truth
Please try to understand
Because I'm trying my hardest...
To make this work
To understand you
I know I'm not perfect
That I'm not always right
So you need to help me
Help me help you
I know you can do it
I know you care enough
Give a little effort
Even if it's only because of me
Never The SameSilence rests upon usNever The Same5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your hands on the steering wheel
My heart as out guide
No maps to led us astray
Only you and me
That's all we have
All we'll ever need
Music seeps through the stereo
Our voices in perfect harmony
Yours low and bittersweet
Mine high yet soft
Smiles on our faces
I thought they'd never disappear
Not if the music kept going
Sitting on the couch
Arms wrapped around my waist
You whisper in my ear
Telling me whatever comes to mind
It never did matter what you were saying
As long as your lips were against my ears
As long as I could hear you voice
Darkness covers the sky
As well as my heart
My hands lay heavily upon the wheel
Afraid if I let go I'll lost myself
Just like I lost you
I get lost in the stars now
They remind me of you
So light yet so hard to follow
Cars going by is all I hear
Though if I listen close enough...
I can still hear you singing
It's still so low yet so faint
Sometimes I still whisper along
And even though I don't smile anymore
I still remember how y
Honest TruthEveryday these words aren't spoken.Honest Truth5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Everyday these feelings aren't known.
Everyday I'm not in your arms.
That day is gone.
We can never get it back.
And we don't have time to waste.
For every moment I'm not with you,
I die a little more inside.
I need you to at least know.
Know my feelings for you.
How strong they are.
How I can no longer control them.
It kills me knowing you're not mine.
That you may never be.
But that you could be.
No longer can I sit by wondering.
The day has come for me to reach out.
Reach out to you.
I can only hope it doesn't ruin us.
That you'll take my hand.
Show me the way.
Because I love you.
That's the real, honest truth.
If I can bare to tell you...
To Love MeWhat am I to do?To Love Me5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
All the tape that held us together,
Its coming undone.
Just like all the unsaid,
I need you's.
So what if we've wasted time?
We can get it back.
Push me away a little longer,
And maybe I'll start to see,
Just how much you need me.
My useless words.
And maybe I'll tell you,
How much I need you.
Your beautiful tragedies.
We can put it all together.
But as I was once told,
Useless words and beautiful tragedies...
Well they just don't fit together right.
Just like the pieces of us.
But that's ok.
We can be a puzzle with missing pieces.
With cracks here and there.
One that's not completely done.
Because I hope we aren't.
I want to put this together.
Find a way to make us work.
To make you understand,
I love you...
And you might,
Love me too.
Lose Yourself In LoveLove, true loveLose Yourself In Love5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's something we all long for
But only some of us get
This thing we call love
Seems like it was heaven sent
But that's only one side of it
Like everything else in this world
Love has many faces
One of happiness, content
One of pain, agony
We all start off with a blank canvas
Getting to choose to paint it
Whatever we like
But once the paint hits the white
All you can do is sit back and watch
Maybe let a tear come every now and again
Exchange hearts in the process
So when it's done and you know your fate
It's a bit too late
You've cried all your tears
You've given away your heart
So all you have are the memories
The paint spattered on you
And the hope
Hope that maybe you'll get a second chance
That you'll get it right this time
But love doesn't wait for you
Once it finds you,
You either let it in or it disappears
And when it goes away
It isn't coming back
So don't get lost or confused
Don't end up like me
I made the mistake of losing myself in you
Instead of paying atten
Three WordsWords fly awayThree Words5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wish to capture them
All the ones you told me...
Put them in a box
So I'll never forget
But I can lose them
Lose them in the mess of us
Though when you look at me
Eyes penetrating my skin
Lips forming a smile so slight
My mind races with thoughts
The thoughts that should be erased
My eyes watch you
Every graceful motion
I can't look away
Until you say my name
Then I'm captivated
Captivated in your voice
Soft like velvet
Cold like ice
But your says things
Things I don't want to hear
Did you just say that...
Because your moving
Moving in ways I hate
Ways I hate to remember
Feet moving away
Is this even possible..?
I'm tired of this routine
You might as well knock me down
Throw me to the floor
But it's the pain
That what I can't feel anymore
I can't worry anymore
Not even about us
Because three words
Those three words...
They become too hard to say
I and love and you
Let me goMusic take me awayLet me go6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Some other place, some other day
Help me find a way
For once to just be okay
Play the notes I need to hear
Bringing death oh so near
Don't even bother to shed a tear
I know you wont think of missing me dear
Sing me your song so soft and light
It brings me comfort as I die this night
Let me go do not fight
I'll disappear like in the sky a kite
I hope the music will take you away
Maybe back to the old days
Help you hold on and find a way
Than maybe you too will be okay
I'll play the notes you need to hear
But I'm playing them to keep death at bay and me near
Even though you have not I will cry tears
I miss you so very much dear
Singing you your song so dark yet light
Maybe it will bring you comfort as I leave you tonight
I have lost you, lost this fight
Please let me go; you cant hold on to a flying away kite
Can't HaveDon't go away.Can't Have5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Stay with me.
Through rain and sunshine.
Through sorrow and triumph.
Hold my hand.
Don't let me go.
Because I need you.
Now more than ever.
My feelings may get in the way.
But they're here.
Please except that.
You don't have to feel the same.
All I ask is that you stay.
Try to help me.
You've always been here.
A life without you is unbearable.
I never liked eyes like yours.
But they're yours.
I could get lost in them forever.
Only problem...I can't
You are not mine.
I fear you may never be.
Unless you see me in the same light.
I pray endlessly that you do.
You and me together...
Well it's just right.
Something that seems perfect.
But you have to see me first.
See my feelings.
How much I long for you.
Please tell me you feel this...
I know I am.
It's becoming unbearable..
Just hold me close.
Whisper sweet things in my ear.
Because even if I can't have you..
I still need you here.
For I will always want something..
Something I can't have...
Even YouI would tell you that you're breaking my heart,Even You5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But that would be a lie...
I broke myself long ago.
That way no one could break me.
But now no one can love me...
Not even you
No AnswerTears forming from my eyesNo Answer5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Making it hard to speak
Voice echos in this empty room
It's barely even a whisper now
Why did this happen?
Though the question still lingers...
I never got an answer...
Wondering LightTell me...Wondering Light5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What are we now?
I'm a cigarette bud burring out at midnight,
And you're the concrete that suffocates me.
I was the oxygen filling your lungs,
But you were the flame that engulfed me.
What do I do?
All I have is a glass image of us in my hands,
Knowing when you throw words,
When you do...
You'll shatter my heart.
You were the light to lead me to shore once,
But you turned on me,
Leading to my decent into the abyss of your eyes.
That we are more than this.
More than a star never to found in the night sky,
Or the blanket of darkness that hides all flaws.
Can I be the star you look for every night?
Or shall I just be a cigarette bud left to suffocate?
That we can do this.
Let us paint a masterpiece with beautiful words.
Words only we can understand...
Or just simply paint the color of all this emotion.
Can you be the light that saves me again?
Or will I be left alone in this abyss?
Only shattered glass in my hands...
Not HereI miss youNot Here6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Miss your smile
I miss your hugs
Sorry I let you down
Sorry you left
Oother people miss you, not just me
Unbearable is the pain without you here
But what can I do?
Unless you come back,
There's nothing I can do
I feel so useless...
Life isn't the same without you
Of course nothing's the same
Vain was my efforts to save you
Every single effort wasted
You're still in my memory
One too many time has my heart been shattered
Usless I will stay as long as you're not here