blindcan't you see,
don't you see me
it's not my fault, i swear.
wont you help
you could help me,
show me that you care.
don't you hear,
can't you hear me
when i truthfully try to say
if í have hurt you in any way.
but no, you refuse to see
just the effect you have on me
open your eyes
feels like your fate is tied to mine
now desperately you try
to push me out of the dark
hearts and souls verse egos and minds
should and could confused with can't.
but sinking your own boat to save mine is futile
because we're on the same damn ship.
TrivialYou're beautiful, you know.Trivial6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Even though you won't see it
Because pride is unbecoming
(not to mention a deadly sin
But you don't concern yourself
You're incredibly bright, you know,
You need to forget about your shadows,
Seeping from beneath locked doors.
They're really just
Compared to the rainbow
That glistens beneath your skin.
You're too sweet, you know.
Your goofy grin holds
More sugar than can be healthy
Don't worry, though,
I've got a sweet tooth.
Pity I can't afford to pay
For filling in all the cavities you'll leave
In my hea-
You're strong, you know.
Unafraid to jump in mud puddles or
Change lives or other
That make my day
You've make your mark:
Solid and dark. It's more than
To me. (It's on me - )
But then again
I'm not exactly
A factor in your success-o-meter
Just a trifle.
I love you, you know.
But nobody is more ignorant than you
When it comes to enjoying the little things,
Even if the little th
out of tune.♪♫out of tune.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I remember when
I used to play connect the dots
With your beauty marks and
I could make picture perfect sheet music
Audible to those on the other side of sanity
I read your voice's musical notes
With the composers eye, and
Beethoven's ear and
For the very first time I heard my song.
The melody that sung me from oblivion;
Mental images of finest tunes
Are what I've been nodding my head to lately,
And every now and then
I find the amiable notes in my seldom plucked heart strings -
Out of tune from misuse
But either way, it doesn't matter
You refuse to learn how to play.
At least, not with me.
EscapeI'm trying to escape,Escape10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
trying to get away,
trying to ignore what they do,
forget about what they say.
No move I ever make,
can ever be one right,
every simple thing I say,
always starts a fight.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect,
the way I'm supposed to be,
the thing is your slowly killing me,
why can't you see?
I'd really like to run away,
where someone would understand,
to someone who could see my pain,
and gently take my hand.
CensureMy forced smileCensure6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
and tears down
the walls of my
August 8th, 2010
Belief is for...I know I'll keep coming back.Belief is for...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I know I must be crazy.
This is ridiculous, to the point of patheticality, insanity, lovedoesn'texist,
I might as well believe in the Easter bunny;
You're not going to change.
I know I'll keep coming back.
Collecting scars like stamps,
Hoarding them like I do my death-wishes.
I know I've deviated from innocent curiosity
To a secretly raging masochistic wannabe;
I'll show my desperately flailing failing faltering self,
Once I've really truly realised you're not going to change.
I know I'll keep coming back.
I know you'll attempt to understand,
But I hate to see you waste energy on the unimportant.
Keep on preaching; tell me I'm not remarkably flawed,
I might as well believe in self-worth. Self-preservation.
Self-preservation? Are you kidding? I might as well believe in love...
'Best Friend'You left me here,'Best Friend'9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
alone in the cold.
I can almost see the wind blow.
It brings back memories,
memories of you.
The way you used to smile,
you know, back we were two.
three musketeers minus one, "best friends".
The warth of your hug,
and those silly jokes you told,
while trying to cheer me up, force one smile out of me.
I opened up to you, telling you everything.
& now thinking back I realize...
you told me nothing.
Nothing worth knowing, anyway.
Whatever happened? Did you just get bored?
I'm not always cheery, not always interesting,
but I thought best friends was more than that.
Maybe I was too eager,
eager to believe I finally had someone,
some to call my best friend.
you were the closest to it,
almost the closest I'd ever had.
now you're just every other "friend" in the hallway.
Let Me DieLet me dieLet Me Die15 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Let me die,
It hurts to live,
Let me die,
My soul to give.
I want to die,
Give me rest,
I don't want to try,
Just a bullet in the chest.
Every acrid breath makes sweet death,
Like the gentle touch of a lovers caress.
Let me die,
I beg you please,
Pain and disease
Are only a tease.
Give me a place,
Where I can be free,
Where demons wont chase,
And torture me
breathe it insouls, they say, are stolenbreathe it in5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
bird by bird
shut with expiration dates
is a job best done
those thin downy underarms,
blinds striped blue and
lips like a slow drag of
would you understand if
i said they die
flock by feather.
I promise.When you feel youve lost yourself,I promise.6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
If you think youre ever bound
To where theres no-one else to help,
When youre sure you wont be found,
Ill keep on searching for you.
When you know youll never win,
If you say youd rather die,
If you feel like giving in,
If your energys drained dry,
Ill keep on fighting for you.
If you arent able to cope
With being optimistic on your own,
When youve given up all hope
On any dreams youd ever known,
Ill keep on hoping for you.
If you no longer care bout anything,
When youre being left behind,
If you try to let go of everything
When you feel time rushing by,
Ill keep on holding on to you.
When the rain is pouring down,
And your face is streaked with tears,
When your world is crumbling all around,
If youre succumbing to all your fears,
Ill keep on being there for you.
FlawedInsecurities.Flawed6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Screaming at me,
clawing at every inch
of my body.
That little voice inside my head
sounding strangely like my own,
tearing me down,
from the inside.
Each hate-filled blow,
hits harder than the last.
Each self-inflicted cut,
hidden in shame,
nonexistent to the piercing eyes of others,
visible only in that lonely mirror reflection.
little dotted lines drawn
over every flawed bit of me.
Not pretty enough,
There is not a perfect inch
within my being.
Why can't I be beautiful?
-you sometimes f o r g e t-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
who you really are
beneath the facade
— — because it is too painful
to acknowledge your sins.
Moon SonataI stood by myselfMoon Sonata5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
leaned on the edge of the window
With the guitar and lonely cloud
who dreamt for his diamond of the night
Would this moment be over soon
let the wind blow it
the same as the previous nights
I ignored the star's smile
for I was not singing for her
These notes were still free
unbound by my thoughts and feelings
But the time was over
as your shadow hugged me tenderly
Closing the window behind my back
and took this soul out for a joy
My guitar will sing
for you my dearest
Predictable, aren't we...Let's come to a conclusion already;Predictable, aren't we...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You and I both find gratitude in the dimming refraction,
And we're both insane at times, delirious at best,
I remember nights we'd watch the sky
with curiosity in wandering eyes,
But the burst of clarification,
Never settles well in our stomachs
Nor our disguises
When we experience emotional needs,
We scatter to opposite ends,
Writhing in anticipation over this passion that never bends
Now were both on separate plains,
Prancing around with desires for a new face, a new taste,
And someone new's attention,
Just, (and) maybe,
One day you and I would be at arm's length
And no longer distracted by the width of our blindsides.
Razorblade Wings.It feels like I could put all the detailsRazorblade Wings.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of my entire life into poem after poem
about you. And I keep telling myself
that these doctors will make me stronger
and that everyone else does everything so
that must mean I can handle it all too
but then I somehow always find myself
alone on a bathroom floor, wildly crying
the night away. Somehow I always find myself
alone on a bathroom floor with butterflies
with razor blade wings, a completely red toilet.
Somehow I find myself in bed watching the weeks
glide away like clouds, wondering why I so
dislike everything, and, why, can't I get up
anymore? Poison is something delicate and slow
like a violin played with a razor blade bow.
Substitute Non-Believerfor the teacher who doesnt believeSubstitute Non-Believer7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
have you ever drowned
in April showers
along side the Robins
and the sluggish worms
plunging their pink heads
through the earth?
have you constructed
a person in your
only to find
have you awoken
from a dream
and would kill
to go back
have you reflected
in a silver spoon or
a pair of
have you been
were you ever a child
eating ice cream
in the sun?
have you ever held
a fresh and
ReligionSo I grew up Catholic. Baptized, Communion, Reconciliation, Conformation, the whole enchilada.Religion9 years ago in Philosophical More Like This
Having everyone and their mother stick preconceived notions in your face really makes you go crazy inside, or at least it did me.
Being Atheist doesn't mean I'm a "devil worshiper" or that I am a bad person.
I actually am a good person.
That's another thing America puts in your heads.
"Good Christian Girl, Good Catholic Girl"
There's no such thing as
"Good Atheist Girl"
Which I think is very dumb!
I am a good person. I care about others, I respect people, I love to laugh and make other people laugh, I love children, and helping people.
Just because I cannot identify myself with a religion doesn't mean I'm a bad person.
I in fact think the world would be SO much better off without religion.
Religion is the root of SO many problems.
So many wars are started over religion differences.
So many fights between people, community's, country's.
Gay people are shut out of the comm
love, lust.love, lust.love, lust.6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
hold me, please.
10 reasons Religion is Immoral1) You can't question faith.10 reasons Religion is Immoral5 years ago in Philosophical More Like This
The religious texts are believed despite mountains of evidence against them- If they were anything other than 'Holy' they would be sitting next to Harry Potter and Twilight right now. 'Because God said so' or 'Because I have faith' does not prove anything, anymore than me believing in Dragons because I saw one on a Welsh Flag and my flatmate told me the DO exist. It is also completely illogical for a society which relies in science to have such an attitude, I know enough from my boring statistics work that you need a LOT of evidence just to say 'this does not disprove the hypothesis'. But if I say 'you don't get healed by magic water' I'm ganna go to hell.
2) It stands in the way of scientific discoveries and evidence.
Religion prevents real science from being developed and understood by a significant amount of society, such as Geneses being taught in schools as fact, and Darwin being given as much regard as a crazy homeless man shouting in the street.
LiesThe worst thing about lying is notLies5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the fact that you are lying to others,
but that you are lying to yourself.
ReligionNo one decides my fateReligion9 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
You look down on others
what makes you so great?
You worship a false entity
Is that what makes you greater than me?
I see people all around blinded by pain
When will they open their eyes
and feel the rain?
All that is real is shunned
I know this for i am one
You dont like me because i do not agree
I do not push things on you
Do you not see?
I wish to live my life
Happy and carefree
Your dreams of an oasis do not appeal
You cannot see the way i feel
I am frustrated by your ignorance
I guess it truly is as they say
It is truly blissful not to know your fate
You hide the truth from yourself
Youve been brainwashed your whole life
Putting reality on a shelf
Yet you take these truths
without one hinderance in your "righteous" strife
spineless.sometimes i put my handspineless.6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to my back and trace my spine
just to make sure its still there.
i will never grow up,
never be beautiful enough,
never pull that haze of
green smoke into or away
from my chest.
that is your home,
and i regret to say that
i have lost your eviction
im terribly sorry for the
way you still make me bleed
silent screams biting
their way over my tongue;
im terribly sorry,
but how the fuck can i
stop loving you when i cant
forget you long enough to look
in the mirror and see you in the
you tell me in no (un)certain words
that i am not anything to you,
and i just nod and smile,
just clutch my insides and cry
when you cant see me
because what the fuck else
is there to do.
i am not a bashful soul
i am not afraid to grab you
by the wrists and not let
go until you love me back
but if i had any less backbone
id be dead.