MR: P. S. I Love You Ch. 10FPOVMR: P. S. I Love You Ch. 106 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
That was one hell of a kiss.
I don't know why, but somehow, Max's reaction was kind of surprising. I thought that after all the time that we've been apart it was just me being a clingy idiot that I still had romantic feelings for her.
Grinning, I remembered her reaction.
That was awesome.
We were half way home by now, and Max had by now wrapped her arms around my neck for more support in the air.
I shivered a little. It was already December, and being the genius I was, I forgot my coat somewhere under my bed
Max wasn't much better. All she was wearing was a t-shirt and jeans.
During the daytime, this would have been fine. We were still in Arizona, so it didn't get all that cold.
In the evening however
Max felt me shiver, and pressed herself closer to me.
God she was warm.
Dr. M's house was right below us, and I started a downward spiral.
Max cringed and hid her face in my chest. She really didn't like flying in people's arms.
I landed gently on the back porch, tr
Scars are proof that you lived...Scars are proof that you lived through the toughest of times,Scars are proof that you lived...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you fell like you failed, but if your still here today, reading this, you didn't.
your beautiful, even with your scars, they make you beautiful, if anyone says diffrent they are wrong.
if you can go a couple of days without cutting i;m proud of you,
if your suicidal and your reading this, i;m proud of you,
if you ate food without feeling guilty or thowing it up, i'm proud of you,
you made it this far through all your struggles with a fake smile,
you can go farther but with a real smile,
you can get through tough times,
you can get better,
you just have to believe you can.
even if you feel all hope is gone,
i'll still believe in you.
you feel like you want to die,
but really all you want is someone to save you.
you feel like your not strong enough to get through everything,
if you just end your life,
you will hurt alot more people than you think,
those people are going to cry alot more than you ever did,
MR: P.S. I Love You Ch. 9MPOVMR: P.S. I Love You Ch. 96 years ago in Teen More Like This
I think my brain just disappeared.
Im sitting in Fangs lap with his face in my hair. I feel like squealing like some love struck teenager.
Wait. I am a love struck teenager.
We sat like that for a little while, and eventually, I managed to calm down a little.
Fang sighed and tightened his grip around me.
Max we need to talk.
That was unexpected.
Talk about what? I murmured, turning my head so my cheek was pressed against his chest. I inhaled slowly, taking in as much of Fangs scent as I could. I felt his steady heart beat, which was a little faster than our norm.
Fang was nervous. But why?
About you leaving, he said so softly that I almost didnt hear him.
What about it? I asked, tightening my grip on his hand. I meant the gesture to be reassuring.
He squeezed my hand in return, silently thanking me for the support.
In the letter you left that night, you said that if we went with you, all
I am a labelI slid the blade across my wristI am a label3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Again and again.
Maybe I’m an emotional freak.
I cause fights and arguments
Maybe I’m a troublemaker.
I use make up to make myself seem
Maybe I’m girly.
I complain about things
Even when sometimes
Maybe I’m an attention seeker.
I fall under so many
So maybe I am a label.
I’m just me.
Suffering for YouFall to your knees,Suffering for You3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And bleed out your dreams,
Of once truly being free.
Fluttering like a butterfly,
On broken wings of despair.
Can you feel my fragile soul,
As I'm falling through the air.
Can you hear my heart thumping,
As I'm jumping out
Of this lifeless body,
Can you hear my desperate cries,
As I told you how much I loved you.
Don't you see I was broken,
Truly broken on the inside.
Couldn't you see my pain,
As I looked you in the eyes.
Can't you see I needed you,
That I was begging on my knees.
Dear fucked society,Dear fucked up society,Dear fucked society,3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why do you take our rights?
Our human rights?
To who we love?
To who we are.. To our image?
You force images down our throat;
Images of airbrushed, false looking
people. You want people to look
more skinny and cause anorexia,
More along the hidden line that
you dig under the ground like
a dead forgotten body yet always there
You show us that its not right to be gay,
lesbian, bi-sexual or transgendered..
And then wonder why the suicide rate is
so fucking high. You cause the nightmares
and terrors of our family not accepting us
Bipolar DisorderI am a victim of a shadow named fourteenBipolar Disorder3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And a little girl, my old best friend who turned into a demon.
Fourteen human figures without a face… they attack my soul
And everybody’s staring at me without an honest reason.
I am a victim of the people of the world
Who only want to hurt me, and my innocent family
Terrified of the ones around me, even those I love
When a nightmare becomes my reality.
I can’t take a shower without peeking outside the curtain
And I can’t close my eyes when I wash my hair
Because I’m horrified, afraid that when I open them
I’ll see somebody with a bloody face angrily standing there.
Sometimes I unlock the doors and then lock them again
And to be honest, I’m not completely sure why
And I can’t go upstairs at night, because what if there’s a fire?
I won’t be able to make it out in time.
I am a victim of a shadow named fourteen
And a little girl, my old best friend who turned into a demon.
And somehow, ou
Mommy There's this GirlMommy there’s this girlMommy There's this Girl3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I think she may be like me
She’s in my every waking thought
She’s in my every dream
She tells me I’m not worth it
That I deserve to die
Mommy, make her go away
She makes me want to cry
Mommy, she’s so ugly
Barred claws and snarling teeth
She takes up all the space around me
Making it hard to breath
She jumps at my weaknesses
She plays at all my flaws
And mommy, there’s so many
Every thought gives her a cause
Mommy I can’t do it
I can’t compete with this girl
I give into all her taunting
I give her complete control
She drives me with such sluggish force
So closely to the edge
I prepare myself to fall
‘Mommy I’m sorry’ whispered as I jumped off the ledge
This girl gives a short laugh
A sour but victorious gloat
But mommy with my dying breath I finally get it
So please understand and take note;
Mommy there’s this girl
I thought she was someone else
But I now know I was quite mistaken,
The Underlying LieThe Underlying LieThe Underlying Lie4 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I choose if I want to reveal it.
My lips and expressions will conceal it.
My words will infiltrate and deceive your thoughts.
My plot is unpredictable I don't intend to get caught.
It is mine to own and sell as I please.
It will invade and contaminate like an infectious disease.
If you uncover the antidote ill have to come clean.
Claim that I cant help it and that I am a compulsive feign.
This doesn't mean you are now immune to this common plague.
You will never know when it will return its symptoms are vagu
Just...They tell me to stop,Just...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I keep going...
It's not their choice but mine,
And I won't stop until they start showing.
Hidden in the Light Darkness flowed from a crimson cup, kissing the rim of the golden bowl that held the secrets of old. Long, gnarled fingers stirred the contents of deadly spell that will grant him all that he desired, but at what price?Hidden in the Light3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
A hooded figure clothed in a fabric of silk and gold threaded into figures that only he can understand stood in front of the bowl as his fingers were coated in the poisonous mixture. He smiled to himself as he looked up at the broken window above his head as the light of the moon caressed the decaying stones of the once beautiful castle. Centuries of war and corruption have accelerated its death, creating the shell of a golden age that was tainted with dark magic.
The figure opened his mouth just as the moon touched the center of the sky. Out of the
My Mind...Let's draw a picture,My Mind...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With a beautiful twist.
It starts on my thigh,
And ends on my wrist.
My eyes give me away,
Though there's a smile on my lips.
I want my bones to protrude,
Especially on my hips.
It's an everyday battle,
Until finally you disappear,
Because you screamed your lungs out,
But nobody wanted to hear.
Cry yourself to sleep,
Another sleepless night,
Trapped in my own fucking mind.
I've been told that dreams,
Can come true.
But they forgot to mention,
That nightmares are dreams too.
So when will I wake up from mine,
Because I'm in a race against time.
chloroform.it doesnt matter whether you held it up on a ragchloroform.7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to my face or if you splashed it on my pillow
when i had my back turned but the point is
that i breathed you in and suddenly i was
maybe i dove in headfirst or
maybe i slowly tested the waters before but
somehow you grabbed my ankles and dragged me under and
i was drowning.
you called me beautiful and
you called me beautiful and
you called me beautiful and
i called you
but ill keep wishing for the same miracle until
i have no eyelashes left in my head; until all the
clocks have stopped and the sky has burned out.
and when it finally comes true, i wont have to tell you
because youll already know.
you losing mefull title: every conversation we ever had about you losing me, and how you almost didyou losing me4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
things have shifted,
the slightest tip of the universe
on its infinite axis; into an ocean
of arctic darkness
my peripherals are encased
in caverns of ivory teeth,
slick-back orcas and the ominous
terror of frigid waters pushing
against skin, pressurized like
slivers of glass tracing the rivulets
in my palms like fingertips,
faces carved in windshield cracks,
sails carrying me away like stretchers
on silver wings,
toes poised on the precipice of
what everything really means -
do you know how it feels
to be smaller than those ten letters?
soul in the back of your skull,
the world in one moment,
one fraction of existence,
one shard of luck and beauty
somewhere between the collapsed roof
and the radio skipping in and out.
ten years ago.ten years ago iten years ago.6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
knew i was still
a romantic because
my dreams were still
filled with white dresses
and golden rings and
now, i know i am
a skeptic because
i am haunted by
and heated passion
and the faces
real, too real.
BattlefieldsRetreat;Battlefields6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Flesh and marrow
Of bone remain but no
Sign of the living; and the dead
Wont walk tonight, rather
Will sink into
Their rusted arms
Will fall as their fingers
Shift in the decomposition.
The enemy standard,
The flags flying
Are bleached bone white
By sun and time; there are
No prisoners left to
Be heroes, spared
Earth will reclaim
The youth who fell here as
Fodder for the worms, and the
Grass will grow fertile in
Three words- No meaningThree words- No meaning6 years ago in General More Like This
Three Words- No Meaning
I just realized I love you.
I know, I always have said 'I love you', but they were only words. I didn't mean it, then. I'm sorry for lying, but does it count as lying if I didn't even know it at the time? Whether or not it does, I'm sorry and I want you to forgive me. Please.
Although, now that I'm think about it, I think you knew. I had always wondered why whenever I said 'I love you', a flash a sadness would appear in your eyes. Well, I have my answer now. I'm sorry, I'll make it up to you somehow, someday. But whenever that is, it won't be right now. Right now I have to find you and tell you that I love you.
And this time, I mean it.
With all my heart,
FeelMy thoughts have been misfiled into subcategoriesFeel7 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
That my mind can't seem to ever remember.
So many emotions to feel but I feel numb today.
Can't feel my heart breaking nor can I feel the acid tears burning.
Rolling down past my see through smile.
The fakeness of it all sickens me to the core.
I smile today just to hide beind the sadness that
Has etched its way into my bitter heart.
I walk in the rain to hide the tears that fall
Who would notice the difference anyways?
Mascara and eye liner running wild, mixing with the saltiness.
My raccoon eyes I'd like to call them.
Hiding behind a facade, behind the sadness inside my eyes.
The smile tells the lies but the eyes tell the truth.
No happiness here, it checked out last night.
the end.This time, I'm not writing about you. (that sentence itself belies the lie doesn't it?) Its ten in the evening, I could give you the exact minutes, and milliseconds, but, time is relative so it would hardly matter. I'm not sure why I'm thinking about you. No. I take that back. I do. I've just been trying not to.the end.6 years ago in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
So I won't.
Its ten in the evening, and I'm thinking about tomorrow. I'll wake up at six, and watch the sun rise through the spring leaves, and when the sky fades from grey to blue, I won't think of your eyes or the way the light caught in them and stayed there as if it couldn't bear to leave. I won't look for you when I step out my front door, or wait for you to appear around the corner. I will not check my phone. No. I will. I'll just tell myself I didn't, or that somone else was supposed to call.
Its elementary my dearest, so heartbreakingly easy, isn't it?
inchworm.I have a riddle for you, you said, and I smiled,inchworm.7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
twisting my hair in my fingers.
good. I like riddles.
if theres a worm, you said, stuck at the bottom of a thirty-foot well,
and every day he climbs two feet up and
every night he slides one foot down
he gets out of the well on the twenty-ninth day, I said.
I know that one.
I have one for you.
you sat back a little and your lips twitched.
okay, you said, hesitantly.
if theres this relationship, I said,
stuck in a huge rut,
and every day it takes one step forward and
three steps back,
when does it reach the point that I can trust you again?