Act. Final MomentsI disconnect from the world to only ease the pain
If only for a second then I will take it every single one
Just lifting thoughts off my shoulders that weigh a ton
The fire behind these once driven eyes are gone
Self destruction by your hand, with the unsung song
A song that has been passed down from those who cant see
Encircled words that form the notes that are not to be
The ones that cause thoughts leave open cuts upon the flesh
So open and free flowing they never heal for they are fresh
The words that are scars upon then skin
Shall never be seen again
With out a sign of concern, not even a tear
The one thing you are know is about to disappear
Disappearing into the one place you could never reach
The lessons that are displayed on my back, lessons to shun and teach
Never to be given the time of day
Lost and confuse nothing to say
I know now to be silent and act my age
To take the final bow and leave this stage
EscapeI'm trying to escape,Escape10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
trying to get away,
trying to ignore what they do,
forget about what they say.
No move I ever make,
can ever be one right,
every simple thing I say,
always starts a fight.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect,
the way I'm supposed to be,
the thing is your slowly killing me,
why can't you see?
I'd really like to run away,
where someone would understand,
to someone who could see my pain,
and gently take my hand.
-she seeks solace-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
from the crevices of her mind
because it's the only place
where innocence still remains;
and it is the only place
where she can think
without the corruption of the world plaguing her mind.
'Best Friend'You left me here,'Best Friend'9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
alone in the cold.
I can almost see the wind blow.
It brings back memories,
memories of you.
The way you used to smile,
you know, back we were two.
three musketeers minus one, "best friends".
The warth of your hug,
and those silly jokes you told,
while trying to cheer me up, force one smile out of me.
I opened up to you, telling you everything.
& now thinking back I realize...
you told me nothing.
Nothing worth knowing, anyway.
Whatever happened? Did you just get bored?
I'm not always cheery, not always interesting,
but I thought best friends was more than that.
Maybe I was too eager,
eager to believe I finally had someone,
some to call my best friend.
you were the closest to it,
almost the closest I'd ever had.
now you're just every other "friend" in the hallway.
-you sometimes f o r g e t-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
who you really are
beneath the facade
— — because it is too painful
to acknowledge your sins.
FlawedInsecurities.Flawed5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Screaming at me,
clawing at every inch
of my body.
That little voice inside my head
sounding strangely like my own,
tearing me down,
from the inside.
Each hate-filled blow,
hits harder than the last.
Each self-inflicted cut,
hidden in shame,
nonexistent to the piercing eyes of others,
visible only in that lonely mirror reflection.
little dotted lines drawn
over every flawed bit of me.
Not pretty enough,
There is not a perfect inch
within my being.
Why can't I be beautiful?
Let Me DieLet me dieLet Me Die15 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Let me die,
It hurts to live,
Let me die,
My soul to give.
I want to die,
Give me rest,
I don't want to try,
Just a bullet in the chest.
Every acrid breath makes sweet death,
Like the gentle touch of a lovers caress.
Let me die,
I beg you please,
Pain and disease
Are only a tease.
Give me a place,
Where I can be free,
Where demons wont chase,
And torture me
-i. the world would be a better place if-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
no longer existed
there is far too little time
to hold such bitterness in our hearts.
ii. the world would be a better place if
we found homes
in each other
home is where the heart is,
and my heart lies with you.
iii. the world would be a better place if
to believe in ourselves
it’s okay to fall
when you will rise once more.
iv. the world would be a better place if
the scars that adorn our bodies
in our flaws.
v. the world is a better place
because of your kindness
and everything you do.
Just YesterdayJust Yesterday15 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just yesterday you were holding my hand,
Just yesterday you gave me a wedding band,
Just yesterday you said I do and,
Just yesterday you said you loved me too.
Just yesterday you told me you cared,
Just yesterday you told me about the love we shared,
Just yesterday you said you'd never leave and,
Just yesterday that was all I needed to believe.
Just yesterday you were near,
Just yesterday they told me something I did'nt want to hear,
Just yesterday they buried you deep and,
Just yesterday thoughts of you kept me from sleep.
Just yesterday I finally came to see you,
Just yesterday I missed you more than I usually do and,
Just yesterday I remembered again how much I need you.
Just yesterday has come and gone and,
Just yesterday is just a memory of all that went wrong.
Words: Chapter 2Chapter 2;Words: Chapter 29 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
To be honest, I was not surprised at all. Not in the slightest but then again, Kyoya was the one who told me. You might not believe me but this time, no, we were not stalking Haruhi. Attending an art school nearby, we were just off to have a peaceful lunch together. Okay, so maybe not exactly peaceful but something along those lines.
I didn't bother to tell Hikaru, though. My poor brother…he didn't even realize his feelings for her until two years after graduation. By that time, Haruhi was long gone and my poor Hikaru was left to eat her dust but I suppose Milord was the worst off. Heck, he wouldn't come out of his room for days after Haruhi rejected his advances. It gave us quite a laugh, though. We took advantage of the time to paint his Beary blue.
"Ah, Haruhi!" I said, allowing myself to sit at her table, "What a surprise that the three of us have met here!" Hikaru nodded and sat stiffly. Still picking up his wounded heart? And it's already been, what, four y
Words: Chapter 3Chapter 3:Words: Chapter 39 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Haruhi wanted to leave. She wanted to leave right now. After all, a man with a pink buzz-cut entering into the Hitachiin's art university didn't exactly make her feel at home.
She had left to find the twins the minute classes ended. She even was missing a bargain sale for this. She hadn't even changed out of her track uniform. She had decided to work on her running ever since the "Ouran School Festival" incident. She didn't plan to get knocked into the water in a heavy costume by a guy again.
"Hey, sweetie, I haven't seen you here before. Are you new here?"
Haruhi swung around wildly to find herself faced with a giant punk rocker. She raised an eyebrow at him, "Of course I'm new here." She huffed, "And the only reason I'm here is to find the Hitachiin brothers, Kaoru and Hikaru." Her look gave the man the chills, "Do you know them?"
The man chuckled at this, scratching his head. It was quite amusing to see the quite beautiful petite girl staring him down. She didn't even cra
-she hides skeletons-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
in her closet;
she hears the monsters
that lurk under her bed
and the demons
trapped in her head.
Words: Chapter 1Chapter 1:Words: Chapter 19 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Sometimes words spoke larger than actions, but then again, it mostly happened vice versa. Like the flitting clouds before a summer rain, or smelling burnt dough before you started screaming, "My cookies are burnt!"
Yup, that's pretty much how it is; or how it was. High school days had ended four years earlier and that left Haruhi at the…ehh…"prime" of life, at the age of twenty-one. Of course, she had just recently transferred into no less than a prestigious university (on scholarship) and was slowly, but surely inching her way towards being one of the best law students in her year.
Like Kyoya would say,
"Mission accomplished…for now."
"Haruhi-san, you did a very good job on the mock trial. I expect great things from you," Professor Moto said, obviously pleased with her work, "Thank you, Sensei," Haruhi answered smiling. Although quite humble, she knew she did a quite exceptional job; she had worked on her statements late last night.
"I'm now a student of Tokyo Univer
-my breath hitches-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
at the sound of your voice
my heartbeat quickens
at your pulse felt beneath my fingertips
and my world shatters
at the realization
that you no longer remain at my side.
-you do not know of the burden-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
that lies upon my shoulders
nor the pain
that i carry in my heart.
-i am drowning.-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
i am suffocating in the sea of lies,
the empty lies that spill from your pink lips,
the ones that cover your sins.
i am drowning.
and there is no hand that reaches out to grab mine;
there is no one to save me.
OverTell me,Over4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Are you lonely ?
Lost within such a Labyrinthine heart,
Ruling from somewhere up so high,
Glaring down at me with those eyes
There you stand,
So opaque and obscure
With all the little pieces of us,
Twinkling in the distance,
Cannot fill the spaces between
Those that separate our hearts.
And I can't even say your name,
I wish I could just tell you
Someday I will find the strength
To say these words to you
What are you really playing at?
L' HirondelleQuand il regarde le ciel au-delà des nuages,L' Hirondelle5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Je suis une hirondelle lovée dans le mirage
De ses yeux éclairés par les brumes océanes,
Déposant sur mes ailes une lueur diaphane.
Lorsque la nuit s'éveille, ses prunelles s'agrandissent
Vers un profond silence dans lequel je m'immisce,
Pour écouter son cur plus grand que l'univers
M'offrir sans restriction les clés de son mystère.
© Deedrane 2010
Flawless BelovedSo many people, swimming in a sea of facesFlawless Beloved4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And you were once lost to me...
Though I'd searched, the place was never right
Timing was off just by a few minutes,
Moments slip like grains of sand
Falling down the hourglass of my heart...
From the moment I first saw you,
I know it sounds much too bold
But I knew you'd follow me home
From there, knew one day you'd be mine
To have and to hold,
Someone who compliments me perfectly,
Going hand in hand with my own ways
And so flawlessly intuned with my soul...
For so long I had wondered
Why there was so much darkness within me,
Why I was surrounded by it
Why it consumed me so completely...
But most of all, I wondered why...
It felt like I was missing half of myself,
Like I was incomplete
And without you, I am.
Without you, there can only be dark
There is no light,
And I know it's cliche' but...
You will always be my light
Even in all of this darkness.
Two halves of one shell
Drawn to one another
From across vast distances,