Scars .:Two:.He stared for a moment before smiling slowly, waving for a moment. "Erm...hi Brian, what're you doing here?"Scars .:Two:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
After popping the door knob out of the new hole in the wall, Brian joined Zacky on the couch. Propping his feet up on the coffee table, he said, "Well, since you missed out on the small party, I felt bad..." He fiddled with his bracelet, pretending to become enthralled by it so that he didn't have to meet Zacky's gaze.
Zacky raised a brow. "Oh, well, it's not your fault!" He chuckled and patted Brian's arm. "Did you happen to bring me some booze?" he asked with a playful chuckle.
"No," an amused laugh bubbled from Brian's lips before he added, "Jimmy drank it all. I only had two bottles."
Zacky simply shook his head with a big smile, setting the pillow he had been holding his arms to his free side, leaning against it slightly as he looked at the wall ahead of him. "That's Jimmy boy, for ya..."
The atmosphere stilled around them, and they fell into silence until Brian spoke out s
Always Yours .:5:.Zacky froze, his mouth opening and closing wordlessly. He finally was able to choke out, "I'm going crazy...aren't I...?"Always Yours .:5:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"No...I am real, Zacky. I'm just...Not what you think." The voice was so familiar; it gave a tingling sensation in the pit of Zacky's stomach.
Zacky was quiet for a moment, twirling the phone cord before sighing slowly. "It's you, isn't it?" He was hopeless, knowing his questions were never answered.
"Yes," the answer was as clear as a bell, and the tone it came in was amusement.
Zacky couldn't help but smile. "If I were to go back up to my bedroom...will you be there?"
"I'll be where ever you need me to be," the voice chuckled lightly, and then the tone became more determined, "I am real...And you're not insane, just know that, okay?"
"I'll take that bit of information any day," Zacky giggled, inching toward the stairs.
"...A bit anxious, are we?"
Zacky simply gave an unenthused stare. "You want to complain?"
A teasing smile was behind the voice now as it ch
Love Me, Want Me .:1:.Zackary Baker, Zacky, was a god. He was short, yes, but what he lacked in height he had in beauty. Silky black hair, lively green eyes, chinese-doll skin that had a shine to it when the light hit him just right. He was built fairly well, he knew how to pack a punch. His naturally cherry red lips were full and luscious, his ex-boyfriends always told him what a great kisser he was. They were exes because they refused him dominance. He was a top man, and only sometimes a bottom man. Very rarely, though.Love Me, Want Me .:1:.4 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
He was looking for that one man who could make his heart race and stop at the same time with a smile, could make him giddy with laughter from kisses. He was looking for the one who would accept the submissive role. Someone who would complete him in every way.
So far, no luck.
Zacky worked at a Subway, normally in the concessions area, but every now and then, he would be the ticket salesperson. Today he was oh-so-lucky enough to be at the concessions. People often tried to make him hurry so
Golden Slumbers .:7:.Zacky and Brian were cuddling, holding each other on the couch as they watched a movie. The movie had been a romance/comedy, but towards the end, it made Zacky tear up. He quickly wiped his tears to hide them from Brian, not wanting Brian to think he was some emotional lunatic.Golden Slumbers .:7:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Brian set the empty popcorn bowl down and sighed as the credits began rolling up the screen. "Good movie..." He smiled over at Zacky, kissing his cheek. He felt the moistness and smiled coyly. "...Baby, was the movie sad?"
"No..." Zacky lied, looking over a picture frame on the wall. "It was stupid at the end. I mean really?" His voice shook unmistakably as he tried to snuggle down closer to keep his face hidden.
He smiled gooberishly, poking Zacky's side. "Hey...Hey..."
"What?" Zacky asked, pretending to bend the other way to be preoccupied with his drink he had been sipping on throughout the movie.
Brian pulled Zacky back to him and turned him around so that they faced one another. He then squished Zacky's fac
Storm .:5:.Brian let his fore fingers be held by the little hands of Matt's child. Ben was eighteen months old with a nearly full set of hair. He had mastered crawling, and was still tottering when it came to walking. Now, the little tike sat on Brian's lower stomach and played with his fingers. He had also met Matt's wife, Val, who seemed to be a great person and mother.Storm .:5:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Ben hiccupped and began giggling like crazy when Brian wiggling their hands all over the place. "This has got to be the cutest baby alive." Brian said with a huge smile, bouncing Ben slightly.
Val smiled proudly. "I'd have to agree. Although Matt's not far behind, his baby pictures are adorable."
Matt blushed, pouting slightly before watching Brian. "I don't see how anybody could ever have a child cuter than my son." he said to himself with a proud smile.
Brian pinched Ben's cheek as the baby smiled big and reached up to pinch Brian's back.
"Dattie," Ben said, turning to Matt with a curious look.
"Yes son?" he asked with a smile
Goodnight and Go .:Six:.Thunder shook the cabin, tearing Johnny from his slumber. He looked around in a frenzy of fright as he instinctively hugged his stuffed koala bear to his chest with a small whine.Goodnight and Go .:Six:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Jimmy slowly woke up, suddenly mumbling in the temporary silence, "I think I just soiled my sheets..."
He looked over in Jimmy's general direction, about to say something before a flash of lighting whipped through the sky; he burrowed under the blankets with a gasp.
Jimmy sat up, staring. "Jay? You okay over there...?"
"No," Johnny squeaked. "Can I go over there with you?"
"Of course...c'mon before it starts up ag---" he was cut off by thunder as he had just pulled back his sheets for Johnny to join him.
Johnny jumped across the floor and landed on the mattress, seeming to burrow under Jimmy's side with a whimper.
Jimmy stared before saying, "You remind me of a little rabbit!" He began petting his head as he covered him up. "You want by the wall?" he asked, his body heat seeming to radiate from its storage fr
Needing You .:6:.Brian worked small paying jobs here and there. Mowing lawns, walking dogs, babysitting, anything to earn and extra dollar. He also had small bowls placed in ever classroom so that the students and faculty could put in what they wanted. Out of his paycheck, he took a good percentage. And when he finally raised the amount he wanted, he headed off to the hospital.Needing You .:6:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Ms. Sanders was heading off to her car, going home for the night when a corvette pulled up alongside her car. A familiar figure got out and hurried to open the trunk as Mr. Haner's voice spoke, "Ms. Sanders, I have something for you."
Ms. Sanders stopped and furrowed her brow. "Oh? What is it, Mr. Haner?" she asked, only able to offer a confused look.
He motioned for her to come over, and then opened the trunk.
Three large plastic tubs huddled together. They were all full to the top with coins and dollar bills.
"For Matt," Brian said, sounding determined as if he wasn't going to take one penny back. "The school raised it. Take i
You're Everything .:9:.Val's stomach was beginning to form into a 'baby bump' and it was very clear she was pregnant. When they would stop in cities, they would find a hospital and get Val checked out to make sure everything was okay. So far, things were going fine. Her morning sickness hadn't been as bad as she thought, and she rarely had mood swings, but it was still early in her pregnancy yet. So far, she had craved watermelon the most out of all foods. The fridge was stocked with watermelons so that she could have a slice any time she wanted.You're Everything .:9:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Val sat at the table, spooning out pieces of watermelon to pop into her mouth as she thought about names for her baby. When they had gone to the last hospital, they were told she would be having a son. No names had really caught her attention yet.
She smiled, sighing softly as she spoke quietly down at her tummy, "If only you could tell me what you wanted your name to be..."
It wasn't long before her beloved husband came to join her in the room, knocking softly befo
Needing You .:5:.Brian's cheeks were covered in tears, and he sniffled hard. His frame jerked as he held the lifeless body in his arms, begging, "Please, please...Matt, Please. Don't die." He curled down around the boy hollowly breathing. "Don't leave me here alone." He kept his eyes away from the gash on Matt's forehead, sobbing into the dirty fabric of his shirt. "Listen, please, hear me," He coughed before continuing, "I love you, okay? I love you so much. If you leave me, I'll die, too. I swear. I love you, Matt."Needing You .:5:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Matt continued lying motionless, the only sound being his raspy breathing as he remained unconscious, yet he could still feel every ounce of pain. His heart pounded against his ribs, desperate to keep him alive.
The ambulance sirens were blasting, and a few people had gathered, watching this man hold his lover.
"Stay with me, you're all I need," Brian uttered through his sobs.
The paramedics got out of their wailing trucks and took Matt from Brian. His arms felt empty but heavy all at onc
You're Everything .:13:.~11 months later~You're Everything .:13:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
There were three months until Ben turned two, he could say most things, but pronouncing the words was what he struggled with. He had become extremely attached to his parents, but mainly his dad who he looked up to the most simply because he was his dad. Matt and Val adored their child above all else, making choices that would be for the best for Ben.
Val was out with Michelle, shopping for baby clothes for Michelle's daughter who was due to be born in a few months. This left Matt and Ben at home, and Matt thought it would be nice to get the dishes done for Val. Just as he was finishing up, Ben trotted in on his even pudgier legs and a large, proud smile played on his lips.
"Hey champ, what's that smile for?" he teased, putting a dollop of bubbles from the sink onto the tip of Ben's tiny nose.
Ben went cross eyed, giggling as he reached up and popped the bubbles. "Nuffin," he hopped to a chair, climbing up onto it with effort.
Matt helped him up before saying, "Well, h
You're Everything .:6:.Again, the days following the concert were hectic. Since the next show would be at a huge stadium, the boys were busy trying to draw out where their things should go on stage. Jason Berry was staying in the bus for the night instead of with his brother in their jeep.You're Everything .:6:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Val had been napping a little more than usual, and Matt was beginning to fret over what he heard when she was talking to her sister. Finally, he had lost it and was telling the guys what he had heard and telling them about her napping habits now. He also added that she still hadn't said anything to him.
Johnny patted Matt's leg. "Maybe she'll tell you...Maybe she's scared."
"Yeah, I mean, what if it's something that's gonna cost tons of money? Like an infected bug bite on her back?" Brian said.
Matt slowly looked up at Brian before saying, "Oh, maybe you're right!" before smacking him upside the head.
With a pout, Brian took a swig of his beer. "...Mean..."
Jason looked over at Jimmy, raising a brow at the tall drummer who
Needing You .:7:.He was on the road now, he had been for some time. The school principal allowed Matt to have Mr. Haner's address because Matt wanted to write him a 'letter.'Needing You .:7:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Brian was now living in Wyoming, it would take some traveling to get there. Of course, his mom gave him enough money for the trip, and he packed everything he owned. The letter sat on his dashboard at all times. The flowers were dwindling, only a few still alive. They sat in the passenger seat. When he needed to, he would open the letter and read it. The words made him want to find Brian even more.
He was almost there, only needing to find the town.
Brian finished the lesson on Mark Twain to his middle school class, feeling a slight sense of accomplishment. They hadn't really gotten anywhere because every kid had a long, stupid question to ask. He erased the board and then read a poem by Shakespeare to end the class.
It was a love poem, and he smiled as he envisioned reading it to Matt. He wondered how he was doing, but the though
You're Everything .:15:.Since all of them had free time, they got Brian's boat (they all called it Brian's second home because it was set with everything a house had including a kitchen, bathroom, bedroom, etc.) and headed to the lake. It was a breezy, sunny day, and there were many people out swimming, so Jimmy steered the boat out into the middle of the lake for solitude.You're Everything .:15:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Ben sat in Val's lap, chomping down on a peanut butter and jelly sandwich as he pointed at birds, listening to Val name them. He had a life jacket on, and it was nearly neon orange in the sun.
As the boat was floating on the water, the engine turned off, Jimmy beckoned Johnny to join him in his lap as Matt watched his wife and child with a big smile.
Johnny giggled, bringing Jimmy a beer before he sat down on Jimmy's lap. "G'job with steering the ship, Cap'n!" He laughed, taking a gulp of his own beverage.
Ben suddenly laughed, pointing at Jimmy. "Cap'n Jam!" He seemed extremely amused with this new name for his uncle as he covered his mou
Make Damn Sure .:5:.The next morning Jimmy woke up before Johnny, watching the sun rise up and shine over Johnny's face and chest. If he didn't know any better, he would have thought an angel had come down to sleep in his bed.Make Damn Sure .:5:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Jimmy giggled to himself before tracing his fingers ever so gently down Johnny's chest. "My beautiful angel..."
Johnny's skin reacted with Goosebumps, but Johnny stayed sleeping. Jimmy knew he would have to wake him soon; they had things to explain since there was no way that no one heard their bed thumping. And Johnny was (of course) not by Matt's side when the singer had woken up.
"Jay...?" he said gently, stroking the hair from Johnny's face.
It was a moment before the tiny light sleeper responded with a low, "Hmmm...?"
"You awake...?" he asked with a small smile.
Johnny shook his head, his lips curving up into a smile. "Uh-uh..."
"Ah, really? Need me to wake you up?" he asked, his hand slowly sliding up his side, getting dangerously close to Johnny's armpit.
His lips star
You're Everything .:1:.Brian pulled out his Trigonometry and pouted at Zacky. "Help?" He squeaked, fiddling with the book's cover.You're Everything .:1:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
They were sitting on the gym bleachers in P.E. class. Yesterday had been the boy's day to play and the girl's day for study hall, so today it was switched.
Matt, Jimmy, and Johnny were sitting around Zacky and Brian, forming a small circle.
Zacky raised his brows slowly before giggling, taking the book from him. "What do you need help with?"
Matt found himself searching for Val in the crowd of girl's running and squealing as they cried for the basketball. He found her walking, while the rest of the girls were running. She never seemed that interested in sports.
Matt barely heard the conversations around him as he watched Val toss the ball back at a girl who had discarded the rubber, air filled ball.
Val's blonde hair was pulled into a tight ponytail, her creamy skin of her neck and face glowing in the light. The white shirt she wore hugged her body tight as if mocking Matt that h
You're Everything .:11:.-2 months later-You're Everything .:11:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Val leaned over Ben's crib, singing softly to him, "Rock-a-bye, and good-night. Go to sleep, little baby..." Her son's eyes twinkled up at her as he listened intently, sucking on his thumb. She smiled lovingly down at him, finishing the song. Softly, she spoke, "I love you."
Ben popped his thumb out of his mouth, and then his lips formed the words, and a new, squeaky voice came into the world, "Rurve yoo."
Val gasped, staring in shock. Her face lit up, and she repeated more enthusiastically, "I love you."
Again, Ben replied, "I wurve yoo."
Matt, standing in the doorway, hidden like a mere shadow laughed quietly to himself, watching them exchange words of love before peeking his head in a little more. "I love you, too, Ben!"
Val and Ben, both taken by surprise, looked to the doorway. She smiled at him, seeming ecstatic about her baby's first words.
Ben instantly smiled when he noticed his father, spewing out, "I wurve yoo!"
Matt laughed. "Oh my God, he's growing up so f
We Will Miss YouThe wind whirled his dark brown hair around, stinging his chocolate brown eyes as he stared at the small, marble tombstone.We Will Miss You4 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
His strong hands lay limp at his sides, all power gone from his fingers.
Losing his strength, his knees bowed, and he fell to them. The dewed grass licked and moistened his jeans, and he begged the cold stone to bring his friend back.
Brian Haner begged time to rewind as he dug his nails into the dirt that was still soft from the night's previous rain.
He pleaded for his best friend to come back, wished to just see that smile one more time.
A harsh wind rushed in, bringing more pelting rain with it.
He was alone, his raspy wishes only heard by an unresponsive, grey stone that read off his friend's name: Jimmy Owen Sullivan.
Night brought heavy loneliness. The blankets were uncomforting and scratchy, seeming unatural nad foreign to his skin.
Kicking them off, he fell to the floor and groaned as his elbow tingled in pain from where it hit the hardwood floor.
Discovering Who I amI have been doing a lot of thinking this past week about a number of things but mainly about who I am. I am a rock chick, a country girl, someone who will listen, someone you can have crazy fun with because you know everyone is crazy even if they do not admit it. I am a 24 year old white girl, who is 5' 3" an average build. I have blue eyes, wear contacts, my hair is dirty blond. I like anime/manga, I like to sing, read, write and draw. I am all this and more. To most who know me I am a girl and I like guys. That is not a lie but that is not the whole truth either. I am a girl who likes guys but I am also a girl who likes girls. Saying I am straight is not correct although that is what I commonly refer to myself as. Yet saying I am lesbian is not entirely true either. It took awhile for me to understand but I like both guys and girls.Discovering Who I am8 years ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
I never thought about it until now but like most little girls I had Barbies. I had one or maybe two Ken dolls but the rest were all Barbie. I do not reme
poemsA fallen angelpoems9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
On a broken path
Of the darkness
In the hearts
In a world apart
Fallen out of grace
An angels face
A fallen angel
In the night you call
Your words filled with lies
Wandering down the hall
I can feel your eyes
In the dead of night
Filling me with fright
Your eyes burning like a flame
Tomorrow when I wake
You will be gone
But not the pain
In the dead of night
They will come for you
You can try and fight
But they will kill you
Blood stand lips
Dark painted eyes
At your neck, fang tips
Eyes filled with lies
Tomorrow you will be one of them
Fangs and all
Your blood now runs thin
And you shall fall
Into the darkness
Into the pain
I stand here
Waiting for you
Can you hear,
Hear the cries of her heart?
One more hopeless day
I stand here
Waiting for your love
One more day without you
How many more?
How many more nights?
Do I have to wait for your love?
One more day
I stand here
all the words simon never saidmy strategy forall the words simon never said6 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
simon says has always been
to follow your heart
how it beats and ticks,
how it learns and how it yearns,
how its always yours
Simon Says: stare into my eyes,
Simon Says: and pretend i care.
Simon Says: spill your guts out.
Simon Says: dont say anything.
Simon Says: stop trying so hard.
Simon Says: stop overanalyzing.
Simon Says: keep following my misleading signals; your confusion amuses me.
Simon Says: waste your clock batteries on me; im totally worth all the trouble.
Simon Says: fall head over heels for me until you trip and decapitate yourself.
Simon Says: love me.
Simon Says: hate me.
Simon Says: give up.
Simon Says: ignore me.
Simon Says: forget me.
_________: be mine...
but i lose
for you didnt say
i always hated playing one-sided games with you,
but that never stopped you from playing with me.
The DemonHe simply smiled, leaned in closer to her ear and whipsered,The Demon6 years ago in Other More Like This
"I won't save you."
Falling In .:One:.This had been the day he had been looking forward to ever since he could remember. He was here, finally at college, and it was the one he wanted to go to, at that. His only problem? Well, Charles was a little shy (actually very shy) and he was scared that he would either be roomed with a bully, a creepy person, or someone who just didn't give a crap. Personally, if he had to choose, he would definitely pick the third choice, but he would rather have a person that was easy going and social. Maybe they could become friends, or at least tolerating roomies. Once he got over this hurdle, he hoped studying for college would go smoothly, for it was the only thing his mind was set on. Studying everyday so he could become successful, or at least happy. He sighed as he continued heaving his old worn bags across the almost absurdly large campus. After making his way to the building where his dorm would be located, he climbed several sets of stairs before walking down a long hall. Just before hisFalling In .:One:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
ChoiceChoice5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You think I would choose this?
In a way, you may be right.
I chose to face your hatred and prejudice head-on.
I chose to turn my back on society's norms.
I chose to acknowledge that I'm never going to be normal.
I chose to ignore the pressure coming at me on all sides:
"You're just faking it to get attention, you slut."
"What, you couldn't just come out? Afraid or something?"
"You're just confused, hun. Eventually, you'll find a nice boy..."
I chose to risk losing everyone I ever cared for.
I chose to get weird looks from my peers.
I chose to throw out my chances of having equal legal standing.
I chose to stand up and demand equality.
I chose to live my life as I see fit.
I chose to love who I want, regardless of anyone else's opinion.
I chose to allow myself to be me.
But I'm sick of it.
I'm sick of being told this whole thing was a choice.
I'm sick of being told that I'm going to Hell.
I'm sick of having to fight to gain your respect.
I'm sick of being looked down on.
I'm sick of the
Falling In .:Thirteen:.Charles was fast asleep in the passenger seat, and Paul smiled at him as he turned off the interstate. They would be at his parent's house soon, but Charles's didn't know that they wouldn't be staying in an apartment like how the plan was supposed to go. He and his whole family had pitched in to buy the house in Virginia. So, he was only driving to his parent's house to get the house key and the papers. Then, it would be off to their home in Virginia. His family told him it was a Christmas gift, and that he and Charles deserved a house. Once they got settled in their home, both would get part-time jobs until they finished college.Falling In .:Thirteen:.5 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It was only a little while later until he parked the car in front of his old house that he grew up in. Gently, he shook Charles awake. "We're here, babe."
Charles sat up, taking a deep breath, stretching. "Where are we?" he asked, squinting through the windshield as he tried to fix up his hair.
"My parent's house, I want you to meet them," He said, chuckling