DepartureThe world hasDeparture5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
taken you from
our firm grasp,
but the pain
you felt in life
has faded away.
You wait patiently
for us to follow,
to see you again
in a better light.
No sorrow dwells
within in the realm
in which you now
lay your head to rest.
August 3rd, 2010
I've always liked the rainI have always liked the rain.I've always liked the rain5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The melancholic memories
riding each droplet
The songs of lost Happiness
drowning in the water puddles
I have always liked the rain.
What a sight to behold
What a divine melody
While a thousand souls fall to their death
While the heavens are crying
I have always liked the rain.
It's all because of youIt's all because of youIt's all because of you5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The smell of fallen rain
The smell of sweet mown grass
The morning dew on flower
The smell of fresh baked bread
The rays of sun as diamond light
The rays refracted light of rainbow bright
Morning stars and evening light
Merge as one from dawn to night
Life it ends and death begins
Recycle re-told, regain and re-fold
From old to new
And end to you
And time adieu
It all begins and ends with you
Trapped in my HeadEyes brokenTrapped in my Head5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tears falling down my face.
where can I begin again?
I can't be free
Trapped in the past once again.
I try to bleed
but my weakness draws me in.
My body shakes.
The bones want to break.
My soul weeps.
Please heaven have me.
I can't escape.
My heart simply wants to break.
And I fall down to my knees
and beg god to please kill me.
I have fallen from grace
life is just a blur to me.
I regret every pain
I have made to them.
Please don't leave me
to wither in my own disgrace.
I cry to those
who I have bore in my womb.
For their blood to call
the love they felt before for me.
But I can't right the wrongs
that i have made.
And all I want to do
is just start things over again.
But pieces of my sanity wont fit
and I watch them all fall away.
With the pieces that i have lost
smoldering and destroying
Life just seems never to reach an end.
Why cant i just sleep forever?
With lithium flowing in my blood...
but the past is not done with me
It just wont let me go!
And all i wan
Yellow Brick RoadWhen I think of all these eyes have seenYellow Brick Road5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I know they've seen too much
Tin boxes built on whiskey bottles
With little voices all sewn shut
Angry tempers flare inside
Domestic violence erupts
But step outside
Only to find
the city eagerly awaits
Where merciless streets of urban decay
Exploit and devour the weak
Even when there's nothing to give
There's always something to take
Falling victim to the environment
Less you find an escape
Ending up in working class America
(Where the ends don't always meet)
Discovering the one you love
Shows colors of deceit
Finding dark places of the mind
Where you collapse in defeat
Until the day you rise again
Ready for something more
For these are the trials of our lives
But who dictates what's in store?
We can't choose how we start
Or even where we go
All we can really do
is keep following that yellow brick road.
Nights of PainDying now, stop the presses,Nights of Pain5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yet another broken man confesses,
I press the gun to my face,
Just another disgrace,
A splash of blood, another roll of film to replace anew
If only they would have knew,
I'm gone, I'm not strong, I'm weak,
If only they would have heard me speak,
Eyes closing, I'm flying,
Oh god I'm dying,
Life leaving me, leaving everything behind,
Now I can only be a memory to remind,
Only now a stain,
Left to remind those I love of my nights of pain.
You Won'tYou won't find it.You Won't5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You won't find it in the prose you write.
In the pages you read.
Nor will you find it in the books you burn.
You won't find it on the wind.
You won't find in it the trees.
You won't find it in the blazes you start.
You won't find it in the people you know
Nor in the people you break
Nor will you find it in webs you weave
You won't find it in that hole where love used to be
You won't find it where hate replaced trust
You won't find it in the foot prints you thought you left
Nor will you find it in the green grass that's grown over them
You won't find it.
You won't find it.
I can't find it.
DepredationDrain the life from me,Depredation5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
for my eternal flower
has withered away.
No nectar dwells within
and you have ceased
to blossom in my heart.
You are entangled
like an unruly weed,
and I would rip my
own heart from chest
if it would but rid me of
the discomfort you breed.
July 12th, 2010
RageThis rage I carryRage5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hide it so well
At times it even surprises me.
The damage these fists could make,
I'd break the door,
Shatter that glass,
"Why am I so angry?"
You may ask.
A deep, violent stare
Would be my reply,
Because honestly, really,
I don't know why.
It's just always been there.
It scares me some times,
This rage within me,
It scares me because
I like setting it free.
TimeThe wound will never lastTime5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As long as Time will pass
It carries away our shame,
And breaks all old chains.
Time will heal all our pain
Yet we will never be the same.
Time steals a part of us,
Till we do not remember what was.
Time dissipates all strife,
Yet at what price?
When Time calls our name,
We die all the same.
I'll take pain over peace,
For it proves I'm alive at least.
I'll struggle against time,
Till, i take whats rightfully mine.
Bring on your pain,
Your doubts, and your shame,
Bring on all you can bear,
I'll take it all, I won't share.
PenitenceBlame, guilt,Penitence5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I cannot break
around my neck
like a noose.
I choke on
my own guilt.
Do the mistakes
that I have made
cause others to
I am descending
and I know not
where this ends.
July 9th, 2010
Too SmallAlone.Too Small5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A word far too small
to describe the emptiness
that it entails.
Far too small
to embody the pain
not nearly big enough.
and in pain,
if a reason exists:
a reason for why
a reason for why
I step on my own toes.
I had a chance
my abrasive demeanor.
You offered me security,
and I ran
like a coward
into the arms of promiscuity
I turned my back
on the one person
who tried to save me.
And I don't know
how to save myself;
I don't even know
if I deserve
to be saved.
So I remain
in this self-inflicted
unable to forgive myself.
I am nothing
but a thankless recreant.
I am nothing
FallaciousYou believe youFallacious5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
speak of truth
yet all I see
Your acid tongue
on my skin
for every single
word you've spoken.
You can only
so much of
your own reality
just to save face.
June 29th, 2010
WishesEvery silent scream we makeWishes5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Every time our body aches
Every time we shed blood
Every time we fought for survival
Wishing we were never born
Every dirty look directed at us
Every time we didn't eat
Every time we slept on the street corner
Every time we considered ending it all
Wishing it all away
Every person who just ignored our pleas for help
Every time we wondered if life could have been different
Every time we feared for our lives
Every time we said 'It's not fair'
Wishing for a better life
No matter how many wishes we seem to make
They never come true
Friends Grow ApartI was once youngFriends Grow Apart5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A silly child
Unknowing to the world
To the pain it causes
But why is this pain caused?
People grow up
People make mistakes
Love is thrown around as if it's just another word
Some don't seem to get that,
While others do
Those are the ones that get hurt
That's why my friends aren't hurt
Some of them
They go around daily
Saying it out of habit
But do they truly mean it?
I doubt it
I feel like I'm losing them
As though they're drifting farther and farther away
There was a time,
When we used to be close
But that was long ago
And now they've moved on
Onto bigger things
Onto better things
Why couldn't we all just stay little?
Stay ignorant of the world and what lay before us?
Because life is cruel
Life forces you to make decisions,
Even if you don't want to
I'm always behind them
I'm still a kid at heart
I don't want to grow up
But I know I have to
I'll never be as far ahead as them,
And maybe that's why ev
Hate and love.I hate (love) the way your empty (bottomless)Hate and love.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
ocean blue eyes bore into mine and see right
through me .
I hate (love) your despicable (charming)
crooked smile you make when I say something;
it's like you're laughing at me .
I hate (love) the way your corny (cute)
jokes make me laugh for hours even
though they are utterly ridiculous .
I hate (love) your shit (chocolate)
brown hair that flops everywhere in a
way that shows you don't care .
I hate (love) how you always annoyingly (sweetly)
ask if I'm okay and really seem to care .
I hate (love) the way you never (always)
know what to say to make me feel better .
I hate (love) the way your cold (warm)
embrace sends shivers up my spine and
makes me feel protected from the world .
I hate (love) you .
A Stranger's Wish for DeathI've been trying to pick up from where I left,A Stranger's Wish for Death5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but everything just keeps falling again.
It's as if some point in life I lost my rhythm.
A rhythm to dance I never had,
but a rhythm to live was something different.
Yet, here I am.
Now the beat of life isn't enough.
And so I drop my pencil down, because
Because I've stopped writing the blank pages of my book of living,
and I lie here frozen in life, waiting, watching life move on.
The surroundings don't care.
even when we dare to stop.
It's true what someone once told me:
We may stop, but life moves on.
MelancholiaI wish forMelancholia5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
a day that I
was not pained
by your memory,
a day when I
did not feel
was upon me.
I search for
yet it seems
a feeble attempt
at erasing that
which will never
vanish from the
depths of my mind.
and I can
You deny my
hand and I have
found a way to
reach my end
June 21st, 2010
But NOTWe were best friends. Been so for 5 years.But NOT5 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
But I crossed the line, I fell in love with you.
I thought I saw the signals. Thought my feelings weren't one-sided. I swear the blush and the hidden glances were there.
So I confessed my love to you, decided to stop playing hide and seek, and fell hard to the floor. I guess you can't hide what you don't have.
I hated you so much for misleading me with those incredible eyes of yours. I've been hating you since then, and yet I'm broken up inside, still loving you.
Now my hair is long, I wear high-heels and short skirts; because once you told me that's what you like, when you would still talk to me.
I'm on the mouth of everyone, but not next to you.
Let The Flame RestThe flame in myLet The Flame Rest5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Let you be
To keep out
You are a warrior
The flame of my soul.
You gave me the
To move on
Not turning back.
You dried my
You gave me
A fake world with peace.
I don't want
I want to feel
When people you love
I want to feel
The tug at my
And the sting of tears.
I can't stay protected
I want to feel
Reality is cruel
But you can't
I have to stop running.
Soldier in my heart
It's time for you
Your time has come.
I have grown up.
It's time for you
Just a memoryOur last kiss was so fleetingJust a memory5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like a passing dream you were gone
It feels like you were only a memory
That warm tingle on my lips is long gone
How I miss it
I know it's useless to think of you now
Memories are just memories, nothing more nothing less
But I want you to be more than a memory
More than a passing dream
I want you to be right here beside me
A moment to remember
Please grant my wish
That's all I ask
That's all I want
I'm The GirlI'm the girl nobody notices because she hides herself from the world.I'm The Girl5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm the girl who doesn't have a clue about how to act around the guys she crushes on.
I'm the girl who would make an idiot of herself to make others happy.
I'm the girl who fears being judged by others.
I'm the girl who is plagued by hate for herself.
I'm the girl who seems to break everything she lays a hand on.
I'm the girl with the red-hot temper and the crushing depression.
I'm the girl who liked to talk but never got the courage to follow through with anything.
I'm the girl nobody could love because she hid in the shadows.
The one who was too shy to communicate with those she didn't know.
I'm the girl who wanted to be loved, kissed and hugged.
The one who lied constantly and let emotions get the better of her.
I'm the girl who wears a mask at every waking moment.
I'm the girl who wishes she was somebody else.
YourselfClose your eyes.Yourself5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Take three steps forward.
Turn to the left.
Open your eyes.
Correct, a mirror.
Now look at yourself.
Deep down into yourself.
Think about the past, what you've done.
Think about the future, what you'll do.
Change what you dislike about yourself.
Change can be hard but rarely impossible,
Anything is possible when determined and patient.
Learn to love the things about yourself you cannot change.
Learning to love can be long, and that's where determination and patience comes in. Again.
I'm That GirlI'm that girl who will dance during the middle of the night just because she feels like it.I'm That Girl5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm that girl who would never get rid of the things she loves.
I'm that girl who lends an ear whenever it is needed.
I'm that girl who sits in the corner and dreams instead of doing her homework.
I'm that girl who has some of the best friends in the world.
I'm that girl who takes real life situations and places them into a tale.
I'm that girl who prefers to stay at home and read instead of going out partying.
I'm that girl who talks of drugs and alcohol but knows she wouldn't get involved.
I'm that girl who would jump in front of a bullet for those she cares about.
I'm that girl who knows she needs support for some moments in life.
I'm that girl who would put her life in danger to protect an animal in need.
I'm that girl finally bounced back from a darker moment in life.
I'm that girl who learnt three things about herself.
I'm a lover.
I'm a hater.
But most of all,
I'm a fighter.