04July06 - 3:30AM"Roll 'em up."04July06 - 3:30AM7 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"You know exactly what I mean. Now roll them up or I'll do it myself."
((She can see the tears welling in her mom's worried eyes...this happens everytime.))
She looks around the room; hoping for a distraction((the one that never comes)). Her mom stares knowingly at the long sleeve ((but it's Summer?)) she has fixed between her thumb and forfinger. ((Pinching so tightly, wishing that her mom would just give up.))
Tension. She's still waiting for her mom to leave the room. No matter how much her mom begs her, she'll never be able to reveal all those horrible reminders that shine across her once perfect skin.
Every line and ridge under her American Eagle flannel ((the one her mom bought for her)) screaming the same horror story.
It plays over
like the music she plays to drown out her sobs (("How did I become this?"))
the tears falling ((almost in rhythm to the music))
mixing with the crims
Directions to a HeartbreakThis is the way you should break my heart.Directions to a Heartbreak7 years ago in Teen More Like This
Firstly, you have to call me over the phone, since we're both too cowardly to see eachother's faces. Call on a weekend, perferably a Friday night so I can cope over the weekend and stay home that night to curl under the covers.
Tell me, "We had great times but-" then pause, and let me say "But what? Are you breaking up with me?" Say this, "No no no, I'm not...well...yes and no. I really like you but-" pause again because you don't know why you're doing this. "But what?" I will persist. "Is there someone else? Is it something I did? What?" Sense that I am growing angry, and imagine my face contorting to hold back tears. Decide I am ugly. Hate me for it. Do not say "It's not you, it's me." because that's cliche and you're original. Do not say it's someone else, because that will send me into a jealous rage, and you wouldn't want that. Do not tell me we're just too different, because I love you and despite my stubbornness, I would change for you.
Waking NightmareWaking Nightmare9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yeah ummm... The Poetry is the picture... Sorry Nothing to see here in the box...
My TearsI walked alone todayMy Tears4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To the only place that reminds me of you
I stood there, waiting for something,
Something that never came true
And the tears I cried slowly fell to the ground
Then disappeared within the rain
And maybe someday, the tears I cry will make everything the same
I stood alone today
Thinking about what I would say to you if you were here
And if you were here, how would I feel?
What would I do?
Tears blurred my sight
And now, I know you'd see them plain
And maybe someday, the tears I cry will make everything them same
ScarsScars on my hands,Scars4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
On my heart, on my soul
Though the redness fades over time,
The flesh of the hideous marks remains tough
The scabs are like war wounds
Covering gaping holes and small scratches earned in battles fought
On the front lines of life
Where family, friends, and I collide
The weapons are atomic
They seen harmless as they lay dormant
Then words, actions and emotions turn deadly at the hands of an enemy
When the smoke clears, the damage is revealed
Rebuilding a life isn't easy
The scars are a constant bitter reminder
Though wounds are old,
The pain returns with each look in the mirror
Pain is a strange lover
Providing escape, offering sweet numbness
And at the same time, pushing me further and further into isolation
Its PouringIts Pouring3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
He stood there, alone on a busy street, as he watched the last of the glimmer fade from the red in his lover's hair. He watched him walk away for the very last time. The streets were crowded, the sun burning his eyes, and he felt lost in the dark.
Vel knew this would be the last time, he was always forcing excuses to surface for why he shouldn't be with that younger man. Excuses. That's all they ever were. Lies, he told himself. He felt his heart sink lower into the emptiness, and heard an angry growl from overhead. The skies darkened suddenly with a gust of wind.
"Thanks.," he said with a sigh as he looked up.
Vel returned his eyes to where he last saw A---he stopped himself. He couldn't finish his name. It hurt. He closed his eyes as he felt the rain slowly begin. One drop, then two, then thirty. Soon he was soaked through his suit. His long raven hair pulled with the weight of the water into his face.
The lights in the street lamps flicked in the
I wish...?I wish ?I wish...?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Can you ever return what you've take from me?
It'd be easier to close these wounds, and leave with my sanity.
You're rushing ahead, leaving me behind in your pathetic past instead.
Have you not listened to a word I said?
Do you think I'd forget about you hurting my Father?
Breaking all connections, because I'm such a bother.
Do you think it's easy watching Allison struggle through this pain?
What have you become? I feel the ice in your veins.
I wish you'd come back, then again go burn in hell.
The man you're so fond of, can rot in his prison cell.
You think your life is perfect, yet you haven't a clue
I truly wish you would have believed what I said was true..
AloneAloneAlone3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The little girl with tears in her eyes, sitting atop the world alone.
Breathing so fast, shocked by how the pain has grown.
Her mind filled with memories, pulsing with remorse.
Her baby is keeping her alive, choking out with force.
Struggling to find him, but inside there's a scream.
She feels herself slipping, this must be a dream.
Anger is running through her veins.
Mind numb with voices, each one containing pain.
If she doesn't find her reason for living then her demons take the blame.
Oh, and did I mention? Her demon has a name.
She's telling her she's leaving, she's never coming back.
She took my sanity with her, now my control goes slack.
So why is that little girl still crying?
She's so sick of all the lying.
It's over, no second chances, everything was said.
Does it really matter anyways? On the inside she's already dead.
Murky RiverMurky RiverMurky River3 years ago in Settings More Like This
I sit upon the mossy rock, and submerge my bare feet into the shallow waters. The chill of the waters startles me, but is a relief from the humid air. A slight breeze blows my hair across my face, yet I do not mind, because of the calming atmosphere. It's silent in this forest, yet filled with so much sound. The water running over the rocks, the birds calling to one another. The wind whistling gently, like a secret is being whispered in your ear. I glance down at the river. It's so murky, I cannot see my feet beneath the surface. The waters, are unclear, and chilling much like my thoughts. I skim my hands through the water, and touch them to my face. The water feels ominous, as if it's soothing feeling will clear the evil from my head. I close my eyes, and hum to myself until the sun begins to set. I sigh, with much reluctance, and return to reality.
CounselorsCounselorsCounselors3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The people with a pen in hand, and judgment in their eyes.
I appear before them, and tell them why I cry.
They nod their heads in understand.
As if they've ever been dealt my hand.
This fills me with anger.
They don't understand me, they don't face my danger.
They think I'm crazy, and try to help.
But the only way I can be saved, is if I do it myself.
They underestimate my tears, and they do not acknowledge my fears.
They listen, and pity me, but they never truly see..
They tell me to think of them as a friend.
But in the end, I'll plaster a fake smile to my face, to avoid them again.
The Darkest Corner...The Darkest CornerThe Darkest Corner...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The farthest depth inside of me, where all the demons hide.
Where faces of betrayal, whisper their familiar lies.
Serene on the outside, yet screaming from within.
While I'm suffering in misery, you've drowned in oblivion.
In my mind, I hear little girls sobbing, because they're facing the world alone.
It'd startle you quite a bit, how quick they've grown.
I want to comfort them, for I know unable to heal.
In a state of confusion, vision blurred my tears.
The shadows lurking around the corner, confirm my fears.
In the darkest corner of my mind, sanity is receding how it feels.
To be wounded beyond knowing,
I put death at risk, but isn't that considered cheating?
Un-Wanted WhispersUn-Wanted WhispersUn-Wanted Whispers3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I lay in the dark.
As I await your voice.
Tension gripping my entire body.
Tears my eyes refuse to cry, swell inside of me.
The silence echoes in my ears.
I hear your whisper filling into my mind.
You tell me all of my worst fears.
You don't want me.
But I am with you.
I am a part of you.
I am forever your daughter.
My blood is same as yours.
Which complicates our hatred.
I try to ignore the voice that is yours.
But I am listening to every word.
It doesn't seem possible.
The tears flow freely now.
A stream of despair.
My existence haunts you.
GrandmotherGrandmother♥Grandmother3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sometimes I wonder, Grandma where are your wings?
Do you hide them aside with the rest of your things?
You must be an angel, that God sent from heaven above.
You've helped me see the true meaning of love.
Like a mother to me, is my Grandmother dear.
The woman who's stood by my side, and dried all my tears.
You let me know that you're here for me.
Your warm embrace, and your smile set my spirit free.
I come home from school, just to tell you about my day.
I can't imagine life without you, so please tell me you'll stay.
The grayest of clouds, can't diminish Grandma's strength.
Whenever I need you, your just at arm's length.
I was once a baby, cradled in your arms.
You've taught me so many things, including your charms.
Throughout the years you've watched me grow.
Teaching me, all a granddaughter should know.
Words don't come close to describing how I feel.
I just want you to know that you make everything heal
Grandma you never cry, but whenever I see that you do..
DeathFlashing daggers, painful yellsDeath7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Scarlet fountains spewing hells
Run away, or you'll be seen
And be caught in murder's scheme.
Creeping quietly, lying in wait
Malevolent grins and smiling hate
Flashing eyes, a fleeting spell
Dizziness, giddiness, the rings of death's bell
It pounces with precision, striking with care
And taking you unwilling back to its lair
Where it casts its judgment, struggling hard
For possession of souls, even if they are marred
Death is a chill that runs down your spine
A feeling of wrong, of a malicious mind
A dark shroud or smudge at the edge of your sight
And the race of your pulse as you realize your plight
It's the dark figure chasing in your obscure nightmares
When you trip and it's on you, its kindness is scarce
That is death blowing violently through your door
And grabbing you from sleep and wrenching you to the floor
And eventually it will get you when it's least expected
To thieve from you all and mock what you've neglected.
UntitledCan a heart break before love ends?Untitled7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
then shatter again before it mends?
If a soul feels love, does it become true?
The answer is yes, because of you...
You probably don't know,You probably don't see
You probably don't realize, what you mean to me...
If you go, there goes my life
once you leave, then comes my strife
If it is god who grants me my love...
then my thanks are to him above,
Do Spirit and Soul make my heart
So that it's torn when we're apart?
Can pain be stricken by your beautiful face
Or is there only healing, In your embrace?
I am here, But you deny all attraction
maybe to you, I am just a distraction...
Now I know, Now I can see
now I understand, What I've tried to be
I've tried to be your soulmate, A glorious painting for only you to view,
but now I know who I am, And I am in love with you...
the pain of breathingWhos to say and whos to knowthe pain of breathing8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The pain that I can never show
The hurts malicious, a burrowing seed
So I cut my pride and watch it bleed
I lament the losses with a shaking hand
This insipid dullness makes like so bland
I cut my life out from under my feet
With a gleaming knife under bloodstained sheets
That cadaverous anger with hate so droll
I despondently wander without a soul
O yes this life is ostensibly grand
This amiable life of blood and sand
I take a breath and hold it in
And watch my world tilt and spin
Ill wipe these tears off of my face
With all these mockings so blasé
Serenity murdered without a toll
Malevolent meanderings without a soul
I break the laughter with haunted vice
While hateful feelings still entice
Ill kill myself to conform my fate
But these hauntless hounds I cannot sate
Lamenting tears of woeful pain
I swallow lucidity to keep me sane
But as all these emotions rage and teem
I wish I could repair t
Your wedding day.Standing on the balconyYour wedding day.8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
snow white veil blowing in the wind
my face so pale
Ghostlike, like a sillouhette of lies
taking one step forward
straddling the edge of a nervous breakdown
tears frozen in time on my face
engraved in my mind
for nobody to find
as i step into my hundred foot grave
nobody steps up to the plate
to alter my fate
someone to be me hero
and save me from myself
A perfect ending
to your wedding day.
So Grand an Entrance, So GrandSo Grand an Entrance, So Grand8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Here was the grand entrance
The party had begun
And from each rafter echoes
The wicked tune he sung
It poured out of his mouth
Over that forked tongue
And out into the audience
Even before it had begun
The sonata that was there
Before the hall was built
Fell freshly upon open ears
They quickly fell to guilt
Sweet persuasion, no escape
They had fallen for the trap
They were ushered to the exit
No need for a map
Man's feet had never touched this ground
For it was just brand new
They ventured forth, man and woman
Onto the morning dew
The hunt began as hunger grew
For they would surely die
And what a shame all that would be
Their king would surely cry
But they were traitors, one and all
For they had taken in
That sweet, forsaken melody
That made that madman grin
Despite it all, they rose
For the Earth was in their hands
They walked out through the desert
Traversed the mighty sands
Sweet foliage, Sweet creatures
Of which they had never seen
Despite their grave mistake
The world was still gr
SeasonsIn the frosty eve of winter morningSeasons8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
As the chill air blows across countless sorrows
The mocking wind laughs with malevolent scorning
From when did spring ever return?
When has it ever arose?
In the horrid awakening of autumn night
As the vices appear on it's soul's debauchery
Our weeping hearts tell of obscured sight
Will our minds remain forever unlearned?
Do we hide or rise from our own self-mockery?
As the munificence of summer turns our minds
From our horrid past and uncertain future
As our thoughts turn forever from circles to lines
Unseen is the wilting of a placid rose
Unfound for disease is that wondrous cure
Spring flies around as a graceful dove
Casting away dimmed hopes and souls
Chasing out hate and instilling love
But spring starts the water to run downhill
So the river of life unfolds
Head Over HeelsHead Over Heels8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You came up and talked to me
It was no big deal
And pretty soon we were the best of friends
If only I would've know it was real
You told me that you loved me
In all but one way
Now I feel so stupid
I never really heard a word that you would say
We always walked home together
You gave me a hug before we left
You walked fast I walked slow
Really its a shame we let that go
On the way home from her "party"
You put your arm around me and said
"Of course I don't wanna go home
I wanna be with you instead"
A year had come and passed
Most of this was gone
You still looked at me with loving eyes
But were too scared to call me on the phone
Though you did tell me my "brother" asked you
If you still liked me
You never really told me what you said
You should know by now you can't send me hidden messages
Simply because I won't see
Another year later and its far worse than the last
We could have been great again
But you transferred out of my math class
Math class seems to be our sanctuary
No barrier t
flowerShining orbs, a glistening poolflower8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Myriad flashes, a coveted jewel
Gracefully skipping, seductive glance
Echoing voices, murmuring chants
Silkily flowing, shimmering hair
Benevolent soul, gentle and fair
Casting a spell, planning my fate
Ensnaring my soul with unknowing bait
A caressing kiss, wind plays on my cheeks
Tumultuous feelings, uncertainty peeks
Then dashed as a snowflake on Christmas morning
Dried as my tears and my withered soul's scorning
The cycle repeats, the circle unbroken
Neglected truths, words left unspoken
The Desert Photographthe sand sifts beneath my sandalsThe Desert Photograph8 years ago in Open More Like This
hissing as it slides downward,
i can only walk sideways along the side of the massive dune
along a trail left by the wind
a wind you can see
in the mirages
and heat rising on the horizon like steam from the sidewalk
and that sun after the spring rain
there is very little of that here,
no plants for miles,
and only hard skeletons of stems
where some dared to survive, for but a little while...
they tell me there was an ocean here once
the sand sparkles
like a thousand thousand lucky pebbles
and, caught in a dust storm, they soar into the air
seeds from the dandylion of the North
and i make my wishes silently,
continuing on my journey,
and listening for the sounds of the parched Earth
OceaniahOceaniah9 years ago in Fantasy More Like This
she controls the water...the bubbles that push everything whichever way in the sea. Her strength is their weakness and soon they will see.