you're so far away.
Youre so far away but so real my dear
I go to sleep to dream and to see you clearly
To quiet my mind and to know that you love me
And in the morning I wake
To the sound of your voice on the phone
But I had just spent the night alone
So for days and days its something repeating
Most of the time Im okay, I swear
Even though my hearts weeping
Especially during those times that are creeping
Around the corner, theyre misleading
I have to stay strong, its unbearably tough
After so many weeks Ive about had enough
But boy its so worth it when we finally touch
I look into your eyes, theyre so green
Who am I kidding, youre only on the screen
This long distance thing is harder than it seems
I scream, I sigh, and I cry
Though I know youre mine, all mine
Its about time you understood these lines
More than words, theyre my thoughts
Bleeding from inside
I cant hide them no more
Wont you come walking through my d
this love is not love.this love is not love.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In my mind you haunt all day
Flashes of my memories past
Recollecting what you say
Yearn to make those moments last
High hopes that when I close my eyes
Imagine that your lips claim mine
But loneliness is by my side
And all alone I'm left each time
From starry eyed to surprised
To the depths of darkest nights
Truth withheld but never lied
Your careful words blind my sights
Waiting long and never knowing
Keep believing it's yet to come
Yet isn't love ever growing
Why then fools hearts feel so numb
This love is not love
Despaired souls cannot tell
So what do I make of
Broken dreams that you sell
title: This Love Is Not Love
by: Luana Lani
obsession.obsession.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's seeping in the cracks, I can tell
But no matter what, you can't break the spell
That you've put on me, cause there's no end
You've captured my heart and I've fallen
So intoxicating the scent of your skin
A blanket of your magic wraps me in
Every detail of you under my gaze
From afar or magnified, amazing
Strange my obsession with you
Reminds me of something I've been through
Would you know if you'd always known
I wonder silent and ponder alone
I've turned the cornerI've turned the corner, I'm not looking backI've turned the corner4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
All along I've followed the wrong map
I've let my heart break over such little things
Blowing them out of proportion it seems
Time to wake up and do what's right
Stop falling down and losing sight
Look in the mirror and try to like who I see
No more hating what's staring back at me
I can do this, I know I must
I owe it to my children not to turn to dust
Build back the structure and take back my life
No more failing myself and giving into strife
Let the winds blow and fires burn
I won't fall down, I refuse to return
To that horrid place that I fell into before
I'll raise up the drawbridge and close the door
I'm better then I think I am
I have to believe this, I know I can
I'll rise from the ashes of the weakened pyre
Like a Phoenix, I'll burn with inner fire
I'll regain my strength and awaken desire
No more shall I dwell in the darkened night
I'll step into the sun and right into the light
Taking back my lifeI woke up todayTaking back my life4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Things are starting to be ok
The pain is fleeing away
After I got out the things I needed to say
Walking along the path
Away from the internal wrath
Looking forward to the suns bath
Finding a way to laugh
Remembering why I'm here
Walking past my fear
Returning to those so dear
Who've been wanting me near
Turning away from pain
Smiling into the sweet rain
Quit looking for something to blame
Finding my way again
Smiling because life can be so sweet
Realizing it as I get on my feet
No longer dwelling on this internal beat
Letting myself feel loves heat
Holding my loved ones close to me
Realizing that they're what's important see
Taking control over what I want to be
Standing up for myself and becoming free
No more dwelling on stupid things
Letting go all those unrealistic dreams
Rewarding happiness brings
No more conspiring strings
Finally freeing my heart
Allowing myself to start
Loving myself enough to rebuild this part
Teaching myself love's art
FreefallFreefall4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I fell into love
with astonishing ease.
After years of believing
that one such as I
could never be caught,
it encompassed my world.
Always I had been the one
to hold my heart inviolate.
Lovers were left grasping
for my ephemeral affections,
while I danced away,
my emotions untouched.
All it took was a kiss,
one gentle kiss that belied
the devastation that would follow.
Bereft, heart rent like tattered silk,
when you danced away from me,
your emotions untouched.
And here I remain
wondering if, like me,
you will someday fall
with the same ease,
and the same shattering
of your soul upon impact.
Betrayal is never fineWhenever I needed you you weren't thereBetrayal is never fine5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You always tell me you do but you don't really care
I've wasted my time making things right
I've cried myself to sleep for the last night
I'm always making the effort while you walk away
I'm never important enough, to care about today
I deserve far better a friend
Then someone who is never there in the end
You've said your last goodbye
I've given up wanting to try
I never really existed anyway
I was never important enough to stay
You always chose people who didn't care
People who were never really there
You always said we were friends to the end
Well this is the bitter end my friend
You fail again and again
I've been to the lowest point I can
You once again turned and ran
So much for friendship and trust
If it hadn't been for someone else, I'd be dust
Your excuses will do you no good anymore
I've already slammed closed the door
You fail at the things that I need most
Find someone else to share your next toast
Maybe Tomorrow, You'll KnowEvery time I see you,Maybe Tomorrow, You'll Know4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I pretend that my feelings aren't what they truly are,
I hide them from you,
From everyone around us,
I pretend not to care,
All I want to do is scream it outloud,
To make you see, feel, and hear,
I keep trying to hide,
Living with my denial,
Avoiding the truth still,
When in reality,
The only truth plain to me is,
I love you.
In a DreamDance with me, sweetheartIn a Dream5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Spinning so my feet never touch the ground
And sprits soar
Dont you know?
Dont you care?
You could love me
You truly could
But you ignore me
Lying has taken its toll
Just like madness
It demands exact change
The bodies are piling up
Theyre starting to rot
But I dont mind
Wasting my time
Wasting my life
And so I dance alone
To a simple tune
Where fairies strum
And their bright laughter fills the air
Chills me to my bones
The essence of your smile remains behind
While you are gone
So Ill dance
In my dreamland
Where nothing is right
And everything is wrong
Now leave me alone
In my world of dreams
Love Has Forgotten MeLetters stringed in front of me.Love Has Forgotten Me4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can look but not touch.
Observe but not feel.
Words that used to make sense,
That used to make me smile.
They are now only words of confusion,
They cause me pain.
I. , D. O. N. T. , maybe even L. O. V. E.</i>
Those are hurtful.
But only when they're mixed together with you Y. O. U.</i>
Now what really hurts is...
I. , L. O. V. E. , H. E. R.
All strung together in my face.
But I don't understand you anymore.
The pictures of you are burned upon my skin.
That's how people can see how much I love you.
How much you're hurting me.
But that's only because I finally shed me skin.
Let the burn marks and scars show.
Let my sanity be taken along with you.
What's the point in sanity...
In trying to hide...
When there's no one to wipe all of you from me.
There's no point in any of those things.
For not matter what I do you'll always burn me.
You will always be engraved upon my heart.
Breaking downMy brain had a melt down you seeBreaking down5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
All the emotions and pieces of me
Spilled out onto the floor in vibrant red
Such sadness and despair poured from my head
No matter what I did no one could see
What was staring in front of me
The loss of something I couldn't express
I had to find a way to clean the mess
Betrayal followed shortly you see
Friendships I thought meant everything to me
I was invisible again
Trying to avoid them
Everyone deserves to be happy see
Though, not black rainclouds like me
So it's better if I hide away
Showing no emotion today
If I hide behind this mask
No one will ever ask
And I can be alone you see
To tear apart the pieces of me
Breaking down in front of you
Was something I didn't want to do
I'm supposed to be in charge here
No one else should ever get near
To the depth of my weakening core
To the places the scars are sore
Freezing it all back into place
I'll find my way and erase
All the traces that led to me
So that no one will ever see
The pain I've kept inside o
To Love MeWhat am I to do?To Love Me4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
All the tape that held us together,
Its coming undone.
Just like all the unsaid,
I need you's.
So what if we've wasted time?
We can get it back.
Push me away a little longer,
And maybe I'll start to see,
Just how much you need me.
My useless words.
And maybe I'll tell you,
How much I need you.
Your beautiful tragedies.
We can put it all together.
But as I was once told,
Useless words and beautiful tragedies...
Well they just don't fit together right.
Just like the pieces of us.
But that's ok.
We can be a puzzle with missing pieces.
With cracks here and there.
One that's not completely done.
Because I hope we aren't.
I want to put this together.
Find a way to make us work.
To make you understand,
I love you...
And you might,
Love me too.
Why Do I Love Him?I feel the tears enterWhy Do I Love Him?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My eyes. Not wanting
To think about it, I
Know my future. Fate
Won't let us be together.
The tears escape and they
Run down my face. Life
Toys with my emotions
Especially this one called
Love. He stole my heart but
I had it first. When I wanted
To die, he came into my life.
Right then and there I knew
He was my soulmate. The
Soulmate I'll never meet.
They said it was love at
First sight. They say that
It's true love. Is it true?
Or is it a lie? Only time
Will tell. But will I get
The answers? My only
Other questions are why?
Why do I still love someone
Who will never love me?
Why do I love someone
I never truly met? I
Know those answers.
He saved me. A time
Of sadness, of loneliness,
A time of suicide. A broken
Heart instantly healed when
I saw him. Oh if he only knew...
I want to say "I love you..."
But is it true? You may think
Yes or no or that it's just a
Crush but say whatever you
Please just don't tease me
When I say "My love for
Him is real. Weather he kno
BrokenI was always a toy,Broken4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Nothing less and nothing more.
Always played with,
And then forgotten.
Again and again,
Broken a little more each time.
But that was all right,
It was what I expected.
To be played with,
And passed to someone else.
Then you picked me up,
And broken as I was,
You took care of me,
And began to repair me,
Little by little.
You opened by eyes,
To what I had thought never existed.
You built my hopes,
And reconstructed my thoughts,
So that they no longer belonged to me.
Then when my hopes were highest,
And I was accepting these changes,
You turned your back on me.
Left half fixed,
To watch as you walked away.
Helpless to do anything but watch,
Locked in this castle of hope you built me.
Forever to watch you from the back,
As you have another now.
Why did you build my hopes,
If you were only going to tare them down?
I knew how to be broken,
I was good at it.
Why did you have to leave me,
A half-finished work of art?
This is worse then being used
The love that never wasWith my eyes shutThe love that never was5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I sat amid the mist of dawn
My heart fluttered in harmony
With the wings of a white dove
As I meditated amongst the morning fogs chill
Your voice would echo through the dark foliages
Of black forestry that lay between us
And sang its way into my heart
Whispering I love you
Your face would spring into my vision
The way your eyes looked deeply into me
As you said those three most beautiful words
You were the yellow smiles of my gloomy autumn
The splendour of your charming nature
Oozed incessantly from your spirit
A bright halo glistened from within your soul
As you promised to nurture my fragile heart
And glue me back together
To make me whole again
To fill that empty hole
That life engraved in me
But instead you destroyed what was left of me
And burned me with your black words
Endured in the pealing laughter of humiliation
You drowned me in the mud of ridicule
Then locked me in a cold coffin
With your stone-heart
Leaving me rotting alive
With your lie
my suicide.my heart is trembling, my hands are beatingmy suicide.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i love you. i love you.
youre black and blue, and milk and moon
i love you. i love you.
my arms are ropes around your neck
i love you. i love you.
my fingers grope your broken back
i love you. i love you.
your heart is here within my hands
i love you. i love you.
youre bleeding over the bed stand
i love you. i love you.
i smile with your lips to mine
i love you. i love you.
and kiss you like youre my suicide.
One NightOne nightOne Night4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I will wake
What's at stake.
I will dream
What it means.
One death later
I will rise
And finally understand
That life was all just lies.
If I Could I WouldIf I could I would cling to you foreverIf I Could I Would5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I would be by your side when your hurting
to fade all the agony away.
I wouldn't let people harm you the way they have harmed me
as they hammer me down into the emptyness of life.
If I could I would die for you
just so that you would have a chance to stay alive a little longer.
I would take your place even if that meant loosing mine.
I would do this only to prove my love for you.
You are truly a gift from God.
Dream stateDream stateDream state4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I awake in a dream filled state
I try to speak but its much to late
For you to hear what i have to say
You wouldnt listen anyway.
You've heard my cries
You've heard my plee's
You've heard my thoughts and
You've heard my dreams
And still you can't hear what i really say
I lay awake in my dream filled state
I hear your words ring through my head
You say it once
You say it twice
You say it a hundred times over.
But you still can't hear.
Are you deaf?
Are you blind?
Or is it that smiling face
That you hide behind?
I'd give you ears
I'd give you eyes
But that smiling face
From which i hide
Makes my happy
and Sad all at once
Because your happy and im not.
I try to sleep through this dream filled state
Hoping this was all just fate
That you made me laugh
you made me cry
thats all i have to say.
I fall asleep in this dream filled state
Hoping one day you'll know
What i think
What i hear
What i see
When i see you.
True colorsThere's not much to say, I was in a really bad place recently..True colors5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I reached out for help only to find that there wasn't any.
I don't do things for sympathy and I never do things for attention.
I never want others to know, it's not worth a mention
So this was particularly hard for me.
I needed help and it took calling another country
The "best friend" in the next room didn't even see me.
I'm tired of being invisible so, I'm choosing me.
Excuses about why or what one could or didn't do
Won't change that the actions showed true
The people who really gave a damn reacted then
In just enough time to help me start over again
To you who betrayed me, find your own way
You showed your true colors at the end of the day
Endless DarkThe silence couldnt be more perfectEndless Dark5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Beneath the starlight you were worth it.
Your beauty masked in the endless dark
We found our hearts in that empty park
Fingers entwined, cold lips colliding
Together as the moon was hiding
I found it was my soul you kissed
It wasnt your withered words I missed.
Shadows reflecting off your tears
Ill catch you as you fall from your fears.
Escape now, guided by the stars
This moment is forever ours.
Never Forget...On that day not so long ago,Never Forget...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A new era the world into,
Back then too young to understand,
The tragedy that was at hand.
Now I can and I cry
For all those who had died
On that dreadful day way back when,
The towers-hit, and crumbled down
The world I knew changed then to now,
A catastrophic incident
When no one knew quite what it meant.
This day that hundreds, thousands died
Will always leave me cold inside;
To forget this day would be a crime
So it will reverberate through time.
I remember, though painful it may be,
Know you can do the same for your country.
A hundred and two minutes then
That made the world's new age begin.
a star without a heartThere was a stara star without a heart4 years ago in Scraps More Like This
who wanted to fall
but he didn't have a heart
so in love he couldn't fall
So the star was very sad
grieving for something he didn't have
but what he didn't realize
was that he was not one of a kind
As, far apart, there was another star
Who, just like him, had no heart
but this star was not sad
as she knew she didn't need a heart
in order to fall for the other star
So she told the lonely star
that even though they were far apart
he didn't need a heart
to win the other star's love
A Vampire's LustIn this eerie silence on a moonless nightA Vampire's Lust5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your eyes transcend demonic intentions
Oozing poison from your dreamy glare
Creating an atmosphere of awkward tension
Sinful thoughts creep through your mind
Obscenity crawls on your crimson lips
Your fangs glisten beneath the street light
Your venomous saliva miserly drips
The fire in your eyes burns with desire
As you hypnotise me with your dark aura
And weaken my senses with your black charm
The thirst in your throat yearns for my blood
Then you move closer to me with a fiendish grin
And I smell the pungent odour of your greed
The nearer you get, a sudden fear overcomes me
I start to fear the bite of morbidity
Yet I stand still, motionless with dread
Powerless, youve captured me under your control
As I fall victim to your tainted appetite
Im moments away from my final fall
No-one can rescue me, Im defenseless now
For Im in the hands of a thirsty vampire
Whos ready to suck the life from me
As I die in the arms of
Escaping Fatei want to write something worth reading but iEscaping Fate4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
feel like no one would acknowledge it no matter
what i did to advertize it
im falling over
the edge of this cliff you set in front
of my path to happiness
its never enough for
you is it
i cant believe what i let
you do to me
its not fair that you
own my heart and soul and you abuse my
i am not your toy your little game
that you can play for eternity without any consequences
i deserve better than you and i know it
but i just cant break away just cant break
you use me and abuse me and
hurt me and i let you i let you
i let you because i love you
away because i dont need you anymore
ruin me and soon youll be nothing more than
im learning to stand up for myself
just like you always wanted me to